Dirty Sweet Baby Chapter 124

“Eight years ago, from the very beginning, it was you… it was always just you. It just happened. I thought I was just conscious of you, but I kept thinking about you, I wanted to see you, I was curious about you, but then you became my brother. You can’t have these feelings for family. So I avoided you. I avoided you like hell…!”

With a pathetically trembling hand, Heeheon caressed Cha Moogyul, pouring out his belated heart. There was not enough time to tell him everything.

Moogyul’s face, stained black, showed bewilderment. He couldn’t accept the confession Heeheon was spilling, looking surprised before his expression contorted into one of suspicion.

“First love… Me?”

“Yes, you bastard. For all the time I ran from you, I loved you.”

“No, that can’t be…”

“I love you. I love you! I love you too much. Sometimes I love you so much I want to die. I won’t hide it for another moment. I’ll tell you every day. To you, every day like this.”

“…Stop.”

Cha Moogyul slowly shook his head, stopping Heeheon.

His eyes, covered in black spots, were wretched and despairing. To the point that one wondered how anyone could make such a face while hearing a confession of love.

“Get a grip and just leave.”

“Gyeol!”

“Be rational. There isn’t much time left. I’ll go berserk soon, and I’ll disappear with the Gate. If you stay here, you’ll be caught up in it too.”

“I don’t care about that.”

He couldn’t let him go. It felt like he couldn’t let him go.

This really wouldn’t do.

“You… Cha Moogyul, you think you’re the only crazy one, don’t you? I’d rather die with you than survive alone without you.”

Heeheon was not in his right mind. His tear-soaked, grayish-brown eyes were tinged with madness. In truth, Baek Heeheon had been crazy about Cha Moogyul for a long time; he had just worked hard to pretend to be fine all this while. It was time for Cha Moogyul to know that fact as well.

“Let’s just end it all.”

At that, Cha Moogyul flared up in anger.

He screamed, his heart tearing, as bloody tears poured from his eyes.

“Baek Heeheon!”

His voice was a shriek.

It was a scream and a plea.

For a long, long time, he had been falling alone. Feeling the bitter taste of his own craving, even as he broke Heeheon. Perhaps, in this moment, Cha Moogyul was regretting.

Regretting the past eight years he had unknowingly passed by.

Regretting the carelessness and ignorance of not recognizing either Heeheon’s feelings or his own.

Even regretting the cruel fate that they had finally reached each other only to have it end.

“Even if you shout like that, I can’t go. When I was avoiding you, you held on to me by force, and now that I want to go with you, why are you trying to push me away.”

“Hah…”

“Just accept me. Gyeol. Die with me…”

“…”

“Don’t send me away. I don’t want to part…”

His vision was so blurry he could no longer see Moogyul’s face.

Heeheon kept wiping away the pouring tears. But his vision was still blurry. Cha Moogyul’s face, his handsome features, were hard to see. Stained black, now it was really…

Heeheon kept shaking his head, begging and pleading, then took off his gloves and held Cha Moogyul’s hand.

“Let’s. Let’s imprint.”

“…”

“Let’s do it now. Hurry.”

“…”

“I want to imprint with you. Gyeol.”

Cha Moogyul seemed about to get angry again, his emotions surging, but then he saw Heeheon’s desperate face and twisted his lips. It was certain that in his predictions, he hadn’t even imagined a situation like this.

That Heeheon, dragged away by the α-creature, would be alive; that he could be rescued in time; that he could even find the Gate when the detection system was down.

“…I thought, hyung, that you were already dead.”

“I’m not.”

“I thought it wouldn’t matter if I went berserk, as long as I could catch and kill that α-creature. If I had known you were alive, I would have been more careful…”

“No. There’s no need to blame yourself.”

“First love… At best, I thought it was a momentary mistake, a blemish.”

“As you can see, that’s not it either.”

Heeheon opened his pocket and took out the syringe Cha Moogyul had given him. The syringe, filled with the transparent imprinting solution, had thankfully survived the terrible ordeal without breaking.

“Let’s imprint.”

Heeheon unfastened his harness and pushed aside the collar of his combat suit over his chest. He prepared himself, exposing his left chest where his core was embedded, and opened the cap of the syringe.

“There’s still so much I haven’t said, but I want my last moments to be guiding you as I die.”

“…”

“No… Actually, by guiding you… I want to save you.”

“…”

“Please, at least give me a chance.”

