Approximal Guide Vol. 6 Chapter 6 - Extra (6)

“A-grade Titan. It seems to be a giant reptilian monster, but we can’t tell if it’s a collective species since it’s a form we’ve never seen before.”

An esper reported to Kim Moohyuk. With an expressionless face, Kim Moohyuk looked at the black hole once before spreading his resonance. It seemed he intended to lighten his body using his abilities and enter that black hole. I couldn’t understand the esper’s casual report. A reptilian? A giant monster? How could I let Kim Moohyuk fight such a thing? No, find out what that is! Without a second thought, I rushed to him and grabbed his wrist.

“No! It’s dangerous!”

“…What are you doing.”

But what I got in return was his cold rebuke. Kim Moohyuk shook me off as if he had touched something dirty. As he suddenly swung his arm, I lost my balance and fell right there.

My knee twisted, and I let out an ugly scream as I crashed onto the asphalt. As if it had nothing to do with my fall, Moohyuk spoke to those around him with a sneer. I couldn’t even think of getting up, just staring up at him dumbly.

“Since the colonel is unwell, take him back to the center. Sergeant Ha, you handle it.”

“Yes.”

The esper called Sergeant Ha answered simply and looked at me with pity. His eyes seemed to say, why did you step in and make things worse.

“Colonel, actually, we were drafted mainly for field personnel. We didn’t pay attention because you usually don’t join us.”

It seemed to imply that normally I didn’t care about Code Black missions, so why was I suddenly here embarrassing myself. Sergeant Ha offered me his hand to help me up. I stared at his hand in a daze.

I needed some time to understand what had just happened. In the world I live in, the opponents Kim Moohyuk faced were espers who, despite their abilities, were still human. That’s why I had been alarmed by the sudden appearance of an unknown monster and tried to stop him. Even though I knew he was the strongest on this land, I still hadn’t broken the habit of standing in his way. Every time, Kim Moohyuk would get angry, looking at me with disbelief and absurdity. This time, he coldly pushed me away. My palm, scraped from the fall, stung.

“…”

Before bonding with Kim Moohyuk or confirming our feelings, I would have stood up on my own in such a situation. But now, I felt a sense of humiliation that I couldn’t identify. Was it disappointment, or just the embarrassment of being rejected in front of many people?

Thinking I needed to hide my stern expression, I stood up without grabbing the offered hand, wobbling awkwardly but ignoring it. I stood tall.

“…I can go on my own, no need to bother.”

I spat out the words and turned away. This world is created by my subconscious. Despite warnings that my subconscious would try to block my attempts to re-bond with Kim Moohyuk, I didn’t understand why my emotions were so volatile. Even though it’s just a subconscious world, it was hard to convince myself there was no reason to feel bad.

Before realizing I loved him, I might have felt some embarrassment but not this kind of sorrow. Realizing my feelings for Kim Moohyuk meant accepting that he could hurt me anytime. I realized it too late. Even when I had dedicated myself to rehabilitation for six months before going to the Middle East, thinking of him, I hadn’t felt this miserable.

Someone’s gaze followed me, but I didn’t look back. I returned to the dorm alone, avoiding the black hole I had passed through to get to Mapo. Since the area around the center is a military facility and off-limits to civilian vehicles, I took a taxi to the nearest point and walked to the center. My knee throbbed, but I didn’t care. This isn’t reality, so even if my already damaged cartilage wore out, it wouldn’t matter much.

The person who used to nag at me constantly now ignored me, watched me with distrust and resentment. What could I do? Walking a considerable distance, all I could think about was my deep anger towards Kim Moohyuk.

Did he forget he persuaded me to live with him, even threatening my mentor? And now he treats me like a clone? What kind of idiot doesn’t recognize his bonded guide? Forgetting his spouse as a married man. How should I deal with this fool?

The further I walked and the more my knee ached from overexertion, the deeper my anger grew. By the time I reached the center’s north gate, the sun had already set. I had spent all that time walking slowly. Sighing, I showed my ID card to the guard and was about to enter.

“Colonel, you need to step aside as the vehicles need to pass first.”

The guard said, looking troubled. I turned to see several operation return vans waiting to enter.

“…”

I stepped aside silently. The guards signaled the drivers to proceed after checking their IDs. Several vans passed by me. Some of them weren’t heavily tinted, so I could see inside. I recognized a familiar face—Sergeant Ha, who had offered his hand earlier. The person sitting next to him was hard to see clearly, but it seemed to be Kim Moohyuk. Even with just a glimpse of his silhouette, I couldn’t fail to recognize my esper.

Sergeant Ha looked down at me with an embarrassed expression as I stared blankly at them. Kim Moohyuk didn’t even glance my way. The van carrying them sped up and disappeared after passing through the north gate checkpoint.

“Uh, Colonel. You can go now.”

The guard, puzzled by my continued presence, spoke. I didn’t answer him and just walked away. A sense of determination welled up inside me. My esper seemed to have completely forgotten his bonded guide. But I didn’t join lives with you just to be forgotten.

I gritted my teeth.

A duel between a seasoned warrior with a bad knee and a young, healthy opponent would undoubtedly end in the seasoned warrior’s defeat, but I knew Kim Moohyuk very well. Just as he knew me well, I knew him inside out.

I had been responsible for Kim Moohyuk’s first guiding. I knew exactly how he liked his resonance to be adjusted and how to conduct the guiding to make him feel at ease. Just as he knew what illnesses plagued me each season, what foods I couldn’t eat, and what foods I avoided despite being able to eat them, I had my own detailed knowledge about Kim Moohyuk.

So, I decided to break into his house. I couldn’t stand it any longer. It was infuriating that Kim Moohyuk denied my very existence. I couldn’t tolerate his neglect towards his spouse. Determined, I wrapped my knee in sports tape and headed to his dorm.

Fortunately, Kim Moohyuk lived alone in the esper dormitory district. The guide dormitory had stricter security, and an alarm would sound if an esper broke in, but the esper dormitory allowed guides to enter freely. However, the problem was getting through the front door or security windows of Kim Moohyuk’s dorm.

