Heavy Rain Chapter 50

His words were, in essence, the same as saying he didn’t want to exchange anything at all with Lyle. It was a natural thing to say. After all, what lay between them were only wrongs and the resulting responsibility.

But why did it feel like this? As if he had been pierced by something.

“…I don’t believe I’ve ever demanded such a thing from you.”

As Haejin watched Lyle continue to speak persistently with a troubled face, he narrowed his eyes.

The strange sensation that had suddenly occurred to him during the day had been swirling inside Haejin until dinner. At first, it was a sensation no more than a subtle sting.

But the more he thought about it, the more the pain grew. As if, looking back now, the wound that had been there was quite large.

The more Lyle visited his room, and the more he acted as if he were curious about Haejin’s well-being, the stranger it felt. Why was he doing such a tedious thing? He could understand Lyle being concerned about the humiliation inflicted upon Haejin. If he was at the point of talking about responsibility, it seemed he was at least capable of recognizing that Haejin had suffered.

However, if it were Lyle, wouldn’t it make more sense for him to simply offer compensation in money?

Of course, the material things provided to Haejin would be part of that ‘responsibility.’ However, the ultimate condition he had put forward felt stranger the more Haejin thought about it. To walk out healthily.

Haejin had also looked up the articles. Rumors about what kind of humiliation the Omega was suffering in the Vermouth mansion, and very vulgar rumors about Lyle’s sexual preferences. In particular, the incident where Lyle took him to the hospital last time had been woven in, swelling the rumors even further.

It was true that he was persecuted in this mansion, but the nuance was quite different from what the articles said. Furthermore, even if such tabloid-like articles had leaked a little, would the Vermouth family really be swayed to that extent? Since they weren’t planning to feature a headline about Haejin healthily leaving the mansion, what did it matter whether he actually became healthy or not?

The moment he thought this far, Haejin became aware of a deep anxiety. As expected, hadn’t Lyle simply needed Haejin’s body after all?

A truly healthy body that could receive the release of his pheromones.

If it wasn’t that, then Lyle’s actions were a more friendly sort of concern. He felt that side made even less sense. He still didn’t understand why Lyle was pretending to be meticulously caring, even suppressing his own temperament.

Thanks to that, Haejin finally realized. This stinging sensation he had been forgetting was anger. Therefore, he wanted to reject it, whichever it was.

“Do you need pheromone release?”

“Why on earth are you saying such a thing right now.”

Haejin, who had suddenly gripped Lyle’s heart and made him unable to breathe, was now even swinging him this way and that. He wondered what kind of misunderstanding he had caused again.

Trying his best to maintain his reason, Lyle sought to continue the conversation. However, his mind had been strangely dazed for a while now. To be precise, from the moment Haejin said he wanted to leave this mansion.

His body felt as if it were running a fever. Heat seethed from his stomach as if he had swallowed the wrong food. The emotions carried in the boy’s pheromones were faint, so faint. Nevertheless, they touched Lyle’s skin like a loud shout.

Every single cell touched by the pheromones heated up bit by bit. His strangely burning body acted out wildly, as if it would eventually oxidize into ash.

Why did he keep trying to leave this place?

“My body probably won’t be very useful anymore. Didn’t you want a compliant body?”

“Jin, shut your mouth. I told you that’s not what I meant.”

At Lyle’s firm voice, Haejin sighed and avoided his gaze. That face, upon which deep fatigue had settled, effectively gouged Lyle’s chest. The sigh pierced him like an awl.

“You might as well just say you need my body. You don’t need to engage in unnecessary acts of consideration, do you? It’s uncomfortable, this sort of thing.”

The moment he heard that, Lyle felt the reason he had been barely holding onto snap away.

There had always been a thick wall between Haejin and him. Lyle knew that well. In fact, there were times when he had hoped for such a wall to exist.

But since when had it been? That the existence of this wall began to stand out so much.

