Approximal Guide Vol. 6 Chapter 7 - Extra 7 (End)

At those words, Kim Moohyuk raised his bloodshot eyes to meet mine. His gaze was filled with regret, sorrow, and resentment. It was a look that stopped me from saying that this was just a kind of lover’s quarrel between us. Seeing the myriad emotions in his eyes, I found myself unable to say anything.

“When you said it was okay, when you said you’d come back, I thought countless times that I wouldn’t mind dying if that wish of mine was crushed like this.”

“…”

“Every time a clone came, every time they mimicked your resonance to some extent, I gritted my teeth, living with the feeling of not being able to die. It felt like being trapped in hell, repeating time endlessly. But on the other hand…”

Moohyuk shook off the hand I was holding. Though it wasn’t a forceful push, I let out an insignificant groan. He continued speaking in a rough voice.

“Every time I thought you might come back, I resolved to treat you better than before, to grant your wishes, to never let you go through such things again. I made that vow countless times…”

A chill ran down my spine. Cold sweat formed on my back. Only then did I realize what I had done to Kim Moohyuk. I hurriedly tried to deny it. I wanted to persuade him not to think that way.

“No, it’s not like that…You had no choice but to be suspicious. It’s only natural. I understood, although it hurt a bit…”

Moohyuk shook his head. Then he brushed aside the hair that had fallen over his forehead.

“You deserve better treatment from me. I didn’t want you to go through such trash.”

“Moohyuk…”

I couldn’t say anything, just mouthing the words. The faint connection that conveyed his emotions suddenly started whirring at the end of my sternum, conveying something. The bond’s message was clear. It wanted to tell me about the long struggle Kim Moohyuk had endured before I appeared. As I closed my eyes, the chaotic view darkened, and the image became clear. Kim Moohyuk moving the small coffin after I died, his blind belief that Kang Hajung couldn’t be dead, the conflicts with people who thought he was crazy, the prolonged struggle, and the clones that repeatedly attacked him.

I gagged softly. Nausea overcame me. It wasn’t just the dizziness of the current situation; it was a sign that the world created by the subconscious was slowly crumbling. Why now, of all times? Anxiety spread like despair.

“I…I’m fine. But Moohyuk…”

The subconscious was telling me. This place would soon disappear. Or at least, ‘I’ would inevitably disappear from here. Even the decision not to tell Moohyuk and just leave seemed wrong. Not knowing how to explain, I swallowed my breath several times and finally opened my mouth.

“You might have already noticed, but this is actually my subconscious. You live in it…And now that the bond is complete, I have to…”

I couldn’t continue the sentence. Moohyuk slowly raised his head. His eyes were still red. He looked disbelieving. He shook his head.

“Don’t go.”

Then he pleaded helplessly. Over his manly appearance, I realized that the same young Moohyuk from twenty years ago, who had apologized for causing so much trouble and told me to retire, was still there. I opened my mouth. I should say something, but no sound came out. Moohyuk pleaded again.

“Don’t go, please.”

His added plea twisted my face. Moohyuk grabbed my cheeks with trembling hands.

“I was wrong. I got angry for no reason. I shouldn’t have…I shouldn’t have failed to recognize you…”

“No, it’s not your fault…”

“I was so lonely. Left alone, I was afraid you wouldn’t come back, that you might really have died and left me. Keeping myself together was the hardest thing.”

“Moohyuk…”

No words came out. Kim Moohyuk’s tear dropped on my cheek. The light weight of it felt like being ruthlessly slapped by someone the moment it hit my face.

“You were actually coming back…”

“…”

“If only I had recognized it a little sooner…”

No, it’s not that. Even if you had recognized it right away, I couldn’t stay here forever. I wanted to say that. To apologize to Moohyuk, for leaving him alone, for making him wait so long, for returning and living in Sergeant Kang Hajung’s body without revealing it, for dreaming of retirement. I wanted to say all that.

Suddenly, I realized why Kim Moohyuk was still a lieutenant in my subconscious. My subconscious wanted to embrace that lonely Kim Moohyuk from back then. To tell him not to be lonely, to not leave him alone in those painful five years. I wanted to be a comfort.

But now I have to go again. Kim Moohyuk knew that I had to go. He pleaded.

“Please don’t go…”

While his words slowly shattered, I couldn’t say anything. In the darkness that swept over me like a tidal wave, I searched for Kim Moohyuk.

“Ugh―!”

A searing pain tore through my chest. It felt as though each alveolus had shriveled up, making me wonder how I had been breathing all this time. I groaned and shook my head. Moohyuk, Moohyuk…I kept calling his name.

“Now, wake up.”

A voice, as if guiding me, pulled my consciousness back. I finally opened my eyes, squinting against the blinding light.

“…Kim Moohyuk.”

I called the name I had been uttering just before waking up. It wasn’t the Moohyuk who had pleaded for me not to go in the subconscious. It was the Moohyuk sitting quietly by the bedside. Meeting his gaze, I buried my face in my palms and rubbed it dry.

“…”

“…”

Silence stretched between us. Although I was preoccupied with feelings of regret, guilt, and sorrow for what I had left behind, it was strange that he didn’t say a word. But I didn’t have the energy to ask if something was wrong. Just then, Han Byeongeun knocked and entered the room.

“You’ve woken up. It seems you’ve integrated well with your subconscious. Your resonance is stable, and there’s no erratic ESP.”

It was a small relief amidst the misfortune. If there had been no effect after all this ordeal, I might have strangled Han Byeongeun. He looked around at Moohyuk and me, scratching his cheek awkwardly.

“Thanks to Moohyuk, you survived. There was not only Haseonghan’s resonance in your brain waves but also Moohyuk’s.”

“…What?”

I dropped the hand that had been covering my face and looked between Han Byeongeun and Kim Moohyuk. Moohyuk still hadn’t said a word. He sat with one leg crossed over the other, clasped hands resting on his knee, not looking my way.

“With your subconscious fully integrated, Moohyuk’s resonance would have returned to him as well. You can consider that Moohyuk is now aware of the situation in the subconscious world you were in. Like Haseonghan, Moohyuk also embedded his resonance in your brain waves without realizing it.”

“What?!”

Han Byeongeun shook his head as if he were tired of explaining. But I was more shocked by his explanation than anything else, and I stood up abruptly. The wires attached to the nodes on my chest pulled taut. Disbelieving, I asked again.

“Say that again. What?”

