Actually, It’s a Messy Melodrama Chapter 122

How could anyone not embrace with a full heart a person who tells them that neither death nor another regression can ever be a failure for them, now that they have met you?

“Hngh……!”

Having accepted Taejun’s fiercely digging tongue in a daze, Haeshin panted heavily, finding it overwhelming. Yet Taejun did not back away; instead, he pressed his body close, swallowing even the faint moans leaking from Haeshin.

Unable to withstand Taejun’s strength, Haeshin took backward steps until his back hit the balcony railing, and at that moment, goosebumps broke out all over Haeshin’s arms. It was because he finally realized that Taejun and he were intertwining tongues outside, where it was wide open on all sides.

“Wait, a m— Mr. President, mgh……!”

However, all of Haeshin’s attempts to escape Taejun failed. Taejun instead took Haeshin’s hands, which were gripping his shoulders, and wrapped them around his own neck, sliding his thigh between his legs.

“Mmmnn……”

Naturally, their lower bodies began to rub against each other, and a groaning moan escaped from inside Haeshin’s mouth. There was no way anyone would be standing in the garden at this hour, but the tension made the nerves across his entire body feel even more sensitive.

“Haa…… Hngh……”

Taejun barely let go of his lips only when Haeshin was right on the verge of running completely out of breath. With both of his legs losing their strength from the kiss alone, Haeshin panted while held in Taejun’s embrace.

His tongue had been sucked so fiercely that even its root felt completely numb. And embarrassingly, Haeshin did not dislike that sensation.

“Haeshin-ah……”

Right then, Taejun called his name in an extremely low voice against Haeshin’s ear. The muscles across Haeshin’s entire body tensed up tightly. He could tell from just a single call—just how much Han Taejun was craving Cha Haeshin.

Haeshin lifted his head to look directly at Taejun. Inside Taejun’s eyes, burning like a hot flame, a love that he couldn’t tell since when it had been lurking inside was clearly visible.

If they had loved each other within those lost memories, Han Taejun would have risked his life to protect him. If he could save Cha Haeshin, he would have saved him, and it was certain that he would have paid whatever price was required. Cha Haeshin could be absolutely sure of it.

Did I die right in front of that kind of Han Taejun?

Haeshin felt a pain as if a thousand sharp blades were carving up his heart. His own death did not hurt. In a life where he had died dozens of times over, it held no meaning even if one forgotten death was added.

But what if that was in front of Han Taejun? If it was a death that would have given endless despair to Taejun, who was trying to protect him.

Scenes that he couldn’t tell whether he had seen in a nightmare or if they were a delusion flashed before his eyes. Because tears felt like they would burst out suddenly, Haeshin bit his lip. He could not bear how pitiful and heartbreaking the man before his eyes was.

After a long while, Haeshin cupped Taejun’s cheeks with both hands and very carefully pressed his lips against his.

Cha Haeshin whispered.

“I want to go to the bed……”

The clear yearning contained within that voice could only be felt by Taejun.

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“Hngh……”

When Taejun let go after kissing Haeshin for a long time and meticulously sucking his tongue, Haeshin breathed in short gasps and looked up at Taejun with hazy eyes.

Taejun stopped his movements for a moment to admire Haeshin’s naked body lying on the bed.

Reddish marks could be seen here and there across the pure white skin. They were traces left behind by Taejun’s lips and touch. Having exposed himself defencelessly to Taejun, Haeshin’s chest heaved heavily as his body squirmed. It was a lovely gesture.

Because his body had flared up after being heavily tormented just a moment ago by Taejun’s fingers loosening his hole, Haeshin grew anxious when Taejun merely stared at him without stimulating him further; he reached out, weakly gripping Taejun’s fingers as he pestered him.

“Mr. President…… hurry……”

“Mr. President?”

“……Mr. Taejun.”

Just how anxious he must have been to call him by his name right away. A smile played around Taejun’s lips. Cha Haeshin, being this honest with his desire, was incomparably beautiful.

Taejun quickly leaned down to plant a quick kiss on Haeshin’s lips, then aligned his menacingly erect cock with Haeshin’s hole.

Even though it had clearly accepted three of Taejun’s fingers just a moment ago, the hole, which had tightly closed back up in that short time, flinched as the massive member came into contact.

“Tell me if it hurts.”

Taejun lightly bit Haeshin’s earlobe before letting go, then whispered with his lips pressed against his ear. Haeshin tightly wrapped his arms around Taejun’s neck as if preparing for the pain.

Soon, Taejun’s cock began to forcibly stretch Haeshin’s hole and invade inside.

“Ugh……!”

A suppressed groan escaped from Haeshin’s mouth. When Haeshin reflexively bit his lip to endure the pain, Taejun swiftly turned his head to kiss him.

“Mmmnn……. Mgh……!”

Haeshin’s rough breathing was crushed inside Taejun’s mouth. Despite the pressure that caused his brow to furrow automatically, Taejun did not stop and slowly pushed his member all the way inside Haeshin.

“Are you okay?”

