I’m Trying to End This Possession Chapter 194

Dana was flustered but responded as calmly as possible. “Noah, are you okay?”

 

“…Do I look okay to you?”

 

Fortunately, Noah’s spirit was not broken. Instead, he glared at her with resentment.

 

“It’s because of you. Because you’re too…”

 

“…”

 

Too what?

 

Noah chewed on his emotions for a moment as if mulling them over, then suddenly blurted out, “Have you kissed a lot of people before?”

 

“Huh?”

 

“Why are you so…” Noah seemed to want to demand why she was so good at it, but couldn’t quite bring himself to say it out loud. He must have known that a man asking such a thing wasn’t very dignified.

 

This boy seriously… Dana bit the inside of her mouth to stop herself from laughing. Noah was really just a kid. Only his body had grown up.

 

“Noah, there’s a stream nearby.” Dana gently suggested, “Go wash off the blood there.”

 

And wash off other things too.

 

* * *

While Noah went to wash himself at the stream, Lethe returned.

 

“Can you take Miona with you? Just keep her locked up at your place for now.”

 

“Yes, Milady.”

 

“I’ll come to your house soon. If you get back before me—”

 

Dana’s words suddenly cut off. Her head spun for a moment. It was a familiar sensation. The aftereffects of using too much purification power were hitting her. She thought she was fine, but as expected, she couldn’t avoid the aftermath of having used her powers. Still, it’s not too bad this time.

 

Dana glanced at her hair flowing down past her shoulders. When she detonated the black core and made the land rot, her hair had turned pitch black… It’s white again… Her hair had turned back to white.

 

“Milady, are you alright?”

 

“Yes, I’m just a bit weak…”

 

It was just as Lethe helped her up.

 

“What’s this?”

 

Had he already finished washing up?

 

Noah, still damp, strode over. “What is that guy doing here?” He forcefully grabbed Lethe’s wrist and pulled him away. “You might not know, but that guy is like a bat. He works under Brother—”

 

“I know.”

 

“What?”

 

“I know very well what Lethe does, Noah.”

 

Noah stared at her in disbelief. After a moment, he slowly asked again, “You know what that guy does?”

 

Dana did not answer. She simply observed him for a while.

 

Noah was standing with his wet shirt clenched in his hand, exposing his upper body. His body was like a beautiful weapon. From the droplets on his firm chest to the sharply defined abs and muscular arms, he had a steel-like quality that seemed impossible to scratch. Yet that body had trembled as if it might shatter from a mere light touch. It was hard to believe, even now.

 

“Lethe is helping me,” Dana said calmly. “Noah, you know too, right? That my body is sleeping somewhere here.”

 

Noah’s jaw tensed for a moment. Despite that, Dana continued speaking nonchalantly.

 

“Lethe is helping me to get my body back.”

 

“Why?”

 

“Huh?”

 

“What does he have to gain by betraying Brother and helping you?” Noah leaned in and stared at her intensely. “You don’t have any money left now.”

 

“…”

 

“He stands to gain much more by staying at Brother’s side.”

 

“…”

 

“He must have some other plan. Or maybe you’re giving him something in return.” Noah was quick on the uptake. “But you have nothing left except that body of yours.” And he was frighteningly sharp. “Did you sleep with him?”

 

“…”

 

“Did you?”

 

Dana held back a sigh. That temper of his hadn’t changed a bit.

 

“No.”

 

“Ah. Right. But if he does what you want, would you sleep with him then?”

 

“That’s none of your business.”

 

“How is it not? You would’ve done the same thing with me.”

 

“…”

 

Dana was impressed. Noah was more perceptive than she thought. “That’s right.” So she just spoke honestly. There was no point denying it now that he’d figured it out. “I want the key to the Holy Mother Chapel. And I want to meet Brother Viego alone. I need your help to get my body back.”