“Uh…”

Surprised by my intensity, Han Byeongeun glanced at Moohyuk, who still wasn’t looking at us. Han Byeongeun licked his lips and then awkwardly continued.

“Well, it’s not exactly a dream-like state. It’s closer to a virtual world created by ESP resonance and guiding resonance. Depending on the resonance, it can be absorbed or expanded, so it also transmitted to Moohyuk, who had embedded his resonance in your brain waves…”

“Kim Moohyuk.”

I cut him off and called out to Moohyuk, reaching out to touch his shoulder. Han Byeongeun, sensing something odd or perhaps wanting to avoid further complications, hurriedly excused himself and left the room. The door closed with a click, leaving the room quiet. Only Moohyuk and I remained. He slowly pushed my hand off his shoulder and stood up.

“Get ready to go home.”

Then, without waiting for me to say anything else, he left the room. I was left alone, feeling confused. Knowing that he was aware of everything complicated my thoughts. I wondered what I should say. Sighing, I changed my clothes. I hadn’t intended to take so long, but my thoughts were so jumbled that I dawdled. I took off the hospital gown, laid it on the bed, and put on the clothes I had arrived in, then found my shoes in the wardrobe.

“Ha…”

I sighed involuntarily. But I couldn’t leave him waiting outside the room forever, so I headed out. When I opened the door, Kim Moohyuk was nearby. He had been leaning against the wall and walked away in the opposite direction without looking back when he sensed me coming out. I quietly followed him.

That pattern continued until we left the medical building. He walked ahead, and I silently followed. He slowly stopped in front of his SUV and got in. He didn’t tell me to get in, but I saw the signs and got into the passenger seat. The car started moving immediately.

“Moohyuk…”

As we drove out of the hospital parking lot, I called out to him softly. Kim Moohyuk didn’t respond. I bit my lip and swallowed a sigh. I didn’t know what to say. It was the same when we got home. Fortunately, he didn’t go into his room but sat on the living room sofa. It seemed he was willing to talk, so I sat next to him, feeling relieved.

“…Hey, do you remember everything?”

I struggled to find the right words, but they sounded pathetic. After I spoke, Kim Moohyuk finally opened his mouth, looking at me.

“It wasn’t just remembering; I experienced it.”

“…What?”

I dumbly repeated, and Kim Moohyuk’s gaze shifted diagonally.

“They said that sometimes consciousness can be entirely connected through the bonding link. When you entered the subconscious, I was there too. Although I didn’t realize who I was, what I had done, or what I had left behind.”

“…”

A slow sense of relief spread through my chest, but then my face twisted.

“Then…”

“…”

I stammered, not knowing what to say, hesitating several times before finally speaking.

“Then everything you went through…waiting for me to come back, dealing with the clones…all of it…”

I wanted to ask if all of that was your pain too. When I heard those words from Kim Moohyuk in the subconscious, I think I separated him from the real Kim Moohyuk. I thought that even if the Kim Moohyuk in the subconscious had suffered such pain, it had nothing to do with the real Kim Moohyuk anymore. But that wasn’t the case. Kim Moohyuk had unknowingly merged with his subconscious self, and what I encountered was just Kim Moohyuk himself.

So, the vivid pain Kim Moohyuk experienced, the foolishness of waiting for me to return, the desperation of having to shout alone that I wasn’t dead, the torment of having to tear apart clones with my face every morning despite everyone calling him crazy. I thought Moohyuk had already overcome all of that. I thought he had gotten better through bonding with me and being comforted. But a part of Kim Moohyuk had remained there, eternally repeating that pain.

“Is that what’s important right now?”

But Kim Moohyuk asked in a cold tone. I looked at him as if I had just come to my senses. If there was something more wrong, I wanted to apologize quickly. I looked at him like someone awaiting punishment. Kim Moohyuk seemed to understand my intention and sighed softly.

“In your subconscious, I acted without realizing it wasn’t real. I doubted you, pushed you away, hated you.”

“…”

“…I raped you.”

When he said the last words, he was looking at me again. It seemed he wasn’t going to avoid what he had done. I dumbly opened and closed my mouth, then shook my head.

“No, it wasn’t rape…”

I scratched my cheek and then stopped abruptly. I looked at him again.

“Then…was that what made you feel bad?”

“What else? I told you, you don’t deserve to be treated like that.”

Not that anyone deserves such treatment, but he was saying it as if I especially didn’t. I hesitated and moved a little closer to Kim Moohyuk.

Even on the way home from the hospital, he had driven silently, so I had been quite scared. When Han Byeongeun said that Kim Moohyuk knew everything that had happened in my subconscious, I thought he was upset with me for returning to reality alone. After all, the last look I saw on his face was devastating. Fortunately, it seemed he hadn’t even thought about that shock.

As my worries subsided, I felt like getting closer to him. Kim Moohyuk glanced at me as I scooted closer, raising an eyebrow. He seemed to wonder what I was doing. I spoke awkwardly.

“But that was something that happened in the subconscious, and it ended well. And I’m fine, so…”

But his previously calm resonance flared up at my words. The resonance touching my skin was almost painful. Kim Moohyuk snapped at me, his voice sharp.

“Saying you’re fine is even crazier. Are you saying you’d sleep with anyone wearing my skin?”

“What?! No, why would you say that!”

I jumped in surprise at the sudden topic, sweating like a husband accused of having an unusual sexual preference.

“I don’t understand you.”

Kim Moohyuk looked at me with tired eyes and said.

“I think you’re too good for this, but you don’t see yourself that way. You treat yourself like trash that wouldn’t be out of place rolling around.”

“No, it’s not that bad…”

“Do you not understand what I’m saying?”

Kim Moohyuk asked as if delivering a final verdict. His point was clear. He didn’t want me to tolerate being mistreated by anyone, including himself. His concern was palpable. He always nagged me about such things. My injuries and pain seemed to be a trauma for him. But I had a feeling that answering wrong here could be disastrous. I swallowed nervously and nodded slowly.

“Okay. I’ll keep that in mind.”

Unfortunately, my answer seemed too quick. Kim Moohyuk’s eyes narrowed.

“You’re just promising with words again.”

“No! Really…!”

I quickly shook my head, scared by his cold, hardened gaze. Then I scratched my head and added.

“So…I used to hate being alive…Breathing was annoying, but after meeting you, I thought it was okay.”

