Dirty Sweet Baby Chapter 19

“…I told you not to.”

“You should at least speak properly, hyung.”

To be honest, a cold sweat broke out every time they made contact. The core that had filled his chest was reacting wildly to his presence.

“Do you really have to be like this?”

“Yes. Seeing what you’re doing, hyung, I’ve decided that I have to be like this.”

“You, what about you….”

“What about me.”

“……”

“Hm?”

He put the glass down on the sofa table and muttered nonchalantly.

“Tsk. Forget it. Just open your mouth, so we can do the guiding.”

“No, what are you talking about. In the guiding room….”

“Just open it. Is there a need to move to a different place and go through all that trouble. It’s pouring rain outside.”

“No. There are established procedures and rules. Even you have to follow them.”

“That’s probably true. But it’s also true that it’s a waste of time every time, when we’re living in the same house. Changing clothes, moving…. Let’s just finish it quickly now.”

The guiding, here, now…?

Just like this…?

‘I can’t.’

It was dangerous, somehow. There was no way he could start the guiding so recklessly.

But the more he spoke with Cha Moogyul, the more he was being pushed into a corner. He was afraid that if he exhausted his mental energy by being held by him like this, he would reveal a weakness. He was worried that he would not be able to control his expression and would let slip the private secret he had been hiding all this time.

‘If he were to catch even a hint of awkwardness….’

Was it because of that? Heeheon came to the conclusion that he had to end all of this quickly. It seemed better to just do the guiding as he wished and then get away.

“Hah…. Alright. Just this once.”

Just quickly, as Cha Moogyul said, let’s finish the guiding quickly now, and escape from this suffocating space.

“Let’s do it quickly and get it over with. Now.”

“……”

Although it was a difficult decision made with all his might, Cha Moogyul was silent. Whether he was thinking about something internally, or whether he intended to tease him further, he tilted his head and looked down at Heeheon obliquely, as if sizing him up. It was as if he was trying to gauge Baek Heeheon.

His dark, sunken black eyes were eerie. There was no need to even mention the frozen atmosphere. His straight eyebrows twisted up slightly, and the muscles in his jaw twitched. Cha Moogyul muttered to himself as if it were a passing thought.

“I guess I really do have to make it clear.”

What is he always trying to make clear. Why does he keep saying things like that since earlier?

Heeheon glanced at Cha Moogyul with wavering eyes. He let out a dry, low laugh. His lips, which curved into an elegant arc, were captivating. His low voice, which felt as if it could melt you, was also sensual. He looked more dangerous than ever before. He was a predator of a species that was breathtakingly beautiful but that one should never approach. It felt as if he would not even be able to let out a final scream if he were to be eaten by him.

“I can’t put up with it anymore, so let’s just stop.”

Heeheon sucked in a breath. Hearing Cha Moogyul’s words, he instantly realized that the two of them had crossed an irreversible line.

“What younger brother. Cut it out.”

He rebuked him coldly. It was as if he were mocking Heeheon, who could not find his proper place and was just wandering around aimlessly.

“It’s not like we grew up fighting and playing together in our childhood, we were just brothers from a remarried family who met after our pubic hair had all grown in… it’s a bit absurd for me if you try to treat me like a younger brother now.”

“……”

“Besides, Baek Heeheon, haven’t you always not even treated me like a person and completely ignored me?”

“…That’s not true.”

Still, he had to endure.

How had he managed to live through all those years. He could not just let it go so meaninglessly. Heeheon’s heart had become a tattered rag, and their relationship was nothing more than an empty can, but even so, he could not just meekly accept it here.

How had Baek Heeheon endured until now. With what kind of feelings had he persevered.

Heeheon denied him, as if grasping at straws.

“…I’ve never done that. I was just a little shy. Stop playing around and let’s finish this quickly.”

“Fine. Let’s just say you never did.”

At that moment, the hand that had been leisurely wandering around his ear suddenly cupped Heeheon’s chin.

“But, if you don’t like jokes, then you should have done it properly, hyung. The guiding.”

The strength of the hand that held him firmly was frighteningly strong. He could not escape even if he twisted his head to shake it off.

“You said it was a guide’s responsibility and mission. So why did you say things like it’s dirty, it’s unhygienic to me.”

“Ouch.”

“Am I that much of an asshole to you? Am I the only one who’s a son of a bitch?”

Soon after, his thumb pressed down on his lower lip and slowly dug into his mouth.

“Open your mouth.”

“Ugh….”

“I’ll finish it quickly for you, just as you wanted.”

The hand that was rubbing his tongue was merciless. He did not let up the pressure and selfishly groped deep down to the root of his tongue, making the inside of his throat tremble with a retching sensation. Heeheon barely managed to even his breathing and tried to focus on the area of contact with him.