 

“…”

 

A silence fell. After a brief pause, Noah parted his lips, “So that’s it. You were just using me on purpose…” Even as he said it, Noah’s expression twisted as if wounded by his own words. “You should’ve just told me honestly. I would’ve helped you.”

 

She should have done that. If she had known Noah had a crush on her, she would have done so from the start.

 

Noah let out a hollow laugh. “Do I look like a fool to you? Do you think I’d willingly play along even knowing it’s a cheap trick?”

 

“If you don’t want to, you can refuse.”

 

“Yes. I refuse. Who do you take me for, an idiot?” With that, Noah turned around sharply.

 

Dana watched his retreating back. What to do now? He’s completely sulking.

 

* * *

Dana didn’t return immediately. After obtaining several black cores with Lethe’s help, she finally descended the mountain.

 

Let’s hope the day never comes when I have to detonate these black cores. But if the time came, she wouldn’t hesitate. She would do it if it meant getting her body back.

 

On the way down, she grew tired, so Lethe ended up carrying her.

 

“Still, Milady’s recovery has improved compared to before.”

 

“Huh?”

 

“In the past, Milady would faint for days after purification. This isn’t so bad.”

 

“Right? Maybe Danaena’s body was made to be stronger.”

 

“That could be, but…” Lethe hesitated for a moment before speaking. “Milady, the source of your power is passion.”

 

“Huh?”

 

“Passion, meaning, the stronger your sexual sensations, the stronger your power becomes. Especially after the ceremony.”

 

Does passion really make the body stronger? That was something she’d heard countless times. The Daiana Church had never stopped chanting about it to the point that it was ingrained in her ears. But…

 

“So it wasn’t a lie?”

 

“Yes. It truly has an effect on the followers of Daiana Church who consume the holy water. And…” Lethe looked away awkwardly. “It must also apply to Milady, the source of the holy water.”

 

“So you’re saying the reason I’m in better condition today is because I recently participated in the ceremony?”

 

“Yes. You must be feeling its strong effects.”

 

“…”

 

Suddenly, Dana felt a powerful sense of repulsion. She had always thought of it as the ranting of a crazy cult, but it was real? What the hell. That’s creepy.

 

Even if it was only true for those who drank the holy water. The Daiana Church’s claim that the more sexual rituals one performed, the healthier one became—it was true.

 

* * *

Back at the great cathedral, she immediately went to bathe. The words lingered in her mind the entire time she showered. That passion, that sexual pleasure, made her stronger.

 

Come to think of it, even when I was Danae Windsor, my power grew stronger over time.

 

The great and small passions she had experienced as Danae Windsor had gradually strengthened her. After all, she was only human; she could not avoid feeling sexual desire. The more she felt those sensations, the stronger she became.

 

At first, the theory had seemed bizarre. The more she thought about it, the more ingenious it felt.

 

So when I’m exhausted like this… If I feel strong sexual pleasure, can I recover right away? It’s unpleasant, but… it seemed like a useful method. Judging calmly, she returned to her bedroom in only a bathrobe. And the moment she entered, she was startled.

 

“Noah?”

 

Noah was waiting for her in her bedroom. Dana was a little surprised. She had expected him to come, but not so soon—at least not in half a day.

 

“When did you get in?”

 

Noah did not answer. After a brief silence, he spoke, voice bristling with tension, “I have no intention of being used by you.”

 

“…”

 

“I’m going to use you instead.”

 

Dana almost burst out laughing. How childish. Is that so important? Well, I suppose it could be for a proud kid.

 

But Noah, if you wanted to protect your pride, you shouldn’t have come running so quickly. You should’ve waited until I came to you. Yet, here you are, running to me first, in the middle of the night—that’s proof you’re the one who’s desperate—Not that she would say so.

 

“Okay.” Dana simply smiled softly. In the past, she would have given advice. As his sister. As a caring older sibling. But… That boy was no longer her brother. “Do as you wish.”

 

He came at the perfect time. She had wanted to test her new theory, anyway.

 

“If you help me in any way, I’ll be glad.”

