Speak of The Devil Chapter 10

“… Jealousy?”

My eyes widened at the sudden thought.

It was 20 minutes before my alarm went off. Normally, I would have curled up inside the blanket a little more, but the strange thoughts did not stop and I completely lost my sleep.

Jealousy. Otherwise, there were other words to describe it.

Eventually, I jumped out of bed. I went straight to the bathroom and ran cold water in the shower to wet my body. It was easy to get distracted by the friction of cold water in the early morning, but I still felt like I couldn’t sleep. Jealousy, doesn’t it sound like a dream?

When I returned from Busan a few days ago, I was constantly questioning why Jung Yiyeon had a bad mood which suddenly improved again. From the moment he came to my room drunk the day before, everything was strange.

Jung Yiyeon noticed that I was on my way out to meet someone. Okay, let’s say that he came to me because he was drunk and his sexual desires went into overdrive. In the first place, he was the one who proposed to me for a relationship because he was ‘tired of finding someone’, so he came to me because he wanted to have sex.

But I couldn’t explain why I suddenly felt depressed the next day. Wouldn’t it make sense to ask about my relationship with Seo Jaeoh, or the fact that I was in a relationship immediately made him feel better?

If this isn’t jealousy, then what is it?

“Hey, you bastard, turn off the fucking alarm!”

It was then that I heard screams outside the bathroom. Not just shouting, but someone banging on my door! With just that sound, the door shook as it was about to fall.

Startled, I shut the shower and opened the door. Even though it wasn’t locked, my older brother, Lee Won, who banged his fist on the bathroom door enough to bleed to express his annoyance, stood in front of the door with an extremely ugly face.

Lee Won. My older brother was tall, over 190 cm, and he had a large body. He didn’t look like me, since I had a sharp and intelligent image but he had a more intense and bitter impression compared to me. There were long scars around his eyes that made his handsome face look somewhat intimidating.

It was right after waking up, so it would be funny to say that he broke the house, but my brother, who was glaring at me, was very vicious. The moment our eyes met, my older brother’s wretched hand flew in.

‘Ahh! Hyung! Hyung!!”

My older brother, who has been doing all the bullying in the neighborhood since he was a child, and didn’t hide his dog-like temperament, was very violent. At least he was weak to me, so I could scream like that.

If it were anyone other than me, he would have shoved the loud cell phone into their mouth and crushed them.

“Truce! Truce!”

Since it was me, it was just a chokehold, tightening my breath, and cutting off my articulation. A mixed martial arts battle took place with me naked and wet, and my brother wearing only one piece of underwear. It was suffocating and it wasn’t until I gurgled and tapped frantically on the floor that my brother let me go. In the meantime, there was a fierce look in his eyes.

Looking down at me clattering on the floor, my brother suddenly said:

“What, are you having a hard time? You lost some weight.”

After strangling a person and trying to kill them, what are you worried about now? It was absurd, but this was my older brother we were talking about.

I rarely came home because I was busy with my work, so my brother, whom I met after a long time, grabbed my face snapped it from side to side, and frowned.

“Should I find you another job?”

His temper is quick. It was not like I was having a hard time, but seeing him talking about changing jobs to an easier place to work implied that I indeed lost some weight.

I smiled faintly at the offer. He always treated me like a very young little brother and always insisted on living comfortably as I pleased. It was the same when I was in college. He was responsible for not only my tuition but also my living expenses and told me not to worry about anything else, just study and do what I wanted to do. He was a person who was one year older and pretended to be so much older. Of course, it was also true that I was grateful for everything.

But I didn’t want to be indebted to him any longer. I have no intention of relocating right now. It was true that I lost some weight, but it was not because the work was hard… It was just that I lost weight because I was a little tired of my love affair with Jung Yiyeon.

“I’m not tired. My social life is all the same.”

“What, then?”

There was no answer to that since it was not because of work. I was choosing what to say to the bitter eyes that wanted to know why I lost weight, but in the end, I vomited out the truth with a small sigh.

“… No, it’s just a lover that sucks me dry.”

“… ah fuck, take this.”

My shoulders flinched at the threateningly shaking fist in front of me. It never struck me though. He was an older brother so he pretended to be a little scary.

“Why are you asking me then?”

How could you get mad at the person who answered when you asked? Conversations with my brother used to end up being unfair on my side like this.

“Ha. Yes, it’s time for you to get married.”

“Hyung has to get married first, so I won’t get married now either.”

My brother was thirty-one. But I had never seen his girlfriend. I had never even heard of it, let alone seen them.

Except for the case of women, I vaguely knew that my brother was a gangster and that he owned a few businesses, but I didn’t know exactly what he was doing. I had only seen one of my brother’s subordinates once or twice.

