Kill Your X Chapter 91

I tried to squeeze my brain as much as possible, but no decent results came out.

“Hmm….”

“That’s so harsh. To think you have that little affection for me.”

“How is this connected to affection?”

Seo Seunghan immediately protested.

“How is it not related when you can’t even come up with a single pet name to call someone you love? I have so many pet names I want to use for you. Cutie, Squishy, Whiny, Happy….”

I deliberately chose and reeled off a list of absurd pet names to provoke his competitive spirit. Even so, Seo Seunghan just wore a blank expression.

It felt like we’d be up all night just trying to pick a pet name, so in the end, I was the first to wave the white flag.

“Just forget what I just said. I guess I asked for something too difficult from you. I didn’t realize that growing up in different environments could affect things like this.”

“Just wait a little longer.”

“It’s really okay. Just call me Sunbae, like you’re used to. Or what about Hyung? Wouldn’t that make more sense?”

“Hyung, Hyung….”

After repeating it, Seo Seunghan shook his head.

“I’m not sure. To be honest, Sunbae doesn’t really feel like a hyung.”

“What’s wrong with me? A one-year difference is no difference at all?”

“It’s not really that, um. Anyway, you’re not a hyung.”

While he couldn’t come up with a new pet name, Seo Seunghan was strangely firm about that part.

“If you don’t like hyung, you could just call me by my name. Like, Gyujin-ah.”

A spark returned to Seo Seunghan’s eyes.

“Is that okay?”

“Why wouldn’t it be? It’s common for lovers to call each other by name. Lots of people drop the honorifics regardless of age. For the record, you don’t have to keep using formal speech with me. I let it be because it seemed like a habit.”

At that, he gazed at me intently and slowly parted his lips.

“Song Gyujin.”

My shoulders flinched for a moment. I was the one who suggested it, yet I couldn’t control my expression.

“Gyujin-ah.”

The name I had heard thousands of times in my life felt completely new coming from his mouth. Was it always that lovely-sounding? I blinked my eyes rapidly in my fluster as Seo Seunghan continued to call my name like a chant. My face was turning red in real time.

“A pet name. I’ve finally thought of one.”

He wrapped his arm around my waist and whispered in my ear. He was so close I felt like he could see right into the blood vessels of my burning earlobe.

“My Gyujin. There is no better pet name in the world.”

“What the. How anticlimactic.”

I childishly berated him, saying he didn’t have a single ounce of creativity. But Seo Seunghan just smiled, pleased.

“Call me the same way, too. My Seunghan, like that.”

“I don’t like it, it sounds like a direct translation. Whiny.”

“Why am I Whiny? The one who whines every day isn’t me, it’s you, Sunbae. Just last night, pinned under me, you were going on about how you couldn’t do it anymore….”

“Shut up.”

He did shut his mouth as I said, but this time his hand started to creep down to my butt. Then, he cupped my soft ass cheek in his big hand and squeezed. Without a change in his expression, truly a shameless whiny, and in broad daylight too.

“You cry a lot too. With this.”

Without warning, I snatched Seo Seunghan’s cock. When I pressed the tip of the head firmly with my thumb, his nose wrinkled. I could feel his dick twitching inside his pants. At its impressive size, I stealthily let go of his hand. But it was already too late.

“You’re right. Sunbae, you’re a genius.”

I could never get used to the combination of his strangely soulless tone and his unfocused black eyes, no matter how many times I experienced it. It was newly terrifying every time.

“Uh… Seunghan-ah?”

My habit of making reckless provocations regardless of the situation, spectacularly ruining my life. Could I ever fix it in this lifetime?

I raised both hands high in the air as a sign of surrender.

“Seunghan-ah. My Seunghan. As a human being, let’s skip today. I’m seriously dead tired. I feel like I’m still stretched open down there.”

“No. You have to live up to your ‘Whiny’ pet name.”

“You crazy bastard.”

Seo Seunghan hoisted me up and headed for the bedroom. He always gave his all when he was with me. He’d pretend to go easy on me with his words, but his actions were a completely different story.

I passed out and woke up late at night. I fell into thought while admiring the sight of him sleeping soundly next to me, a rare occurrence.

They say a person’s life follows their name. I wonder if the same applies to pet names.

If so, I should start calling Seo Seunghan by a different pet name starting tomorrow. One that’s relatively easier for me to handle. For example.

“Bunny.”

Sincerely, I think it would be better for me to live out my natural lifespan. I never imagined I’d be outmatched by someone else in terms of sex drive.

“My dear bunny, do you have a conscience?”

“Umm….”

“No? Are you going to keep living life teasing me with your cock whenever you want? You don’t care whether I get exhausted or not?”

As I kept muttering, a wrinkle formed between his smooth brows. It looked like he’d actually wake up if I pushed it any further, so I stopped being mischievous. After pulling the blanket up to his neck, I whispered one last time before leaning against my pillow.

“Sleep well. Sweet dreams. My Seunghan.”

Did he somehow understand the meaning of my words in his sleep? His slightly furrowed expression softened. Without knowing when, I too fell into a deep sleep. It was the first day we had ever napped side-by-side.

