Only Good To Me Chapter 18.2 - #12th Grade, Seo Hangeon

“Stop the bike. Stop it, just for a second!”

Lee Won made a fuss, so I stopped for a moment. It was an alley in front of some abandoned factory. Lee Won quickly got off the bike. He was backing away, keeping a distance from me. I slowly walked and caught up to him.

The streetlights turned on. Tangled electrical wires were buried in the dark sky. The stopped Lee Won refused my words.

“No. I’m not leaving. I’m going to stay as I am now.”

I tried to hold his hand, but Lee Won raised his arm and avoided it. His red ears and cheeks were visible from the front. I looked down at him sternly and asked.

“Why. You don’t trust me?”

I was extremely pissed off, so the words did not come out nicely. Lee Won shook his head hard and sighed. I waited patiently. After a moment, he opened his mouth.

“I right now… right now I just want to keep going to school like this, and meet you occasionally. That’s what I want to do. It’s not much longer anyway. The college entrance exam is coming up and…. If something changes, I might have to be separated from you.”

Hearing that, I realized. The reason Won-i had not decided to live with his mother, even belatedly, was because of me. He had decided to stay in Busan, in Lee Geunwoo’s house, to be with me. My anger towards Lee Geunwoo burned into a much more complex emotion. Unaware that he had revealed his true feelings, Lee Won continued to speak with his small mouth.

“So if I have to live in Changwon.”

“That won’t happen. If you say you don’t want to transfer and want to stay in Busan, your mother will allow it.”

“You don’t know that. If she’ll allow it….”

I cut Won-i off and asserted.

“She will. I’ll talk to her. Do you think I could stand being separated from you?”

I slowly reached my arm out to his shoulder. Lee Won, who had faintly frowned, pushed my arm away again. The moment I saw him pushing me away, a stubborn streak flared up in me.

“Ah, but still…. It’s fine. It’s okay.”

“Yeah, I’m okay too, let’s go. If you can’t leave, I’ll get you out. I’ll make you breakfast before you go to school, and pick you up after self-study, I’ll do everything.”

“I said it’s okay. I did.”

“I don’t go back on my word, you know. Especially to you. There’s nothing to worry about, so let’s go.”

I grabbed his elbow and pulled him towards the bike. Lee Won resisted being pulled by me, putting all his strength into his two feet.

“No, Hangeon. You told me to just endure a little longer. I’m enduring it well, so why….”

At those words, I finally exploded and shouted.

“I didn’t know it was like this! I thought he just threw a fucking fit about your grades sometimes, did I know he was at a level to pull that shit while you’re eating! Why didn’t you tell me!!”

If I had known it was like this, I would have taken him out long ago. When I thought about how there must be more he has not told me until now, I was on the verge of losing my mind. Lee Won mumbled.

“I told you it doesn’t matter. I just have to close my eyes and ears for a moment, I….”

“It matters to me, to me. To me who likes you!”

I continued to get heated, unaware that my voice was getting louder.

“It’s because of me that you got caught, skipping the academy!”

“It’s not your fault.”

Lee Won seemed completely exhausted. But his will to not leave the house right now was firm.

“Even if I get caught skipping the academy again… it doesn’t matter, to me. The first time is hard. The second time isn’t that scary. But I don’t want this current situation to change. I just… want to study and meet you occasionally, that’s enough.”

A wax doll. Seeing Lee Won stringing out words with a blank expression, I thought of that word.

“It’s always been like that, so it’s okay. Even if he says harsh things, I just have to not listen. I’m used to the bathroom thing now. I think I kind of know how to deal with it now….”

“Fuck!”

I could not listen to the end of his words and shouted, twisting my body. I wanted to go to Lee Geunwoo’s clinic right now, and mess him up, telling him to prepare to be pointed at as a domestic abuser. I tried to grab his hand to get him on the bike, but Won-i got angry in his own way.

“Don’t shout…!”

Lee Won, who was about to get angry at me, swallowed the end of his sentence. And he started to take deep breaths.

“I didn’t tell you because I knew you’d be like this. Because I knew you’d be like this!”

His gloomy voice deepened. Lee Won, who was more emotional than ever before, struggled lowly.

“Why won’t you listen to what I have to say. Just like Dad!”

