Non-Resistance Chapter 30

“So, Yeongin, you want to go back to school?”

“Yes. I originally planned to attend only this semester and then take a leave of absence, but I want to graduate quickly now. Yeongwoo has gotten much better too.”

“I-I see. I’ll prepare your tuition fees.”

“No…. Yes, please do that.”

He had been about to say it was okay while thinking of the money he had saved, but Yeongin knew well that all that money belonged to Dogeon. There were no more debts, and he could live without that money now.

‘I should return it to Dogeon.’

He wanted to return at least the remaining money he had received from him, even if not all of it. As Yeongin thought this, his father said he would stay with Yeongwoo today.

“Really?”

“I couldn’t properly act as a father all this time, so I want to start repaying that debt little by little now.”

“Still…”

Was it really okay to leave Yeongwoo alone with their father? While Yeongin was hesitating, Yeongwoo, who had been drawing at the small dining table, raised his hand high and said.

“Hyung. It’s okay! I want to stay with Dad today.”

“Are you really okay without Hyung?”

“Yes!”

Looking at his younger brother, who had become much braver despite seeming a bit disappointed, Yeongin had no choice but to nod. It had been a long time since he had been home, and since he had time, he also wanted to see Dogeon.

‘I like you…. Would it be okay to confess that I want to date you normally, not just as sex partners?’

Yeongin placed his fist over his trembling heart and slowly left the hospital, heading home. After washing his body clean and changing into the best clothes he owned, Yeongin held an envelope containing ten million won that he had withdrawn from the bank on his way home.

“Huu…”

It was his first time carrying such a large amount of cash, so he felt nervous — or perhaps it was because he was going to confess to Dogeon.

After getting off the bus, Yeongin licked his lips repeatedly out of anxiety and walked into the familiar building. As he headed toward the main gate where the luxury villas were clustered, the security guard who recognized him opened the door.

After bowing politely, Yeongin headed toward Dogeon’s house and let out a small laugh, reflecting on how he had come without any contact. He thought he should contact Dogeon first and picked up his phone when the door opened and a familiar middle-aged woman appeared.

“Aren’t you the tutoring teacher for the young master?”

“Ah, ah, hello.”

“Today isn’t your scheduled day, so what brings you here…”

When the housekeeper, holding a garbage bag in one hand, asked curiously, Yeongin awkwardly rubbed the back of his neck and smiled awkwardly.

“The young master has some friends inside, but please go in.”

“Ah, there are other people too?”

It was an unexpected situation. He wondered if he should just go back, but the woman opened the door and said to Yeongin.

“Anyway, the young master is alone in his room, so go ahead.”

Yeongin gave a slight bow to the housekeeper who had opened the door for him and disappeared, thinking that he would just give the money and leave today, then carefully stepped inside the front door.

“Hey, Han Dogeon. Why have you been like this lately?”

“What do you mean.”

As he walked down the long hallway toward the living room, someone’s voice hit his ears. The familiar voice that followed was Dogeon’s. The housekeeper had said he would be alone in his room, but that seemed to be untrue.

Should he turn back like this? While Yeongin hesitated and stood awkwardly in the hallway, the conversation inside continued.

“Is it because of the girl you brought last time? You said she wasn’t your girlfriend.”

“Hey, we were so fucking horny we almost died that time. Anyway, when are you going to introduce her?”

At the continuing words, Yeongin bit his lip tightly. It seemed the friends he had seen at Dogeon’s house before had come again. Hearing them talk about him made Yeongin feel as if his blood was turning ice cold.

He knew it was wrong to eavesdrop, but he was curious about how Dogeon would talk about him. He would probably deny it. Yeongin believed that his relationship with Dogeon had changed since then. Although not as much as him, he thought Dogeon also liked him at least a little. Yes. He admitted it. Dogeon was his first love.

While anxiously nibbling his lips and holding his breath, Dogeon’s voice reached Yeongin.

“Why would I introduce him to you guys.”

Ha. The breath he had been holding back burst out. Unconsciously shrugging his shoulders and covering his mouth, Yeongin felt relieved at Dogeon’s changed attitude and was about to turn around when—

“Anyway, I’ll just play with him a bit more and then throw him away. You guys lose interest.”

“Throw him away? Hey, then give him to me. If Han Dogeon has been keeping him as a fuckhole for over half a year, he must be really good.”

Fuckhole….

Biting his tongue, Yeongin waited for Dogeon’s answer, but he offered no denial. To Dogeon, was he still just a target for fucking, nothing more and nothing less?

A hollow breath escaped. Standing in the long hallway, Yeongin’s body trembled finely as he swallowed his sobs. It felt as if someone was gripping his heart with sharp nails; his chest hurt and he couldn’t breathe properly. With his face cold, he bit his lip tightly, and his eyes gradually became wet.

“Does Gu Yeryeong know? Does your fiancée know you’re doing this?”

“Ah fuck, shut up. Be quiet and just drink.”

Dogeon cutting off his friends in annoyance and the word “fiancée” stirred up Yeongin’s mind. Fiancée… fuckhole… Feeling the huge wall between him and Dogeon, Yeongin left the front door with empty eyes.

Ha. Haha…

To Dogeon, he was nothing more and nothing less than a fuckhole, a hole to fuck whenever he wanted. He felt like a fool for dreaming of a normal relationship with such a man.

Wiping the tears flowing down his cheeks, Yeongin picked up his phone and sent a message to Dogeon.

Let’s end it here. Thank you for everything.

After pressing send and turning around, Yeongin held the power button for a long time, then put the phone in his bag. He had known from the beginning that it was a wrong relationship, but if he had known it would hurt this much, he wouldn’t have started.

Yeongin walked aimlessly wherever his feet took him, and his face gradually became wet with tears. In the end, he burst into the sobs he had been holding back and cried loudly like a child, letting go of his first love.

Ha Yeongin had disappeared. Dogeon’s eyes turned ice cold after checking the one-sided message that only said thank you for everything and that they should stop now.

“Ha. This is ridiculous.”

Did he pretend to like him with sparkling eyes while planning to betray him at any time behind his back? And without knowing that, why had he cleared all the debts that were waiting for Ha Yeongin?

Dogeon threw the phone, which only kept playing the message that the customer could not answer due to circumstances, and instead put a cigarette in his mouth.

“What should I do with this fucking bitch.”

He had grown up hearing repeatedly that he shouldn’t trust people, but he never thought that Ha Yeongin would betray him. At the cold anger he felt after a long time, the corners of Dogeon’s mouth twisted.

In fact, if he wanted to, there were many ways to find him. He knew where Ha Yeongin lived, his school, and even the hospital where his beloved younger brother was hospitalized.

Tap tap tap. The sound of fingers tapping on the table echoed in the silent house. His mind was clearer than ever. Rubbing his chin, he stood up and spoke to Team Leader Kim standing behind him.

“Where is Ha Yeongin right now?”

“He is reported to be at his studio apartment in Haewon-dong.”

Instead of dragging Yeongin in front of him immediately, Dogeon decided to give him some time to breathe for now.