Your Regrets Are Late Chapter 141

Strangely, Charelize’s pity for her was unbearable. Lillian hated people looking down at her, saying that they felt pity for her. Even though they were in a similar position now, the look in her eyes saw her as a commoner, just like the day she first met her. It wasn’t affection she believed in, but the sympathy Charelize gave out of pity, which made her truly miserable.

 

It all went wrong from there. Even though Charelize praised her, she didn’t feel the same. It felt like pretense rather than praise.

 

Charelize seemed to belittle her as an illegitimate child who was below her. Since she didn’t treat her sincerely, Lillian did the same. She’s going to die soon anyway, so doing this is okay, right? She justified herself while being mean to both Charelize and her person.

 

It was the day when Viscount Blanche’s youngest daughter made her debut. It was regrettable that she refused the position of her exclusive maid, so Lillian tried to offer it again.

 

“Ah, come to think of it, I heard you turned down Princess Lillian’s offer to become her exclusive maid. Is there any reason?”

 

“The reason is my father is worried that I might be a nuisance to Princess Lillian because I’m still immature.”

 

Princess Porte, who disliked Charelize, deliberately picked a fight with Viscount Blanche’s daughter, who followed her. Although she had just entered the society, they could easily pass over the title to her.

 

Lillian liked her so much that she really wanted to have her as her exclusive maid. So she waited for Princess Porte to leave.

 

Princess Porte scratched the inside of Lady Blanche for a long time. But the lady only reacts harshly when the princess insults Charelize.

 

“Hoho, how can there be someone at the age who follows all the rules of etiquette like Lady? Just be honest. You must be having a different reason.”

 

“…Different person?”

 

“No matter how formally she was admitted to the Duchy Marsetta, Princess Lilian’s status is a lowly illegitimate child… Don’t the other families know that even if they don’t say anything?”

 

“Princess Porte, how can you say that?”

 

“By the way, Lady, you might know. Why is the little duchess showing such sincerity to that illegitimate child? Is she really sincere, or is she just being hypocritical? If it were me, I would have at least shown displeasure on my face.”

 

“Because the little duchess is a generous person.”

 

“Ha, you mean I’m not like that! I know who she’s…!”

 

At that moment, the servant whispered something in Princess Porte’s ear. Princess Porte’s expression immediately became stiff.

 

“That arrogant attitude, you’d better fix it.”

 

“Thank you for your advice.”

 

As Princess Porte left in a huff, Lillian slowly approached Lady Blanche. “Let alone calling me an illegitimate child. You lowered your head after hearing such stupid words calling as advice? Are you saying everything is fine as long as she doesn’t insult my sister?”

 

“Greetings to Princess Lillian.”

 

“I’ll be straightforward. I like you. Be my maid.”

 

“I’m sorry, Princess.”

 

“If you say so, I’ll ask my sister. I want to have Lady as my maid. There’s no way my sister wouldn’t listen to my request. But are you not going to accept that either?”

 

“I’m inexperienced, so I don’t know what Princess had heard about me. However, no matter what the little duchess’s orders are, I must follow them.”

 

Lillian met the eyes that told her that she was an illegitimate child, nothing more or less. It can’t ever be hers. Those eyes were annoying as if they were telling her that there was only one master for them.

 

“Ah, you really resemble Viscount Blanche. I’m about to shed tears at the loyalty of the father and daughter who thinks about my sister.”

 

“…Yes?”

 

“Ah, I see. That’s right. It’s no different from a dog. I wonder if it will change owners if I feed it.”

 

“Princess Lilian. I’m not feeling well, so I’ll leave.”

 

“Now that I see it, it won’t work. If the owner dies from eating poisoned food, wouldn’t it know that the owner has changed?”

 

Lady Blanche, who had been holding back with all her might, began to tremble. She’s Charelize’s younger sister. In her eyes, responding to her provocation any further wasn’t good, so she tried to avoid her. That made her dislike it more.

 

“Hmm, no. If it asks its owner, they might be able to give it non-poisoned food. How about it? Would you like to ask me something?”

 

Lillian spilled wine on her dress. Then she smiled and whispered. “It is said that a loyal dog that would die for its owner runs into a trap without even knowing what it is. My older sister taught me this.”

 

“…”

 

Lillian felt refreshed inside. She cried while pretending it was Lady Blanche who spilled the wine. Duke Marsetta, who was soon deceived, kicked out Viscount Blanche.

 

Seeing that the duke despised the vassal who had served the duke for several generations just because of that, Lillian’s aunty couldn’t hold back her laughter. She smiled and said that the time she had been waiting for had come for Lillian to feed Charelize the poison.

 

No matter how much Lillian thought about it, she wasn’t able to do that, so she ate it herself. It didn’t matter since she was going to die anyway. No. It was all useless now.

 

Lillian couldn’t pretend to be innocent like she used to, so for no reason, she asked to get engaged with Delphir. Duke Marsetta allowed it. She lied that Delphir would personally reveal her guilt and take charge of her execution.