At those words, I let go of Lee Won’s hand. When I turned back with a completely changed expression, Lee Won had already averted his gaze far away from me. His face, which was breathing with difficulty, was pale.

I was really confident. Confident that I could live with him. But if my words and actions made Lee Won feel that way, then that is what it is. It is useless to argue now, asking if he dated me without knowing my personality. I answered in a cool voice.

“What should I do. Tell me.”

“…Let’s have some time apart for a while.”

I clenched my jaw at the fucking irrelevant answer. I lost my temper again. When Lee Won says things like this to me, I feel like I am being robbed of myself. It is not the feeling of losing Lee Won, but the feeling of being robbed of myself that makes me angry.

Amidst the boiling anger, I spat out a single phrase. It was because I did not know what kind of crazy stunt I would pull if I did not at least say this.

“Let’s go. We have to eat.”

I grabbed Lee Won’s hand again and put him on the bike. Lee Won was dragged along blankly. The bike flowed through the darkened alley and arrived in front of a snack bar. It was a snack bar we had originally planned to come to together. I opened the door in a state of not being in my right mind. The sliding iron door made an irritated sound.

I came to a place with other people on purpose. Lee Won also mechanically walked behind me. Right now, he does not even have the mind to search for a bus stop and take a bus to leave. His head must be boiling as much as mine.

I went inside and ordered a few things. Lee Won did not say a single word. Neither did I. Until the dishes came out one by one, I rested my arm on the chair next to me and just stared at the wall.

“Everything’s out now.”

“Thank you, owner.”

“Just call me auntie, what’s with the owner!”

“Yes. Auntie, yes. Thank you, Auntie.”

I thought it would seem strange if two guys came in and created a cold atmosphere, so I was extra friendly. Steam rose from the food that filled the table. Neither I nor Lee Won had any intention of touching the food. Lee Won had his head bowed low, rubbing his fingernails, with an even harder expression than before.

He is surely blaming himself for the shock of saying something he should not have. And well, I also played a part in making Lee Won say something that crossed the line. So I have no justification to make an issue of those words.

I did not understand why he was being so stubborn even when I was offering a solution, but I had this thought. If it were me, I would not have lived listening to such words from Lee Geunwoo in the first place. I would have fought him with my fists since elementary school, and I would have tormented him by doing the opposite of everything he wanted. But that is me, not Lee Won. Won-i is struggling in his own way.

Just as I am like that, Won-i would not understand this side of me either. I was getting anxious looking at his hardened cheeks. Whatever. The one who wants to hold him has to make a move. I sighed and stood up.

I nonchalantly went and sat next to him. Even at the sound of the chair being pulled out, Lee Won only flinched for a moment and did not look at me. I pretended to be doing something else, fiddling with my phone, before turning my head to him.

“Doesn’t your neck hurt, keeping it bowed down.”

“….”

“Even if you don’t want to see my face, lift your neck. You’ll get turtle neck. If you get turtle neck, you’ll be even cuter, and that won’t do.”

I started the engine by tapping his shoulder with my fingers.

“Hurry. I said lift your head. If you have time, give me a look too. If you get pissed off seeing my face, you can hit me.”

Lee Won bowed his head even lower, pressing it towards the wall, and his throat was bobbing as if he was about to cry at any moment. I reached my hand towards that neck. I grabbed his chin and made him look at me. The jet-black eyes in front of me were on the verge of crying.

‘Ugh, fuck.’

As gently as possible, I swept his cheek with the back of my hand and caressed his chin.

Rather than all sorts of words, words thrown out forcibly to reconcile, I wanted to say this the most. I just wanted to call his name.

“Won—ah.”

Lee Won swallowed something that was about to burst out, down his throat. The thing that had been soaking his eyes and throat with moisture just a moment ago disappeared.

“I’m here. You know, next to you.”

“…Yeah….”

Whether it was hoarse or strained, I could not tell, but it was a weak voice anyway.

“If you know, then that’s enough.”

I glanced outside once and sat down closer to Lee Won. I am going to kiss Lee Won from now on. I boldly brought my face close and trapped him in my arms.

“It’s cold outside. Let’s not go out and just kiss here.”

Lee Won did not refuse and opened his mouth. The opened flesh was sweet and soft. I opened my mouth wide and buried myself in it. The breath that came into my mouth trembled. I kissed him while putting my fingers inside the collar of the clothes wrapped around his neck and touching his neck. I sucked on his lips as if to wear them down and then said.