“…”

Kim Moohyuk’s cold eyes were still fixed on me. It seemed he was willing to listen, so I swallowed nervously again. Do you know how hard it is for a man my age to explain himself? Every time I’m in a situation like this with Moohyuk, I feel like a foolish husband who married a young, kind woman but can’t open up about his feelings, making her upset. But what can I do? That foolish man has to try harder.

“I was happy to see you grow, proud that you could become a great esper even without me. When my heart was pierced by that stone, I thought I had no regrets…”

“…”

“But coming back, I found it was good in its own way. I liked being with you. And I still want to protect the places you live, the moments you breathe, the times you walk the streets or just live normally. That’s why I thought I had to take down Haseonghan…”

Kim Moohyuk’s eyes said a lot. I wanted to convey my feelings to him, so I opened my mouth.

“So, um, I’m selfish, and this is the only way I knew how to love you. I ended up just making you angry…”

“…What?”

Kim Moohyuk looked at me with wide eyes, as if he had been struck. Feeling embarrassed, I glanced at him and grabbed his hand. I held it tighter to hide the trembling in my fingers. He was still staring at me, bewildered.

“But you said you didn’t like me living like that, and we’re a couple…So I should listen to you. Even someone like me, who can’t take care of himself, should try to listen if his partner doesn’t like something.”

It was the conclusion I had finally reached. I don’t want to do things that upset you. Even when I was looking for you in Egypt, I knew you were angry with me, but more than that, you were sad and hiding. I’ve been careless and lived recklessly, but if you say it upsets you, I’ll be careful. I wanted to say that, but I wasn’t sure if it came across. I glanced at him, and when our eyes met, I quickly looked away. I couldn’t hide my embarrassment.

“Honestly, I’m not good at taking care of myself, but don’t I listen to you well…? So if I try to listen to you, I can take better care of myself…”

By the time I finished speaking, my face was red. I ended up bowing my head. Embarrassment overflowed. I could feel Kim Moohyuk’s gaze piercing my profile. Ah, this is so embarrassing…I scratched my cheek. Kim Moohyuk watched me for a moment, then sighed slowly.

“You really…”

Then he pulled me into his arms.

“You know exactly what drives me crazy, don’t you?”

“Huh? No, why would I drive you crazy…I explained it well. I won’t do things that upset you anymore.”

“See? Pretending to be innocent.”

It felt strangely out of sync, but I thought, “Well, good is good.” I awkwardly raised my arm and patted his back.

“I’m sorry,” I said.

“…”

He didn’t respond. Instead, through our connected waves, I could feel that he had softened his heart enough. I felt sorry for Kim Moohyuk, who must have been worried and waiting for me.

“I’m sorry for making you worry so much. But remember, even if you want to return me, you can’t now.”

Since I was in his embrace, I couldn’t move my jaw properly and mumbled. Kim Moohyuk clicked his tongue briefly.

“Who are you to talk?”

Then he grabbed my nape. His lips touched mine. This must be the reconciliation kiss that eases the atmosphere after a couple’s fight. Feeling nostalgic, I smiled and tilted my head. I saw Kim Moohyuk close his eyes gently. I hugged his back a little more.

I wanted to listen to my Esper’s heartbeat a little longer.

As our lips met, the first sensation was the softness. It was always amazing that Kim Moohyuk’s body, which was hard everywhere, had such a soft spot. Kim Moohyuk pulled me closer and wrapped his arms around my waist, as if to block my retreat in advance. I let out a short moan and slightly opened my lips, allowing his thick tongue to enter.

“Mmm…”

A groan escaped on its own. In the quiet living room, the sound of wet lips sticking and unsticking was loud. Suddenly, the situation felt unreal, and I gently pushed his chest. He looked down at me with eyes full of something incomprehensible, asking what was wrong.

“No…It’s just…doing this with you feels so strange…”

Even though we had decided to be together and kissed often, it always felt strange. It was as if it showed that my relationship with Kim Moohyuk had changed. He stared at me and then kissed my lips lightly.

“Me too,” he said.

His admission made my chest feel ticklish. Sharing the same feeling felt special. I couldn’t even speak and just looked up at him. Kim Moohyuk continued to press his lips against mine. I had no choice but to part my lips at the light kisses.

Kim Moohyuk’s thick tongue entered again, this time with more intense movement. It was as if he was determined to find something hidden in my mouth and take it out. The thick, strong pillar of his tongue pressed down on mine, causing a slight nausea. That’s how thick and strong his tongue was.

Unable to bear the intense movement, I tried to move my body slightly, but Kim Moohyuk chased after me, causing my head to tilt back. Although he supported the back of my neck with his hand, it felt more like he was preventing me from escaping. Even as I shook my head, Kim Moohyuk showed no sign of letting me go. In the end, I had no choice but to cling to his chest to survive.

“Mmm, ugh, mmm…”

Gasping moans continued to escape. He seemed to dislike the sound, but Kim Moohyuk thought differently, as the movement suddenly became more intense. In the end, I had no choice but to put my hands behind me. His upper body also leaned closer to me. As I kept moving back, Moohyuk kept chasing me, and eventually, I had to press my back against the sofa.

“Wait, ugh, mmm…”

“Ha…”

He climbed on top of me as I lay down completely. It felt like he was sitting on my pelvis, but in reality, Kim Moohyuk was supporting his weight with his thick thighs that looked like they were about to burst. He crossed his arms and took off his top. His muscular body was covered in small scars that I didn’t know about. It made me feel sorry and proud to see the past that Kim Moohyuk had endured during the time I wasn’t by his side. I reached out and gently touched the scars on his muscular shoulders. Moohyuk, who was roughly fixing his disheveled hair, raised an eyebrow and looked at me.

“Why? Can’t I touch you?”

“…”

Moohyuk doesn’t answer. I moved my lips and finally spoke.

“Come to think of it, I haven’t touched you much because I’ve been swayed by you.”

“…”

“You’re so cute.”

At the same time, I slowly moved my hand and touched his skin. Moohyuk stared at me blankly. His eyes, which had been shiny like smooth black pebbles, became cloudy. Embarrassed, I was about to ask why he was reacting that way.

“Where, um, where do you want to touch?”

Moohyuk’s voice was deeply lowered. His voice was so rough that he had to clear his throat midway. I smiled slightly and replied.

“Just, you know, here and there. I liked touching your chest in your subconscious.”

“…Damn.”