I waited until late at night. Espers like Kim Moohyuk had exceptional hearing, but there was a way to deal with that. The key was to wait until a time when no one was around. I spent the time in my dorm, repeatedly doing image training. There could be no mistakes. I had to crush that arrogant esper and convince my subconscious. After midnight, I quietly left my dorm.

The esper dormitory district was quiet. To prevent my knee from deteriorating further, I had to use crutches. The key was to conserve my knee’s strength until I infiltrated Kim Moohyuk’s dorm.

“…I’m here.”

After much effort, I reached Kim Moohyuk’s dorm without being seen. It was the same dorm he had stayed in before pairing with me when he first joined the center. As expected, I could faintly sense his resonance around the area. Even though he was a high-grade esper specialized in hiding his resonance, I could always recognize it.

His dorm was a detached house attached to other villa-style buildings, quite spacious for one person. It was located in a secluded area, likely to accommodate high-grade espers with sensitive hearing. The faint light seeping through the blackout curtains indicated he was still awake.

Luckily, I hadn’t encountered anyone on the way, but I couldn’t afford to hesitate and draw attention. Holding my breath in nervousness, I spread my guiding resonance before reaching the front door. No matter how much you suspect I’m a clone, those protein lumps can’t mimic this guiding. Still awake? Have sweet dreams, Moohyuk.

I slowly released the guiding, said to be divinely arranged for guides with softer bones and flesh compared to espers. I filled the surroundings with a light concentration of guiding and gradually expanded it. It was one way to put an esper to sleep by overwhelming them with guiding. The guiding, acting as a sedative for espers, would put someone like Kim Moohyuk, who could easily withstand even the deadliest toxins, to sleep instantly.

“Ugh, hmm…”

The problem was that it also had some adverse effects on me. But fortunately, my guiding core in the subconscious was intact. By pouring out a high volume of guiding, I could send Kim Moohyuk, who was about to end his day and go to bed, to dreamland a bit earlier. I persistently poured out the guiding, determined to exhaust all the guiding in my body tonight.

After a considerable amount of time, I stood in front of the door. The door lock was firmly closed, as if it had never allowed anyone but Kim Moohyuk to enter. I had only one thing to rely on. While Kim Moohyuk might mistake me for a clone, he hadn’t forgotten me. If so, his password would never have changed.

I slowly reached out and opened the door lock keypad. The electronic sound in the silence gave me goosebumps, but I ignored it. Then I slowly entered the numbers. The numbers I entered were my six-digit birthdate. Beep, beep, beep, beep, beep…My heart started pounding. After a moment, I heard a beep and the sound of the lock releasing.

“Ha…”

A low sigh escaped. The sound of my pounding heart was overwhelming my ears. I slowly opened the door and stepped inside. The surroundings were quiet and dim. The light Kim Moohyuk had left on was indirect, only slightly illuminating one side of the living room, not fully lighting the floor. Kim Moohyuk wasn’t in the living room. I slowly looked around the dorm.

“…”

Then I froze. The place where he stayed in my subconscious was similar to the dorm we first shared. The structure was different, but the dining table, sofa, and furniture were all in the same positions. It felt like something was welling up inside me. Even while pushing me away, thinking I was a clone, Kim Moohyuk had been waiting for ‘Kang Hajung.’

I tried to breathe slowly. I had to control my overwhelming emotions and the tears welling up. There was still something I needed to do. I took off my shoes and walked slowly. But strangely, I couldn’t easily identify the bedroom. Whether it was subconscious interference or something else, I couldn’t find his room at the crucial moment, making me anxious. The first door I opened was the bathroom, and the next was a pantry for clothes and miscellaneous items. Only one door remained.

Standing in front of the closed door, I clenched my trembling fist. I checked one last time to make sure the imprinting drug was securely in my pocket. I hope you understand. I have an Esper waiting for me to return and embrace them. I would have liked to carefully perform the imprinting with you, but you show no signs of liking me, and I am running out of time. Do not forgive your foolish guide.

With that thought, I slowly opened the door. The soft hinges did not warn the owner of the room about my intrusion. This time, I was able to find Kim Moohyuk’s room without any mistakes. As soon as I opened the door, I saw someone lying on the bed. I held my breath and slowly entered the room.

He was lying there without a blanket, dressed comfortably. His closed eyes and stable Esper waves were noticeable. It was fortunate that the guiding I had extracted, enough to stabilize forty Espers, had not been in vain.

Feeling a throbbing pain in my chest, I extracted the guiding once more and wrapped it around him. I hoped he wouldn’t wake up. It wasn’t because I was worried about an embarrassing situation. If Kim Moohyuk suddenly woke up and grabbed my neck, I wouldn’t be able to escape.

Fortunately, he absorbed my guiding very well, as always. As if he was very satisfied. Kim Moohyuk here seemed to have received no guiding from anyone, just like the real Kim Moohyuk right after I died. Otherwise, he wouldn’t absorb it so readily. This guy was starving here too…A belated, pitiful feeling came over me. I almost caressed his cheek but managed to stop myself.

What’s important now is not that, I reminded myself repeatedly as I picked up the imprinting syringe I had brought. In the darkness, I fumbled to find his arm, quickly disinfected it, and inserted the syringe. The deeply sleeping Kim Moohyuk, under the influence of the concentrated guiding, did not even frown. I felt a faint sense of guilt, but I couldn’t stop now. After removing the syringe, I wiped the blood that welled up with an alcohol swab and climbed onto his bed.

One side of the mattress must have felt like it was sinking, but he didn’t move. He didn’t even flinch when the syringe was inserted, so he must have been deeply asleep. The transmitted ESP waves were stable, like those of a sleeping person, which was a relief.

As I slowly reached out to touch his lower body, I suddenly felt embarrassed. Before I got involved with Kim Moohyuk, I had no desires at all, even for men my age. But recently, I’ve become so accustomed to having sex every night that it felt natural to think of taking off his pants first. I sighed briefly, wondering how I ended up like this. It was all Kim Moohyuk’s fault. Did you think you could just forget about me after seducing an old man who was just waiting to retire and become one with the earth? I blamed him unreasonably and continued to feel his lower body.