“I like you so fucking much.”

“Me too.”

Lee Won broke down everything that had been hardened. And he continued.

“I… like you.”

At the voice that seemed to be showing me everything inside the collapsed dam, I grabbed him by the scruff of his neck. I gripped his neck and collar tightly and moved my jaw roughly. I mumbled while crushing the inside of his mouth with my tongue.

“You think I’ll just stand by and watch you get treated like that by Lee Geunwoo? You like that?”

“I like you….”

“I shouted like that bastard, and I didn’t even listen to you. You like that?”

“Ugh….”

Lee Won nodded his head and cut off his breathing. Even while suffocating from the heat swirling inside his mouth, he answered every time.

“Do you like it when I wield my tongue too?”

“I like you.”

The chair scraped on the floor with a screech. I pushed him completely against the wall. I sucked on his lips and swallowed his tongue while pushing him hard. With one hand, I grabbed his hair, and with the other, I gripped his waist.

“You like it when I touch you here too?”

“I like it.”

“Even if I strip you naked and do whatever I want?”

“I like it….”

“Even if I put it in you whenever I want? Even if you tell me not to because it hurts, I keep going until the end?”

After saying that, I pulled my lips away and looked at Lee Won. Lee Won wiped his chin and nodded. My heart pounded uncontrollably.

“Won—ah. I want to make you go crazy.”

Come and come and come and feel it so much that you can only think of that, no matter what anyone else does. That thought remained only in my mind.

So that your body remembers that there is someone who cherishes you like this.

Being caressed by me, held by me, cherished by me, loved by me, so that the memory is so intense that it cannot escape your body and mind. To press myself firmly into your black eyes, into your head, to be engraved into your five senses.

So that you are not affected even if someone else treats you carelessly in a place where I am not. I want to hold you like that.

“Want to go do it?”

My eyes and breath were ferocious as I said those words. I looked at Lee Won with eyes that were on the verge of rushing into a fight. Won-i did not avoid my gaze.

The gym was cold. The office was a mess because it had not been cleaned, and I could not just lay him down on the floor. Most of the practice and training is done outside the ring. I concluded that it was best to lay my clothes on the ring and lay him down. I wiped the ring floor with a squeegee, and then wiped it again with a dry cloth.

I laid my jumper in the corner of the ring and laid Lee Won down. I dragged over a power strip and turned on a mini heater. I hung the padded jacket Won-i was wearing on the rope and took off his school uniform jacket, vest, and shirt in order.

The sign’s light reflected on the mirror that filled one wall. Various shapes flashed, illuminating the unlit gym. Below it, in the corner of the mirror, our naked bodies were reflected. It was night.

“There’s… a CCTV over there?”

“That one’s a fake. I turned off the real one.”

I remember it vividly. The color of the neon sign lights changing on Lee Won’s white body. Various colors spread over his skin. On top of that, a body imbued with the warm light from the heater was beneath me. I wanted to suck up all of that warm body, swallow it, and make it one with my own.

Lee Won’s body came alive every time my rough fingers passed over it. I would think that my hands did not suit this body, but when I saw the flesh held in my hands tremble, my thoughts would blur. I was seized by the impulse to torment and crush it more with these hands.

Sex was not sex. I could not just lump everything we did together naked with Lee Won as sex. If I had to describe all the breaths and gazes we exchanged in one word, I would just say, you.

That day, you clung to me unusually hard.

“Ah…, ugh….”

It might have been because it was cold, but he held his lower body tightly together and hugged my waist. From the moment I unbuttoned his shirt, he breathed deeply, showing his excitement. He even made nasal sounds while rubbing his head on the ring floor.

I was excited and moved my jaw even more messily. I sucked and chewed on the flesh of his chest as if I were going to put it all in my mouth. Lee Won reflexively lifted his hips and trembled. Lips and skin met hotly and became slick. I do not think I have ever sucked on something so hard. But still, I was thrilled. The sticky sound made when it was sucked into a vacuum and then released, thwack, thwack, echoed above the ring.

“Ah, agh. Hangeon.”

The legs wrapped around my waist kept trembling. Without answering, I sucked until my jaw felt numb, and then pulled my mouth away. I laid my head sideways on Lee Won’s chest. I purposely rubbed the scratchy, shaved part of my hair against his nipple. Lee Won writhed.