Moohyuk cursed briefly and turned his head. I could see his jaw muscles twitching. The pulsating carotid artery was visible under his skin. I liked seeing Kim Moohyuk’s chest expand. His cursing wasn’t a sign of dislike; I could tell that now. I felt sorry for being so late in catching up to his feelings. He had been waiting for me, stopped in his tracks, and I felt apologetic. But I hoped he understood that my struggles and efforts were all out of love for him. I didn’t want him to think he wasn’t loved by me.

But my Esper, despite my teasing, quickly recovered and even attacked me back.

“Did you like it so much that you had to sneak in and touch me while I was sleeping?”

He grinned wickedly and pulled my wrist, placing my palm on his bulging chest. Startled, I tried to curl my fingers, but I just held his thick chest.

“…”

“…”

Our eyes met. I liked his gaze, which was both cloudy and burning. I was probably looking at Kim Moohyuk with the same hungry eyes. We liked that we looked at each other that way. I swallowed dryly and moved my hand. The soft yet firm sensation filling my palm was very satisfying. I forgot that we were staring at each other and just gazed at his chest. I moved my hand slightly, pressing my thumb into the soft part.

“Do you like it that much?”

If Kim Moohyuk hadn’t said that with a smirk, I wouldn’t have realized I was doing it. I nodded slightly, trying not to show my surprise.

“You touch my chest too. It’s all the same.”

I tried to casually slip that in. Kim Moohyuk smiled and nodded.

“That’s right. I like touching you too, Commander.”

So now it’s his turn, Moohyuk slowly put his hand inside my shirt. His hand was very hot. My cool skin was assimilating to Moohyuk’s body temperature. I wondered what Kim Moohyuk was thinking. Were his thoughts similar to mine, or was he lost in completely different thoughts? I tried to read something from his face, but suddenly his hand moved up to my chest, making me gasp.

“Huh…”

My nipple, which had been slightly hard, was pinched mercilessly, making my hips jerk. Kim Moohyuk stuck out his tongue and licked his lower lip. A tingling sensation rose from the small lump pinched between his thumb and index finger.

“…Here, now?”

My voice was as broken as Kim Moohyuk’s. Every time I hinted at starting a relationship with Kim Moohyuk, the feeling was strange. I really intended to raise you into a good guide and marry you off to someone nice…It’s a bit of a waste that you end up with me. Not that I want to give you to someone else, but still, it feels like a waste for me to have you.

“Why? We did it on our dining table too.”

He said it as if it was no big deal, but I couldn’t take it so lightly.

“Hey, how can you say something like that…”

I tried to say it was embarrassing, but Kim Moohyuk pinched my nipple again. I furrowed my brow and let out a moan, making his gaze grow more intense.

“Take this off.”

After saying that, he didn’t give me a chance to take it off myself and started taking off my clothes. I felt a sudden urge and lifted my back to help Moohyuk’s movements. With everything between us stripped away, I couldn’t hold back anymore either.

“I’ll, I’ll do a good job.”

“…”

Moohyuk paused, his shirt still pulled up to his chest, at my sudden words. He had heard those words from me several times, but they were sincere. Poor Kim Moohyuk, worn out and exhausted by the emotions piled up over time because of me. So, I have no choice but to do well.

“…It’s enough. Sometimes I’m so frustrated.”

He smiled and said that. With his broad mind, how could I not always feel sorry? I bit my lip and smiled slightly, and he took off my shirt completely. I watched him put his hand on the buckle of my pants. I let him pull down my pants and underwear at once. I felt embarrassed, but I didn’t stop Moohyuk.

“I like it when you’re on top of me.”

Kim Moohyuk brought up what happened in the subconscious. I shook my head in embarrassment.

“No, it’s not.”

Moohyuk, who had folded my uninjured knee, pressed it down so that his chest and thighs were touching, and then pressed his lips firmly on top of it. His eyes were still on me as he asked,

“It’s not?”

“…”

I couldn’t answer. Kim Moohyuk, still looking at me, slid his lips down. The soft sensation that had been stroking my collarbone now moved down to my knee, thigh, and then the inside of my thigh. A chilling sensation followed where his lips had been. He sucked on the soft flesh in some places. The slight scratch of his front teeth on the soft flesh inside my thigh sent a thrill through me.

“Umm…”

A short moan escaped me. Kim Moohyuk seemed to particularly like one spot. He sucked on the flesh inside my thigh and rolled it around in his mouth, making my brow furrow. Kim Moohyuk, realizing he hadn’t used his hands yet, slowly reached out and stroked my chest. He fondled my less developed chest compared to his well-defined pecs. The slight pleasure spread as he pressed his palm against my nipples. My legs, which he was holding, began to tremble.

With my feelings fully shown to him and his feelings confirmed, even the slightest touch felt like intense caresses. I kept moving my lips, embarrassed at how sensitively I was reacting despite my age. I tried to suppress my moans, but Kim Moohyuk spread my legs and placed his hips between them, then lowered his body and immediately took my nipple in his mouth.

“Ah! Ugh…huh…”

Startled, I let out a loud sound. The intense sucking motion made me thrash my head. If I had known such a strong stimulation was coming, I wouldn’t have let my guard down. His lips, stuck like a suction cup, pulled at my skin, and his rough tongue pressed down on my hardened nipple. I felt embarrassed as he watched my reactions while licking my nipple mercilessly. When I tried to cover my face with my hand, he scratched my nipple with his teeth, making me gasp loudly.

“Huh, ah! Ung…”

The tingling sensation on one nipple didn’t fade. Moohyuk finally took his mouth off, licking around it with his broad tongue as if to clean up the mess he had made. My hips trembled at the sensation. My erect penis was fully exposed. As I twisted my body, my chest was pressed against his lips, making the situation feel strange. Kim Moohyuk straightened up, and I was fully exposed, wearing only socks. I tried to cover myself with my arms, but Kim Moohyuk smiled and opened the drawer under the coffee table. He took out lube and condoms.

“…Why are those in there?”

The drawer under the table was just a design element to me. I didn’t even know it actually opened, so I was surprised. Kim Moohyuk threw the strip of condoms next to me and took off his pants.

“I have to be prepared. You’re so skittish, I can’t let you escape.”

“Really…”

I felt embarrassed and my face turned slightly red. I wasn’t used to sex and had only rejected him a few times. What did I think I was rejecting him so much…But saying such things would only be ignored by Kim Moohyuk, so I kept quiet.

Moohyuk approached me again as I embarrassedly closed my legs. He kept his eyes on me as he squeezed lube onto his fingers and then used his other hand to spread my knees apart. His actions were so skilled that I felt a bit jealous.