Only after the massive pillar of flesh completely vanished from sight inside Haeshin’s hole did Taejun pull his lips away, stroking Haeshin’s tightly tensed thighs and buttocks with his palms as he asked.

“Yes, ye-es……”

Haeshin nodded with a flush-reddened face. Even though he didn’t look okay at all, it was plainly obvious that he gave that answer out of worry that Taejun would be excessively concerned.

“I’ll make you feel good soon.”

“Mmm, yes……”

Hardly had the words finished when Taejun pulled his cock out slightly and thrust it back in deeply, causing Haeshin to throw his neck back and let out a pained moan.

Taejun moved his waist continuously while gazing at Haeshin’s ecstatic face. Every time his cock dug deep into the innermost part, he couldn’t take his eyes off Cha Haeshin, who opened his mouth to release sharp moans because he was so lovely.

“This time, my best will be different……”

Taejun slid his tongue between Haeshin’s parted lips to lick inside his mouth, then pulled away again to lock eyes with Haeshin as he whispered.

“There will never be a best that involves losing you ever again.”

At the same time, the tears that welled up in Haeshin’s eyes flowed down his cheeks. At least for this moment, a spiritual elevation that overwhelmed the physical pleasure completely filled Haeshin’s soul.

Haeshin’s two legs wrapped around Taejun’s waist. It was Haeshin’s desire to lock together even a bit deeper with him.

In line with the heavy upward thrusting of Taejun’s waist, Haeshin’s waist created a flexible curve. Although the stimulation that blurred his sanity made the view in front of his eyes hazy, Haeshin tried his best to keep his eyes open somehow and meet Taejun’s gaze.

“Taejun, hngh, ah…… Mr. Taejun……”

“Yeah. I’m right here, Haeshin-ah.”

What could be so sorrowful; Haeshin continuously called Taejun’s name, and Taejun responded to Haeshin’s calls several times with the gentlest voice.

Right at that moment, Haeshin felt it. It was right now. There seemed to be no moment more appropriate than now to reveal his true heart, which he had hesitated over for a long time.

The heat of Taejun pushing into him like a gentle wave set fire to Haeshin’s soul. The flame that arose in an instant fiercely drove Haeshin’s true feelings forward.

He could not endure it any longer. He did not want to endure it. It was now time for Cha Haeshin to convey his complete, genuine heart to Han Taejun.

“Mr. Taejun.”

And so, at last, Haeshin opened his mouth.

“……I love you.”

Taejun’s movements stopped. In a space where even the air and time seemed to have completely stopped, only the two of them, Han Taejun and Cha Haeshin, were feeling each other’s presence.

“To be honest, it must have been like this since a long time ago, but it’s so…… hic, la-ate, even though it’s late, still…… still……”

Haeshin stopped talking several times to draw in his breath. It was clearly a heart-flutteringly happy moment, but strangely, an emotion close to sorrow rushed in.

The lives of himself, who had endured a grueling time, and Taejun, who had crossed through a difficult time to come to him, were entirely heartbreaking and sorrowful, and just as much as that, admirable.

“Still, Mr. Taejun…… I…… I really, really……”

“Haeshin-ah.”

“I really love Mr. Taejun. I am in love with you.”

There was a time when love was nothing but dreadful and terrifying. To the Haeshin of that time, love was practically another name for violence. But now Haeshin knows—that was not love. No love could ever use violence as a medium.

That love is something this distinct, that it is something this soft and warm, that it is an emotion this radiant and heart-swelling, Haeshin now knows. Han Taejun had shown him.

“So…… so……”

Please continue to love me in the future too. Don’t leave me. Don’t get hurt, don’t be sick, and let me protect you for a long, long time.

Overwhelmed with emotion, Haeshin could not carry on the rest of his confession, but it didn’t matter. Because Taejun must have heard everything Haeshin couldn’t utter out loud.

With his movements stopped for a moment, Taejun inhaled the confession Haeshin gave him entirely through his breaths and his hotly flared-up skin. His ears rang and the view before his eyes repeated a cycle of blurring and becoming clear.

He already knew that Cha Haeshin loved him. Even though he hadn’t spat out the word love, he could feel a love so distinct from all of Haeshin’s words, actions, and gaze.

Therefore, Taejun thought it would be fine even if he never heard the words ‘I love you’ for eternity. While thinking that the important thing was the true heart, not the words.

However, actually encountering Haeshin’s confession in the form of clear language completely shook Taejun’s soul. It would have been fine even if he hadn’t heard it, but upon actually hearing the love Haeshin spoke of, his heart swelled unbearably.

He was boundlessly grateful for the fact that a person to whom love would normally be dreadful willingly fell in love and spoke of love for his sake. That heart was so exceptionally affectionate, so matchlessly precious, that he did not want to let even a shred of it slip away carelessly.

Whether he had really met Haeshin before this too, and whether they were already in a relationship where they loved each other back then could not be known just yet, but one thing for certain was the fact that from this moment on, there would be nothing but love between him and himself.