“Ah. It’s prickly, don’t…!”

I did not listen and continued, while pinching the other areola. I tapped the very top point of the pinched flesh that popped up, the tip of the nipple, with my finger. Won-i’s breathing collapsed and he twisted his body. The hand that had been holding the rope came down limply.

I took off his pants like a madman. I groped his body while pouring my rough breaths onto his chest. I bit his nipple while grabbing his ass, kneaded both buttocks in one hand, then spread his legs wide and grabbed his thighs. There was no order or gentleness. I held Lee Won and touched his body like crazy.

“Delicious. Fucking delicious.”

“Haah…, ugh….”

Won-i enjoyed it, letting out white puffs of breath. As I kneaded his waist and thighs like that, my hands touched his hole, his testicles, and his groin. I squeezed him hard enough to leave red handprints on his buttocks and thighs, and rubbed his genitals. Lee Won clung to me and let out a loud moan I had never heard before. Ahh! It was an exclamation close to annoyance.

I immediately went down his body and took his penis in my mouth. I sucked it up slowly and hard enough to make my tongue tingle, and then pulled away with a thwacking sound. Lee Won threw his head back and lifted his hips. As if surprised, he gasped and clutched my clothes.

Three or four times, after sucking him hard enough to make his pupils dilate, I took him in my mouth and sucked lightly, rolling my tongue. His penis dripped with fluid. A completely melted moan also flowed from his throat.

“Huuung, ugh, ahh.”

As my head moved, his hips also bounced up and down. I licked him slickly, sweeping my tongue up and down his length. Won-i called my name in a voice that sounded like he was about to cry.

“Hangeon… Hangeon.”

“What, you like it that much? Are you going crazy?”

“Yeah… ugh.”

Won-i, who was twisting his hips in agony, lifted his head and said to me.

“Me too… do you….”

“Just make the sounds. I like the sounds you make when I suck you off.”

The ring’s ropes swayed again, and Lee Won collapsed and lay down. I wanted Won-i to narrow his throat and moan for me. The hotter and wetter my mouth became, the more he made sounds according to my wishes.

“Aht, ha…, uuuungh, ugh…!”

The moans rise without end. When I pressed my tongue hard against the head of his penis and rubbed it, Lee Won trembled from the back of his knees. The fact that I was making Lee Won lose his mind this much shook my own mind as well.

“Who sucks you off this well?”

“You….”

“Who you?”

“Seo Hangeon… huut. Ah…!”

I lifted my head from between his legs. I looked down at the panting face right below me. I held his genitals and shook them, tilting my head and asking.

“Are you mad.”

Lee Won looked up at me with wet eyes.

“No.”

“Do you hate me.”

“No. No.”

“Are you going to go and do this with some other guy?”

“No, uht.”

Lee Won swallowed a breath that was about to give out and looked me in the eye, blinking. I thought he would suffocate and die if I kissed him, so I stuck the tip of my tongue to his nipple and swirled it around. His hips shot up, and more precum flowed out.

I quickly moved my head down and swallowed his penis. I wrapped my tongue around the head and, soaking it with a lot of saliva, sucked hard. I sucked with gulping sounds and then pushed it into my throat.

“Haaaah…… Agh…!”

The high-pitched moan became taut like a string about to break. I squeezed the head with my throat and sucked the base with my lips, while gently pressing his testicles with one hand. The neon sign light stained his white thighs. There, the bones and muscles pulsed in a regular rhythm, bulging, bulging. Lee Won loosened his grip on my hair. His fingertips also began to tremble finely.

I changed the movement of my thumb that was pressing on his nipple. I pushed it in various directions and flicked it. Huut, letting out a single scream, Won-i came. A considerable amount of semen gushed out from the beginning to the end of his orgasm. I sent it all down my throat. His genitals, having reached a high orgasm, did not stop coming for a while. Spurt, spurt. As he shot the last drops onto my palate and tongue, Won-i’s fingertips trembled.

I lifted my head and looked at his limp waist, and then stuck out my tongue again. I licked hard from his hole to his testicles with the wide surface of my tongue. After licking between his buttocks and his perineum several times, I sucked on the head again. Lee Won made a nasal sound and straightened his toes. The pleasure had not ended yet. Taking the opportunity, I pressed his testicles hard enough to hurt. The feet on my shoulders jumped and twitched.