Lyle was easily shaken by Haejin, who rejected and pushed him away. An unnervingly anxious heart shook him violently. As if the moment Haejin left this mansion, his own heart would stop.

Standing up abruptly, he strode toward Haejin. A single step was enough, but he was anxious because Haejin still seemed far away.

At the sudden movement, the boy’s expressionless face crumbled. Lyle gripped the handles of the chair where he was sitting as if to crush them with both hands, trapping Haejin. As if wanting to avoid this version of him, Haejin leaned deep into the chair.

“And if I do need it?”

“…Ugh…”

As he brought his face closer, the body scent was felt intensely. From a certain point, Lyle could easily recall the boy’s pheromones even when Haejin wasn’t near. Then, if he came this close, he felt as if the whole world were full of Haejin. A recessive like him shouldn’t have such an ability.

Swimming within that was a suffocating ecstasy. He had almost given up on judging his incomprehensible physical state rationally.

He felt as if his vision were turning red again. To the point where he couldn’t even properly cage his pheromones, which he usually managed with care every minute and second.

Lyle’s thick pheromones filled Haejin’s space.

“Phe, romones, ugh…”

“If it’s because I need it, will you stay here quietly?”

He knew Haejin’s intention well. It was likely that he didn’t need any of the consideration or warmth Lyle provided. His head understood that it couldn’t be helped. After all, wasn’t he the one who had made him have such deep-rooted distrust?

Nevertheless, he couldn’t hold back this passion. Because the boy kept trying to leave.

“Jin. Why is there no answer. I’m asking if you’ll stay here if I say we should act according to the contract.”

Those precarious legs that had wandered in the rain and only walked forward. That day when he had disappeared after throwing away even the few belongings he had left, so that Lyle wouldn’t even know his news. The image of Haejin, who until now kept doing nothing but escaping his hands, stimulated Lyle violently.

The dominant pheromones quickly took control and remained in the space. Lyle thought it was only fair now. Because recently, he had always felt like he was suffocating on Haejin’s pheromones.

Haejin’s face, which had been only white, was quickly stained with a pink hue. In the breath leaking through his teeth, sweet pheromones were dissolved. It was a stimulating body scent that drove a person crazy every time. Lyle, who had easily succumbed to that impulse again, delved into Haejin’s body with a clear purpose.

His gaze was drawn to the elegant neckline as if possessed. Once, Lyle had sunk his teeth into the pheromone gland located there. Recalling the scent of rainwater that had gushed out as if juice were seeping, his heart beat increasingly faster.

Haejin’s image, constantly trying to escape, grated on Lyle’s nerves down to his fingertips. To the point where he felt the urge to lock him away, held tightly in both hands.

It’s dangerous. At this moment, Lyle couldn’t distinguish whether it was dangerous to lose Haejin or whether it was he himself who was dangerous for acting like this. The important thing was that his marks, which he had left all over the boy’s collarbone, had now disappeared without a trace.

It’s dangerous.

Lyle continued to pour out his pheromones. They were not pheromones with murderous intent like when he was pressuring the former butler. They were things forged with endlessly lewd and primal instincts.

Haejin, biting his lip hard, began to tremble beneath him while clutching his own arms. Seeing Haejin tightly trapped between his two arms, Lyle even felt a strange sense of fulfillment. It was even more so the more he watched the boy’s legs twitch with a flushed face.

Even when releasing pheromones, Lyle had never opened them up like this. Since a dominant Alpha’s pheromones inevitably cause a physical reaction in an Omega, he had avoided it every time.

Why had he been like that?

His hand headed toward Haejin’s cheek as if possessed. Seeing the skin that felt moist against his palm, he reflexively swallowed hard. He liked the sensation of his Adam’s apple bobbing significantly.

He surely would have surrendered his body to instinct like that. If he hadn’t noticed Haejin’s lips, which he was biting until blood seeped out.

“Don’t bite.”