✽✽✽

We went on an overseas trip together. Originally, we planned to visit famous tourist attractions in each country as Seo Seunghan wanted, but we changed our plans due to a variable that came up midway. It was only our second day in Spain.

“Excuse me, are you perhaps Song Gyujin? The one who exposed the police commissioner case, right?”

“Oppa. Did you quit your job as a librarian?”

“I saw you while I was eating and took a picture, is it okay if I post this on my social media? Your face isn’t very clear since it’s from far away anyway. I’ll just purely use it for proof. A lot of people are curious about how you’re doing.”

“Song Gyujin-ssi! Please take just one picture with me. I’m not a weirdo, I’m a YouTuber. I can even verify my account for you. Please?”

There were many Korean tourists no matter which country we went to, and there were quite a few who openly recognized me and approached me. I had gotten used to rude people on the internet, but facing them in real life was a different level of stress.

I naturally refused requests to take pictures together, but a few photos secretly taken of me soon circulated on internet sites. The comments were a spectacle.

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I’ll give it to him, that kid’s got mental fortitude lololol
After all that disgraceful stuff happened, he’s sitting around enjoying an overseas trip
And how long has it been since his dad died

Comments

Anonymous1 Is the tall guy next to him a bodyguard?

⤷ I’m a gym rat and I can tell right away that he is. At least a martial arts black belt

⤷ To the comment above, did you work out with your dick? A body like that, especially the upper body frame, is just something you’re born with. You know-it-all wannabe talks a big game

⤷ You’d have to pay at least a few hundred a month to hire a private bodyguard. They say a rich man’s fortune lasts three generations, shouldn’t they investigate his assets and confiscate them? heh

Anonymous2 Wow the comments are truly fucking insane. So he’s not a criminal, should he hide for the rest of his life?? It’s thanks to him mustering his courage that the police and prosecution are getting cleaned up now. Get a grip, misters

⤷ 22… I’ve lost all faith in the public’s intelligence

⤷ 333

Anonymous3 I’m a major shareholder of KNT… I’m suffering huge losses because of that bastard so I can’t look at him favorably… Even if he had to expose it… I wonder if he had to go about it in a way that harms innocent civilians like me… Tsk

The controversy, which I thought had mostly died down, flared up like a log thrown onto a fire now that new fodder had been provided.

“I probably shouldn’t have shown you.”

Seo Seunghan muttered after we returned to our accommodation as if we were fleeing. The deep worry around his eyes wasn’t just because we couldn’t enjoy our trip properly.

“No. I need to know what’s going on, too. Still, I think leaving Korea was a good choice. It’s only this bad because we’re in another country now; if we were still in Korea, I probably wouldn’t have been able to even walk the streets, you know?”

“……”

“Seunghan-ah. You should at least go to the cathedral by yourself. You didn’t get to look around properly earlier because of me.”

“Sunbae. Should we just cut the trip short and go back?”

He said it seriously.

“It would be better to be holed up in the villa. Traveling around crowded places like this seems like a bad choice. You’re not even eating properly because of the stress.”

Was my appetite the problem right now? I was upset that our long-awaited first trip seemed to be ruined because of me. To think that it would be fine if we just went abroad without a plan—I was far too naive. I regretted my past self for hyping him up, telling him to find any country he wanted to go to.

Still, we had mustered the courage to come, and if the trip ended like this, I felt it would be even harder to plan for the next one. There was no guarantee things would be fine then.

“You are the most important thing to me, Sunbae. This stupid trip abroad can just stop here.”

Seo Seunghan emphasized again. His sentiment was so sweet that I offered another alternative.

“Let’s not just stop here, how about we change our travel itinerary a bit? Right now, it’s focused on famous tourist spots. We can go to less crowded areas, even if it’s a bit boring.”

“Do you think there won’t be anyone there who recognizes Sunbae?”

Seo Seunghan still seemed unconvinced.

“Of course, there might be, but it would be far less than in the city. If worst comes to worst, I can wear a hat or a mask. This method might not be bad for experiencing the country’s culture and atmosphere either.”

Seo Seunghan held back his answer and studied my face carefully. Realizing I wouldn’t easily give up, he finally nodded his head.

“Let’s do that. But, if your condition gets even slightly worse, I’m doing things my way.”

“Got it.”

“And that obviously includes your appetite. I’m going to go raid the night market later, so you have to eat all the food I bring back without leaving anything.”

“Are you kidding me? You’re going to bring back enough for like, 15 people again, aren’t you.”

“That’s because you’re too skinny, Sunbae. I feel like I’m feeding you well, but I don’t know why you’re not gaining any weight.”

He looked disapprovingly at my bare forearms revealed below my short-sleeved t-shirt. I wasn’t as thin as a wooden chopstick or anything, I had the body of a normal adult man from any angle. My bone structure wasn’t even naturally slender, but Seo Seunghan had a peculiar tendency to see me as a fragile being.

“Should I tell you the solution? Reduce the number of times we have sex. If you don’t cling to me every night, I’ll probably gain weight in no time. I’m confident I can gain at least 3kg a week.”