Kim Moohyuk was wearing homewear pants without underwear. As soon as I pulled down his pants, his dark pubic hair was exposed. I closed my eyes for a moment and then opened them again. His considerable length and thickness were visible even when not erect, fitting snugly in a small pocket on one side of his pants. It seemed that he didn’t wear underwear because of the storage pocket.

…This guy wore some bold clothes when he was single. I don’t remember him wearing such strange things when he lived with me. I glanced at the unfamiliar Kim Moohyuk and then swallowed hard, taking out his sleeping member. It was not easy to remove the long object stored in his thigh pocket without any difficulty, so I adjusted the angle and took it out, then glanced at him again. Fortunately, he still seemed to be asleep. With a sigh, I began to gently rub it.

“…I’ve never seen it not erect before…”

The problem was that I had never seen his member without any strength in it. Whenever I found it, it was always hard, growing in size, or fully erect and dripping clear fluid from the tip. So, I was also wondering how to make it erect.

After thinking for a while, I wrapped my hand with guiding and slowly massaged it. That’s when his abs twitched.

“…”

I held my breath and stared at him intently. I thought he might have woken up, but he didn’t move. He didn’t seem to have woken up yet. Relieved, I moved my hand again. As I continued to massage it with guiding on the surface of my palm, it quickly began to harden. No matter how I looked at it, his strength was amazing…Is this how all Espers are? Even as a man, the reaction of my own member was slightly different.

After rubbing it a few more times with my hand, his member became quite impressive. The tip was red and swollen, with droplets of fluid gathered. I stared at it and, without thinking, stuck out my tongue and licked it. It had a strangely salty taste. His abs twitched again. I was startled and paused, but soon relaxed. Kim Moohyuk’s stable waves told me he was still asleep.

In the meantime, I thought about licking it again. Moohyuk clings to my member as if it’s covered in something, but he’s never let me put his genitals in my mouth. As a man, I wanted to try making my partner happy, but every time I tried to lower my head to his crotch, he would stop me with a stern look. And yet, he’s the one who eagerly clings to mine.

Besides, this was the first time I had seen Kim Moohyuk so calm. Whenever I felt desire, I wanted to touch and caress him, but every time I did, his eyes would blaze with fire, and he would pounce on me, making my life miserable. Every time he attacked like a wild beast, I couldn’t satisfy my desires. I could only take a passive stance, swaying as he swayed. But looking at him now, I thought today might be an opportunity. I had many curiosities about his body and many things I wanted to do. I decided to give it a try today.

Since the imprinting drug still needed time to circulate in his body, I thought I’d do something else…I swallowed nervously and opened my mouth to take his now fully erect member from the tip. When I wrapped it with my lip mucosa instead of my front teeth, I felt his thigh twitching as if in convulsion. However, his expression remained calm. I figured that if he furrowed his brow, that would be a sign of danger.

I decided to be a bit more daring. I boldly took his member into my mouth. It was only up to the glans, but it was a significant improvement compared to the timid licking from before. I stroked the shaft with my hand and sucked on the glans with my lips.

“Mmm…”

Then, he let out a short moan. It was a brief moment of excitement. I didn’t expect his reaction to be so stimulating to me. Remembering his cold face from earlier today when he pushed me away, I sucked harder with a vengeful attitude. It felt a bit strange to be relieving my revenge through oral sex, but seeing his member stand tall made me feel quite proud.

The thick shaft made me feel like the corners of my mouth were slightly tearing, but I had no intention of taking it out of my mouth. I understood why Kim Moohyuk would bury his face in my crotch for so long…It felt good to see the other person react.

The usually rational Kim Moohyuk was unaware that he was being subjected to this, and that alone was exciting. I didn’t know I had such sadistic tendencies. It was a surprising discovery. I also wanted Kim Moohyuk to be happy with my actions. Whenever we tried to enjoy ourselves together, I would end up passing out from being pushed to the limit, and Kim Moohyuk would take care of me, soothing me by pouring water into my mouth, washing me, and then putting me to bed. That wasn’t bad, but I wanted to make him happy too. After all, I’m a man, so it’s natural to want my partner to enjoy it. In that sense, the process of him pushing me to my limit, taking care of me, and then us embracing and falling asleep together was like a ritual of our sex, but this was a different experience.

I couldn’t stop myself from getting more and more into the act. My mouth was filled with his salty taste, and every time Kim Moohyuk’s pubic hair brushed against the base of my little finger, it felt incredibly erotic. I vaguely understood why Kim Moohyuk spent so much time on foreplay. It was pleasing to see the other person’s reaction and curious to see how they would respond to my stimulation.

Kim Moohyuk began to slightly lift his hips. I liked how he was making small piston movements in my mouth. I thought he desired me even in his sleep. After sucking a few more times, I thought the imprinting drug should have circulated enough in his body, so I tried to pull my head back.

“Mmph—!”

Suddenly, I felt pressure on the back of my head. Kim Moohyuk’s hand was pressing down on my head. The force was so strong that as I let out a sound, his thick glans slid past my tongue and hit the back of my throat.

I gagged lightly, but nothing came up, and my throat just tightened around his member. The sensation of my throat being stimulated and the feeling of his thick thighs made me feel like I was choking. Even when I tried to push his thighs away, I couldn’t overcome Kim Moohyuk’s strength. I felt dizzy from the lack of oxygen. Kim Moohyuk continued to thrust like that for a while, and I felt a viscous liquid sliding down my esophagus. I instinctively scratched his thighs with my nails, but my trimmed nails couldn’t leave a scratch on his iron-like thighs. His member continued to thrust, hitting the roof of my mouth repeatedly.

“Ugh, huh, ugh…”

I couldn’t help but tremble and moan because he wouldn’t take his hand off the back of my head.

“Hajung, Kang Hajung…”

I heard Kim Moohyuk calling my name. A chill ran down my spine. I thought he had woken up.