Thump. Thump. Thump.

His heart pounded violently.

His hands trembled. Following that, his entire body trembled. At some point, the ground beneath his feet was slowly crumbling. As if it would gradually narrow and eventually leave no place to stand. One by one.

“Hh….”

Heeheon’s eyes trembled faintly. Saliva that he could not swallow overflowed and flowed down Cha Moogyul’s thumb to the corner of his mouth. It must have looked dirty, as a deep furrow formed between his brows. The way his eyes were contorted in disgust and his face was all wrinkled was a spitting image of Heeheon.

It is painful. It is miserable.

Hurry up and finish the guiding… quickly get away….

“Suck it properly. Don’t drool like a child.”

When he nodded his head slightly to indicate that he understood, his face became twice as menacing. What on earth had grated on Cha Moogyul’s nerves this time. His thick thumb pushed even deeper into his mouth. He did not let up even when he, disgusted, let out a choked, sharp sound.

To make matters worse, Cha Moogyul grabbed Heeheon’s neck in his hand. He held it in a fixed position so that he could not turn his head and applied pressure. His suppressed throat tightened and he struggled to breathe. He was practically being suffocated by him.

“Heuk, guk….”

He could not take it anymore. He could not concentrate.

In the end, Heeheon squirmed, trying to breathe. He grabbed and pushed at his forearm, trying to shake it off. Cha Moogyul did not budge. He only muttered ominously.

“You know, hyung…. Isn’t it cowardly of you to use that flimsy brotherly relationship as a shield when you’ve never once acted like a hyung?”

“Ge, ouch, get it off.”

“No matter how I think about it, I don’t think I’ve ever had a hyung like a hyung.”

“Ge, ugh, keoheok…!”

“Isn’t that right?”

Cha Moogyul was much rougher than usual. No, today, it seemed he had no intention of holding back at all.

Heeheon, who had been struggling painfully, coughed and barely escaped from his grasp. His mouth, which was red and swollen and smeared with saliva, was a complete mess. He was so out of breath that even the corners of his eyes were red. Cha Moogyul looked down at the panting Heeheon with pupils as cold as frosted glass.

“This is my conclusion. You are not my hyung.”

“……”

“You are my guide.”

“……”

“So… from now on, it would be best for you to do the guiding properly. Baek Heeheon.”

Wait, just a moment.

His hair stood on end. He pushed Heeheon’s shoulder, pressing him down onto the living room sofa, and his two knees, which were resisting the hand that was spreading his legs, were forcibly bent and lifted. His mouth, which had opened to shout in anger, was also forcefully shut.

With a guiding that was too harsh and cruel to be called a kiss.

Between the two lips that were insidiously joined, the deeply intertwined tongues tingled.

“Hhh…!”

Heeheon grabbed Cha Moogyul’s shoulder and pushed. The shirt he was wearing crumpled in his hand. He pushed and pulled at the clothes, struggling, but Cha Moogyul just recklessly changed the angle and pushed deeper into Heeheon’s mouth.

The piece of flesh that was digging between his teeth was hot. The surface of his tongue touched his gums and the roof of his mouth without discrimination. His lower lip was bitten, and Cha Moogyul’s weight was on his chest. His lifted feet flailed helplessly in the air. Heeheon tensed the tips of his toes and brought them together.

‘W-why is he going this far….’

Is he drunk? But the smell of alcohol is not that strong.

‘Then, has Cha Moogyul lost his reason to the guiding?’

There were no signs of that, but…. Why.

‘Is he this angry about my actions…. Is he taking it out on me…?’

Heeheon desperately racked his brain. But the situation was too harsh to come up with a plausible answer. His forearm wrapped around Heeheon’s waist. He hugged his torso and pressed him down onto the sofa, continuing the deep kiss. His breath quickened. His brain, deprived of oxygen from the lack of breath, became dizzy and spun.

“Ouch, hah.”

Cha Moogyul came into Baek Heeheon’s extremely furrowed eyes in a blur. He could not be sure because his focus was off, but Cha Moogyul was intoxicated with the pleasure of the guiding, and in his heated black eyes, something akin to a fierce obsession was firmly condensed.

Their lips were bitten, and their tongues slowly mixed. They parted with a wet sound, and then Cha Moogyul tilted his head slightly and they met again. Through their joined chests, their cores responded, and along with it, their hearts beat in the same rhythm.

Cha Moogyul kissed, and kissed, and kissed again. It felt as if their lips, which had been roughly abraded, would all burst. Unswallowed saliva overflowed, his mind was dazed, and the guiding was a complete mess. Finally, his body, which was crushed under him and crumpled on the sofa, tilted.