“…Hey, I’m your first too, right?”

Considering how skilled he was even during our first time, it wasn’t an unreasonable question. As I tried to sit up to dispel my sudden suspicion, Kim Moohyuk thrust his hand between my legs.

“Ah…!”

His cold, lubed fingers slid around my entrance, making me gasp. His thick fingertip circled around a few times, slowing down as if about to pull away, then suddenly pushed in. I felt the sensation of his thick middle finger entering me. It felt strange, even though it wasn’t painful. My brow furrowed on its own.

“Huh…”

A short moan, almost like a sigh, escaped me, and Moohyuk glanced at me. Then, he slowly pushed another finger inside. A chill ran down my spine. Simultaneously, the feeling of his finger inside me was vivid. Soon, his finger was fully inside, and I could feel his palm pressing against my perineum. Moohyuk pressed down with his middle finger, stimulating the inside.

“Ugh, mm…”

At first, when the two fingers entered, I felt a strange sensation, but as his fingers reached the root, the feeling of being stimulated inside was intense. I hadn’t expected such a sensation from just his fingers.

“Ah, ha, ah…!”

Unconsciously, I tensed my stomach. As I put strength into my abdominal muscles, the entrance tightened around his fingers. I arched my back and moaned, hot breath escaping from my lips.

The sound of him moving his fingers below was audible, but it wasn’t enough. Moohyuk squeezed more lube onto his fingers and inserted another one. I gripped the back of the sofa, my knuckles turning white. Two fingers together were quite thick. The sound of a wet, narrow opening being penetrated continued. The initially gentle movements became rougher. The squelching sound of his fingers moving inside me was audible, along with the sound of liquid splashing. My head felt dazy, and I moaned continuously.

“Ah, ugh, huh…Ah…!”

My mind went blank. I arched my back and moaned as a third finger suddenly entered me. I couldn’t think straight. He knew exactly where to stimulate, and the pleasure spread to my toes. I lost my reason.

“Ugh, ha, mm…Moohyuk…”

I had never even inserted my own fingers before, and now I was moaning with Kim Moohyuk’s fingers inside me. The situation felt unfamiliar no matter how many times we did it. The pleasure intensified the unfamiliarity. Moohyuk licked his lower lip and picked up a condom. The sound of his wet fingers pulling out was strange. The sound was even more so. A popping sound followed by the sound of something being pulled out of a narrow opening. I looked at Moohyuk, panting. His erect penis was already out, resting against his thigh. He pulled out his fingers, which had been stimulating me, and stroked his penis a few times with his wet hand. The liquid at the tip of his penis dripped onto my thigh, feeling like an intense caress.

The area below, which had been stimulated by his fingers, felt sore. I stared blankly at Moohyuk’s penis, then came to my senses.

“Does it look tasty?”

Moohyuk smiled wickedly, his forehead veins bulging. I couldn’t say anything. I couldn’t answer, nor could I deny it.

“How could you think of biting that thing, even if it’s me?”

“…What?”

I was trying to calm my racing heart and didn’t understand Moohyuk’s question at first. Then I realized he was talking about what happened in the subconscious world.

“Huh? Just because it looks like me doesn’t mean it’s actually me, right?”

Moohyuk asked with a smile. I came to my senses. Wait, what is he talking about now? We clearly agreed on this before entering the subconscious world. You agreed too. But I knew that saying this would only upset Moohyuk more. Kim Moohyuk wasn’t actually angry about the details of what happened; he was just in a bad mood.

Trying to appease an angry spouse, I wiped the sweat from my brow and responded.

“No, it’s not like that…I just wanted to get back to you quickly. And that thing, it was you, right? Why are you getting mad?”

Moohyuk’s eyes narrowed at my words. He seemed to be trying to calm down. I smiled faintly, then slowly sat up.

In the middle of the act, I stroked Moohyuk’s thigh and continued speaking.

“Um…I…I saw it there…When the clone barged in, did you have a hard time?”

“…”

Kim Moohyuk didn’t answer. I tried to read his expression but failed. I sighed and spoke again.

“Are you okay now?”

Moohyuk didn’t answer Hajung, who was asking if he was okay now. It wasn’t that he didn’t know what to say, but he was wondering what to say to make Kang Hajung feel guilty for a long time.

Then he realized that his guide felt more burdened when Moohyuk pretended to be fine. Hajung, being a habitual liar pretending to be fine and not in pain, had a hard time with Moohyuk saying he was okay.

“…You can just tell me. Okay?”

There it was. This questioning was proof of that. Moohyuk suppressed a smile. Then he gently pressed Hajung’s chest with his hand, laying him back down on the sofa. As Hajung’s head touched the sofa, Moohyuk lifted his legs and placed them on his thighs. The feeling of skin touching was pleasant. He wondered when he could insert his penis like this and thrust. Kang Hajung, despite his age, was conservative and wouldn’t allow such intense sex. Moohyuk hoped for an opportunity to persuade him someday.

First, I needed to insert it.

“It was hard,” I said.

“Moohyuk…”

“You have to reward your instructor.”

Hajung nodded immediately. “Yes, from now on, I’ll carry you around. I’ll clean the room and do the laundry.” He spewed out things that didn’t make sense. He didn’t know how satisfying it was for me to serve him.

“Okay, show me with your body.”

I smiled. I wanted to show him directly how hard it was to serve with just my body.

Moohyuk pressed down on Hajung’s knee, lifting his bent leg so that his back was off the floor. Then he gazed at the opened entrance. Even after the conversation, it seemed like he was still feeling pleasure, as it twitched intermittently. Moohyuk stared at the exposed area and put a condom on his erection. The sensation of the thin latex rolling down and tightly wrapping around his soft penis felt good.

He applied more lube on top of the condom. Even though Kang Hajung was staring at his penis, Moohyuk didn’t rush. He knew from his experiences with Hajung that the taste of slowly building up and then exploding was sweeter.

Before the imprint, Hajung, despite his age, had little experience. He didn’t try to have deep relationships with others. It was partly because of his personality, but also because he never showed any signs of developing that way with Hasung Han.

And now, Kang Hajung was under him. When he inserted his fingers and stimulated the deep insides, Hajung moaned and his penis twitched as if about to ejaculate. When he pressed down on his prostate with his thumb, Hajung’s body trembled. All of this was because of Moohyuk’s efforts. Hasung Han or any other Esper didn’t do this; it was all because of Kim Moohyuk. Hasung Han had imprinted his brain waves onto Hajung. He died without knowing the taste of licking Hajung’s nipples or the feeling of inserting his penis all the way in and making Hajung ejaculate.

