Actually, It’s a Messy Melodrama Chapter 90

“I was going to talk to you about it anyway. I’ve already found a house, so if you want, you can move in tomorrow right away.”

“Already? Why didn’t you tell me until now?”

Haeshin, who had been lying in bed buried deep in a large pillow, sat up abruptly at Taejun’s unexpected words and asked. Taejun answered while pushing Haeshin’s forehead with his finger to make him lie down again.

“You were having difficulty meeting your mother. I didn’t want to burden you for no reason.”

“Wow…… to think our Mr. President is this considerate. I’m touched right now.”

Haeshin murmured. He responded playfully, but the words about being touched were sincere.

The atmosphere between the two people lying in the same bed today was different from yesterday again. Unlike before when there had been subtle awkwardness and tension, it had become much more comfortable and gentle.

If before they had been busy closing their eyes without even exchanging a few words out of embarrassment, today they naturally continued everyday conversation as soon as they lay down side by side.

When Haeshin asked if work had finished later because he came to see him, Taejun said it had been a busy schedule originally and that at least he was able to get some fresh air thanks to going to meet him in the middle.

When Taejun asked what he ate for dinner, Haeshin chattered about each side dish and proudly informed him how cleanly he had emptied his rice bowl.

And Haeshin opened his mouth saying he would make another shameless request to Taejun. He would be admitted to the hospital soon, but he wanted to get his mother out of that house even a single day earlier.

Taejun’s answer to that was excessively considerate, delicate, and kind, just as Haeshin had said. Haeshin honestly felt his nose tingle a little.

“I was going to do it for you anyway.”

Taejun, who had read Haeshin’s genuinely touched emotions, brushed off the blanket with his palm even though there was no dust.

Finding a house for Haeshin’s mother to stay in was as easy for Taejun as unwrapping a candy and putting it in his mouth, and even that, he had only given orders while there was someone else who actually handled the work, so he was embarrassed to receive praise.

“That’s what makes it even better.”

Haeshin said while looking at Taejun, turning over to lie on his stomach with his chin propped on the bed. Because of that, the distance became much closer and Taejun gripped the blanket tightly.

It was Taejun who had first suggested sharing the same room, but this way it felt like his patience was being tested every single day. Even now, how lovely Cha Haeshin’s face was as he looked at him with his chin propped up and eyes wide open—he had almost kissed his forehead just like that.

It seemed Cha Haeshin knew too well that his face was pretty. Otherwise, there was no way he would utilize his face this well.

Unaware of what kind of storm was raging inside Taejun, Haeshin continued speaking.

“That you remember that you were going to do it originally.”

“Ah……”

“I’m glad there’s someone who remembers that even after regression happens, and I’m glad there’s someone who’s finding a house for me this time too, and…… I’m even more glad it’s Mr. President.”

“Because it’s me?”

“Yes.”

“Ahem, well…… wouldn’t anyone who could help you like this be fine for you?”

While his heart was pounding at Haeshin’s words, Taejun rolled his eyes here and there and said things he didn’t mean. Haeshin honestly found such a reaction from Taejun cute.

“Well, at first anyone would have been fine.”

“Mmhm.”

“But I’m glad it’s Mr. President and not someone else. If it had been someone else, I wouldn’t have been able to open my heart this sincerely in such a short time.”

“Well, I guess so.”

“Actually, when I didn’t know what kind of person Jin Youngmin was, I thought Jin Youngmin was a good person. To the extent that I thought we might even become friends.”

Taejun’s face contorted fiercely at the unpleasant name that suddenly popped out. Seeing Taejun’s expression, Haeshin continued speaking while holding back his laughter.

“But even then, I didn’t feel even a bit of the kind of intimacy I feel toward Mr. President. Even when I didn’t know that Mr. President regressed together with me.”

“Really?”

Taejun’s expression, asking subtly, relaxed slightly. Of course he should be a better person than a bastard like Jin Youngmin, but still, it was nice to hear.

Because Haeshin’s words sounded like he regarded Taejun as special regardless of Jin Youngmin.

Haeshin nodded his head vigorously while propping up his chin.

“Yes. There might have been more people who could help me, but Mr. President would have been the only person I could open my heart to like this. I’m certain of it.”

“Really.”

Taejun cleared his throat while turning his gaze away for no reason. Consistently fearless Cha Haeshin seemed to have no awareness of how his words were reaching Taejun’s ears right now.

Or was he expressing it knowing how it would sound? Taejun felt his throat burning.