“Ugh, mm…Hajung…”

But it seemed like he wasn’t. Kim Moohyuk’s voice was drowsy, as if he was lost in a dream. I found it annoying that he was having a dream, so I hit his thighs, but the pressure on the back of my head didn’t let up. The liquid sliding down my esophagus showed no signs of stopping. Kim Moohyuk’s ejaculation was long and intense. I couldn’t taste it because it went straight down my throat, but occasionally, the strong male scent would rise up, making me feel both painful and strangely excited. Tears streamed down onto his pubic hair.

“Ha, ugh, ugh…ah…”

By the time I finally escaped his grip, he had finished ejaculating.

“Ugh…”

I let out a moan. My throat was sore from the physical strain. I glared at Kim Moohyuk, holding my throat, but even with a few drops of semen on his pubic hair, he was still asleep. It was a relief, but I felt annoyed for some reason. I sighed and took out a portable lube, applying it to my hand. Even when I bought this at a drugstore in Ilsan on my way to eat ramen, it was embarrassing. Kim Moohyuk usually prepared everything, so I never had to worry about it, but this time I had a different experience. I pretended to be looking at cleaning foam whenever the clerk approached. After all that effort, I couldn’t fail. I sighed, took off my pants and underwear at once, placed them under the bed, applied lube to my hand, and reached behind me.

“Ugh…”

A moan escaped my lips. The sticky sensation of my fingers probing below was something I could never get used to. However, I couldn’t be careless with this task. Otherwise, I wouldn’t be able to take Kim Moohyuk inside me. My entrance felt so tight that it seemed impossible for even the tip of his penis to enter.

I inserted my index and middle fingers, stirring and widening the inside, while continuously applying guiding to ensure he didn’t wake up. It was a bit of a strenuous task…This guy, I’m going through all this trouble because of you…A slight resentment welled up, but fortunately, it started to loosen up a bit, so I took my fingers out. Then, I sat on his lower abdomen…

“Ha, this seems difficult…”

No matter how I looked at it, the size seemed impossible to fit. What should I do…Just like buying condoms and lube, insertion was also Kim Moohyuk’s responsibility. This is a big deal. It was ridiculous how dependent I was on him, and it was annoying that he didn’t recognize me even after making me so dependent on him.

Let’s recall why I even tried to forcefully do something to this guy by climbing over the wall tonight. His various oppressions, harsh criticisms toward me, his stubbornness that wouldn’t let me eat ramen, his persistent nagging…Although some different feelings were mixed in, I remembered that I had even resorted to breaking into his house out of deep resentment toward him.

Admitting that I had been quite passive in bed with Kim Moohyuk, I bent my relatively intact knee and supported it on the bed, then grasped Moohyuk’s penis. His thick member was throbbing with heat. It wriggled like the head of an eel looking for a place to enter, a truly frightening sight.

Still, I knew better than anyone that staying in this state wouldn’t do any good. Helplessly, I slowly tried to sit on the glans. The hole that I had widened a bit was tightly closed as if to say there was no way it would fit. I had to gently coax it, swallowing the bulging glans a little, then pulling it out and swallowing it again, repeating this several times. The thick glans would slightly open the tightly closed entrance, then slip out, and the hole would close again as if it had never opened. I felt a cold sweat running down my spine. However, I didn’t give up and tried several more times. Kim Moohyuk should appreciate my efforts.

The lube I had scooped up with my fingers was flowing down the crack opened by the glans, dripping down Moohyuk’s penis. It was ridiculous to see myself struggling to insert a greasy, shiny rod below. But I couldn’t stop now that I had come this far. If it didn’t work the first time, I had to try several more times.

Enduring the cold sweat, I took off my outerwear and sat on him again, wearing only a white T-shirt. Remembering how Kim Moohyuk would touch my chest in this position, I awkwardly felt my chest and then took my hand away, feeling embarrassed. Still, with my sweaty upper body exposed, I felt a cool sensation, which was a bit better. Biting my lip, I tried again on top of him.

“Ugh, huh…”

A moan escaped from my tightly closed lips. Trying to insert something as thick as an average adult woman’s forearm into a space where only two fingers could barely fit was challenging. I felt wronged that I could only insert half of it, even with all my effort.

The funny thing was that, perhaps because his penis was long, or maybe because my prostate was a bit forward, I started to feel stimulated even with only half of it inserted. Perhaps it was also because of the anticipation that came with the relationship with Kim Moohyuk. Of course, it was true that I was doing this out of resentment, but strangely, I started to feel excited in this situation.

Even though I knew I wasn’t doing this to satisfy my own desires, I felt a growing warmth below. My half-erect penis was also slowly gaining strength. I was surprised and confused by the excitement I felt, even though Moohyuk was unconscious. But as I moved a little more…

“Mm, ugh…”

A short moan escaped me. I instinctively covered my mouth and looked at Kim Moohyuk. Moohyuk was slightly frowning, but fortunately, he didn’t seem to be awake. Focusing on the guiding, I lowered my hips a bit more to sit on his penis. The hole was twitching and dripping lube like saliva as the thick shaft entered. Gritting my teeth, I finally sat down completely, feeling his dark pubic hair brushing against my groin.

“Huff, huff…”

I managed to get it all in. Feeling my lower abdomen, I could feel the bulge. I didn’t know that inserting it by myself would be this difficult. With every breath, I could feel the fullness inside, which was painful. The sensation of the swollen shaft and glans pressing against my inner walls made me pant. Slowly, I lifted my hips and then lowered them again. I didn’t know exactly how much intercourse was needed for imprinting.

The manual only said that having sex would result in imprinting. So, even as I moved, I was confused about how much more of this difficult task I had to endure. Despite the confusion, I was steadily getting excited. As I moved my hips up and down, my not-yet-fully-erect penis gradually became harder and eventually fully erect, swaying back and forth. If Kim Moohyuk were awake, I wouldn’t have been able to do this, but thinking about doing this on top of him with his eyes closed and slightly frowning made it hard to stop.