Still, I continued to suck and lick. Ah, I feel like I could eat it all until it melts away. A dick this pretty.

Lee Won pulled on my shoulder as if to scratch it. I followed his lead, moving my body up to face him. I knew he was planning to do something, but I did not expect this. Lee Won sat up and pushed me towards the ring ropes.

“Why?”

The ropes swayed, and I ended up sitting with my body leaning against them. Lee Won did not answer and lowered his upper body. He settled himself between my legs, curling his naked body, and slowly reached out his hand. Lee Won’s fingers wrapped around my penis. Lee Won’s lips fidgeted as he hesitated for a moment before his next action.

More than that, the line of his body wrapped around his clean back captured my attention. The bright red neon sign was soaking his waist and buttocks. I traced down his spine with my index finger. The round buttocks at the end of his neat spine twitched slightly. Something, I could not tell if it was dust or fuzz, swayed this time in the yellow light. I chewed on a small curse.

The moment Lee Won hesitantly tried to bring his lips to the head of my penis, I grabbed his waist and laid him down again. I turned him over and got on top of him. My hands were still gripping his buttocks tightly.

“Your ass. Lift it.”

I said, rubbing my genitals between his buttocks. Won-i slowly began to arch his back. He was lifting only his buttocks up from a prone position. I could feel his awkwardness, but Won-i did his best for me. That slow and clumsy movement was so lewd that I felt like I was suffocating. I grabbed his pelvis and guided it further upwards, saying.

“More. So I can put it underneath.”

His back arched deeply downwards and his buttocks rose higher. I slid my genitals in under his testicles, which were revealed between his thighs.

“Close your legs.”

The insides of his thighs gently squeezed my penis.

“Ah….”

Won-i let out a moan and then stopped. I looked forward. In the distant mirror, my eyes met Won-i’s. Won-i looked back and forth between my eyes in the mirror and our naked, entangled bodies, with a complex expression. He seemed scared, excited, and also in disbelief. Even to my eyes, our reflection in the dark mirror was, for lack of a better word, obscene.

I pretended not to see his gaze and said nothing. I just buried my face in his neck while stroking his body. I breathed in his scent and licked him here and there. It was an act of reassuring him that it was okay, that it was okay because it was me, and Won-i gradually relaxed and lowered his head.

I licked his back while slowly putting it in and taking it out. Every time I parted his thighs, his hole was visible between his buttocks. It’s there, as if tempting me. I felt my breath growing rougher than before.

My excitement was not because of my penis moving in and out between his tightly pressed thighs. It was because of his naked body lying face down beneath me, the posture of him offering his buttocks to me, and the clear skin that stretched from his neck to his ass.

The tender flesh trembled and thrilled beneath me. Lee Won gripped the jumper spread on the floor tightly and panted. With my movements, his hair swayed quickly and desolately, and the shoulder blades beneath it writhed, showing off a luscious form.

I wanted to shove my genitals in him unbearably, and I wanted to make him shake more and pant more.

“Ha, fuck.”

I spread his buttocks and rubbed my penis hard between them. It felt like his flesh was sucking in mine. Lee Won’s hole was warm. My penis and testicles were pressed against that small place.

Lee Won bit his clothes and breathed, huuuung, huuuung, with his eyes closed. I could feel that the head of my penis was also sufficiently wet. I was seized by a sharp impulse. The pleasure rising from the base of my genitals drove me to the edge.

If I put it in here, if I tear it open and put it in, it will be a vicious act.

I barely managed to endure the vicious act and buried my face in his back. I covered his whole body with mine and hugged him. I whispered while quickly touching Lee Won’s genitals with my right hand.

“I want to fuck you. Won—ah.”

Lee Won twisted his lower body slightly. I licked his ear from behind, and kissed his shoulder and neck without rest. I held him, pressing my voice and kisses into his whole body. A harsh rubbing sound also came from his genitals. When I bit his ear, Lee Won’s legs trembled. Before I knew it, his genitals, which were wet enough to make my hand slick, spewed semen again. The round and smooth head disappeared and reappeared in and out of the foreskin, spewing semen several more times.

I cautiously asked him, who was still trembling.

“I want to mark that I’m the one who sucked you off like this, can I?”

“Yeah….”

“I’m going to put mine on you, okay?”