He didn’t expose anything about himself like that, and I didn’t bother to wonder about what he didn’t tell me. From a young age, my older brother was a person who never showed his insides to anyone.

“Wash up and go to work. Wash yourself with hot water.”

My older brother nagged, saying it was cold, and then went out of the bathroom. No, but doesn’t that hand need some treatment? He slammed the door so hard that his knuckles were torn and blood was pouring out. I wanted to know if he was hurt.

If he just fell asleep like that, he would wake up and think for a long time why his hand was like this, and when he would realize what happened this morning, I think he would attack me again. In the future, I should try to avoid my brother. Humans were so cruel that my throat throbbed for a brief moment.

That was a small incident, but now it was time to prepare for work in earnest. As I was washing my body with hot water as my brother said, I woke up 20 minutes earlier than the alarm and realized that I had been bathing in cold water until the alarm should go off.

I was drenched in cold water all that time, but I didn’t even know it was cold and I didn’t know the time was passing. It was because the jealousy theory never left my mind.

If not jealousy, what other reason is there?

It was never a question I could answer. However, it was a question that Jung Yiyeon also would not answer. No, I wouldn’t even ask if he was jealous in the first place.

In the end, I wrapped my head around it and thought about it over and over again. Even though I constantly remind myself that the conclusion I was coming to was probably nothing more than my delusion. There was only one answer I could give to a question that could not be answered.

After standing under the warm water for a while and painstakingly breaking the chain of reverie, I got out of the bathroom and headed to my room after a long shower. It was called my room, but it was actually a living room. It was a two-bedroom house, but the small room was too small, so my brother occupied the large room, I had a bed in the living room, and the living room was used as my own. The small room was a common dressing room.

The small house into which I moved after my parents passed away had been my older brother’s home for a long time. Nevertheless, there was no inconvenience because my older brother rarely came home. Even if he did come, he would come at such a time without me realizing and would only sleep and leave, so it was not much different from living alone.

He put a choke hold on the younger brother he hadn’t seen in a long time. I looked in the mirror while putting on my shirt and my neck was red. It was pathetic, letting out a deep sigh. However, it was not enough to be a reason for an absence.

When I arrived at the office, Jung Yiyeon was already in the president’s office. I always got to work earlier than that, so I felt like something was wrong even though I arrived earlier than usual. I was such a prepared, loyal slave.

Looking back, I had a feeling that I was a little late for work after I went to Busan. It wasn’t on purpose, it was because I was so engrossed in his jealousy theory that I couldn’t break free from my delusion. I urged myself to come to my senses again.

After tidying up, I went into the president’s office with a cup of coffee as usual. Putting coffee on the desk of the man with his head stuck in the paperwork was the first start of my day.

But today was a little different from usual. Jung Yiyeon, who had never even looked at me, came in with coffee and was staring at me.

The owner of the gaze was Jung Yiyeon so my heart was burning like a high school girl’s heart on a spring day. I didn’t think he was trying to reprimand me for coming later than the boss.

Then also… jealousy? Are you jealous? So you keep looking at me? Am I crazy?

“Secretary Lee.”

“Yes.”

“You don’t look good..”

Could it be that I failed to manage my facial expressions? For a moment, my heart pounded. Did the corners of my lips go up? Was I unable to hide my inner feelings and even laughed out loud? Most of all, it was natural for the accident to come my way because it was something that I should not have let him know.

However, that was not what Jung Yiyeon pointed out.

“What’s wrong with your neck?”

“Yes?”

I turned my head and checked myself in the mirror attached to one side of the president’s office. I was surprised. The red marks on the neck were clearer than before. It would be strange for anyone to see.

“Was your partner a sadist last night? Does Secretary Lee like that?”

“Absolutely not.”

“You seem to be coming to work later than usual.”

“My brother choked me in the morning, and all that is left is the mark. I got into a fight with my brother in the morning…”

Fuck, Lee Won. He was like a gorilla who was ignorant of his power! Did it make sense to choke me with your forearm to make a mark like this in a sibling fight like some kind of mixed martial arts? That too, in such a short time.

It was even more absurd that I thought of other younger brothers he had besides me. Suddenly, I deeply mourned the subordinates who worked under my brother. For a very short time. Now, it was urgent to resolve Jung Yiyeon’s strange misunderstanding.

“These days, I don’t have enough time to sleep, and at night… I’m not that physically fit.”

“I thought I had given you enough rest.”

3 days after returning from Busan. Of course, there was no sex, but didn’t you make me work overtime and now you’re saying you gave me a break?

I couldn’t hide my face. Jung Yiyeon smiled softly. He pulled the end of my tie. As I reflexively followed the tie and bowed, Jung Yiyeon put his finger on my tie knot and pulled it tight.

