At the End of That Memory Chapter 10

I sat in the greenhouse and read my book until lunchtime. My mind was preoccupied, but the sound of rain hitting the window distracted me from most of my thoughts. According to my experience, the more you didn’t understand a part, the less beneficial it was to dig deeper.

It was only then that the rain began to show signs of stopping little by little. The rain that had been pouring down as if the sky had been slit open was becoming thinner and weaker. The sky covered with dark clouds was also not as dark and gloomy as before.

Was it a little after noon? My phone started ringing loudly. Ring Ring. The vibrations were heavier than when a subordinate had an accident. I was shocked and looked at the screen, which was full of messages covered in all kinds of crying signs.

[Is it true that you resigned from the company?]

[Please come back, Director ㅜㅜㅜ]

[We miss you!!!]

It was a message from employees I had worked with in the past. I saw some familiar names, and I also saw names I had relatively little contact with. The news of my resignation had finally reached them, or that my father had chosen a Director and appointed him in my stead.

Not only did they say they were unhappy, but they also said they would wait for me to come. I was momentarily taken aback by the number of messages I received, which was more than expected, but I burst out laughing when I saw the question, ‘How can you run a company without a Director?’

“Even though you wished me well…”

I knew they wouldn’t be too sad about losing their boss. They might feel relieved now that the person nagging them was gone. Still, the polite things they said weren’t bad, so I responded to each person one by one and got up.

‘I heard you didn’t eat lunch today.’

On the day when I skipped lunch because I had no appetite, Kwon Yido spoke with an uncomfortable look on his face. If you wouldn’t mind, I’ll tell them to serve your lunch in the greenhouse but please don’t skip your meals.

The next day, while I was cooped up in the greenhouse, one of the staff came to me with a sumptuous feast. Two days ago, when I saw them serving the meals, I thought that no matter what happened, I had to return during the day. Only after I promised not to skip meals did he release me from that burdensome situation.

After that, I would leave the greenhouse on time whenever possible. I thought I should keep my promise since there was no benefit to being disliked by Kwon Yido. The rain had weakened at the moment, so I thought I could go on with this much rain.

‘I have someone who can come to pick me up.’’

There was no one at all. If I told Kwon Yido so, he would ask one of the staff to come and pick me up. Kwon Yido, whom I had observed over the past few days, was a person who was willing to show such kindness.

“Well, he won’t come in person, but…”

However, the more one was treated unfairly, the more there was a line that must be maintained. I was a person who knew such limits, and I didn’t think Kwon Yido would show that much sincerity to me. Even if something happened, getting caught in the rain wouldn’t be considered a crisis.

‘Call me.’

“…”

But why do I think Kwon Yido will hate it if I get caught in the rain?

I liked rainy days. The sound of rain, the sight of water droplets, and the overall desaturated scenery were all rare things that could not be bought with money. It wasn’t so bad to occasionally smell the moist earth and feel refreshed.

So sometimes I would stand in the middle of the garden and get caught in the rain. I got wet with the gently ricocheting rain, washing away all of the distracting thoughts that came to mind. The only person who worried about me was Chief Kim.

‘What if you catch a cold?’

Yes, there was only Chief Kim…

In my hazy memories, a voice that worried about me emerged. Dark brown eyes, and beautiful features that look like they were drawn. Even the umbrella shadow that was cast over my head.

‘Jung Sejin.’

“…”

Suddenly, the mirage was broken. Feeling my head spinning, I instantly grabbed the table. My heart sank, and nausea welled up from deep in my stomach.

There was no time to do anything. The sudden surge of heat began to spread throughout my body as if on fire. From my chest to the lower abdomen, and even to the fingertips. The back of my head became stiff, and my aroused breath flowed in the air.

“Haa …”

It smelled like flowers. A deep, dense scent that I couldn’t forget.

The trembling arms could not keep up with the weak, collapsing body. My lungs were crushed flat, and I sat down on the stone floor, shaking. Every time I breathed in and out, my heart beat faster and faster.

“Ah…”

Why, suddenly?

The endless questions were quickly overtaken by another emotion. My thighs were entangled and my mind was bleached white. My tight lower abdomen twitched with growing lust.

“Oh, no…”

It was a heat cycle. My regular heat should have come two days later. I have never been out of a cycle, so I was sure it wouldn’t be today.

I lowered my head and placed my forehead on the chair. Even the cold iron could not cool my intense heat. The pheromones, of which there had been no trace until now, burst out helplessly like pouring rain.

‘Jung Sejin today…’

“Your heat cycle starts today, doesn’t it?”

A thought suddenly occurred to me. Kwon Yido, did you know in advance that I would be like this?