 

Noah glared at her, his face stiff.

 

Dana asked gently, “Did you bring the key to Holy Mother Chapel?”

 

“Yes, I brought it. But I’ll only give it to you depending on what you do.” He was trying hard to sound cool.

 

Dana willingly played along, approaching him… And sat on his thigh.

 

“…!”

 

Dana sighed softly. At this point, she even felt a little sorry for him. “Noah, you didn’t wait in this state the entire time I was showering, did you?”

 

At that, Noah’s eyes burned with humiliation. Dana looked him straight in the face and smiled. Sorry, Noah, but she had no intention of giving up control in this relationship.

 

Dana simply thought to herself. The symbol of Daiana, passion. If that really did make her stronger…

 

Dana lifted her hips slightly, then lowered them at an angle. Noah’s shoulders twitched in a tiny spasm. He stammered, “I-I didn’t come here for this.”

 

“Then for what?” Dana whispered in his hot, flushed ear, “Do you think I’m going to do something with you?”

 

A shiver ran through Noah’s body.

 

Dana coaxed him gently, “Don’t get the wrong idea, Noah. You’re not taking your clothes off.” At least, not today. She added that silently, truly curious.

 

Could a being that took pride in being consumed by passion really be a goddess? Isn’t that more a sin than a virtue? …Look, just like now.

 

“Ah, Sis—Dana, wait.”

 

With no shame, wanting to hold and control this naive boy who loved her, wanting to test ‘that theory’ like this… Rubbing herself against the heat of passion was almost a primal sin.

 

Dana watched as Noah’s face turned bright red, his eyes losing focus and growing wet once more. He really was incredibly sensitive.

 

“Uh…” Noah’s hands gripped her waist tightly. With his face buried in her neck, he whispered in a broken voice, “I want to touch you… Let me touch you.”

 

“Okay.”

 

His hand immediately slipped under her robe. As his desperate hand clutched her flesh, Dana thought about original sin.

 

Original sin. Wasn’t this very moment just that? The lust that engulfed them, the sensation that cut through their bodies like lightning with only a thin fabric between them—that too was original sin. Lust is one of the seven deadly sins that symbolize the demon, isn’t it? How is that different from Daiana’s passion?

 

Suddenly, Raios came to mind. On the day of her first holy trial, while looking at the fresco of the seven-headed serpent sealed by the sun god Ramun, what had he said?

 

“Pride, greed, wrath, envy, lust, gluttony, sloth. Which of these sins do you think you’re guilty of?”

 

That b*stard had condemned her.

 

Dana pulled Noah’s face against her chest. It was humid and hot—he clung to her like a newborn baby.

 

“You’re tainted by lust.”

 

Ah, but at this moment, she couldn’t deny it…

 

“Ah, wait. I-I…”

 

As Noah stammered in a trembling voice, Dana wrapped her arms tightly around his neck. That was as far as thought went. A blinding wave swept through her mind. She couldn’t hold back as it spilled out from her lips.

 

Slowly, she could feel Noah’s pants becoming wet again, just like that day in their childhood. Only, this time, it wasn’t just his fault.

 

Burying her face in Noah’s shuddering shoulder, Dana focused. Maybe because all her attention was on her physical state, she felt her exhausted body gradually, slowly recovering. It’s true. I really am recovering. She almost laughed from the absurdity.

 

Fortunately, Noah didn’t notice. He was still lost in the throes of lingering sensation.

 

Dana slowly lifted her head. Noah’s face was a mess. Clouded green eyes, cheeks soaked with tears, drool at the corner of his mouth, ragged breaths. Cute. With the sleeve of her bathrobe, she carefully wiped Noah’s cheeks and chin. Then she pressed a kiss to his flushed eyelids. Just like she used to do when Noah was a child.

 

“Thank you, Noah.”

 

That day, Noah gave her many gifts. Intense sensation, an unpleasant realization. And the key to the Holy Mother Chapel, along with a meeting with Viego.