Even though the size was burdensome, when the thick rod scraped my inner walls and made a squelching sound as it entered, my thighs trembled. By then, I was somewhat relieved that Moohyuk wouldn’t wake up. I placed both palms on his firm lower abdomen and started moving my hips back and forth. The squelching sound and the sensation of seeing stars in front of my eyes were overwhelming. But something felt subtly different from usual. Usually, it was a bit more…

How can I replicate the sensation that Kim Moohyuk usually gives me? Too strong is painful, but this teasing is also painful. I tried to suppress my moans while wanting a stronger stimulation, twitching my hips.

“Ugh, ha…Mm…”

I never thought I could be the kind of person to climb on top of someone and do something like this. It was absurd, but I didn’t feel bad. Kim Moohyuk pushed me so hard that my relatively modest desires seemed even more pathetic. It was rare for me to be honest about my desires. Thinking about it that way, I felt a bit greedy.

I rolled my hips a little more, enjoying the sensation of his penis pressing deep into my inner walls. I remembered how good it felt when Kim Moohyuk moved his hips like this. I even touched the places I had always wanted to touch but held back for fear of exciting him. I reached out and grabbed Kim Moohyuk’s chest, gently rubbing it. It wasn’t strong enough to wake him from his deep sleep, but I could clearly feel his firm chest muscles. I gently touched his chest, which was swollen like a baked loaf of bread, and thrust my hips. The feeling of excitement grew, and it wasn’t bad.

“Mm, hmm, ugh, huh…”

Moving my hips back and forth was easy and not too stimulating, which seemed just right for me. At first, I was used to Kim Moohyuk’s passionate and intense movements, so something felt missing and empty. But thinking about it again, this level seemed just right. My mind went blank. I didn’t even realize my cheeks were flushing from the constant movement. Now, I thought I could handle a bit more stimulation. Just as I was about to lift my hips and insert him fully…

“Huh? Ah…”

I let out an exclamation without realizing it. Kim Moohyuk grabbed my pelvis and thrust his hips upward. It was a very strong movement. Before I could think about what it was or what it meant, I was penetrated deeply. The previous insertion felt like child’s play compared to this. The lube that had melted inside me squirted out as his penis forced its way in. Even seeing the lube splatter onto Kim Moohyuk’s pubic hair didn’t bring me back to my senses.

Just as I was about to flail my arms in surprise, my body fell backward, and my back hit the bed. Something was forcing its way between my legs. His thick thighs and firm hips spread my legs to their limit. Kim Moohyuk was pinning me down with his body.

“Huff, ugh…”

A moan escaped my lips. My vision flickered on and off. Even as I shook my head, my vision remained blurry. I could only moan, pinned down. I tried to push away the intruder with my hands, but it was difficult.

“Ugh, ah…! Ung, ugh…! Wait, wait a moment…”

It was strange. Kim Moohyuk was clearly asleep…As I was being shaken, I tried to check Moohyuk’s condition. He slowly raised his dazed eyes. Our eyes met in the air.

“What is this…”

Moohyuk muttered as if he didn’t understand. Even after shaking his head several times, he still couldn’t come to his senses. His lower body was moving chaotically, but he didn’t seem to recognize who was pinned beneath him.

“Ugh, huh, Kim, Kim Moohyuk…”

“Ha, shit…”

Then, a curse escaped his lips. I wondered if the imprinting was complete and Moohyuk recognized me, so I called his name. I reached out to touch his cheek. The strong emotion of wanting to see my Esper was surging within me.

“What the hell is this nonsense!”

But he shouted in a high-pitched voice and forcefully slapped my hand away. With an “ah” sound, my arm fell heavily back onto the bed. I stared at him blankly. Kim Moohyuk was enraged, still buried inside me. His eyes, filled with a mix of contempt and desire, glared at me. He spat out his words as if chewing them.

“Do you have to go this far?”

Then he scoffed, “Ha, ha,” as if mocking me. He even let out a short, dry heave, which was unusual. I tried to say something. It’s not that, I wanted to deny it, even though I didn’t know what I was denying. I just wanted him not to look at me that way. But Kim Moohyuk didn’t wait. He spoke in a sharp, biting tone, as if spitting out curses.

“―Fine. I’ll grant your wish.”

Before I could respond, Kim Moohyuk’s thrusts resumed. Grabbing my pelvis, he pulled his hips back and thrust in deeply. His firm thighs slapped against my buttocks with a loud sound. The sensation of being penetrated by his thick rod made my whole body tremble. I couldn’t even say stop.

He grabbed both my wrists with one hand and started thrusting his hips. Whenever my body was pushed up by his movements, he pulled my wrists back and thrust his penis in again. I felt like I was nothing more than an object to be penetrated.

Moohyuk didn’t let me close my legs and slapped my buttocks or inner thighs with his other hand whenever I tried to squirm away. It was as if he was disciplining a child. The places where his hand touched felt like they were on fire, and then they became itchy. It was embarrassing that my penis was throbbing even though it hurt. I wanted to cover myself with my hands and block his slapping, but I couldn’t.

“Ah, ugh, Moohyuk, Moohyuk…Stop, ah―!”

“Since they sent a clone, I should at least use it well as a masturbation tool, right?…So, I should at least fuck you this much.”

Moohyuk spat out the words as if chewing them, and started thrusting his hips in short, quick movements. The sensation of his penis pounding into my inner walls was overwhelming. I was panting and only later understood what he meant. My eyes widened in shock. Did he just say…a masturbation tool? I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, but I couldn’t ask him to repeat it. Kim Moohyuk seemed to genuinely want to use me as a masturbation tool, moving his lower body without any consideration, as if he was grinding me down.

“Ah―! Ugh, huh, ah, wait, wait a moment, ah…!”

“Why did you sneak in here and do this?” he asked, lowering his head and biting my earlobe hard with his front teeth. A sharp pain flashed by, and I felt blood trickling down. I shook my head, but Kim Moohyuk continued to thrust his lower body as if that wasn’t an answer. Is this even sex? The things Kim Moohyuk gave me were always sticky and persistent, but they were always sweet. Too sweet to make my tongue sore, yet pleasurable…If that was sex, then what Kim Moohyuk and I were doing now shouldn’t be called sex. It felt like exploitation, theft, a passive relationship. Kim Moohyuk was punishing me with sex as if he was judging me.

