Boy Monster Chapter 81

‘Childish and foolish. To throw away an easy and safe, royal road and hang your life on me…’

Jang Hwonwoo, having no way of knowing Jae Eunho’s thoughts, found the agitation he saw in Jae Eunho—something he had never witnessed until now—to be utterly strange. Lifting his head from where it had been resting on Jang Hwonwoo’s shoulder, Jae Eunho wore a complicated expression. His black eyes shimmered and wavered in the deep darkness. Sensing something unusual, Jang Hwonwoo scrutinized Jae Eunho with a sharp gaze.

Is he afraid, perhaps? Not because he realized my true self, but…

Right, he’s afraid of the uprising.

As he watched Jae Eunho’s pupils flickering like night light, Jang Hwonwoo’s core heated up with a heavy weight.

That trembling look. It’s the first time I’ve seen it.

Seeing Jae Eunho, who was always devoid of emotional agitation, with wet eyes containing an unspeakable sincerity or perhaps sadness, made Jang Hwonwoo’s veins feel as if they were about to burst. Extreme sexual arousal felt akin to the explosive stimulation that erupts from extreme violence.

‘Jae Eunho trusts me this much. Enough to show his inner feelings without reservation.’

He wanted to lay him down right now, embrace him hotly, and make tears fall from those eyes. And then he would whisper words like these: ‘I’ll do it all for you. Don’t worry, I’ll take responsibility for everything. So promise me you’ll only show this face to me. That you’ll only be taken by me.’ A dark sadism and lust rose in Jang Hwonwoo’s pupils. Jae Eunho parted his dry lips and laughed weakly.

“To be thinking of those things even in this situation, you’re certainly a world-class lecher and a pathetic fellow…”

He might have thought that saying so would make Jang Hwonwoo stop out of shame, but the fire in Jang Hwonwoo’s lower body had already been lit and could not be extinguished. Jang Hwonwoo licked up Jae Eunho’s earlobe and bit it.

“What are you afraid of regarding the day of the full moon? Teacher, I will take responsibility for everything.”

Jang Hwonwoo’s words were not sweet talk uttered lightly. A short while ago, on the way home after finishing meetings and practical training amidst high tension and leaving the unit, Jang Hwonwoo had realized a mental shift and ambition of a lifetime.

The burning summer sunset dyed the cirrocumulus clouds above the utility poles and wooden buildings a bright crimson. Jang Hwonwoo had briefly stopped the car in front of a restaurant and smoked a cigarette while waiting for the lunch box to be prepared.

Several young men who looked to be about Jang Hwonwoo’s age passed by in front of him, laughing and carrying baseballs and bats. From the looks of it, they were on their way back from watching a game at the stadium. “Let’s go for a drink now!” “How about mahjong after filling our stomachs!” “Uh-oh, my wife told me never to go to a gambling house!” They, too, surely knew of the country’s misfortune and surely felt the pain, yet the games and joy they enjoyed were leisure that Jang Hwonwoo could not even dream of. They, too, probably did not know how heavy a burden the Japanese soldier standing in front of the restaurant building smoking a cigarette carried.

“Mindless bastards.”

After spitting out the curse with a smirk, a sudden bitterness washed over him. It was because he felt he knew why they looked so offensive to him. Jang Hwonwoo was envious of their freedom, the comfortable daily life they could have.

Jae Eunho avoided sports, saying they turned people’s zeitgeist into entertainment, but Jang Hwonwoo liked sports entertainment like baseball, soccer, and horse racing. Once the uprising is over, I must go to the baseball stadium. Even if Jae Eunho says he hates it, I’ll drag him along.

Jang Hwonwoo stared for a long time at the baseball bat that had blown away the resentment of those vivid young men. On the streets of Gyeongseong, filled with people’s daily lives, at some point, Jang Hwonwoo was once again soaked in the inexplicable sense of happiness he had felt in the afternoon. The young men enjoying entertainment, the women and girls walking the streets, the old man with a A-frame carrier, the people suffering from poverty and labor, the busy and hectic marketplace, and the evening glow that had settled slowly over them. Before that landscape, Jang Hwonwoo realized the identity of a fulfillment that felt like a great ocean wave. It was love for the world.

