I’m Trying to End This Possession Chapter 181

Dana couldn’t say anything. For some reason, that was the most shocking thing. More than the talk about Yeon Dana being the ‘original,’ or the experiments, or being a material for holy water.

 

But Carl has a holy relic, doesn’t he? Come to think of it, why doesn’t he use it? If he used it, everything would be easier. Was he choosing not to use the relic? Or was he unable to?

 

“It was all set….” At that moment, the priest wept bitterly. “We were just about to open the gate to the Ice Lake. Who would have thought Carl would betray us at the very end…”

 

That word snapped Dana back to attention. Betrayal. Yes, that’s Carl. A traitor, a liar, a swindler, and an actor.

 

“It was because of Rumie. He must have realized in advance that guy would bring the paladins… He definitely betrayed us…”

 

Dana completely agreed with those words. There was no way Carl wouldn’t have noticed Rumie and the paladins barging in. He must have changed his mind and decided to save her. Yes. Carl Windsor is that kind of person.

 

What did it matter if Carl’s life was long or short? Dana didn’t care what happened to a man like him.

 

“Hey. I have more questions to ask…” Dana’s words trailed off. It was because the priest’s head fell, no longer moving. He’s dead. Well, his bleeding had been severe.

 

Without a shred of sympathy, Dana stood up. Then she calmly made her plans. Steal the holy relic from Carl, reclaim Yeon Dana’s body, and return to my world. And this time, she would pray more specifically.

 

Last time, when she opened the dimensional gate, Dana only prayed to ‘let me return to Yeon Dan’s body.’ That was a grave mistake. It was because of Raios. I should’ve focused harder, prayed more specifically. That b*stard was so horrific that she couldn’t concentrate. That’s why this time, she would be precise and exact.

 

Back to the time before she fell from the rooftop. Back to being Yeon Dana at the time before she went to the construction site.

 

It’s okay. I can do it. Even though her goal was now clear, Dana didn’t feel any better. If anything, she felt even more upset.

 

Lord Ignis.

 

It was because of Ignis. Not even his corpse remained. Raios had corrupted Ignis and shattered him into dust.

 

Raios, that b*stard. Just thinking of him sent chills down her spine.

 

Did Raios know she had awakened? Dana hoped desperately that he didn’t. If he did, he would chase her—relentlessly, like a shadow, anywhere and everywhere. Even if that place was hell….

 

* * *

Inside the carriage bound for the Grand Cathedral, Dana was with Rumie. Carl, having been labeled as a heretic by the Grand Cathedral, was being escorted by the paladins.

 

“Dana, are you alright?” Across from her, Rumie was looking at her with concern. “You’re sweating a lot.”

 

“I’m fine. Thank you for worrying.”

 

In truth, Dana was not fine. No, she felt like she was going insane. The flood of memories she had tried so hard to suppress during the interrogation was now pouring out. Unable to endure, Dana finally closed her eyes. Tightly shut them. But another eye was opening.

 

This eye… The third eye engraved on her soul. A giant eye was opening, as slow and deliberate as a flower unfurling its petals…. Dana knew what it was. It was an eye that transcends time, reading the past.

 

Insight.

 

It was lifting its eyelids once again. As her memories returned, so did her forgotten abilities. And that made her even more confused. Because even memories unrelated to Carl were resurfacing bit by bit.

 

Before I possessed this body, I was Danae Windsor.

 

Just ten months ago, she possessed the body of ‘Danae Windsor.’ The same Danae Windsor, who had been betrayed by everyone.

 

To return to Yeon Dana, I had to break off my engagement with Raios and obtain the holy relic.

 

So she did just that. Dana broke off her engagement with Raios and cut off Carl Windsor’s finger to steal the holy relic. And then—

 

I opened the dimensional gate and returned to Yeon Dana’s body.

 

After that—

 

I fell from the rooftop.

 

“Goodbye, Yeon Dana.”

 

Pushed by her relative, Dana fell down, down, down. And then? What happened next?

 

Did I crash into the ground? Dana didn’t know. Only the endless sensation of falling remained. What came after was blank. No matter how much she tried to remember, nothing came.

 

When Dana opened her eyes, she found herself in the body of ‘Danaena Rolland.’ Lying on the beach, with all her memories lost. At that time, a passerby approached and asked if she was alright.

 

“Aah. That’s amnesia.”

 

That passerby was Carl.

 

Right, this was the life she was living now. Ten months ago, she had been Danae Windsor, finished her possession, and returned to Yeon Dana’s world. But then she was pulled back here, possessing the body of ‘Danaena Rolland’. This is her current life.

 

Dana barely managed to piece this life together. It was impossible to understand, but this wasn’t Dana’s first life.

 

This isn’t my first life. There were previous lives, rewound like a spring. A different life right before this one. Even then, she lived a life remarkably similar to now. Yes, it was almost the same.

 

The life possessed as Danae Windsor. Betrayed by Raios, she decided to return to the body of ‘Yeon Dana’. But there were certainly differences. For example, breaking off her engagement with Raios. In her previous life, there was no holy trial. The former emperor Wilhelm had revealed their blood relationship.

 

“Danae Windsor and Raios Geranze are half-siblings. They cannot marry.”

 

And so, their engagement was broken off automatically. Marriage between relatives within two degrees was legally forbidden. With her engagement broken off, Dana succeeded in becoming the deputy head of the Windsor family, but even then, Carl never gave her that ring.

 

“Sorry, Dana. I can’t give you this ring.”

 

Yes, that’s the same as this life. But that time, she failed to take the ring. It was because Carl caught me.

 

In her previous life, Carl caught her. He realized she was after his ring and wanted to return to ‘Yeon Dana’.

 

“Seeing how much you want this ring, now I know for sure.”

 

He said it with a face too terrifying, without a smile.

 

“To go back being Yeon Dana, right?”

 

After that, Carl kept his guard up around her. He never let his guard down and never got his finger cut off.

 

Right, in the previous life, I failed to obtain the holy relic. She had failed to get the holy relic, so she couldn’t open the dimensional gate. But what happened after that? Dana didn’t know. Her memories hadn’t all come back yet. They were all jumbled, with holes in between. But that wasn’t all.

 

There’s more…

 

Another life before that one. There was yet another life before that.

 

Yes, that wasn’t the end. How many lives have I repeated like this?

 

Dana groaned as she dug through her memories. It wasn’t easy to find her way through the flood of memories pouring out indiscriminately. And that other life… It was different from both her current and previous lives. Very, very different.

 

That time, I didn’t even try to open the dimensional gate. Because that time, Raios didn’t betray her.

 

“I love you, Dana.”

 

“I love you too.”

 

In that life, Raios didn’t cheat. He loved only her, looked only at her. So, that ‘Danae Windsor’ had no reason to leave that world. But that peace didn’t last. One day, right before her wedding with Raios, former emperor Wilhelm appeared.

 

“Danae Windsor. Please, I ask that you break off your engagement.”

 

“Why?”

 

Even then, Wilhelm told her about their blood relationship. So she broke off her engagement with Raios.

 

“How could you leave me?”

 

That time, Raios erupted in anger.

 

“You said you loved me, Dana.”

 

It was as if he couldn’t comprehend her change of heart.

 

“Yet you chose to leave me so easily?”

 

He poured out his feelings of betrayal and resentment.

 

“You’re not even the one who gave birth to me.”