Cold City Romance Chapter 11.8

“……”

“That promise wasn’t your will either, right? Why?”

However, Cha Dokyung did not remember at all any promises or such things he had uttered except for the fact that he had whined for knotting from him and pleaded to be impregnated. No matter how much he tried to recall, it was after his reason had disappeared.

“……Haa, promise? What else did I say to you……”

The chilling pupils lost their light.

“Indeed, it’s convenient……. Whispering such sincere promises and then being able to forget them at will whenever you want.”

Hyun Jaehwi laughed cold-bloodedly with a face that had completely cooled off.

“It’s fine. I now know very well how staunchly your reason rejects me.”

“……”

“So, you must be tired, so go to sleep.”

His face was one of complete resignation.

“Anyway, the clothes to wear and leave are all thoroughly soaked…. Unless someone brings clothes, until dawn breaks, both of us have to be stuck here without moving.”

As Hyun Jaehwi swept down his bare chest and sleek leg beauty, only then did Cha Dokyung become conscious of his gaze and became aware of his own body without a single thread of clothing. Feeling embarrassed, Cha Dokyung went into the bed and pulled the blanket over to belatedly cover his stripped body.

A fierce rain sound began to be heard from outside the window. He thought a lot of time had passed, but outside was still pitch black and deep dawn.

The scent of sunlight vibrating from the blanket thoroughly dried in the sun wafted. As he pulled the cozy blanket, Cha Dokyung said to Hyun Jaehwi as if he had just remembered.

“It’s shameless, but let me ask one favor.”

“……”

“Actually, I shouldn’t be doing this here, but because of the disturbance, I dragged you all the way here. Haa, I must have lost my mind.”

“……”

“This place is a villa owned by someone I know very personally……. If the fact that I spent the night here with you or the traces of doing such embarrassing things with you remain, my position would become very difficult.”

Hyun Jaehwi asked back in a tone as if puzzled.

“Someone you know? Who is it.”

“Someone really precious to me……”

The fact that he thought of you upon seeing that always consistently pure person smiling still boyishly and straightforwardly even in middle age is canceled. The thought that upon seeing the couple who even ten years ago or now still knew nothing but his wife, he wanted to live like that and thought of you is all canceled.

“By any chance, an alpha?”

At the question with clear intent, Cha Dokyung hung his head down as if it was absurd.

“Then, what kind of guy is it that you’re making such a wistful face saying that person is precious? Is it first love or something?”

“Don’t make it sound vulgar. It’s not like that. The lady of the house is also here together……”

Cha Dokyung paused for a moment as if lost in reminiscence.

It was the person who had protected him from bad adults, taking on his own damage, so that the innocent and young twenty-three-year-old Cha Dokyung could continue his entertainment industry activities until now. It was the person who had steadfastly guarded secrets he did not want known for over ten years.

“It’s the only person I truly respect. I don’t want to be rude to such a person……. I don’t want to leave behind shame and bad memories for myself. So, I’m asking you.”

Hyun Jaehwi looked at Cha Dokyung, who was asking with a more serious face than ever, and then nodded silently.

“I understand. Sleep a bit more. As soon as dawn breaks, I’ll handle everything.”

“What about our clothes? They’re all wet……”

“I’ll call someone reliable without anyone knowing, so don’t worry.”

“……”

“Since the disturbance has passed, like last time, sudden sleepiness like fainting might come rushing. So, don’t sit there with your eyes wide open like that, lie down quietly and obediently in bed.”

He was the guy who until the end did not even kiss him and mercilessly fucked him. Until the end, even when he pleaded, he did not give even one kiss.

It was ironic that while embracing him with such unfeeling and cold attitude, suddenly he was catering to his whims with such soft and kind voice. He had too many faces, so he was a guy who was truly unknowable even if known.

Cha Dokyung weighed various possibilities and only then firmly believed that he would not have gotten pregnant, and let out a deep sigh of relief.

Even if knotting had happened and he got a child, nothing changes. If he got an unwanted pregnancy, it was an era where he could legally resolve it anytime. He knew a reliable pheromone specialist who had guarded his secret for a long time. Her words from back then belatedly came to mind.

“My attending physician, Professor Yujinseo, told me that before. Because of the pheromone disturbance, pregnancy is impossible for me, or it would be very difficult……”

Cha Dokyung also resolved that if Hyun Kangwoo brought up the marriage talk like a madman one more time, he must tell him that. If he knew that he, a dominant omega, was infertile and had difficulty conceiving, there would be no reason for Chairman Hyun, who desperately expected grandchildren because of his chronic illness, to accept him. Why had he not thought of this? The easiest and best excuse to make Hyun Kangwoo give up had arisen.

“Probably, even if you really knotted. I wouldn’t have gotten pregnant.”

“……”

“So, let’s make everything that happened today as if it never happened. Forget that you knotted me, and we never met here……. Nothing happened today.”

“……”

“As you know, in a month, I enter Taebaek Mountain because of filming. And you said you’re leaving for America soon too……”

In the end, what cannot be is cannot be. If something is to be sorted anyway, the principle is to sort it cleanly. It was already impossible just because the kid was Hyun Kangwoo’s six-years-younger youngest brother, and now that Hyun Kangwoo and Chairman Hyun had even brought up marriage talk to him, the incestuous relationship sandwiched between brothers was even more something that absolutely could not happen even if the sky split in two.

At Cha Dokyung’s words, Hyun Jaehwi tilted his head back as if it was absurd and sneered crookedly.

“Whoever hears it would think I called you here.”

“……”

“Don’t misunderstand. It was you who suddenly called saying disturbance and told me to come pick you up, calling me all the way to this far place in the late dawn.”

