Cold City Romance Chapter 7.3

“What is this…….”

“Wasn’t I already your dog?”

“…….”

“I’m your dog who comes when you call and goes when you tell me to go. I’m even abandoning all my pride, kneeling like this, and begging you to please use me.”

Maybe the reason he was spouting such crazy things like kneeling and saying he would be a dog was because he really thought this was the end of this relationship and this was the very bottom. He showed me all of his rock-bottom desperation.

It was pitiful and I felt sorry, but my heart pounded at that vulgar and lewd face looking up at me as he knelt.

He could easily seduce me just by prostrating that ridiculously sexy body, revealed through that shirt, at my feet. But that amazing guy is kneeling and saying he’ll be a dog, doing this kind of crazy thing as if he’s betting his all on me.

I just don’t understand why a kid like you would go this far.

“I don’t need anything like a dog, so get up now!”

As he raised his angry thigh muscles, which were prominent over his suit pants, he grabbed my waist. My body flinched at that hot touch felt through the thin silk shirt.

Hyun Jaehwi stood up, holding and embracing Cha Dokyung’s body, which reacted sensitively to his touch.

“It was from the day I started having wet dreams, dreaming of you for the first time in my life.”

His sharp nose, now close, was pushed into the indifferent one’s face.

“That’s why it can’t be anyone else for me.”

“…….”

“What am I, if not your dog? I’m no different from a dog that knows only its master its whole life.”

In contrast, Cha Dokyung replied in a mature and calm voice.

“I’m not a guy worthy of you doing this. And I have no desire to use the precious son of another family as my dog.”

“…….”

“Jaehwi. I can’t handle you being like this.”

He laughed in dismay.

The chest muscles, outlined beneath the taut shirt, swelled fiercely as he took a deep breath. As if he was angry at that cold and indifferent face that showed no agitation even when he had prostrated himself on the floor and begged so desperately.

He called my name softly.

“Cha Dokyung…….”

“…….”

“I hate the thought of you sleeping with another bastard more than death itself, so I even persuaded you to use me as much as you want.”

“…….”

“I laid all my cards on the table because I hate you messing around with other guys like a promiscuous slut. The very act of revealing my trait, my abilities, and even secrets to you was already a gamble where I threw in my everything.”

“…….”

“I begged you to do it with me instead of sleeping with other guys. I even pleaded with you to use my trait and my abilities instead of going to other guys during every Disturbance……. What more do I have to prove to you here?”

Because of the fond remnant of a boy left in the eyes of the earnestly heartbroken man, Cha Dokyyung’s heart unknowingly stung with a painful ache.

Cha Dokyung, lost in deep thought, slowly nodded his head a long while after hearing his words.

“Alright, I see the reason why you’re doing this to me.”

I see why you want me so blindly. There’s only one reason why a great guy like you is so fixated on me.

“It’s because you’ve never had me.”

Your blind obsession with your first love is due to a mistaken fantasy about me, created by the longing and craving born from not being able to have me for a long time, for over ten years since your adolescent days.

“……Isn’t that right?”

Cha Dokyung felt in his heart that Hyun Jaehwi’s heart-throbbing pure love was earnest, but he could not quite grasp it with his head.

He had easily had sex with those he wanted, whether by his own will or due to the Disturbance. To Cha Dokyyung, who had easily slept with others to fill the hole whenever he needed pleasure or warmth, whenever he struggled with loneliness as if a hole were pierced in his chest, the pure love of looking at only one person for over ten years sounded like a fairytale that was too far removed from himself.

However, he too would realize that fairy tales are not reality as time passed and he became an adult.

Cha Dokyung, who was over thirty and an adult, knew all too well that the fantasy would easily shatter once he actually possessed his body and they had sex several times. A year, no, three months was enough time for that fantasy to break.

Cha Dokyung scanned him from head to toe with a blatant gaze. He thought that this young man of twenty-six, who still possessed pure passion and devotion, was cute in a way.

He stared at him with a calm and mature gaze. The eyes of the hot-blooded man, with his youthful passion, urged him for an answer. Cha Dokyung finally smiled languidly and answered.

“Alright, I understand.”

I just have to shatter that fantasy for you…….

“You’re my dog?”

Cha Dokyung beckoned to him with an arrogant attitude.

“Fine. Then, come here.”

His strong body approached Cha Dokyung without hesitation. Hyun Jaehwi’s gaze, as they stood facing each other, landed on the pale white neckline revealed above the thin silk shirt.

“There’s something I want to check…….”

For the past month since his Disturbance was suppressed by him, Cha Dokyung had not felt any desire to do that act with anyone at all.

He did not know what on earth the Dominant Alpha had done, but bizarrely, all his lewd instincts seemed to have disappeared, leaving only sharp reason. It felt as if he had returned to the time when he did not know the heat from pheromones.

It was not just the pheromones. The basic sexual desire or carnal lust that humans feel seemed to have been castrated, and he had not even masturbated once as a man for physiological reasons during that time.

It was the same at this very moment. It was completely different from the past days when he would think of that act like a dog in heat just by looking at Hyun Jaehwi.