 

Charelize replied that she truly cared for her with all her heart. It was ridiculous that she pretended to be kind until the end. That made Lillian say words she never meant out of anger.

 

Even if Lillian didn’t know anything else, she knew Charelize wasn’t someone who would willingly die. Charelize was a strong person. She had never seen anyone with a strong will like her in her life. But why did she die? Her last words to Charelize flashed through her mind as she searched for the reason.

 

“Sister, do you still want to live? I don’t want you to be so pathetic for the last time. If I were you, I would choose to suicide.”

 

She died because of me? Lillian clasped her hair and shook it like a madman.

 

“Princess! Are you okay? It’s not your fault that the little duchess died.”

 

“That’s right, Princess.”

 

The words of comfort from the maids didn’t reach her ears.

 

“…Hailey? Where is she now?”

 

“Maybe she’s in her room? She said she would leave before the sun set. P-Princess! You can’t run yet!”

 

Lillian stormed out to Hailey’s room and caught her as she finished cleaning up and was about to leave.

 

“…Princess?”

 

“Charelize looked at me with pity. She always thought I was insignificant and pitied me like a beggar. She never thought of me as her sister, right?” Lillian shook her shoulders and forced her to get the answerback, saying yes.

 

“Oh gosh. Princess. Little duchess…  She cared about Princess. She even doubted me if I had poisoned the tea that the princess drank.” Hailey’s face was filled with astonishment.

 

“…Lie. It’s a lie. I’m sure she was like that. The reason she prepared a banquet to welcome me is because she felt pity for me…”

 

“Didn’t you hear the back story?”

 

“What?”

 

Hayley, with her eyes closed tightly, mimicked Charelize. “She’s so pitiful. Even though Lillian calls me as an older sister and is friendly to me, she is sometimes conscious of me. She unconsciously acts cute to please father, who loves her more than anyone else, because she’s afraid she’ll fall out of his eyes. That’s her way of making sure that she’s being loved.”

 

“…”

 

Hailey, who was filled with tears, continued to speak. “Hailey. Lillian is my family now, no matter what anyone says. So, I want to give her everything she couldn’t enjoy as a princess until now.”

 

“…”

 

“Wherever she goes, I want her to stand confidently.”

 

Hailey took a fountain pen out of her luggage. It was a fountain pen with the emblem of Duke Marsetta engraved on it. Only Duke Marsetta and his successor can use it.

 

“Princess Lillian, happy birthday. It’s a gift prepared by the little duchess for Princess.”

 

“Why this…?”

 

“Little duchess said that Princess Lillian had any intention of becoming the head of the family in the future, she would give you her position.”

 

Hailey forced a fountain pen into Lillian’s hand. “So the day the little duchess found out she was having a baby, she asked me to make a fountain pen. To show the vassals that even after her baby is born, the Princess takes priority in the succession line.”

 

“What are you talking about? Older sister was pregnant?”

 

As a result of the shock, the fountain pen that fell from Lillian’s hand, rolled around. Hailey, who was staring at that, bowed her head toward Lillian.

 

“I’ll leave now.”

 

Lilian, who had been staring at Hailey’s back for a long time, screamed. “D-did I kill Charelize…? No. That can’t be true. There’s no way my older sister is going to die.”

 

Charelize, who regarded a naughty girl like her as her younger sister, was stupid. It was better for Lillian to be hated. She thought Charelize was just pitying and sympathizing with her. She didn’t know that Charelize really cared for her.

 

“Older Sister, if you later marry Delphir, can I continue to live with you?”

 

“Of course, Lilli.”

 

“…Even if Older Sister has a child?”

 

“Whether I’m getting married or having a baby… It’s up to you to remain in the duchy. Are you sad about it? I thought you wanted to be a good aunt to my child?”

 

“Hehe, I will be the best aunt in the world.”

 

“Give my child a second surname later. I’ve already decided on their name?”

 

“Already? What is it?”

 

“Lino.”

 

“Li…no? It’s my first time hearing this. It’s not the imperial language.”

 

“Yes. It means ‘my beloved child’ in the Risperan language, the predecessor duchess’ native language. Come to think of it, Lilli. It’s similar to your name.”

 

“Tsk, my name comes from an ugly flower called lily. I don’t like it.”

 

“Oh my, Lilli. The lily flower is said to be a flower that shares good luck. What a nice flower. It means unchanging love. Lilli, you were born from that love.”

 

Lillian, who was sobbing as she remembered the conversation she had had with Charelize in the past, collapsed. Writhing and gasping in pain, she saw a hallucination. Charelize’s hand was warm as it affectionately stroked her hair.

 

“…Older Sister, I’m sorry.”

 

“…”

 

Charelize disappeared in an instant as if she didn’t want to hear her apology.

 

“I-I was wrong. Older Sister….”

 

Lillian, who had been desperately calling Charelize, lost her mind.