Lee Won nodded his head hard. I turned him over onto his back. I started to shake my genitals with our foreheads touching. Lee Won, despite being weak from the successive orgasms, reached his hand towards my genitals and tried to touch the base and testicles. The place his fingers touched tingled.

“Where should I spray it?”

“Anywhere.”

“On your cheek?”

“Yes.”

“In your mouth?”

“Yeah….”

“Hah…….”

Lee Won lifted both his legs and wrapped them tightly around my waist and buttocks. At the pleasure that shot through my penis, my hips also bucked. I bit my lip and glared down below.

“Want to try saying, ‘cum for me,’ just once?”

Won-i took a few seconds to prepare himself, then whispered, “cum for me.” I shook my arm quickly. I held his shoulder tightly and came while biting his chest. While I was coming, I sucked up several pieces of flesh from his chest. Lee Won made a sound of pain.

I lifted my head while composing my breath. My semen had wet a long line from his solar plexus to his navel. Red marks remained dark all over Lee Won’s body.

“Next time, inside. Inside here. I came on top of you this time… but next time, inside here.”

I pressed his stomach repeatedly and muttered to myself, and Won-i nodded his head slightly each time.

“Huh? I want to go in.”

I observed Lee Won’s languid face while stroking his cheek with my thumb. He smiles weakly when I put his hair in my mouth and chew on it. I pushed my finger into the small mole between his buttocks. The flesh there is different from the entrance. It’s soft, as if it’s sucking you in. I teased him, pretending to put it in but not, making him anxious.

“Even my finger gets stuck like this, do you think my dick will fit?”

Lee Won’s eyes briefly went to my genitals. For some reason, this time he doesn’t tear his eyes away easily and stares for a long time. It felt good. My middle finger went in about halfway.

“Still, would you like me to put it in?”

Lee Won, who was panting heavily, nodded his head once.

“I’ll put it in for you later. All the way, until it won’t go in any further. I’ll put it in for you….”

While I whispered in his ear, Lee Won squirted several times. I could feel the pressure on my finger. He likes it when I say things like this. It doesn’t seem like it’s because he’s perverted, is it because it’s reassuring?

While I was thinking that, Lee Won sat up. Seeing him pull his legs together, I thought, ‘oops’.

“Why. Are your feet cold?”

“No, a little.”

There was no heater on the lower side, so it was understandable. I pulled up my underwear and zipped up my pants, then knelt in front of Lee Won with my legs spread.

I grabbed Won-i’s two ankles from the floor and brought them onto my thighs. I took off his socks and held his toes in my hands; they were like ice.

“Damn, they’re cold!”

I gathered both his feet and put them inside my turtleneck knit. I pressed the soles of his feet against my chest. Lee Won’s eyes widened in surprise.

“Huh? It’s really warm.”

“Yeah. Let’s warm them up here.”

I put his feet inside my clothes and kneaded them for a long time. The cold toes slowly melted in my hands. We were in the middle of talking about body temperature and constitution when I suddenly changed the subject.

“I’ll also endure not venting my frustrations because of Lee Geunwoo.”

“….”

“But still, tell me everything that happened. I don’t want to be a clueless idiot grinning next to you. Won—ah.”

“Okay.”

“And if that happens again, call me. You know I know where your house is.”

“What building and unit number?”

I immediately called out the correct answer. Lee Won tapped the top of my head as a sign of praise.

“Tell me whenever you want to leave. No matter what happens, I’ll take responsibility and get you out.”

Won-i, who was listening to my words quietly, moved his lips.

“So….”

“Yeah, I’m crazy.”

“No, sor….”

“What. It’s lukewarm? Hold on.”

I didn’t want Lee Won to bring up an apology to me about the issue with Lee Geunwoo, so I talked nonsense. I blew warm breath on his feet, licked them, and then put them in my mouth altogether. Lee Won burst out into a laugh that was like a scream.

I like the low tone of Lee Won’s voice, which has a gloomy feel to it. At first, I thought it didn’t suit his face, but the more I see it, the more I think it’s a perfect fit for him. I like it even more because it’s a voice that can’t produce rash behavior. And… it’s fucking, atmospheric, and… sexy. When he moans in that voice. It drives me crazy.

I changed my gaze and shot a look at Lee Won, shouting.

“You want to have some time apart? Huh?”

