Cold City Romance Chapter 16.3

Cha Dokyung could not look straight at Hyun Jaehwi’s face at all and lowered his reddened face, avoiding his gaze.

Certainly, when facing him directly, no other thoughts came to mind, and it was not a wrong statement. Meeting his eyes and looking at him was embarrassing and awkward to that extent. There was no sign of boyish youth anywhere. For the first time, in front of the man named Hyun Jaehwi, he felt himself becoming small.

“Yes, after several years, seeing you so splendid makes me want to sleep with you. I want to secretly do that thrilling thing like before with you, away from people.”

We have no time, and this method is the fastest.

I do not need to explain anything else. I do not need to say things like I could not forget you or the tedious story that you imprinted on me long ago.

“Haa…”

Hyun Jaehwi shook his head as if fed up.

“You said you have only a few days left before leaving the country? Anyway, once your hyung’s wedding is over, you will go back to America right away.”

“…”

“Like four years ago, we can just bury it between us and secretly pretend it never happened.”

Cha Dokyung spoke astonishing words that could not be distinguished as jokes or serious, without hesitation, with a composed and detached face. He acted nonchalant as if it were nothing, but with eyes that anyone could see were achingly desolate.

“For a few days, until you go back, if you need someone to enjoy in Seoul, use me to play with.”

“…”

“Use me easily and throw me away… Like how I did to you in the past, this time you play with me and eat me up and discard me.”

The leather seat of the driver’s seat became damply soaked with the water dripping from his body in streams. Hyun Jaehwi threw off his thoroughly wet black suit jacket as if the dripping water was bothersome. Through the wet shirt, his sensual upper body packed with muscles was revealed.

“It is surprising that you still think I would want you.”

He thrust his veil-like high and sharp nose bridge toward him.

“Cha Dokyung, what on earth gives you that confidence.”

“…”

“I am not even sure anymore if you are attractive enough to make me hard just by looking at you. Among the numerous people approaching me, I am not sure if you are that special to that extent.”

Cha Dokyung could not stare straight at the man who had come close thrusting his nose tip and avoided his gaze with reddened cheeks. He was arbitrarily saying they should have sex while being too embarrassed to even meet eyes.

“Yes, a lot of time has passed… Have I changed a lot? I have aged, right?”

Cha Dokyung asked back insecurely and pathetically with a face that did not even feel the flow of time. Still with the clean and innocent face like when he was twenty-three that Hyun Jaehwi knew. The traces of years only added to the dignity and elegant unique atmosphere there.

“Because I have aged and grown old, do I no longer match your taste?”

“…”

“Because it is a worn-out body that has been attached to this one and that one, it does not satisfy the perfect and superior dominant alpha nature?”

There must be countless people clinging to you saying they want to sleep with you. Compared to you, I have aged a lot now and might no longer be a match for you. A man nearing forty might be repulsive, or you might not want to sleep with an omega who is six years older and worn out.

The man with an unrecognizably adult face leaned his head back with a leisurely attitude and smiled languidly.

“I am not the Hyun Jaehwi from four years ago.”

“…”

“I am thirty too. Time has passed. I am no longer the naive young kid hung up on first love.”

“…”

“The me back then thought I had to have sex with someone I desperately wanted, but now I know that it is not necessary to like or want someone to have sex. Right now, I could spread your legs in this car and fuck you like a machine without any emotion.”

“…”

“I learned it very well from someone. The way to treat a person like a toy and play with them like a plaything.”

Cha Dokyung, who had lost confidence, blinked his precarious pupils very slowly. While pathetically stroking his long-grown back hair, he said.

“Yes, as you say, I am trash, so this is all I amount to.”

“…”

“Jaehwi, I do not know any other way to do this.”

“…”

“So, without saying anything, just hold me. Rather, here, rape me like an emotionless machine however you want. Even if it is just the pleasure of the moment.”

This must be the limit of a person like me. Pulling out real feelings, true sincerity, is more uncomfortable and frightening to me than dying.

I cannot ask even if I die whether you have someone else. I do not want to know such things, nor do I want to hear it directly with my ears. I absolutely cannot say even if I die that you imprinted on me four years ago.

Instead, I will strip naked to satisfy you and shake my waist lewdly. I will choose to cry and moan under you.

The only way to confirm that you are an imprinted partner is to have pheromone sex with you. After today passes, there is no guarantee I can see you again. So, even if it is vulgar and servile, there is no other way than this…

“What, you want me to rape you?”

The man with the cold-blooded face sneered icily.

“It seems people do not change no matter how much time passes when it comes to being brazen. The promiscuous nature of spreading your legs easily and loosely to any guy when in heat is still the same… As expected, people never change, right?”

His pupils and lips curved beautifully like frost. He smiled with skilled and utterly leisurely ease. While stroking Cha Dokyung’s cheek as if handling a young child, with large and rough hands that felt the years.

“I am curious. How many guys have you deliberately seduced like this in the meantime.”

At that moment, he felt relieved. It is fortunate. You still hate me to the bone deep down.

“Up to now, has there ever been a guy who did not fall for Cha Dokyung openly making that face asking to be raped.”