So he was not sure if he wanted to have sex with that kid. In fact, he even questioned whether he, in his current cold and plain state, could passionately engage in sex with another person.

“Jaehwi, don’t ever release your pheromones. I won’t either.”

The lustful sexual desire for him in heat had disappeared from within him. Even facing him like this, he did not feel any desire to do a dirty act with him.

Rather than that, a deep part of him stung, and his heart pounded painfully. His chest ached at Hyun Jaehwi’s fond gaze, who was earnestly confessing and honestly desiring only him for many long years.

It was different from simple lust. He thought it resembled the unfulfilled, pure flutter one feels when facing the person who made you blush for the first time during puberty.

Until now, Cha Dokyung had always faced Hyun Jaehwi while either in a state of Disturbance or in heat. So he wanted to know if he could get physiologically aroused by that kid even in a state like this, where pheromones were not involved at all, and no desire or sexual urgearose.

It was just like when they first met at Messiah.

Cha Dokyung traced the entrancing face of him, who was on the boundary between a boy and an adult man, with his fingertips. He slowly ran his fingertips over the handsome contours that possessed a perfect, restrained beauty.

Cha Dokyung glanced sideways coquettishly and whispered.

“Hold me.”

Hyun Jaehwi neither hesitated nor delayed. He swiftly pulled the beautiful and elegant body hidden beneath the silk shirt into an embrace, as if to crush it.

The man, a head taller than him, extended his broad shoulders and confined him within his sturdy chest. Cha Dokyung wrapped his long, white fingers around his back and caressed it as if to soothe him.

“Does holding me arouse you?”

Hyun Jaehwi’s thick chest heaved and swelled with excitement, and that sensual bulging was felt directly against my body. Hyun Jaehwi gulped, looking at my lips.

“I’m going crazy wanting to kiss you, haa…….”

Cha Dokyung touched his firm earlobe. Staring intently into his dark eyes, he whispered.

“But we, don’t have any pheromones at all?”

An immediate reaction touched my lower abdomen.

“Ah, ah, it seems so…….”

To be able to get this heavy and hard erection just by holding me, without any pheromones at all. Perhaps because he was young and in his prime, his body was refreshingly healthy and honest to the point of being flustering.

Cha Dokyung pulled on his thick shoulders and said.

“If you want to kiss me… you can.”

Before those words could even finish, Hyun Jaehwi pressed his tall, high nose into my face and lunged at me madly like a hound. As the hungry kiss deepened, swallowing my plump upper lip, Cha Dokyung, suffocating, forcefully pushed him away.

“Stop, haa, Jaehwi…! Heut, wait a minute…!”

He did not know why he had to pat his angry back and soothe him like this, but the large hound would not listen to him at all otherwise.

Hyun Jaehwi could not take his eyes off Cha Dokyung’s lips, which were glistening with saliva and wetly red.

“Your lips, haa…, you don’t know how lewd they are, do you?”

Cha Dokyung barely managed to forcefully push away Hyun Jaehwi, who was stimulating his lower abdomen so intensely with his hard member it was painful.

“Ah, eut…! That’s enough… stop! Check’s over.”

It was not because of pheromones, nor because of heat. There was not a single drop of pheromones in this space, and Cha Dokyung did not have even a teardrop’s worth of sexual desire.

He was curious if Hyun Jaehwi could be made to feel that way towards him even in a situation like this.

As his tongue delved in and they kissed, the hard and heavy object, like a club, continuously poked his lower abdomen. At his movements, he unknowingly imagined being roughly pounded by him with that thing. At some point, blood had rushed to his own aroused member as well.

Despite not having felt any physiological sexual desire for the past month, Cha Dokyung’s crotch had embarrassingly become hard with pooled blood just from a single kiss with that kid, who hadn’t even used pheromones.

He was exhausted and drained from the shoot. Just a moment ago, he had no desire to do this with anyone…….

After skillfully soothing the man who was flushed with excitement, Cha Dokyung walked away alone to the living room as if escaping.

Leaning against the window while looking at the night view of the Han River, Cha Dokyung took out the electronic cigarette from his back pocket and sucked on the filter to calm his excited body.

Hyun Jaehwi followed after his fleeing backside. He came right up next to him as he leaned against the window.

“You’re an expert at getting people worked up and then bailing.”

“Not really… I have no intention of bailing.”

Cha Dokyung looked at his handsome ears, which were flushed bright red as if painted, and smiled innocently like a child.

“Jaehwi, this thing between us is our secret forever.”

“……I know.”

His red, pretty lips, glistening with saliva, exhaled white cigarette smoke.

“If it’s just a fling to make memories for you for a short time…….”

“…….”

“I don’t see why I can’t sleep with you.”

I also wanted to have sex with Hyun Jaehwi. I wanted to tumble around messily with him. I wanted to be fucked by that kid.

Until his sexual desire had suddenly disappeared, he had frequently masturbated while thinking of Hyun Jaehwi’s smiling face.

He too had entertained imaginations about that kid in his head that were too indecent to put into words. Mostly, it was the fantasy of being roughly and forcibly fucked.