Once again, those cold-blooded and unfeeling pupils. He faced straight those unsmiling chilling eyes, and Cha Dokyung did not avoid but stared blankly at him.

“You were the one who first begged to have sex and to be hugged. You were the one who asked for knotting.”

Cha Dokyung firmly shut his mouth. When he picked apart one by one, there was no room for excuses.

“You barge into where people are quietly staying……. Fuck, why did you call me here? Did you call me to have a farewell sex one last time here?”

Wrapped in the blanket, leaning against the bed, Cha Dokyung felt his eye corners uselessly getting wet. However, contrary to his sad inner feelings, he deliberately spat out words he did not mean from his mouth.

“Yes. Farewell sex……. Since it’s come to this, doing that one last time while breaking up isn’t bad either.”

Hyun Jaehwi sighed deeply and shook his head slowly.

Cha Dokyung added in an indifferent tone.

“Anyway, we’re really over now. And, besides the project I’m entering in a month, I don’t want to think about anything else.”

He was hiding his body and face with the blanket for fear of being caught with a face like he would cry. The kid roughly pulled away the blanket and said.

“Fuck, you’re always like that, so damn selfish! From the beginning, you planned to secretly run away to Taebaek Mountain using filming as an excuse! If I hadn’t found out, you would have kept your mouth shut and not said anything until the day you leave.”

“……”

“I’m sick of you too, Cha Dokyung. The illusions are long shattered. You have nothing to see besides that pretty face and lewd body. You’ve only aged, you’re just a cowardly vulgar person and a coward.”

Hyun Jaehwi, who had roughly removed the blanket, got up, turned his back, and coldly turned away from Cha Dokyung.

Cha Dokyung could not continue words for a long time, shocked as if hit by his blatant statement. Then, barely holding back tears, he spat out some childish nonsense with a huff.

“I hate you too. You’re not cute at all anymore. You don’t even smile prettily like before to look good to me……. When you don’t smile, you have no charm at all.”

I like people who look pretty when they smile. You bastard, you don’t know that either. I hate guys who are stingy and heartless even during sex, not even kissing me. No matter how much I pleaded and clung, you didn’t even give me a short kiss. That cold and unfeeling attitude that wielded me was rotten too.

Hyun Jaehwi, who had turned his back and stood up, added coldly.

“Still, I have no regrets about coming to Korea because of you. As you said, illusions are there to be shattered. Now that I know that, I have no regrets or lingering attachments.”

“……”

“So, rest assured. Even the small expectation I had for you, whom I embraced last, has disappeared……. As per your wish, I’ll completely break up with you.”

Cha Dokyung stared at Hyun Jaehwi with a complex and subtle expression. Feeling embarrassed that he had spat out childish words in irritation at being sick of him, he returned to a calm and mature face with effort. At this point when everything was over, he did not want to bicker childishly with the kid.

Though he had only aged and was a cowardly vulgar person and a coward, he knew well. The most adult thing is to honestly admit one’s own wrongs.

“Jaehwi ya…… I’m sorry. From the beginning, I, who became an aged adult and seduced you, who is much younger, am entirely at fault.”

There is no need to retort to the kid. It’s all my fault, and it’s all for the best. Even calling the kid here today under the excuse of disturbance because I wanted to see him was because of my damned self who still had not come to his senses.

“Yes, shatter the illusion for sure and go. Now there’s a month left. On the occasion of leaving, it’s better if we have no lingering attachments to each other.”

As if he did not want to hear more, he turned off the power of the bedside stand light. Along with the rain sound, only pitch-black darkness became thick.

“I’ll end everything as you want, so don’t say anything more. Go to sleep.”

“……”

Why aren’t you sleeping? It’s such a deep and late hour, come here, lie down in bed and get some sleep. Lie down next to me, he wanted to say, but Cha Dokyung stopped because it sounded crazy.

“Why? Can’t sleep?”

In the pitch-black darkness, the velvet-like heavy and soft voice resounded deeply above his head, sounding good to hear, and spread lowly along with the rain sound. He liked his voice so much that he wanted to call even on the phone to hear it. So, in the end, he could not hold back and called.

“If you can’t sleep……. Like last time, I’ll make you have a good dream.”

In the darkness, the man standing by the bedside extended his arm. As his arm and hand touched his face, the body scent that made him want to be embraced and roll around together wafted to the tip of his nose.

The kid touched his forehead several times in the darkness and gently caressed his closed eyes. He did not even have a chance to retort why he was suddenly being so soft and kind to him.

Just like that night when he said he would relax his pheromones for him, the tension released, and with a few gestures, an unbelievable sleepiness poured down. In the blink of an eye, pitch-black sleep came pushing up to his eyelids to swallow him.

As Hyun Jaehwi said, Cha Dokyung fell asleep like a fainting person as soon as he lay down in bed. It was the darkest time just before dawn.

Pant, pant, Cha Dokyung’s breathing became even. Hyun Jaehwi, who had been standing by the bedside, confirmed that Cha Dokyung had fallen asleep and turned on the stand light from earlier again.

In the low illumination, while looking at the angel-like face sleeping soundly with even breaths, Hyun Jaehwi began to whistle in a low, even melody.

Even at that proficient and mechanical whistling sound, Cha Dokyung did not toss and turn in his sleep at all, just like that day. It was a very familiar ritual to Hyun Jaehwi.

It was the sound of awakening something that had been sealed.

Hyun Jaehwi sat by the bedside, swelling the volume of his thick chest through the open shower gown, and exhaled beast-like rough breaths.

As he released the pheromones, along with the even melody of the whistling sound, the eyelids of the sleeping beauty who had been breathing evenly slowly opened.

Cha Dokyung’s thought body that had been sealed opened its eyes and immediately extended its hand toward Hyun Jaehwi’s face looking up at it from the bedside.