Feeling better, Moohyuk casually aligned his thick glans with the narrow entrance and pushed it in all at once. The penis, which was too large for the entrance, stimulated the inner walls as it went in, but it fit perfectly. The entrance, which was trying hard to push it out, was trembling.

“Ah, huh, ah…Moohyuk, huh…”

Hajung was gasping for breath as if it was hard to breathe with the thick and large thing inside him. He waved his hand, and Moohyuk grabbed his wrist, kissing the back of his hand. He wanted to cherish him while also wanting to break him. This violent feeling was a natural instinct all Esper felt towards their guides. If not, why would he feel such violent impulses while always supressing them? Moohyuk couldn’t be gentle. He couldn’t stand the thought of his instructor, who had raised and educated him with such difficulity and preciousness, having such thoughts towards him. He always had to be Kang Hajung’s most perfect disciple.

“Ugh, ah, ah…huh…”

Hajung’s delicate jaw was trembling as the thick penis filled him completely. However, the redness on his cheeks and the red hue in his eyes, which were usually clear, showed that he wasn’t just in pain. Moohyuk didn’t let go of his hand, which was trying to escape. He couldn’t let go of his guide, whom he had finally found after so many years. Hajung would be fine. Moohyuk decided to satisfy his own desires today.

“Get on top of your clone.”

“Ah, ugh, huh! Ah, ugh…”

“You were begging to ride my cock just a moment ago.”

Moohyuk’s penis, wrapped in the condom, could feel the soft and wet insides. He rubbed and pressed against it, and it twitched as if it was happy to finally find its pair. Moohyuk furrowed his brow. Hajung’s guiding was overflowing. The brain waves transmitted through the inner walls were incredibly strong. It was as if he was searching for his paired Esper to absorb his guiding.

Moohyuk pulled out his penis. The sound of it coming out was loud, and the condom’s tip was wet and shiny. He knew from experience that if he didn’t absorb Hajung’s guiding properly, Hajung, whose guiding core wasn’t fully recovered, would suffer more.

Hajung’s guiding core unconsciously searched for its paired Esper and released strong guiding to find him. It continued to release guiding like a fountain until it found its paired Esper to absorb it. Moohyuk needed to absorb it before Hajung unknowingly released too much. Hajung’s overloaded guiding core would be exhausted from trying to find its paired Esper to absorb the guiding.

The situation was happening regardless of Hajung’s will, so Moohyuk didn’t bother explaining it to him. He didn’t want to belittle the charming instincts of guiding that only emerged during sex.

“Ugh, huh, why, why…”

Hajung was asking why he had pulled out his penis. His eyes were filled with desire, and his entire demeanor was adorable. Moohyuk loved every aspect of him, not just his appearance. He loved Kang Hajung’s very existence. This was inevitable from the moment he first saw Hajung, the moment Hajung smiled at him with a mischievous face and kissed him.

“Now you know how to be embarrassed. How could you so easily climb on top of a clone without even knowing who it was?”

“Ugh, no—! I thought it was you!”

Hajung, who had only been moaning, suddenly shouted in anger. His voice was too soft for such a situation, but Moohyuk couldn’t help but smile. Hajung, furious, kicked Moohyuk’s chest with his uninjured leg. The kick was so weak that Moohyuk didn’t budge, but he pretended to be pushed back slightly. If he hadn’t, Hajung’s ankle might have been sprained.

“It’s not like that! You were the one suffering there!”

“…”

Moohyuk was surprised to hear such words from the furious Hajung. He suppressed a smile that was about to form on his lips. He hadn’t meant to do that.

“You and I are connected, so our minds are connected too. I thought my subconsciousness was connected to yours. So if you were suffering there, naturally, you would be suffering too…Of course, it was an impulsive action because you made me so angry and frustrated, but still, that’s why I had a relationship with that guy.”

Moohyuk was surprised, but it was precisely this moment. His superior, his lover, his spouse, Kang Hajung, who seemed to know nothing and was always flustered, was actually understanding and accepting him more deeply and with more capacity than he thought.

…I might forever be a child in front of you.

Kim Moohyuk had to be gentle. A guide is the first and ultimate shield and path for an Esper to not doubt the existence of their god. No, at least for Kim Moohyuk, Kang Hajung himself was god.

“How can you see your master and be angry at being fucked?”

The god, with innocent eyes, was being penetrated by a thick penis, not even knowing that such complaints were all part of the sex.

“Yes, I was wrong.”

Moohyuk smiled gently and forgave him. He forgave his own mistakes and the situation he was in, entirely bound to Kang Hajung, body and soul. The more days passed, the more he felt he belonged to Hajung. It was a bit painful, but also satisfying, similar to sexual pleasure.

“You don’t even know…”

Even though Kim Moohyuk’s guide was forgiven, he was still grumbling. Moohyuk knew it was because he was embarrassed after shouting and revealing his inner thoughts. So, Moohyuk kissed Hajung’s sore knee as if to comfort him. My precious guide. I love you more than saying “I love you.” Moohyuk truly thought so.

Then, he thrust his wet and messy penis back into the narrow entrance. With a squelching sound, the thick glans pushed back in, and the clear liquid that had been gathered inside Hajung dripped out. The sight of it not spilling out was strangely satisfying.

“Huh, ugh…!”

Surprised by the sudden penetration, Hajung looked down with wide eyes. The thick glans found its way to the deepest part inside him, and Hajung moaned, his body trembling. Moohyuk pressed his lips against Hajung’s trembling jaw.

The soft lower abdomen and the hard thighs pressed against Hajung’s chin. The thin latex was stuck to the base of his penis, and Moohyuk thrust in and out, making Hajung moan.

“Ah! Haah—! Ugh, ah—.”

“Do you like it? Huh? Do you like it?”

Moohyuk asked, even though he knew the answer. He wanted Hajung to say he liked it. Even if he was a pathetic creature, if Hajung said he liked it, Moohyuk would be satisfied for the rest of his life, even if he was just a sex toy for Hajung. His hands, which had been gripping the sofa, were now wrapped around Moohyuk’s neck and shoulders. He was like a drowning man trying to climb onto a boat, grabbing onto whatever he could. The wet and messy penis thrust in and out, and the stimulation was intensifying the sex.