Yes. Isn’t it the job of us Hweljus and Yeonris to protect the small freedoms and daily lives of the people? The work of protecting the country so that even the impoverished can enjoy a safe day. How beautiful a task that is.

In the rotten heart of Jang Hwonwoo, who had grown up seeing the world only as a site of cold-blooded power struggles, a hopeful determination like a wildflower took root. Jang Hwonwoo himself had come to harbor a will for a proper world.

Not just because it is Jae Eunho’s will, but I also desire such a world. I will definitely create a homeland worth living in and hand it to my partner, and we will walk the streets together hand in hand and go see baseball there.

Jang Hwonwoo was no longer a seed of darkness destined to grow into a villain. The time spent with Jae Eunho at the mansion had changed Jang Hwonwoo greatly.

That was it, that’s why I was excited and happy. Because while receiving Jae Eunho’s infinite trust and will, I came to possess a grand cause for the world deep in my heart. With the thought of spending a lifetime together while achieving the same goal as my lover…

My partner. Possession of the family and Sa Hwelju. There was never a time when Jang Hwonwoo’s indulgence in wanting to have Sa Yeonri was not desperate. He watched and learned from him. So that’s how he stays so emotionally unshakeable. That’s why it’s necessary to be warm to others. That’s how he earns the favor of others. Such a person harbors poison inside, skips his pills, and even plots something close to a coup. Before he knew it, Jae Eunho had become a part of what constituted Jang Hwonwoo’s spirit.

The naked body, the well-shaped genitals, the hair, the dark gaze when looking down…

Jang Hwonwoo muttered. I love you. I love you. I can do anything.

Even if you copulate with Sa Hwelju, I don’t care, I will still embrace you. I will, but… I won’t leave the lineage of Sa Hwelju alive. No matter how many are born, I will kill them without a trace… This was clearly not the way Jae Eunho would want. It was the darkness inherent in his deep nature, called forth for Jang Hwonwoo’s own comfort.

However, the child who used to sit alone by the furnace melting his frozen toes could not have the sweet affection he needed taken away from him.

Teacher, Sa Hwelju’s lineage will not appear. Even if that means earning the sin of killing, I will sweetly accept the punishment for loving you and pay the price. I just have to protect this land that much more faithfully and diligently. While ruling the family together with you.

Rubbing out his cigarette, Jang Hwonwoo took a small velvet box out from his uniform and opened the lid. His Adam’s apple moved as he quietly cleared his throat. Inside the box sat two rings embedded with small diamonds. The bands of the rings were quite thick.

He wanted to get married. It was a case of drinking the kimchi soup before being offered the rice cake, but Jang Hwonwoo stubbornly repeated the words to himself. I want to get married.

‘If I clearly prove my ability during this uprising, he’ll recognize me as a lover. Looking at how he is in bed, it’s certain. He’s already completely fallen for me.’

Thus today, thanks to recognizing his own change and maturity on the Gyeongseong streets he visited on the way home, Jang Hwonwoo could speak like this to the man looking at him with wavering eyes. In a very calm and mature voice. Thinking of the pair of rings in his inner uniform pocket.

“Teacher, isn’t it wonderful? We are becoming lovers who dream of the same world.”

“……”

“I am looking forward to the full moon at the thought of becoming lovers who draw the same future. I will carry out the uprising perfectly and take back the country and the family. I will take responsibility and get it done. Do not worry.”

Jae Eunho lowered his face, which had instantly flushed bright red. He wanted to harshly scold himself for having briefly become weak.

Meeting Jang Hwonwoo’s steadfast will, he felt shame. To harbor such a weak thought as abandoning me and running away in front of this Jang Hwonwoo.

“…Hwonwoo-ya…”

Yes. I thought wrong. I was just briefly weakened by the shaman’s words. I must become strong. I will protect you and take responsibility until the end. I will never abandon you, who first taught me these feelings. Even if you forget me in the future. Even if you leave me.

Jang Hwonwoo grinned with a benign smile.