So, the craving and fantasy for what you cannot have is no different for the both of us, you and me.

“You’re asking me to make memories for you during the time we have left, right?”

Cha Dokyung planned to play around with Hyun Jaehwi like this for just three months, and then, once filming began, he would hide away in the deep mountain valley of the Taebaek Mountains, the filming location for ‘The Civil Official’, and spend the year immersed only in acting.

Although he asked him to make memories for just one year, a year was too long for Cha Dokyung.

Three months is enough for a fling.

He had no intention of continuing this relationship for a whole year and developing physical and emotional attachment to that kid.

After all, three months is enough time for you to get tired of me too.

After three months pass, and then, if I suddenly leave for the Taebaek Mountains……. the situation will simply end.

Even if, he had not sorted out his feelings, he probably would not be able to do anything about it once I left for the Taebaek Mountains. Since Hyun Jaehwi would have no choice but to return to America where the agency is, there would be no problem.

That was the cleanest end to this fling. So, it seemed better to hide the fact that he was leaving for a long year of filming in the Taebaek Mountains from him and keep it a secret.

“Don’t resent me later.”

Cha Dokyung exhaled cigarette smoke and cast a seductive glance with his red, wet eyes.

“Listen carefully. We’re not dating. This isn’t anything like a romance either……. You have no right to interfere or meddle in my decisions.”

He scanned me as if he understood.

“Hyun Jaehwi, are you still okay with that? I’m asking if you’re okay with just having a physical, sexual relationship with me until you leave.”

He laughed lowly with a cool gaze.

“You’re saying we should be sex partners for a year, just mixing our bodies, aren’t you.”

Cha Dokyung smiled faintly, looking at the lights along the Han River.

“……Why, you don’t like it?”

Hyun Jaehwi untied his disheveled tie with one hand and threw it aside.

“Promise me that for one year, you absolutely won’t sleep with any other guy besides me. Whether it’s pheromones, a guy to fuck you, or a dick, whatever it is……. If you need it, use only me.”

So you hate me sleeping with other guys that much.

“During that time, I’ll only sleep with you.”

At Cha Dokyung’s clear answer, Hyun Jaehwi began to unbutton his own tightly fitted shirt with an impatient face, as if he could not hold back right now.

“Don’t forget. When you leave for America in a year, we’re really over……. At that time, you’ll forget me cleanly. Promise me.”

At Cha Dokyung’s cruel words, he let out a rough breath and lunged at him fiercely.

“Should I write you a contract?”

As his shirt buttons came undone, his firm chest muscles were revealed. Hyun Jaehwi, unable to restrain himself, approached with excitement and grabbed Cha Dokyung’s heartless face to make him look only at him.

“Yes…, write it for me.”

His handsome mouth twisted.

“An exception clause. No, have you ever considered the opposite?”

“…….”

“Cha Dokyung, what are you going to do if you’re the one clinging to me in a year?”

Now he speaks informally and vulgarly without any hesitation. The captured face teased him arrogantly.

“……Haha, me?”

“I have to go back, so it’s no use clinging to me in a year.”

“Fuck, that’s ridiculous……! Heut…! Ueup…!”

He swallowed the curse I uttered as a passionate kiss followed.

His tongue thrust fiercely into my mouth as if to punish me. The two people’s panting breaths could be felt in each other’s throats. Collapsing under the fierce and passionate kiss, I wrapped my arms around his firm neck. Cha Dokyung, gasping for breath while receiving his tongue, whispered against his high nose with a sexy and rich expression.

“Seduce me. I’ll let myself fall for you.”

He impatiently began to unbutton Cha Dokyung’s thin silk shirt. Unable to unbutton it at a leisurely pace, his rough hands pulled at it violently, and the thin shirt was easily torn by his strength. Through the torn shirt, his pale and lewd body line was revealed.

Cha Dokyung let out a small laugh at his impatient touch.

I told you to seduce me. Jaehwi, you should take off your clothes and show me that insanely sexy body. Taking off my clothes isn’t very effective.

“More than that, if you want to seduce me, take all that off and smile.”

“…….”

“Actually, your smile gets me turned on…….”

I hoped that the last fling of my last youth in my thirties would be you. Because I had never seen anything as fresh and perfect, as strong and beautiful as you. Inside you, there is both a boy and an adult who make my heart flutter. Yes, if it’s you, I don’t think I’ll have any regrets at all.

“Smile.”

At Cha Dokyung’s words, he curved his picturesque long eyes and smiled refreshingly.

“Haa, you get turned on when you see my smiling face…….”

My lower abdomen throbbed at the sight of his face, smiling like a boy with his insanely sexy body after throwing off his shirt.

That’s right, I like that face.

After the dizzying flutter that made me fall to my tiptoes, I suddenly felt my heart sting and a wave of sadness rush up to the tip of my nose. It was a bitter sensation felt only by those who know that formless things will eventually disappear. It was a sense of fleeting resignation felt by those who must nevertheless see it through to the end.

Cha Dokyung whispered affectionately in Hyun Jaehwi’s ear, which was flushed bright red, with a pretty and fond voice.

“Jaehwi…, you can be rough with me.”