The person was desperately trying to get on the boat, scratching everywhere and making a mess. The sweaty parts stung, and it looked like some of the scratches were bleeding, but all that stimulation seemed to enhance the sex.

“Huh, uh, ugh! Ah, ah-ugh…!”

“Kang Hajung, haa, Kang Hajung…”

Moohyuk kept moaning with his lips pressed against Hajung’s earlobe. In fact, he felt like he was dying of pleasure. He wished his heart would stop in this state. He wouldn’t mind ending his life while inside Kang Hajung. The thrusting motion was so intense that Hajung’s head was pushed back against the armrest of the sofa. Moohyuk pulled out his penis. With a sucking sound, it stuck to the thick glans and didn’t come out, then made a slightly embarrassing sound as it popped out of the narrow hole, like a cork being pulled out. The quivering hole spat something out before it could close. It looked like melted lubricant gel. Or it could be the fluid from Kang Hajung’s backside ready to receive Moohyuk. Either way, it was exciting. Moohyuk rubbed the clear liquid that had splashed on Hajung’s dark, thick thighs with his palm, and grabbed Hajung’s waist, lowering him down so his head wouldn’t hit the armrest. Then he thrust in again.

“Ah, ah-uh―!”

Hajung let out a long moan. His eyes were open but unfocused. One eye was half-closed, and the other was wide open in shock, showing too much white. He trembled with his mouth open. When Moohyuk gently touched his trembling penis, Hajung finally ejaculated, spurting semen.

“Ah, aah…”

Hajung moaned in a pitiful voice, like someone who had lost something precious. Instead of feeling sorry, Moohyuk’s penis throbbed maddeningly. The guiding liquid that seeped from the inner walls mixed with the unknown clear liquid, entering the urethra of his penis and tickling the glans, driving him crazy. Moohyuk, as if blaming Hajung, pressed the tip of his glans against the innermost, most swollen and soft part of Hajung’s inner walls, and shook his hips to relieve the tickling sensation.

“Uh, huh, uh, hic…”

But it seemed to fail. Hajung’s inner walls tightened around Moohyuk even more, as if welcoming him. Moohyuk furrowed his brow and shook his head, trying to hold back the urge to ejaculate. Still, he didn’t stop moving, and the sound of slapping filled the air. The sofa in the living room couldn’t handle Moohyuk’s thrusts and had been creaking annoyingly for a while. The weight of the thrusts seemed to be painful for both Hajung and the sofa.

“Ugh, huh, stop, no, ah…! Aah…!”

When Moohyuk pulled out his penis until only the glans was inside and then thrust it back in, Hajung seemed to think Moohyuk was tormenting him and started kicking Moohyuk’s chest with his feet. Moohyuk didn’t mind the kicking, but he was worried about Hajung’s bad knee, so he held Hajung’s ankle and shook his hips in short, quick movements.

“Uh, huh, huh, ah…”

The inner walls were scorching hot. They involuntarily contracted and then stayed rigid, as if they hadn’t expected Moohyuk to enter again. But they were still soft. Moohyuk’s relentless thrusts made Hajung drool from the corner of his mouth, a sign of his defenseless state. Moohyuk licked up the saliva and continued to thrust his swollen glans everywhere.

Hajung’s thigh muscles were trembling, unable to maintain their position. Moohyuk held Hajung’s legs in place and started moving his lower body vigorously again, as if claiming his due.

“Uh, ah, huh, ugh, ah…! Moohyuk, Kim Moohyuk…!”

Hearing his name was the trigger. Feeling sorry for Hajung’s pitiful state, Moohyuk caressed his nipple. The nipple, erect from arousal, moved up and down under Moohyuk’s rough palm.

“Ah, Kim Moohyuk, Moohyuk, I like it, huh, I like it…”

But when Hajung said those words, Moohyuk couldn’t help but embrace him. He hadn’t expected Hajung to say such things during sex, as he had half given up on that. The moment Moohyuk heard that he liked it, he couldn’t resist the ecstasy and ejaculated forcefully into the inner walls that were squeezing his penis.

As he started ejaculating with the glans pressed firmly against the swollen inner walls, Hajung also ejaculated again.

“Ah, aah…”

“…”

Their rough breaths intertwined and slowly exchanged. It felt like Moohyuk’s breath was being inhaled by Hajung, and Hajung’s breath by Moohyuk. The feeling of sharing even their breaths was exhilarating.

“I liked it, it was good…Ha…”

Hajung said, stroking Moohyuk’s back with his palm. When Hajung’s breath touched his earlobe, Moohyuk shivered. The remaining semen in his urethra seemed to hit the inner walls again with a thud. This time, Hajung shivered.

They both panted for a long time. The living room felt humid, as if their breaths, ejaculations, and melted lubricant gel had all mixed together, increasing the humidity. Moohyuk thought the windows must be fogged up.

“Ah…I guess I have to throw away the sofa…”

And at Hajung’s words, Moohyuk couldn’t help but burst into laughter. Kang Hajung always seemed to dilute Kim Moohyuk’s innate sadness and bitterness. There was so little Moohyuk could give to someone like Hajung. It drove Moohyuk crazy with frustration. Even after they had bonded, this anxiety never ceased. In contrast, Kang Hajung was such a strong and free-spirited being. Without Kang Hajung, Moohyuk would go mad. He would blow up the entire Seoul metropolitan area and parts of Chungcheong Province and still not be satisfied, blowing himself up in the process. But even after Kim Moohyuk’s death, Kang Hajung would slowly sink into grief and longing, but he wouldn’t let it consume him.

Ha Seong-han must have felt that difference too. That’s why he must have planted such a desire deep in Kang Hajung’s mind. Moohyuk felt like he understood, even as he felt the urge to cut open the corpse and dismember it again. He hated himself for empathizing with his rival.

“Hajung.”

“Yeah, yeah. My friend Moohyuk.”

Even after ejaculating, Moohyuk didn’t withdraw and held Hajung tighter in his arms. Hajung, trapped in his embrace, breathed heavily and grumbled. Moohyuk loved even that rebellious side of him. If Moohyuk said he loved that part of him too, Kang Hajung would playfully pretend to gag, then pout and try to kiss Moohyuk’s cheek. With his face red, he would offer his lips to Moohyuk, thinking that even though it wasn’t his nature, he would appreciate and reciprocate Moohyuk’s love. Moohyuk couldn’t stand how kind his guide was.