* * *

I didn’t know how much time had passed. Around this time, the weakened rain became stronger again, and pitch-black clouds gathered incessantly. It felt like I had swallowed a fireball, and my throat was so dry that I couldn’t even swallow my saliva.

“Ha…”

My heart was pounding without stopping, making a harsh sound. The painfully erect penis was so sensitive that it felt like it would ejaculate at the slightest touch. The greenhouse was full of flowers everywhere, and a space made of transparent glass. Since I couldn’t masturbate in a place like that, my unquenched desires just piled up.

It was not a problem that could be solved simply by masturbation. My unique trait, especially my dominant heat cycle, was a beastly period that was difficult to overcome alone. If I relaxed a little bit, I would be overwhelmed by the rising desire and feel as if I would crumble to pieces at any moment.

‘If anything happens, call me.’

“…call…”

I got up from my chair and reached for my cell phone on the table. I was planning to ask someone for help, but the moment I grabbed my phone, my mind turned completely white.

Asking for help. From whom?

‘Pick up that defective product and…’

Accidents occurred rarely. The sound of the phone breaking as it hit the floor was heard. I let out a deep breath and buried my face in my palms.

‘You idiot. I wasn’t here to pick up something like you.’

“…Ugh… ”

Who on earth were you trying to contact? There was no way that anyone would be willing to help when my heat cycle came. Fortunately, Chief Kim was the only one who brought the inhibitors pretending not to know anything.

Perhaps someone would come looking for me before the day passed. What kind of expression would the staff, who would be Beta, make? How pathetic Kwon Yido must think of me for not being able to take care of my own body?

“…”

What if the engagement is broken off?

Funny enough, that was the part that scared me the most. I ignored Kwon Yido’s words and came to the greenhouse, so I was afraid he would abandon me and kick me out. I was afraid that my father would be disappointed in me once again, calling me a useless person after being abandoned like that.

My sexual desires that could not be expressed were pooled in my navel. The tears welling up in my eyes were crushed in my palms before I could swallow them. I didn’t even touch my bottom, but my front and back were wet and a mess.

Out of habit, I crouched under the table. I couldn’t hide myself like this, but I wanted to somehow hide my shabby appearance. As I covered my head with both arms and closed my eyes, warm tears flowed down my cheeks.

“Ha, ah…”

My ears became deaf. At some point, I couldn’t even hear the sound of rain that I could hear so well. Half the urge to somehow resolve my desires, and half blaming myself for not being able to endure the same cycle that everyone else went through. A little bit of unidentifiable fear, not knowing who it was directed at.

“Mmh…”

It would be better if no one came here like this. If no one else knew, I could at least avoid getting caught by Kwon Yido. With that in mind, I bent my upper body.

A squeak, an unfamiliar sound was heard. The refreshing smell of rain mingled with the space filled with my pheromones. The sound of falling rain rang in my ears, and familiar steps slowly approached me.

“…”

Rustle, rustle. The sound of my footsteps on the stone floor was as impatient as my heartbeat. Someone came almost running and stopped exactly in front of the table. I let out a sigh mixed with slight relief.

“Ha…”

I gathered all the strength I had and slightly turned my head to the side. Through my blurry vision, I could see neat slacks. Someone who would come to me in a suit when I was on a heat cycle.

“Chief Kim…?”

“…”

Was it because of my mood? Heavy air settled down. The presence of others began pouring into the space that was filled with only my pheromones. A heavy and profound scent seeped into the thin breath that seemed to break.

“In times like this…why are you calling your secretary?”

The unique sound of the voice surprisingly caught my ear. As if breathing had never been difficult, my breathing returned to normal. Mixed in with the gradually relaxed breathing was a heavy pheromone-like wet wood.

“…Kwon Yido.”

As if those words were correct, Kwon Yido’s pheromones became even stronger. He took off his jacket, placed it over my head, and dragged my limp body down from under the table. Soon, hands supporting my back and buttocks lifted me as if I were a child.

“…!”

The feeling of my body floating was something I had never felt even when I was very young. When I reflexively hugged his neck, he hugged me a little tighter. It was a very stable position, but because of his height, I felt anxious that I might fall at any moment.

“I told you to call me if anything happens…”

“…”

“I hoped for too much.”

It was a mocking tone. I wanted to answer, but all that came out was a small, lustful moan. Kwon Yido pulled his jacket over my head and whispered in a low voice.

“Bow your head so you don’t have to show your face.”

“…”

I guess my face looked quite off. As I continued to shed tears, it was no wonder that I looked haggard. After confirming that I had my head down, he started walking slowly.

“Boss!”

The humming sound repeated as it moved away and got closer. Someone was talking to Kwon Yido, but I couldn’t hear what they were saying. The sound of rain hitting the umbrella, the sound of stepping on wet soil, the sighs and irritated whispers that Kwon Yido let out.