“No, no!”

Lee Won scratched his neck and made an excuse.

“I think I got a little heated earlier.”

“Get heated a lot. I had no intention of breaking up anyway.”

“….”

“You. Don’t even think about breaking up with me. This is really, me holding back.”

I scratched the sole of his foot hard. As I tormented him with my four fingers, Lee Won’s body, which was leaning against the ropes, heaved in pain. After the laughter slowly subsided, only the noise from outside could be heard. In the silence, Lee Won tried to say something. At that moment, that sound rumbled from both our stomachs at the same time.

Grumble.

He couldn’t quite bring himself to put a hand on his stomach, which was stained with my semen, but Lee Won said, fiddling with the area around his navel.

“I’m hungry.”

His cheeks look more delicious when viewed from above. Even more so when he’s talking. I wanted to suck on his cheeks right away, but I gave up because it would be a bit much to do it with the mouth that had just been on his feet. Instead, I put his toes in my mouth and melted them a little more. I put his white socks on for him, planted a kiss on his ankle, and stood up.

“Let’s go, let’s get some food!”

I wiped Won-i’s stomach with a wet wipe and even buttoned up his shirt for him. I also roughly wiped the place where we had lain. While I was putting away the mini heater and the power strip, Lee Won took a lap around the gym. He seemed impressed by the boxing shoes, and stood in front of them asking various questions. I explained that they were the director’s and were over 10 years old. Oh. He lets out a stiff exclamation.

Won-i was as curious as he was smart and sensitive. He would look at the plaques and trophies, be happy to find my name written on one, sniff the punching bag, and marvel at the soft material of the floor. He also showed interest in the arm guards and knee pads I wear.

I came out after finishing cleaning up the office. Lee Won was standing next to the ring. He was touching the gloves hanging on the rope. I hated him touching things that other guys use, so I shouted.

“Don’t touch it, it’s dirty!”

“…It’s used for exercise, what’s dirty about it.”

“Only touch mine, it’s in my locker.”

“Isn’t yours dirty?”

Won-i said that, and then smiled a smile that no one but me could see. The sharp corners of his eyes disappeared. Won-i answered his own question.

“Yours isn’t dirty.”

Won-i, who turned towards me, said ambitiously.

“I want to try boxing practice with you too.”

‘Me too’? Does he still remember what he overheard from the noonas near the pool hall a long time ago? I silently led Lee Won into the ring. Lee Won stood hesitantly in the middle of the ring. His posture, standing in his school uniform, was so out of place with the ring that it was hilarious.

“Why do you keep laughing.”

“It’s nothing, give it a try. Come on. I’ll give you a special lesson.”

I pulled Lee Won’s body and hugged him from behind. I tapped the inside of his thigh and said.

“Alright. Straight punch. Legs a little wider than shoulder-width. Front and back.”

After fixing the angle of his elbow, I even made a fist for him myself. Lee Won’s fist was truly funny. I could not stop laughing after seeing his clenched hand. I explained how to rotate the lower body to put weight into the punch. As I kept chuckling while explaining, Won-i asked in a voice that was laughing along with me.

“What’s so funny.”

“You’re a sticky rice pancake, that’s what.”

“What is.”

“It’s nothing. Okay, like this, with the feeling that this part is hanging from a string. Like a spring bouncing, go forward hard and then back to your original position in an instant. Got it? Ready? Should I try it at my speed?”

“No, don’t…!”

I grabbed Lee Won’s fist and punched the air with about 70% of the speed and power I usually use. His arm must have been pulled a lot. As expected, Lee Won staggered greatly. He did not fall because I was holding him firmly from behind.

“Going again?”

“No, wait…!”

I grabbed his other fist and threw it forward hard. Lee Won lost his center of gravity and staggered again. I hugged his stomach tightly to straighten him up. He had not even done anything, but Won-i was breathing fast and smiling. Seeing him having fun made me happy too.

After patting his butt to fix his posture, I went in front of Lee Won. We stood facing each other and I took a defensive stance. I beckoned with my finger for him to throw a punch, but Won-i dawdled.

“What about the gloves?”

“You don’t need them. Just throw it.”

“Aren’t you supposed to, like, block it on your wrist? With something like a sponge.”

A sponge! The sparring practice mitts look like a sponge to Won-i’s eyes! I burst out laughing and beckoned with my arm again.