“I love you, Kang Hajung.”

“…”

The guide in his arms took a small breath, as if taking in something overwhelming, and panted slightly. Then, he whispered something in response, so softly that only Kim Moohyuk could hear. Moohyuk tightened his arms around Hajung even more. Hearing the response, Moohyuk felt like he had the whole world.

It was all thanks to his guide.

“When did you move, and you’re only inviting us now? Didn’t Moohyuk say not to invite the center director? I know everything, you.”

Kim Inhak squinted and glared at Moohyuk playfully. A middle-aged man making such a face was ridiculous. Outside, he was all ‘Ahem, the center director is here,’ but with Moohyuk and me, he couldn’t maintain his composure.

“His wife said she’ll come a bit later. She’s still finishing up work.”

Han Byeongeun said, handing over the wine he brought.

“My wife is too kind and generous. I told her not to give anything too expensive, but she insisted on bringing at least one bottle of something nice for a housewarming…People can be too kind for their own good.”

What started as a greeting ended with Han Byeongeun bragging about his wife.

“Welcome.”

But since Moohyuk stepped forward first and greeted them happily, I couldn’t scold them and tell them to come in. I grumbled as I looked around the entrance.

“Hey, you guys eat a bit and leave soon. It’s rude to stay long in a newlywed’s home.”

“Oh, come on, who doesn’t have a home? And besides, the colonel invited us first, so why the change of heart?”

Han Byeongeun complained. I turned towards the kitchen and responded half-heartedly.

“Man, that was just a polite gesture, but you eagerly accepted. You guys really have no tact, then or now.”

“Come in.”

Unlike me, Kim Moohyuk smiled softly and pointed to the slippers, welcoming the housewarming guests inside. As Kim Moohyuk, dressed in a thin knit pique shirt and well-fitted camel-colored pants, led the guests in, I sat down at the dining table.

Inviting people to our newlywed home was a first. Both of us prefer a quiet life, but since we were now a bonded couple, we couldn’t completely avoid socializing, so we decided to invite some friends over. The Mars team members would be coming later too. The long dining table in the kitchen was set with cutlery and appetizer plates according to the number of guests.

“Shall we start before all the guests arrive?”

Since they said they would be a bit late, it would be fine to have a light snack first. What Kim Moohyuk brought out was an appetizer of garlic and cherry tomatoes baked in the oven with basil pesto and olive oil, served with beer and crackers to start the housewarming.

“I never thought senior would grow up and get married like this.”

Kim Inhak said, as if reminiscing. It was a cheeky remark, but I let it slide. I smiled and opened a beer. Since Moohyuk allowed me to drink a bit today, I was in a good mood.

“Director, I can take care of myself and live well, so why all the worry? Unnecessarily.”

Han Byeongeun shook his head as if to say that’s not it.

“Who would take someone as eccentric as the colonel? And the colonel’s ideal type is too much.”

“Man, what’s too much…”

“Ideal type?”

Moohyuk smiled and asked Han Byeongeun. After opening a beer and taking a sip, Han Byeongeun didn’t seem to notice Moohyuk’s intent. I, on the other hand, felt a chill run down my spine. I had evaded Moohyuk’s questions about my ideal type many times before.

“Uh, hey, what are you trying to find out? Uh, what?”

I waved my hand, trying to divert Moohyuk’s attention, but he quickly grabbed my hand, interlocking our fingers, and pulled me down under the table. It was unfortunate. Han Byeongeun, who didn’t understand my signal, chuckled and smiled at Kim Inhak. The problem was that Kim Inhak was also clueless about these things.

“Yeah, yeah, your ideal type was always a healthy beauty. Like the actress Monica Moore.”

“…Who?”

…Those guys, seriously. My interlocked hand started to feel very uncomfortable. I glanced at Kim Moohyuk. With his elbow on the table, Kim Moohyuk had his hand covering his mouth and his chin resting on it. Since he had turned his head away from me, I couldn’t read his expression.

“Uh, now that I think about it, doesn’t Moohyuk look a bit like her?”

Han Byeongeun said, turning his head sharply. Had he already gotten tipsy from a few sips of beer? I was about to open my mouth in disbelief when Kim Moohyuk interrupted me.

“Who is that?”

“She’s a bit of an old actress, so you might not know her? There was this famous Hollywood actress when we were kids who was great with guns, awesome at action scenes, and full of vitality.”

“Yeah, they do look alike.”

Even Kim Inhak seemed to agree. I covered my face with my free hand. Kim Moohyuk, still holding my hand, picked up his phone and seemed to search for the actress’s name on a portal site. He stared at it for a while.

Then he turned to me, leaned in, and whispered in my ear.

“So that’s why you’re obsessed with breasts…”

“Aaaah, let’s drink, guys!”

I couldn’t take it anymore and stood up abruptly. Damn it, Inhak, Byeongeun, I’m going to poison your food. I held back tears and raised my beer can.

“Oh, have you started already?”

“Why was the front door open?”

“Hello.”

The voices of Bang Gaeun, Ham Jeongju, and Go Seunghwan could be heard loudly from the entrance. I was about to greet them with a relieved face, but Kim Moohyuk pulled my hand, and I had to sit back down. With his elbow on the table and his chin resting on it, he was chuckling and looking at me. Only then did I realize that Kim Moohyuk was teasing me. My face turned bright red.

“Hey, Kim Moohyuk―!”

“Haha.”

He rarely laughed out loud. The eyes of Bang Gaeun and Ham Jeongju, who were just entering the kitchen, widened as if they had seen it for the first time.

I couldn’t help but feel relieved. How could I keep frowning when he wanted to forget all his worries and sorrows and laugh? I felt welcomed. Before I knew it, I was smiling along with him, my face still flushed.

The people who knew how hard we had struggled to be together laughed and opened the wine, using our moment as an accompaniment. As they laughed loudly, I looked at Moohyuk. Reading my gaze, Moohyuk reached out and intertwined his fingers with mine. The rough texture of his hand felt good.

“It’s nice to get together like this sometimes,” I said, smiling.

Moohyuk pressed his lips to my earlobe and whispered, “Are you serious? Tell these assholes to get out.”

“We can hear you,” Go Seunghwan grumbled in disbelief. Moohyuk and I leaned our foreheads together and laughed simultaneously.

Yes, Moohyuk, I’ll make you laugh for the rest of your life. As your closest guide, existing near your heart. I’ll be your proxy guide.