Cha Dokyung forcibly swallowed his tears. His pitiful nose tip reddened.

“There are many. Excluding you, it would be a truckload… So, take me easily and comfortably. Violate me however you want.”

Now I get it. If you smile with an indifferent face treating me as a memory, I would hate that more! I absolutely cannot tolerate that. It hurts more than you thoroughly ignoring me like a non-existent person. Never forget me! Never forgive me!

So, rather than erasing my existence, continue to hate this me.

Still be angry at me and disgusted by my vulgarity. Like now, when mentioning other guys, fail to hide your jealousy toward me.

His adult eyes scanned him vulgarly as if interrogating.

“What is your ulterior motive in acting like a whore desperate to be treated like cheap trash?”

“…”

“Do you know? Back then, you were about the same age as I am now.”

“…”

“Thinking about how four years ago, when you were barely thirty-two, you acted like a worldly adult and played with me like a toy to stick in your hole, then cowardly abandoned me fearing my father and Hyun Kangwoo’s eyes… Recalling how you threw a fit in front of me several times saying you would abort the child in your belly and taking medicine, I still find it loathsome and get chills.”

“…”

“Is that what being an adult is?”

If even after four years you cannot shake off the hatred toward me, it is proof that you still cannot forget me and have not completely erased me. I hope you willingly despise and hate me.

“Cha Dokyung, you are not an adult, you are still an immature kid! If at that age you have no answer. Haa, fuck…”

Cha Dokyung smiled prettily, folding the corners of his eyes.

“Thank you for the compliment.”

He could finally smile that hypocritical and false smile that he could not make in front of people, that he could never make even in front of the camera, toward him.

The white smile folding the corners of his eyes melted someone’s heart. When he spread his legs and strongly pulled his tie, he could not restrain himself with his wet body and approached, kissing him fiercely as if to devour him.

In one breath, the white and long nape and the neat face that forgot the years were caught in the grip of that adult man. His savage tongue that could not restrain itself licked the red upper lip and then skillfully thrust into the mouth.

The sexual desire that he had not felt toward anyone in four years permeated through Cha Dokyung’s breath and spread like poison throughout his body. It was a suffocatingly dense and vulgarly intense kiss to an extreme degree. With the gestures of a mature man and the deep kiss, he emitted a skilled sensuality that was unbearable. He groped with pale fingertip ends the adult man exuding a thick body scent, his even broader and firmer shoulders and muscles.

The thick body tensed up following the touch. The passion and desire churning as if about to burst boiled in the veins like a dance. I am alive. In front of you who is so superior, this vulgar body of mine is alive and breathing.

Feeling so vividly that I am alive, that I am breathing, throughout the past four years combined, in this car where the storm rages, right here today, the only first for me is this moment kissing you now.

“Jaehwi…, I am sorry…”

I am sorry that this is all I can do.

I just want to stroke your face while moving your body inside me.

I do not know other methods well.

Tears flowed down the cheek that was being kissed.

He truly lamented himself for not knowing how to express the sensation of being alive, his real feelings of being alive, in any other way than that.

“Agency, when are you going back?”

He heard that within a few days, as soon as he finished his business, he would go back immediately, but Hyun Jaehwi avoided a specific and precise answer to his question.

“Soon….”

He took off his wet shirt. The densely arranged muscular nudity was revealed. The complete man’s body exuding an even denser male scent than four years ago seemed like a product of overwhelming desire just by looking, or like a very lascivious creation of God.

His gaze slid to the deeply carved heavy iliopsoas. On the firm man’s body, large scars were engraved here and there that he had not seen.

Traces of surgery, sutured marks.

What on earth had he been doing in the meantime.

‘Even just for a few days before you leave. No, even just one day would be fine.’

The time given to Cha Dokyung was only a few days until he returned to the agency in America. Anyway, no words would get through to that man who hated him.

Too short a time to lay out lengthy stories. A time woefully insufficient even to confirm each other’s warmth. In that short time when nothing changes, rather make short memories with you that allow reliving several years.

Now I think I understand the meaning of what you said when you came to Korea looking for me, saying there was no time and asking me to make just one year of memories. A person can carry on an unquenchable ember in their heart with just very short memories. Just like he had done for the past four years.

So, just one more time…

Between the fierce thighs developed like a stallion’s muscles, a thick sex organ was revealed. To the heavy weight and volume swaying as he walked over, Cha Dokyung could not look straight at the man who had become fully nude and averted his gaze, saying.

“America, before leaving, just one more time at the end, can we meet like this?”

The man answered while taking off his heavy metal watch on the nightstand. In that restrained movement, the tendons of his thick upper arm and forearm muscles stood out.

“Listen well. Me doing this with you is the last time.”

Cha Dokyung asked him with detached eyes.

“I seduced and lured you… So, even though you did not want to sleep with me, you forcibly followed?”

His wet eyes and red lips trembled faintly.

“Then, this is like charity.”

His aggressive pupils quietly stared at Cha Dokyung and then answered.

“I am not as compassionate a guy as you think.”