Water was splashing from the junction as if it were gushing out. The melted lube and the pre-cum from Kim Moohyuk’s penis mixed to form a sticky viscosity. The slapping sound filled the bedroom. My slightly raised pelvis and buttocks were soaked, and I felt the bedsheet beneath my tailbone getting wet.

“Stop, that’s not, ah…! Ugh…”

I struggled. Had the imprint not been fully formed yet? I couldn’t remember how it felt when Kim Moohyuk and I first formed the imprint. At that time, I was too busy being dragged around by him. When I came to my senses, I felt a solid ring forming around my solar plexus. It was strangely satisfying. I was proud and hoped he felt the same way. Being his only guide felt like that…In my daze, I thought about it and suddenly felt annoyed.

So, you treat your paired guide, who came to restore the imprint, like a masturbation tool? My vision blurred with pleasure, and I gritted my teeth. Fine, let’s see who wins. Let’s see if you can beat a guide who has been practicing guiding since you were born. Stubbornly, I spread my waves deeply and enveloped him. I focused the waves on the contact area, the mucous membrane, and poured guiding onto the penis that was grinding inside me.

“Shit…”

Kim Moohyuk let out a short moan as the guiding seeped in. Increasing the efficiency of guiding through membrane contact is basic knowledge in this field, but did you not expect this even though you were putting yours inside me? Pinned beneath him, I smirked and glared at him.

That smile must have annoyed him because Kim Moohyuk stopped moving and took a deep breath, his chest puffed out. His eyes looking down at me were fierce. He was clearly angry. Good. I was very angry too, and I was worried that maybe I was the only one feeling this way.

I tightened my lower body and squeezed hard. I created dense waves and enveloped his penis. I didn’t know how this technique was possible, but it was my first attempt, and I was glad it worked. I saw the veins on Kim Moohyuk’s lower abdomen bulge more. The veins on his forehead were the same. He seemed to be holding something back, but I wasn’t going to let him. As if giving him one last chance, I asked,

“What if I’m the real Kang Hajung? Can’t you feel the waves? I’m your guide.”

Kim Moohyuk’s eyes flashed with anger as he struggled to control his desire, his chest heaving. “How dare you pretend to be Kang Hajung? You think I’ll believe you with that face?” he sneered. This bastard— I was furious. Even as I intensified the waves, his eyes only grew hazier. He didn’t seem like he was going to change his mind. When would the imprint be complete? I waited desperately, but Kim Moohyuk mercilessly thrust his lower body, and the moment I hoped for did not come.

After that, it was just violent sex. He flipped me over, made me kneel, and entered me from behind. He pressed down on the back of my head so I couldn’t lift it, and I felt humiliated by the act. My bad knee was forced to bend, and he slapped the same buttock repeatedly as if telling me to put more strength into it. My buttock must have turned red. The stinging pain made me move my hips, and then a whip-like sensation struck my tailbone. The pubic hair brushing against my stinging skin made it even more painful.

But even then, I didn’t stop spreading my waves. I wanted Kim Moohyuk to recognize me. That I was truly Kang Hajung. I endured the shaking on the creaking bed, waiting for the imprint to be complete. The relentless penetration, the self-loathing from getting excited regardless of my feelings, the humiliation of being slapped—I endured it all with gritted teeth.

However, completely ignoring the sensation was too difficult. I bit my lip to keep from moaning, but every time the swollen glans scraped against the rounded part of my inner wall, my eyes rolled back, and I had to suppress the urge to scream. Eventually, I stuffed the bedsheet into my mouth. I was determined not to let out a single moan.

Kim Moohyuk watched me and stopped moving, sneering, “Why are you putting on such a show when your lower body is so loose? Why are you so eager to prove yourself when you’re just a protein-made masturbation tool?”

Those words made the back of my head throb. I felt a stiffness in my nape. I was more angry than when he threw me out. Something inside me was burning. I barely turned my head, pinned under Kim Moohyuk’s hand, and glared at him. Even with my red eyes glaring at him, Kim Moohyuk’s face remained cold. His lower body was greedily ravaging me, yet his eyes were cold, sending a chill down my spine.

“How dare you mimic the commander. You’re just a thing that spreads its legs, so after I fuck you, I’ll definitely kill you.”

Kim Moohyuk said this as if he were granting me a favor. As if it were his duty to use my hole like this. I furrowed my brow. I struggled, but it was too late. He had no intention of letting me go. Kneeling, I was shaken so hard that my knees felt like they were being sawed off. I wanted to beg him to remember me, to recognize me. I couldn’t believe Kim Moohyuk was doing this to me. But no matter how much I shook my head, I couldn’t escape. In my struggle, the bedsheet I had been biting slipped out of my mouth, and a moan escaped.

“Ugh, huh, ah, ugh―!”

Kim Moohyuk seemed satisfied and began to move his hips even more fiercely. I hated the pleasure his penetrating penis gave me. He reached down and pinched my nipple hard, mocking me.

“It feels just like the real thing. High-quality.”

I felt like a doll enduring his desires and lust. He reached down and started to fondle my penis. It was erect but hadn’t ejaculated yet. As he moved his hand, I gasped.

“Ah, aah…!”

“Does it ejaculate too?”

He muttered curiously as I came onto his hand and the bedsheet. I panted heavily, my whole body aching with exhaustion. I just wanted to pass out.

But Kim Moohyuk had no intention of letting me go. As soon as I finished ejaculating, he pulled out his penis. Before I could even moan, he laid me down on the semen-stained sheet and pushed my knees up to expose my buttocks. I hated being in this position. Forgetting the pain in my legs, I tried to hit his temple, but Kim Moohyuk easily caught my hand. He effortlessly stopped my desperate blow and said irritably,

“Calm down before you break your ankle. This is what you wanted, isn’t it?”

“…”

I couldn’t say anything. I opened my mouth several times but closed it again. Meanwhile, the penetration resumed. Kim Moohyuk thrust his lower body into me from above, moving his hips fiercely. He didn’t consider the receiver’s position at all. In that short moment, I keenly felt how sharp the penetrating penis could be.