“I don’t need it. Just hit me, I said.”

“You, you’re looking down on me, aren’t you.”

“It’s respect. It’s the very deep meaning of me receiving my beloved with my bare body.”

Won-i was about to retort but stopped. I opened both my palms wide and waited for Won-i’s straight punch. It was a stance with only my hands open from the basic guard position. Won-i clenched both his fists hard. I pressed my lips together tightly to hold back my laughter.

Won-i’s shoulders lowered, and his gaze also focused on my palms. He was ready and the punch was about to fly. Suddenly, not a fist, but Lee Won’s head flew towards my face. He wrapped his arms around my waist and buried his face in my palms.

Won-i’s lips touched both my palms in succession. My body froze for a moment. It was a silent kiss. Lee Won quietly rested his head on my shoulder. I quickly came to my senses and hugged him.

Wow, he got me.

“Do you want to die, you.”

“I can’t do boxing. It’s difficult.”

Lee Won changed the subject. I did not answer and planted a return kiss on his hair. What a cute bastard. I was thinking I wanted to stop saying the same thing, but Won-i threw another attack.

“You too… tell me if your father and sister give you a hard time. You never tell me anything.”

“There’s nothing to tell?”

“…You can talk about your mother too.”

One, two, straight, power hook. I got hit by them all. I just kept getting hit consecutively, but I felt amazing.

“Stop with the cute act. You want to get naked and lie down again?”

“I can’t, I’m too hungry.”

“What do you want to eat.”

Won-i thought for a moment and then answered.

“This time, let’s eat what you want to eat.”

“What I want to eat? You can’t.”

“Why.”

“You can’t eat yourself.”

“….”

The menu candidates were narrowed down to stir-fried octopus, tripe, and shrimp stew and spicy stir-fried chicken, and the final choice was, as always, passed to Lee Won. After asking me a few questions, Lee Won chose the spicy stir-fried chicken. I put on my leather jumper and opened the window. As I was rummaging through my pockets looking for the gym key, Lee Won said something out of the blue.

“Here, light this.”

A pack of cigarettes must have been on the floor. I quickly snatched the one resting on Lee Won’s hand.

“Light what.”

“I’ve never seen you smoke a cigarette, me.”

“What for, to see it.”

“Just……. Vicarious satisfaction?”

I turned back with a blank expression. As soon as our eyes met, Lee Won turned his head and pretended to be doing something else. I had no intention of listening to such a request, but since he had been so cute today, I decided to make a special exception.

When I put the end of the cigarette in my mouth and took out a lighter, Lee Won moved to a distant spot on his own. So the smell would not get on him. I rested my arm on the windowsill and blew the smoke out the window. Not a word was exchanged. I smoked, and Lee Won watched me. Lee Won, who was standing in a corner of the gym watching me with wide eyes, said a word.

“Oh, that… looks like fireworks.”

He was talking about the falling cigarette ash. If you control the strength of your fingers well and flick it just as the ash is about to fall, the spark spreads wide and falls down with a rustle.

“This? Fireworks?”

“Yeah.”

To call this fireworks. It was a strange connection, but I let it slide. A moment later, I flicked the end again to show off my skill, and Lee Won was delighted. I looked at him with narrowed eyes and bragged.

“Not just anyone can do this. You need to have the know-how.”

Lee Won answered playfully.

“I can’t praise you for that.”

Anyway, we watched fireworks together that day.

“Seomyeon at twelve, right?”

On our way out, we talked about our Saturday plans. Won-i always confirms the schedule before our appointments. It’s cute how he asks about every little thing, so I answer them all.

“Yeah. The wait at that grill steak house might be long. Come prepared.”

“Okay. The movie is at 3:20?”

“Yeah.”

“I want to ride a bike too.”

“In this cold?”

I glanced at the pondering Won-i and answered.

“Let’s eat steak, get dessert, go to the movies, and ride bikes, let’s do it all.”

“Let’s eat fish cakes after riding bikes.”

“Let’s ride bikes, eat fish cakes, and play the claw machine, let’s do it all, fuck it!”

“That sounds fun.”

A few days passed like that, and I received this text. On Saturday, on the stairs of the Seomyeon subway station.

[I’m in Seomyeon, where in Seomyeon should I be? lolol]

It was our last night together, our last late-night movie, and our last message.