“Whoa, it seems this confession worked a bit. I’ve already confessed several times, but I think that last statement was the most effective.”

Even if you abandon me, I will not abandon you. For a lifetime.

Jae Eunho instantly forgot his self that had been weakened by the shaman’s words. It was a moment where Jae Eunho achieved another level of maturity. Jae Eunho replied while looking at Jang Hwonwoo, who had become an adult as much as his body had grown strong to the point where there was no more room to grow.

“Is there a need to strictly define it as a romantic relationship? You are already my Hwelju.”

I’m going to propose beyond just a romantic relationship, though.

The self-control of Jang Hwonwoo, who was contradicting him internally, exceeded its limit.

‘You are already my Hwelju.’ 

As he dwelled on Jae Eunho’s words, the front of his trousers, which had been swelling since earlier, became stiff.

Jang Hwonwoo pushed Jae Eunho against the wall. He unbuttoned the shirt and burrowed into the warm bare skin. Jae Eunho let out a groan.

“Hwonwoo-ya. …No.”

He couldn’t stand it; he wanted to press down and rub against him, and to covet and violate his manhood. However, Jae Eunho refused strongly. Jang Hwonwoo pulled his face away from his chest with regret. Pressing his pelvis firmly in lingering desire, he said as if begging.

“Ah… Teacher, just once. Today, I’ll just give you plenty of foreplay. I’ll make you feel good.”

“No matter how much a male facing war goes crazy for breeding, not until before the uprising.”

“This time, I will really restrain myself. I won’t make it hard for you, Teacher. Yes?”

“No, move.”

There was no wavering in the firm voice. Jang Hwonwoo bit his own lips in frustration and became anxious.

…Why does this man never say let’s do it first? Jae Eunho has never once indicated a desire to copulate first. Am I the only one who wants to do this? Like a male dog in heat and anxious.

It was bitter, but he couldn’t help the fact that the size of their hearts was different. The taste of unrequited love was acrid. In a situation where he felt he would go crazy if he didn’t discharge the lust focused on his member right now, the bitter emotions overlapped, making his face look grim.

Resentment, suppressing complex anger, turned sharply toward Jae Eunho. Jae Eunho, seeing the intense gaze of Jang Hwonwoo as he caught his breath, quietly avoided his eyes.

Jang Hwonwoo debated. Should he beg more? Or should he just overpower him with strength? If I just shut my eyes and put it in…

Just as violent thoughts were surfacing, Jae Eunho spoke hesitantly.

“Sit down.”

“Yes?”

“Lean against the wall and sit.”

Jang Hwonwoo moved to the side and sat with his back against the wall. Jae Eunho moved close to him and sat down beside him. It was just as Jang Hwonwoo was resolving to push for using hands.

Something unimaginable happened. Jae Eunho lightly placed his hand on Jang Hwonwoo’s thigh and then dropped his head downward. Jang Hwonwoo watched Jae Eunho as he bent his upper body deeply over his thigh.

Rustle, rustle—the crown of Jae Eunho’s head twitched as he opened the front of the trousers. Jang Hwonwoo, whose mind had gone completely blank, froze on the spot.

Tea…cher…?

Jae Eunho’s round crown was buried between his legs. He couldn’t believe the sight before his eyes. Warm breath scattered over his core, which felt like it was about to explode. When Jang Hwonwoo’s thigh gave a short quiver, Jae Eunho twisted his head and looked up. His ears were flushed red.

“I haven’t done it with my mouth before. Don’t move roughly like yesterday.”

“……”

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Damn it. Fuck. Jae Eunho, fuck…! Curses flashed through his head like film wound around a projector. When he endured the urge for the curses to burst out of his mouth, all sorts of names of gods popped out.

Buddha. Avalokitesvara. God the Father. Jesus Christ. Brahma.

Jae Eunho… Teacher Jae Eunho is about to suck mine.

……Oh God.

As soon as his lower half was moistened with breath and warmth, Jang Hwonwoo reflexively threw his head back.

“…Ugh.”

The thick nape of Jang Hwonwoo’s neck convulsed in a short tremor.