The Espers Who Regretted Losing Me Chapter 62

“So you know my name too. Doctor Song Yuseong?”

His name was written in big letters on his chest, so there was no way I could pretend not to know it.

Doctor Song, who had been rubbing the back of his neck with a blank expression, suddenly looked strange.

He glanced back and forth between me and Yeon Dogyeong, then tilted his head.

“…Hmm. All right. For now, let’s do a few simple tests. Follow me.”

“How long will it take?”

“About two hours.”

Two hours was definitely not a simple test, but it was still shorter than a full examination.

I turned to look at Cha Eunhwi, Lee Shinra, and Yeon Dogyeong, who were standing quietly behind me.

“That’s what he says. What are you guys going to do?”

“Hey, we’ll wait quietly…!”

“Doctor, take your time and make sure you check her properly.”

“If no one comes looking, I’ll lock the door.”

They couldn’t follow me inside anyway, so it didn’t really matter whether they stayed or not. Each of them said a word and then took seats on the chairs and sofa.

I glanced at them with a bored look, replied, “Do whatever,” and turned back around.

Doctor Song was making an even stranger expression than before.

“Why are you looking at me like that?”

“…It’s just that Guide Yoon Hyeya really does seem to have lost her memory.”

“…What?”

“You used to constantly watch Dogyeong’s, Eunhwi’s, and Shinra’s moods. You spoke formally, kept your distance, and followed them around all limp, like a jellyfish—”

“Doctor, shouldn’t you be more careful right now?”

Doctor Song, who had been talking quickly, shut his mouth at Yeon Dogyeong’s muttered comment.

As always, Yeon Dogyeong’s bad attitude was equal toward everyone.

Dogyeong stared straight ahead with a sulky face, then flinched when his eyes met mine and started making excuses.

“No, Hyeya. That doctor has always exaggerated everything. Hey, ask them too.”

Cha Eunhwi and Lee Shinra, who were suddenly dragged into it, flinched even harder than Dogyeong had earlier.

I was pretending not to remember, but even if I really had amnesia, it was obvious they were lying.

When I just stared at him without saying anything, Yeon Dogyeong panicked and suddenly confessed.

“…Okay, yeah. Every time we came here for tests, you really did watch our moods.
You always looked totally drained, like a jellyfish.”

Then Lee Shinra awkwardly continued.

“A-and if your ability numbers didn’t change from the last test, you’d look at us… really suspiciously…”

Seeing how completely crushed they looked—now watching my mood instead—I narrowed my eyes.

“You guys really bullied me a lot, didn’t you?”

“….”

None of them could answer. One by one, they lowered their heads like guilty criminals.

I clicked my tongue at the sight, then finally followed Doctor Song.

He had been waiting not far away and smiled awkwardly when I caught up.

“This way, please.”

He adjusted his crooked glasses with one finger and motioned me inside.

“First… we’ll start with a blood draw.”

“Yes.”

I followed him around as we did tests ranging from basic to detailed.

Since I had eaten well and lived comfortably inside the gate, all my results were normal.

My weight had even increased compared to the last record. Only by 0.2 kg—but when the doctor muttered, “Looks like you ate well in the gate…” I pretended not to hear it.

No strange bacteria were found, and my skin condition was fine.

But I made a mistake during the final test—the guiding ability test.

“Hmm… Guide Yoon Hyeya’s guiding ability has grown since the last record. Quite a lot.”

When a guide places their hand on a specially made device and performs guiding, the machine detects the energy and converts it into numbers.

That was how guides were ranked.

My guiding ability was so strong that no matter what I did, I would always be S-rank. Even within S-rank, there were upper, middle, and lower tiers.

Until now, I had carefully controlled myself so my results stayed as close to the lower tier as possible.

I haven’t guided properly in a month… I messed up controlling my strength.

I kept my face calm, but I felt cold sweat forming.

Of course, numbers often changed depending on condition—for both guides and espers.

But even that had limits. If this were within the normal range, the doctor wouldn’t have reacted like this.

Still, moments like this were exactly when I needed to stay confident.

I spoke casually.

“Is it bad if it grows?”

“No, not bad at all. It’s actually amazing… Um, I heard from the Director that it’s still undecided whether Guide Yoon Hyeya will be in the same unit as those kids. Is that true?”

“…Ah, yes. That’s right.”

I hadn’t expected the Director to tell him that much already.

Feeling strangely unsettled, I nodded.

Doctor Song continued with a troubled expression.

“I heard you don’t remember most things, so I’ll explain simply. A guide’s ability is like a container with a shape. If the container is small, the ability is weak. If it’s big, the ability is strong. That container cannot grow bigger.”

I immediately understood what he was getting at.

A guide’s ability cannot be strengthened through training.

The only exception had been my past self—and even then, the conclusion was uncertain, explained away as something possible only during growth years.

But now, long past that phase, my ability had grown again.

Ah… am I really about to get dragged into a lab?

With guides already in short supply, it wouldn’t be strange if they took me away “for the sake of the remaining espers.”

Doctor Song fell silent for a moment, thinking, then explained again calmly.

And just as I expected, he said exactly what I feared.

“…So, Guide Yoon Hyeya is a very unusual case.”

“I understand. Then what happens to me now?”

“What do you mean, what happens?”

My question came back as another question.

Was he pretending not to understand, or was I too vague?

Seeing only confusion on his face, I decided to be honest.

“I heard there aren’t many guides left at headquarters. If I’m that special, it feels like I could be worked to death without anyone thinking it’s strange. Before I lost my memory, I apparently hated being forced to stay with those guys, but no one fixed my complaints at all.”

“…That’s… um, true.”

“The Director said he’d prioritize my opinion and keep my full guiding ability secret for now, but I don’t know how much I can trust him. From my perspective, he’s basically a stranger I met a few days ago. So I’m asking—what happens to me now?”

I quietly tensed my legs, ready to run at the slightest bad sign.

If I were dragged into a lab or exploited, Cha Eunhwi, Yeon Dogyeong, and Lee Shinra wouldn’t like it either. I could use them as shields and escape.

After thinking over my words, Doctor Song waved his hands hurriedly, looking flustered.

“No, no. Nothing like that will happen. Before you arrived, the Director strictly warned me not to tell anyone outside, no matter the results. If it were confirmed that you’d be in the same unit as Eunhwi, Dogyeong, and Shinra, they’d need to know—but since it’s not, I only told you.”

“…Then I can really just live like someone who knows nothing?”