“I told you not to raise your head.”

His large hand firmly held the back of my head. At first glance, it seemed like he made eye contact with a person presumed to be Kwon Yido’s secretary. The surrounding area suddenly became quiet, and the sound of someone clearing their throat was heard.

“…how…”

I was planning to ask, ‘How did you know about this place? Didn’t you say you would be late today?’ I was thinking of asking that too. But the moment he patted my back, the curiousness that came soon dissipated away.

“Later.”

The gentle sweeping hand was careful as if comforting a crying child. The clumsy consolation was filled with kindness that even my father did not show. The slightly cool body temperature, the calming pheromones, all of it was so warm that it made my eyes feel cold.

“…”

I held back tears and rubbed my forehead against the back of his neck. As I took a deep breath, Kwon Yido’s unique scent became even stronger. I couldn’t tell if it was because of my heat cycle or something else that was blocking my throat.

“No one can come up to the second floor.”

When I came to, he was carrying me up the stairs. From the greenhouse to the inside of the house, he walked without stopping, a distance that was by no means close. If he didn’t have the strength of a dominant Alpha, it would have been impossible in the first place.

The place he headed was his room filled with pheromones. The pheromones that seemed to get me drunk regularly became especially more sensitive today. He laid me down on the bed, panting, and ran a hand through his sweat-soaked hair.

“…Ah.”

Certainly, dominance. The pheromones I uncontrollably sprayed were eaten up little by little by Kwon Yido’s pheromones. The heavy scent, like a tree hit by rain, was stickily entangled as if it were a sweet sweetener.

“Inhibitors…”

I barely managed to say one word in a hoarse voice. There was something I needed to say now, but before I could continue, he responded lightly.

“I know.”

What do you know? You know what I’m saying?

“No…”

I stretched out his hand and grabbed Kwon Yido’s sleeve. I was worried that he might leave me behind. Suddenly numb, I held on to his hand even though I knew I shouldn’t.

“Don’t go…”

He curled his long fingers awkwardly. The neat, straight fingers were thicker than they looked. Was it because our bare skin touched each other? Once again, my heated body began to yearn for the Alpha in front of me.

“How can I…” … .”

I took his hand and held it close to my face, catching his breath. Instead of shaking me off, he pulled down his tie with his free hand. The pheromones that poured out as if soaking my entire body stuck to my skin more clearly than ever before.

“Jung Sejin.”

At first glance, the soft voice sounded like a warning. Without thinking deeply, I rubbed my lips against Kwon Yido’s fingers. When I put out my tongue and licked them a few times, I felt the sweetest pheromone.

Ah, it felt so good. Alpha’s pheromone was so addictive.

“Ha…”

Suddenly, it felt like something was cut off. I didn’t know if it was his resolve. However, one thing was certain: at that moment, Kwon Yido’s pheromones also became stronger.

With the hand that wasn’t holding him, I held on to my tight pants. As I massaged the bulging part without any technique, the erect penis from before ejaculated helplessly. Kwon Yido grabbed my wrist and held it tightly as the pheromones became thicker.

“Wait…”

It happened in the blink of an eye. Kwon Yido climbed onto the bed as if he was pressing me down. He kissed me without hesitation as I blinked blankly. The soft tongue gently penetrated the tightly overlapped lips.

“Mmh…”

Saliva flowed down, not knowing whether it was mine or Kwon Yido’s. Kwon Yido, who had entangled my tongue, handed over his pheromone directly with his lips. It tickled the roof of my mouth, and then the sensation of him rubbing against the underside of my tongue sent shivers down my waist.

It was a kiss that felt so good that it made me feel delirious. The relatively cool body temperature and the slowly warming mouth were both extremely satisfying. The pheromones in the air also brought me a pleasure I had never felt before.

I clenched and opened my hands, shaking my lower body. My wrists were held tightly, and it was the only thing I could move. When I rubbed my swollen lower body against him again, he groaned and tilted his head.

“…Ah!”

At that moment, sharp fangs bit my tongue. I reflexively turned my head to the other side due to the tingling pain I felt. Kwon Yido looked down at me, breathing heavily.

“Sejin.”

“…”

The area around my chest seemed to be constricting. His face was so close, the scene felt so unreal. The unidentifiable sense of déjà vu kept touching the back of my throat.

“Don’t be impulsive.”

Kwon Yido gave a brief warning and kissed me gently again. I saw something I hadn’t noticed before. He let go of my wrist which he had been holding tightly and gently caressed my cheek.

Was it true that Alpha pheromones were the best for calming down the heat cycle? I wrapped my arms around his neck and drank the pheromones like water. Kwon Yido didn’t push me away, but instead, we held each other.