There had been a few times when they felt their emotions connected. Even after experiencing that, his heart fluttered thinking that Haeshin talking like this might be a somewhat positive sign.

Taejun forcibly pressed down his lips that kept trying to rise and brought up an important matter that suddenly occurred to him.

“Since we’re on the subject.”

“……?”

“About Jin Youngmin. I thought about it.”

“Yes.”

When Taejun’s voice became serious, Haeshin also answered with a similarly heavy expression.

“Um, rather than pretending to be lovers, how about you pretend not to like me instead?”

“Uh…… what?”

Haeshin frowned at the completely unexpected words. It was because he didn’t understand the meaning at all. Taejun, who adjusted his posture slightly, continued speaking with a serious face.

“You’re closer to Jin Youngmin now, right? In that situation, if you say you’re dating me, I think that bastard will feel even more betrayed by you.”

“……So?”

“But if I unilaterally like you, that bastard will only be angry at me, won’t he? Even if he does harm, he’ll try to do it to me.”

“So Mr. President will receive harm instead of me?”

It was right at that moment that Taejun felt something was wrong. Haeshin’s voice asking back had already become sharp as if interrogating him. It was a voice he had never heard from Haeshin before.

Taejun opened his mouth as if making excuses for some reason.

“No, that’s not it. I mean, even just discovering signs that he’s trying to harm me would let me deal with him perfectly.”

“What if Mr. President really gets hurt in the process?”

“I won’t get hurt. How could someone like Jin Youngmin hurt me?”

“I don’t want to.”

Despite Taejun’s passionate explanation, Haeshin expressed his refusal firmly without a moment’s hesitation. Not only that, but he raised his body from lying down and knelt sitting up, even glaring at Taejun fiercely.

“Why, why don’t you want to?”

Taejun, momentarily overwhelmed by the intensity, stuttered his words.

“I don’t want Mr. President to become in danger.”

“Just because of that one thing?”

“Is there a more important reason than this?”

“No, what I mean is, I won’t be in any danger anyway and you’ll be even safer?”

Taejun, who had become anxious for some reason, hastily added words. It was clearly a method he thought of to protect Haeshin, but when he came to his senses, he was desperately appealing as if Taejun had committed a crime.

“You know. That I have that much power.”

Taejun deliberately spoke more reliably, but Haeshin’s expression didn’t soften easily.

“I still don’t want to.”

“But why?”

“I only have Mr. President now, so why are you telling me to dislike Mr. President?”

Haeshin’s voice, which had seemed angry, was now filled with sadness. Taejun became even more flustered.

“I’m not telling you to dislike me……!”

“I know you’re asking me to act. But it’s not enough that I pretend to like that person in front of Jin Youngmin, you want me to even pretend to dislike Mr. President? Did you think about what my feelings would be like saying those words?”

“Ah……”

Only then did Taejun feel like he had been hit in the back of the head with a giant hammer. Cold sweat instantly formed on his spine.

“If Mr. President orders me to do that, I’ll have no choice but to follow. But if you’re asking my opinion, I don’t want to. I don’t want Mr. President to become more in danger, and in front of Jin Youngmin……”

The more he spoke, the more sadness washed over him, and Haeshin bit his lip hard. If he didn’t do at least that, tears seemed like they would pour out. Haeshin swallowed several times and suppressed his emotions before opening his mouth again.

“In front of the most hateful person in my life, I don’t want to pretend to dislike the person I’m most grateful to in my life and act like that person is tormenting me. I don’t want to do it.”

Haeshin’s voice had become much calmer than before, but to Taejun, that voice sounded even more pitiful.

“I’ll do better. I’ll be more careful not to die. So Mr. President……”

“Cha Haeshin.”

“I don’t want to do that.”

Haeshin, who had spit out his last words, let out a long breath as if tired. And before that breath even finished, Taejun carefully pulled Haeshin into his arms. Haeshin didn’t resist and obediently let himself be held in Taejun’s embrace.

“I’m sorry. I was short-sighted.”

“You can protect me without doing that, can’t you, Mr. President?”

“Yeah, that’s right.”

“Even if it becomes a little more difficult because I’m not acting…… please bear with that too. Even if you say I’m shameless, I can’t help it. Mr. President said it was okay.”

“Yeah. It’s okay. I thought wrong.”

Taejun gently patted Haeshin’s back and reflected sincerely. It seemed he had been too absorbed in the purpose of protecting Cha Haeshin.