The expression on my face as I stared blankly at him would have been stupid. The unraveled tie fell on the desk. His long, graceful fingers unbuttoned the top of my shirt.

“…Now?”

“Don’t want to? It’s been a long time.”

Don’t want to do what… He asked for sex as soon as I went to work. Of course, the morning hours were empty until the lunch schedule which was to be held outside. Still, while other employees were at work.

Jung Yiyeon, who had loosened the second button easily, rubbed my collarbone with his finger. What was contained in the finger that wiped the bruise on the neck was an outright temptation. But instead of going over, I grabbed his hand.

“If you were going to give me a break, you should have given me an on-time leave.”

It was nine o’clock in the early morning. It was a schedule where I couldn’t help but be tired just by washing and sleeping. No wonder Lee Won was nagging me because I lost weight.

“Is Secretary Lee’s house too far away?”

“It takes about an hour.”

It was far. It took about 50 minutes to an hour by public transport. An office worker whose salary was not small, but not too much couldn’t take a taxi unless the company’s expenses were being taken care of. It wasn’t like I was driving a car.

“You have a spare key for my car.”

I had the keys to his company car, and I also had the keys to his private car. It was because Jung Yiyeon used to go alone without a driver, so I always drove his car after I became a secretary.

“You can ride it on your way home from work, and when you go to work, you can pick me up and go to work with me.”

Jung Yiyeon said softly. Using his car for commuting. A word that seems to be caring, but not caring.

An uncontrollable thrill from that single word warmed my heart and filled my heart. It was thrilling.

“Hmph….”

My hand grabbed the back of his head and pulled him towards me. My body moved out of my control, and my lips overlapped his lips.

Jung Yiyeon’s eyes widened in surprise at my sudden kiss, but I didn’t care, I twisted my head and rubbed my lips more deeply.

I think I could hear him chuckling menacingly. Suddenly, a warm palm wrapped around my cheek. Unable to afford a luscious kiss, he shoved his tongue between my lips and skimmed through my even-sweet mouth.

It was ridiculous when he said he wanted to do it by unbuttoning my tie and shirt, but now I was in big trouble too. I wanted to hug him.

Give me the car key and let’s go to work together. Wasn’t this too sweet? It felt like my heart was melting.

As expected, Jung Yiyeon, you like me. I guess you like me. At first, on the topic of having a relationship without emotions, his feelings for me grew like a drizzle and got his clothes wet. All that was left was a matter of recognizing and acknowledging emotions.

I rubbed my face against the hand that grabbed my cheek. The warmth was so good that all the languid sighs came out. In my mind, I wanted to take his clothes off right away and rub my skin with him.

But on the other hand, the idea that the basics of love were push and pull crossed my mind. I wanted to make him all fussy. If I made him crave without being caught, wouldn’t Jung Yiyeon finally admit his feelings for me?

I want his chest to be pounding like mine. Such a childish but tickling desire warmed my heart.

So when his hand was about to dig into the shirt, I grabbed his hand and pulled it off. I also removed my tongue and lips and set a distance from him.

“Not now.”

My voice was filled with the heat and desire of the kiss, but I muttered bluntly, pretending nothing was wrong. Jung Yiyeon looked at me blankly, as the face that he had been holding in his hand face was taken away, his expression wrinkled. I struggled to swallow the smirk that came out of me, reaching out and gently rubbing his wrinkled forehead.

“We’ll have sex after work.”

His face is so cute that I want to bite it.

“So, how about leaving work on time today?”

How can a person be so cute? In the end, I couldn’t hide the leaking smile, so I gently raised his mouth and showed him my smile.

“Ha. Secretary Lee is really talented.”

I deliberately tilted my head, pretending not to understand. Jung Yiyeon was grunting, but there was a smile on his lips. A smiling face that seemed to be absurd and joyful, tickled my heart.

“I didn’t expect you to make your boss work even harder.”

I couldn’t stop laughing at his expression, which screamed he wanted to quit work immediately, so I smiled. I used to have a poker face in front of him, but suddenly I couldn’t keep my expressionless mask on. Jung Yiyeon also grinned as he gazed at me.

Not dating, just having sex. But now, this dynamic was more stimulating than my first love. Every moment was bad for the heart.

As I calmed down my excitement, I slowly returned to my original expressionless face and adjusted my clothes. I took a step back from Jung Yiyeon, carefully fastened the buttons, and tightened my tie.

“I’ll take my leave.”

I waved goodbye and left his office as if I had no regrets. I felt his gaze on the back of my head until the moment I left the room, but I ignored it.

But sitting in my seat outside the president’s office, I anxiously checked the clock all day. Sadly, every time I looked at the watch, the hands only moved for 5 minutes.