“Ugh, ah, it hurts, it hurts…! Ah…!”

The Kim Moohyuk who was always sensitive to my pain and discomfort was gone. Even as I kept begging him that it hurt, Moohyuk acted as if he couldn’t hear me. I shook my head and tried to push his chest away, but Kim Moohyuk smacked my hand away as if it were funny. My hand fell limply, stinging.

The creaking sound was loud. Kim Moohyuk’s penis, which hadn’t ejaculated yet, was swollen and hard. I had to endure the hard glans grinding inside me. Every time it hit the sensitive spot deep inside, I had to endure the pain and pleasure, throwing my head back. Kim Moohyuk grabbed and fondled my chest as if he were tearing it. Why is this bastard so violent…? Did I not know he was like this…? I felt dazed. All the sex Kim Moohyuk had with me felt as soft as dessert compared to this.

But I couldn’t beg him to stop. My pride wouldn’t allow it. I wanted to endure as much as I could. I admit it was stubborn pride. But in this situation, I couldn’t say, “I was wrong, and you’re right; I’m just a shameless clone who crawled into your bed, so let’s stop.”

“Ah, ugh, huh…huh…”

“It ejaculated again. Does it always drip like this?”

Kim Moohyuk fondled my lower body indifferently, as if he were examining a malfunctioning machine. He grabbed my penis and fondled it a few times. The stimulation on my sensitive penis made my toes curl.

As I clenched my thighs, the tightening of my inner walls made him think I was pushing him away. An angry hand struck me. The sound of flesh hitting flesh echoed, and a red handprint appeared between my thighs and inner muscles. I bit my lower lip and glared at him. Kim Moohyuk was now expressionless, moving his hips mechanically. His eyes were glazed over as he continually thrust his pelvis and panted shortly.

“Hmm, the feeling is…”

He furrowed his brow as if he wanted to compare but had nothing to compare it to. Of course, the unconscious Kim Moohyuk hadn’t experienced the imprinting with me, so he wouldn’t have any significant experiences. Yet, he was hitting and thrusting everywhere, which was absurd. It was as if he had always wanted to do this. Even though he hated the clone that looked like me, once he had sex with me, he didn’t hesitate to satisfy his long-held desires.

“You…ugh, ah…what are you trying to do…what are you doing…”

Unable to watch anymore, I muttered. Now I felt sorry for him rather than angry. It was pitiful that even after sharing skin and receiving all my guiding through the membrane, he still suspected me of being a lump of protein. How much had he been deceived, how miserably had he been abandoned, to still not realize that I was his guide? Was the Kim Moohyuk in this place, and the real Kim Moohyuk, the same? Left alone for years, unable to believe I was dead, while everyone else accepted it…

After absorbing all the guiding, his glazed eyes finally seemed to recognize that the hole he was fucking was an independent being. He reached out and grabbed the pillow. As he lowered his body to grab it, the penetration deepened, making me gasp. Moohyuk pulled the pillow over and placed it on my face.

When my vision was blocked, I froze, unable to exhale the breath I had been holding due to the heaviness of the penis thrusting inside me. The dark pattern of the pillowcase was visible because it was covering my face. It was as if he didn’t want to see my face.

“You talk more than I thought. I shouldn’t have taken that out of your mouth,” Kim Moohyuk muttered, almost to himself. But with both ears intact, I couldn’t help but hear him. My body stiffened. Kim Moohyuk, however, seemed oblivious to my feelings and began to thrust roughly again.

From that point on, I just let myself be shaken. This isn’t my Kim Moohyuk. This bastard isn’t my Esper. With that thought, I completely closed off my guiding. The imprint would be completed one way or another. The guiding and the drug’s power would form a solid ring. But that ring would be nothing more than a deformed half. Because I won’t be here once the imprint is complete. Thinking that, I no longer reacted to Moohyuk’s movements. Only physiological moans escaped intermittently. The guiding I had been pouring out, the misery I felt, and the pleasure that had been wrapped around my body all suddenly ceased.

Kim Moohyuk sensed something was off and removed the pillow. But I didn’t meet his gaze. I squinted at the sudden light and then just stared at the ceiling, enduring the time.

“You…” Kim Moohyuk moved his lips as if he wanted to say something. I glanced at him, wondering if the imprint was complete. Moohyuk looked confused. Then, as if to clear away that confusion, he began to move even more fiercely. I ejaculated a few more times. I moaned. Every time Kim Moohyuk squeezed out my ejaculation, my body trembled with my toes curled. But I did not allow any guiding.

“Ugh…”

As I blankly stared at the blue vein popping on Kim Moohyuk’s forehead, he let out a short moan and released something inside me. It’s over, I thought. Reflexively following Moohyuk, I ejaculated once more and suddenly felt exhausted.

I just wanted to wipe away the humiliation and one-sided insults he had given me, clean my body, and quietly lie down to sleep. What kind of suffering is this? I cursed lowly. Just wait until I get back, Kim Moohyuk. I won’t let you off. I’ll grind my teeth. If I go back, not to this bastard but to my Esper, I’ll pinch his firm thighs and say, ‘Your trainer doesn’t want to do anything right now,’ and lie on his chest.

Then Kim Moohyuk would wash and feed me without asking any questions and lay me down on the bed. If Moohyuk provides me with the most comfortable place in the world, I’ll forget everything this bad bastard did to me and burrow into Kim Moohyuk’s embrace, falling into a deep sleep. Just imagining it made my body relax.

“…”

As Kim Moohyuk pulled out his penis filled with semen, he looked at me as if something was strange. He stared at me several times. Remembering my Esper, I thought the act was over and curled my legs. My knees were throbbing as if they were swollen. I wanted to get up and leave right away, but it wasn’t easy. My vision blurred. It seemed that my weakened body had hit its limit after climbing the wall, pouring out guiding, and doing various things for the imprint. I thought I should get up, but I couldn’t move.