Heeheon sobbed quietly, clutching the syringe. He pleaded wretchedly.

Despite it all, Cha Moogyul had no choice but to refuse.

“No more. You have to leave, hyung.”

“Please. Gyeol, please.”

“Forget me. Forget everything… and live.”

“Don’t lie! You once said my life and even my death were all yours. That was all bullshit.”

Now it was Heeheon who was angry. He seemed to have gone mad. His head felt like it was on fire, and his body was all torn up, like a blood-soaked rag.

Heeheon grit his teeth, wiped his tears, and shouted at him with a resolute face.

“I said I’ll save you! If you keep acting like this, I’ll put a bullet in my own head right now. You hear me? I can shoot my heart too. Either way is simple!”

Heeheon was now threatening Cha Moogyul.

“I’m going to die anyway. I’m going to fucking kill myself. So be a good boy and listen to your hyung and just imprint!”

“Haha… What.”

“There won’t be any point in saving me if you do this. Just… hurry up and let’s imprint.”

“Hahaha…”

“I’ll try guiding. I’ll try to stop you from going berserk. Huh? At least let me do that.”

“There’s no way it’ll succeed… Baek Heeheon, you idiot.”

“No, I’m going to succeed. I’m going to save you.”

“You fool…”

Cha Moogyul looked at Heeheon, his eyelids trembling, and let out an empty, hollow laugh. He chuckled, and he also raised his eyes to study Heeheon’s face in detail. The black spots were now spreading to the whites of his eyes.

Either way, at this rate, Baek Heeheon would be caught in the rampage and die.

And as the Gate, its core shattered, disappeared, not a single trace would be left here.

“…”

“…”

Silence fell.

It was a short time, but it felt like they had poured their entire lives into it.

Cha Moogyul took a deep breath, took out his own imprinting solution that he had kept in his breast pocket, and opened the cap of the syringe. He pushed aside the collar of his combat suit and placed the needle over his left chest.

“If we go back, let’s live as you wish, hyung.”

He murmured calmly. As if making a confession.

“I’ll place my life in your hands. Control me and take me as much as you want.”

“…You promised.”

“Yes. Take it all.”

“Good.”

And at the same time, they plunged the syringes into their own chests.

If the imprinting failed, they would die together, and if it succeeded, they would also die together…

It was a finale for just the two of them.

He saw a landscape covered in pure white, with heavy snow falling and blanketing the world.

It was beautiful and peaceful.

Soft snowflakes danced down from the sky as if they were dancing, and the field, covered in a fluffy layer of snow, was like a white blanket.

The tree branches, wearing heavy coats of snow, were bent slightly by the weight, and their delicate outlines evoked the tranquil sentiment of winter.

“It’s really the dead of winter now.”

Heeheon walked toward the center of the field, the snow crunching under his feet. Beside him, Cha Moogyul walked in step as if it were the most natural thing in the world. Dressed in a black coat and a gray muffler, he looked like he had stepped out of a movie.

A white snowflake fell onto Cha Moogyul’s black hair. Heeheon casually reached out and brushed the snow from his hair, and Cha Moogyul smiled with a languid smile.

“Looks like you’re excited. Our Heeheon.”

“It’s nice, isn’t it? A scene like this…”

“You’re not cold?”

“Yeah, I’m fine… cough.”

“You’re coughing.”

Cha Moogyul took off his muffler and wrapped it around Heeheon. It was still warm from his body heat just moments before.

“Come here.”

As if not satisfied even after meticulously wrapping it around Heeheon’s neck, he opened the hem of his coat and gestured to Heeheon with his chin. Heeheon hesitated for a moment before creeping into his embrace.

It was a good thing they were in the middle of a deserted field with no one around to see, otherwise it would have been a little embarrassing.

“Gyeol.”

“Honey.”

“…Honey.”

“Yes, darling. What is it.”

“Being like this… it feels a little strange.”

“What’s strange about it.”

“It’s like a dream. A scene like this. So peaceful…”

Heeheon leaned his head on Cha Moogyul’s shoulder, squinting his eyes to look at the distant view. The mountains, fields, and even the sky were all covered in snow, making it seem as if the boundaries had disappeared. The scenery felt like a single, connected white space.

Even the footprints they had made were quickly covered by snow, leaving only pure white.

Like pure white platinum symbolizing eternity. Pure and innocent, cold but dazzling.

It was a moment where everything seemed to be quietly asleep in the peace that nature bestowed.