Our Hotel Is Open for Business as Usual Chapter 28

And now.

 

“…Velmareth….”

 

Lee Yeonwoo’s goal was precisely that ‘Deep Collapse.’

 

“Let the vein speak what I forgot.”

 

Eternal life? A body of blood? The expansion of the ego?

 

‘It is interesting, certainly.’ 

 

But he was not wishing for such things.

 

‘Even if it succeeds, it will merely alter the physical body I currently possess.’

 

Lee Yeonwoo simply wanted this ritual to fail.

 

Only then could he reach the ‘side effect’ he desired. The plan was to call upon the resurrection algorithm the moment he touched the soul, the deepest element of the blood.

 

“I will not return I have already bled.”

 

Naturally, it would fail. Lee Yeonwoo did not fully understand this book.

 

‘Skimming the surface, as they say.’

 

It was like firing a gun while blindfolded and hoping a bird that might be there would get hit and fall.

 

‘So naturally, only the bullets will be wasted. The bird will not fall.’ 

 

But he still had to fire the gun. This was the most accurate form of failure Lee Yeonwoo possessed. A clear failure is better than an unpredictable success. That, he could control.

 

It was not a method for survival. It was merely a method that Lee Yeonwoo himself could choose until the very end. As long as there is an option, it is his to take.

 

“Spinal-red, hush the marrow.”

 

So, let’s just not die.

 

‘I know the theory.’

 

The body is gradually collapsing.

 

‘The consciousness still exists.’ 

 

Senses become dull. Or perhaps, hypersensitive.

 

‘Am I…?’ 

 

I, I. The blood. 

 

It gradually descends.

 

‘Will I be there?’

 

Moving beyond life. Overcoming memory. Trampling emotion. Harming the will. Touching the soul.

 

‘Or is it just.’ 

 

Only my memory.

 

Will it remain?

 

“….”

 

Velmarethquorasolvendei

DismantlethestructureofthegoddessVelmareth

Rithmarrithmardelashtainkeen

Rithmaropenyourlamentation

Myornbeunspokenskinrendtonamefall

Donotspeakthenameandrendthefleshtodestroytheego

Reduponredhushthebreaththatneverleft

Blooduponbloodstillthebreaththatisyetleft

Takenotmetakewhatknewme

Donottakemebuturestorethebloodthatrememberedme

Mallianethbeturnedbelowtheknownvein

TwistMallianethbelowtheperceivedvein

Thebreathloopsbackwardsmynamediesbeforeit’sspoken

Thebreathreversesandthenameisdeadbeforeitissaid

Spinalredbonedeephushthemarrow

Therednessofthespinestillsthemarrowdeepwithinthebone

LettheveinspeakwhatIforgot

LettheveinspeakforwhatIhaveforgotten

IwillnotreturnIhavealreadybledwhereImustbe

Iwillnotreturnmybloodhasalreadyflowedwhereitoughttobe

MirrormeintheclotDrownmeinwhatIescaped

ReflectmeinthecoagulationanddrownmeinthatformwhichIescaped

Mybonesdonotspeakmybloodwritesinsilence

Bonesdonotspeakbloodwritesinsilence

Returnnotthefleshreturntheproofthatbled

Donotreturnthefleshreturntheproofthatbled

UnfoldmeinredstitchmenotLettheleakremain

UnfurlmeinreddonotsuturemeLettheleakremainasitis

IbledwithoutdyingthereforeIremainwithoutname

IbledwithoutdyingsoIremainwithoutaname

 

“…….”

 