“Kang Hajung…”

Then, Moohyuk muttered my name. I glanced at him, too weak to even turn my head, only moving my gaze slightly. He stiffened as if struck by lightning, unable to believe what he was seeing. Then he looked at me with trembling eyes. On the back of his hand, which was pressing on his solar plexus, were numerous small wounds. He touched them as if feeling something solid that had formed.

“…”

“…”

Our eyes met in the air, but that was all. I soon lost consciousness. I hoped that when I woke up, I would be with my Kim Moohyuk.

Unfortunately, I realized that I was not yet back at Kim Moohyuk’s side before I even opened my eyes.

However, at the same time, I strongly felt the sensation of this unconsciousness merging with me. It’s hard to explain, but it was as if childhood memories were becoming clearer. With each passing second, this feeling grew stronger. The unconsciousness seemed to recognize me. More precisely, it recognized that my imprint Esper was Kim Moohyuk. The brainwaves that had been muddled for a long time finally stabilized and fully accepted the partner Esper’s waves.

I slowly opened my eyes. Even without anyone telling me, I naturally knew that only a few minutes, or perhaps even a few seconds, remained before I returned to Kim Moohyuk. Now, just a little more time would pass, and I would be able to return.

“…”

So, I unconsciously tried to check the time and turned my head, only to realize that this was not my guide’s quarters. Where am I…? I blankly wondered before finally remembering. The imprint with Kim Moohyuk and various other things. I furrowed my brow as my head ached, and only then did I start looking for a clock. Even in the unconsciousness, if this were the Kim Moohyuk I knew, there would be an alarm clock somewhere near the bedside table. I wanted to check how much time had passed since the deed was done. As I turned my eyes to find the clock,

“…”

“…”

I found Kim Moohyuk sitting next to the bed….I thought he had left the room, but apparently not. I closed my mouth, tasting bitterness.

Even though he saw that I had woken up, his face was extremely stiff. It was as if he had suddenly heard the news of someone’s death. His empty eyes were staring at me. Without saying anything, without thinking of conveying any meaning, just endlessly.

Why is he like this again? If my subconscious and I are merging, then Kim Moohyuk’s bonding should also be successful. He can’t still think I’m a clone. Suddenly, I felt frustrated. I just wanted to go back, but how much longer do I have to wait? As a sigh escaped my lips, Kim Moohyuk’s shoulders twitched as he watched me with darkened eyes.

…Hmm, I guess he finally realized. That I am truly ‘Kang Hajung.’ Now that I think about it, just before I lost consciousness, Moohyuk looked at me with confusion, unlike before. Yeah, maybe he realized then that we really did share a bond, as I had said. See, I told you you’d regret it. Feeling a bit mischievous, I opened my mouth. A cracked voice came out.

“…Do you believe it now?”

I hoped it sounded somewhat playful, but my voice was so cracked that it didn’t sound like a joke. It might have sounded sarcastic. I thought I might have teased him too much, feeling awkward, but he finally spoke, calling me with a face that seemed to struggle to form words.

“…Instructor.”

He uttered those three syllables with a trembling voice, as if he were choking up. Kim Moohyuk looked like a child who had made a big mistake and was scared.

When did he ever torment me like that? I chuckled. The words that had been humiliating and hard to hear at the time didn’t bother me much now that I thought about returning to reality. After all, Kim Moohyuk must have wanted to find me. That was an unchanging fact. He must have searched for me for so long that he couldn’t trust himself or anything he saw.

In the midst of that, my appearance must have confused him. Through the fully connected bond, his emotions were flowing into me as faint impressions. I could barely sense if he was sad or struggling, but it was clear. He was confused. No, he was in such turmoil that simple words couldn’t describe it. He was like a plank of wood tossed in a stormy night sea.

“Uh, hmm…Are you feeling guilty?”

I had to take a breath to get my voice out. I wanted to lighten the mood. Now that my subconscious was fully merging with me, I could just dismiss this as a nightmare. I didn’t want Kim Moohyuk to worry too much.

“…”

Kim Moohyuk didn’t answer. Yeah, you must feel guilty. You pressed my face with those thick hands, from behind, huh? You should feel guilty if you have any conscience. I chuckled and tried to sit up. Kim Moohyuk, who had been sitting still, jumped up and helped me.

“What, didn’t you hate touching me?”

I was just joking. If I had known he would freeze like that, I wouldn’t have said it. With eyes like empty pupils, Kim Moohyuk mumbled.

“I, I…”

He stuttered, unlike his usual self. Ah, I touched a nerve. It was awkward. Honestly, when he was being harsh, I had gritted my teeth, thinking I’d confront him once the bond was formed and his memory returned. But I didn’t want to see Kim Moohyuk freeze like this. I had just been annoyed and hurt at the time, not wanting to see him upset. I scratched my cheek awkwardly.

“…It’s okay. You didn’t know.”

“…”

I had to say that for Moohyuk’s sake. He froze again, as if his breath had stopped. I chuckled and asked.

“Do you remember bonding with me now? How much do you remember?”

I only knew that bonding would make him realize I was the real Kang Hajung, but I didn’t know if he remembered anything else or if he knew this was the subconscious world. But Kim Moohyuk couldn’t answer easily. He just kept his mouth shut, avoiding my eyes and staring at his hands.

Hmm, is he angry? I felt awkward. I thought everything would be resolved once the bond was formed. Or maybe it was harder for this Kim Moohyuk to accept that I was his bonded guide. He might have convinced himself that the Kang Hajung he knew was gone after dealing with clones. So, leaving without saying anything might not be a bad idea. I was pondering what to do when he spoke.

“I didn’t know it was real. I was too disappointed on my own…”

Kim Moohyuk’s voice trembled. I had been moving slowly, checking if anything was wrong after the intense sex, but I stopped. Kim Moohyuk couldn’t look at me.

“Instructor…I waited for you so much.”

He said that and lowered his head. His shoulders, which had always seemed broad, were slumped. It was the first time I had seen him like that, so I grabbed his hand. Then I spoke urgently.

“Wait, isn’t this too much? I was a bit hurt, but I’m fine. I’m still okay now.”