AnnotationsOfTheCrimsonCoreInternalAnalysisReport4BSummaryCollapseReactionPhaseSummaryPhase1VesselRefluxPressureDispersionIrregularHeartbeatFollowedByCessationTemperatureDropEEGAlphaInstabilityBetaDecreaseSignsOfBloodPressureDropCyanosisPupilDilationPhase2MemoryOverproductionSensoryDistortionHeartbeatStagnationThetaWaveIncreaseSignsOfHandTremorsRepetitiveSpeechPhase3EmotionalRampageSympatheticNervousSystemHyperexcitationHeartbeatSurgeTemperatureRiseEEGExcessiveGammaInclusionSignsOfHyperventilationSelfMutilationPhase4WillFragmentationEgoDepartureHeartbeatPlummetTemperatureDropEEGConfusionSignsOfLossOfSpeechInabilityToControlMusclesPhase5SoulOrientationReleaseEgoExtinctionResidualOrNoHeartbeatEEGFlatlineSignsOfLossOfConsciousnessAutonomousBloodReactionSummaryOfSideEffectCasesCaseARJMemoryPastReplayNoEmotionalResponseRepetitiveMutteringIrrecoverablePersistentBloodPatternsCaseBH22EmotionalRampageHighFeverSelfMutilationAttemptRepetitiveSentencesIrrecoverableInfectionDeathCaseCNoIDPhysicalRestorationEEGFlatlineBloodWritingSentencesBloodTouchingHumanBodyIrrecoverableGeneralConclusionDeepCollapseIsAProcessWhereBloodReactsBeforeTheEgoAndTheEgoIsDepositedAndExtinguishedOrReplacedByBloodAutonomousBloodReactionContinuesEvenIfConsciousnessDisappearsRestorationOnlyLeavesMemoryAndPersonalityIsNotCloned

 

“…Stop.”

 

AnnotationsOfTheCrimsonCoreChapter12ExperimentalReportSummaryBloodformTransitionFailureRecordExperimentalPurposeTransitionToABloodformThatMaintainsTheEgoWithoutAPhysicalBodyByStoringMemoryEmotionWillAndSoulInTheBloodExperimentalConditionsConsciousConsentBloodExtractionBeforeCardiacArrestShapeMemoryEgoCoreFormationRestorationExecutedByAutonomousJudgmentOfBloodExperimentalProcedure1CommandInjection2CardiacArrest3PlasmaLayerSeparation4RestorationWait612HoursSubject01LemmainMale31YearsOldRestorationSiteOnlyTheCentralPrefrontalCortexRegeneratedNoOpticNerveConnectionNoSensoryResponseMicroPotentialTremorsRepetitiveBloodPatternsShapeRestorationFailureOnlyEgoMemoryExistsLossOfLanguageFunctionSubject02NTAdolescentGenderUnknownMultiLayerPlasmaSeparationAfterFullBodyDeconstructionRestorationResult2UpperBodies4LegsFacialDeformityEgoConflictRespiratoryDistressUnidentifiableRepetitiveMutteringEgoSeparationFailureMemoryConflictExcessiveEmotionPhysicalDeformitySubject03BriantFemale29YearsOldRestorationAppearanceNormalNoHeartbeatNoEEGResponseNoLightReflexAbsenceOfConsciousnessBloodPatternRecordingEgoUnclearInabilityToMaintainShapeSubject04IncompleteRecordNoShapeRestorationBloodRegularlyDepartingFormingBloodPatternsBloodReactingToExistAsItsOwnEgoSideEffectSummaryMemoryOverproductionBloodOverflowingWithMemoryEgoErosionBloodMutteringEmotionalRampageEmotionsOperatingAheadOfShapeAggressionInsanitySelfHarmEgoDualizationConflictBetweenRestoredEgoAndBloodEgoInducingSchizophreniaLanguageCollapseSoulDisorientationCentralEgoInitiativeTransferredToBloodStateOfLossOfConsciousnessFixedGeneralConclusionBloodCanPreserveMemoryButMemoryIsNotPersonalityBloodCanBecomeTheSubjectButAtThatMomentItIsNotHumanRestorationIsAFailureTheRepetitionContinues

 

“Stop.”

 

TheinitialreactionbeganwithasubcutaneoustemperatureinversiontheblooddidnotcoolandthevascularfunctionstoppedcontractingandbecamepassiveheartbeatcontinuedbutdominanceovercirculationtransferredtothevesselwallsthemediumarteriescontractedinreverseandbloodflowdidnotgooutwardbutscrapedtheinnerwallsandpushedinwardsensorynervesdidnotrespondandpainwasnotfeltIdidnotfeelpainandonlyperceivedthesensationofthestructureofexistencebeingflippedupsidedownupperlimbmovementwasnormalbutmovementcommandswereexecutedbythebloodandneuraldominancewasstrippedthefingertipstouchedtheforeheadbutthatsensationwasnotmineandthebloodoperatedasifscanningtheepidermistouchwasreplacedbyadetectionfunctionandIfeltthatIwasnotthesubjectofthefingertipsthereaftermemoryrupturebeganthehippocampalmemoryloopwasblockedadthebloodplayedthelanguagevisionandemotionsofmypastinnoorderemotionswanderedwithoutlogicandthenervoussystemtransformedintoasimpletransmitterIcouldnotsendmemoriesandonlyreceivedthememoriessentbythebloodItriedtospeakbutthemovementofthetonguewaslinkedtobloodflowandunlesstherewasintentioninthebloodspeechwasnotallowedtherewasnovocalizatonandthebloodspokeinsteadIcouldnotexpressintentandfollowedthecontentexpressedbythebloodvisionwasnormalbutvisualinformationwasrearrangedbybloodcirculationIdidnotseebutsawwhatthevesselsshowedIwasneithertheobservernortheobjectbutmerelyarelaystationforthebloodtheheartdidnotstopbutitscenterwasemptiedandtheegofellawayfromitthatspacewasfilledwithredcoagulummemorycoresfragmentsandemotionalresiduesIfeltthatIwasmybloodbutnolongermyselfhoweverthebloodrememberedmemoreaccuratelythanIrememberedmyselfandIdidnotdenythatfactVelmarethquorasolvendeiDeconstructthestructureofthegoddessVelmarethRithmarrithmardelashtainkeenOpenyourlamentationRithmarMyornbeunspokenskinrendtonamefallDonotspeakthenametearthefleshanddestroytheegoReduponredhushthebreaththatneverleftBlooduponbloodquietthebreaththatstillremainsTakenotmetakewhatknewmeDonottakemetakerestorethebloodthatrememberedmeMallianethbeturnedbelowtheknownveinTwistMallianethbelowtheperceivedvesselsThebreathloopsbackwardsmynamediesbeforeit’sspokenThebreathreversesandthenamediesbeforeitisutteredSpinalredbonedeephushthemarrowTherednessofthespinestillsthemarrowdeepwithintheboneLettheveinspeakwhatIforgotLetthebloodvesselsspeakwhatIforgotinmysteadIwillnotreturnIhavealreadybledwhereImustbeIwillnotreturnmybloodhasalreadyflowedwhereitoughttobeMirrormeintheclotDrownmeinwhatIescapedReflectmeinthecoagulumdrownmeinthethingIfledfromMybonesdonotspeakmybloodwritesinsilenceBonesdonotspeakbloodrecordsinsilenceReturnnotthefleshreturntheproofthatbledDonotreturnthefleshreturntheproofofbleedingUnfoldmeinredstitchmenotLettheleakremainUnfoldmeinreddonotsuturemelettheleakstayasitisIbledwithoutdyingthereforeIremainwithoutnameIbledwithoutdyingsoIremainwithoutaname

 

【Stop it】 

 

“….” 

 

“….”

 

* * *

 

…This.

 

Is not the failure I wanted.

 

Something is recording me. It was the blood.

 

It was memory. It was the ego. It was emotion. It was revolting. A method of mimicking oneself by pressing upon the nerves and extremities. An existence that is me, at the same time. An irony that cannot distinguish between parasite and host.

 

【But it’s strange, isn’t it】

 

I understand that unpleasantness. I could understand it. Because I understand it, it is not unpleasant.

 

Discarding form to live. Sacrificing the ego for continuation. It was not wrong. I do not like it, but I can understand it. It is the most basic form all life has chosen.

 

I, Lee Yeonwoo, like goodness. 

 

But that…. Is not. A necessarily required emotion.

 

【Is that so】

 

It is.

 

It was not an intended failure.

 

In that it was a correct answer I did not want, was it not a truly distasteful result? Nevertheless, this was capable of saving a person.

 

【How luxurious】

 

Yes, luxurious.

 

“….”

 

…It was a success.

 

“…Ha, hugh….”

 

Though, it was not in the way I wanted.

 

“Haha, ha… ugh…!”

 

Now, this is inside me. Something I can no longer push away. And have no need to.

 

“Kh….” 

 

“…….”

 

Me.

 

“…….”

 

It was the self.