Kill Your X Chapter 46

Held in his arms, I escaped the chaotic villa. Seo Seunghan placed me in the backseat of the car and immediately took the wheel. Through my blurred vision, I saw his blood-covered hands.

“Heu, ah…”

He was usually a cautious driver, but now he drove recklessly, as if he were about to cause an accident. Feeling the bumpy vibrations of the road, I clung to the jacket he had draped over me like a lifeline.

As we moved, the swaying of the car intensified the effects of the drug. I alternated between chills and burning fever. While my body was out of control, a vulgar desire steadily grew.

As I grabbed and stroked myself, Seo Seunghan glanced at me through the rearview mirror. His seemingly annoyed gaze made me even more aroused. Groaning to myself, I finally pleaded with him.

“Heut, do something for me… please?”

His gaze returned to the road ahead. Seeing him focused solely on driving, a wave of resentment washed over me. I certainly didn’t want to be doing this.

What was I supposed to do when I felt like I would die if I didn’t satisfy my urge right away? If I had remained trapped in the villa, I would have gladly accepted the touch of any stranger who tried to take advantage of me.

“Ple… Heut… Please. You can do it. Anything, please… uhng…”

Earlier, when I was trapped in the cage, I was leaking pre-cum without even being touched, but now, stimulating myself only made me swell up; I couldn’t reach climax. The fact that I couldn’t properly grip with my hand was a secondary reason. Even in my irrational state, I knew for sure. My body craved greater pleasure.

“Yeonho, Si Yeonho…”

“Don’t do anything you’ll regret. I’ll take care of you when we get home, so just bear with it a little longer.”

His incredibly cold tone made my eyes well up. I writhed and thrashed around in the backseat. The desire that kept building up without release finally drove me mad.

Bang! Bang! I slammed my head against the window, and the car finally pulled over to the side of the road. Blood from my forehead trickled down my cheek. Strangely, the pain felt refreshing.

“Sunbae. Are you really trying to kill yourself?”

He looked back at me irritably.

“Then you can help me. Just, damn it, do something!”

Watching me repeat the same words like a parrot, Seo Seunghan ran his hand roughly through his hair. Shamelessly, I continued to masturbate while meeting his gaze. Seo Seunghan let out a long sigh and then abruptly got out of the driver’s seat.

For a moment, my heart sank at the thought of being abandoned like this.

“Wh-where are you going! Don’t go. Don’t leave me alone. Yeonho, Yeonho…”

Fortunately, he immediately came into the backseat and didn’t push me away as I desperately clung to him. Cherishing the warmth I finally reached, I sobbed, wrapping my arms around his neck as if to strangle him.

“Sunbae.”

The clothes Seo Seunghan had draped over me had long since fallen to the floor. Tracing his fingers across my bare shoulder, he asked quietly,

“What’s my name?”

The unexpected question made my mind go blank. Looking directly at my undoubtedly foolish face, he pressed for an answer.

“Tell me. What’s my name?”

Everything that happened with him after our reunion at Jerome ten years ago flashed through my mind. He was asking me the name of the person who had toyed with me for months. I opened my mouth blankly and then with difficulty, uttered the truth. The movement of my tongue, forming his name, felt familiar.

“Seo Seunghan.”

He looked somehow sad, even though he got the answer he wanted. Ignoring his feelings, I hastened to explain, afraid he might change his mind about helping me.

“I, I actually knew. That your real name is Seo Seunghan.”

“Is that so?”

“But when we met again, I really couldn’t remember. You clearly told me, but I couldn’t recall it at all…”

Fragmented memories of the past mingled with the present. I wanted to stop these painful thoughts. I recklessly tried to take off his shirt. Seo Seunghan easily stopped my clumsy movements, weakened as they were.

“What’s the point of knowing my name now? You hate me anyway, Sunbae.”

“Uhng, no, no…”

“You told me to go home, didn’t you? You even slapped me and left.”

The content was a cute complaint, but the lack of inflection in his voice made it sound chilling. I tilted my head slightly, and our eyes met. Wanting confirmation, I pressed my lips against his. The soft sensation was delightful, sending blood rushing through my body. As I eagerly pushed my tongue in, Seo Seunghan lightly nipped the tip of my tongue and pulled his upper body back. I was so disappointed I almost cried.

“But telling me to go home… When did I ever say that?”

“You told me to go to hell. That’s my home.”

“Is that so? You live in a nice place.”

Ignoring his words, I rubbed my genitals against his groin. One of us was naked, while the other was fully clothed, albeit in a disheveled state. The desire that showed no signs of being resolved on its own flared up as if waiting for the moment our bodies touched. Even the smell of blood on his suit was stimulating.

“Ah… uhng…”

“Think one more time. Are you really sure you won’t regret this?”

My hand fumbled again, trying to pull down his pants. So I just lowered my head and sucked him through the fabric. A groaning sound escaped my throat at the hefty bulge. Ha. A short scoff came from above.

“Is that your answer, Sunbae?”

Seo Seunghan unbuckled his belt and unzipped his pants himself. As he pulled down his underwear, his impressive penis sprang out. Without hesitation, I grabbed the shaft with my hand and took the glans into my mouth. The cock filling my mouth and its unique, strong musky scent tickling my nose were satisfying. I wanted to feel even better, even more. As I tried to swallow his penis mindlessly, my hair was suddenly grabbed.

“Kugh!”

Seo Seunghan yanked my hair as if to pull it all out, then shoved it forcefully in the opposite direction. The thick glans hit my uvula, causing a physiological gag reflex. Regardless, he started moving as he pleased, using my mouth as a masturbation tool.

“Cough, uhp, uugh!”

“Don’t get a hard-on. Sunbae knows better than anyone how to suck a cock.”

He savored the flinching reaction of my tongue wherever he touched, and then, without warning, he thrust between the sensitive mucous membranes. Despite the inconsiderate blowjob, I was aroused. My body welcomed the forceful thrusts that made it hard to breathe. Was it the drug? My brain had been confusing pain and pleasure.

Seo Seunghan continued to violate my mouth. Unbelievably, it felt like his cock was getting bigger and bigger. At some point, just holding it in my mouth made the corners of my lips ache. Just before he came, I had to move my head almost out of spite.

“Keup, cough! Ugh, uuhp!”

“Haa. The reason why Sunbae likes this…”

He stopped thrusting and cupped the back of my head with his hand, preventing me from escaping. With his unrealistic grip, I couldn’t even offer the slightest resistance of tilting my head back and had to swallow his cum.

“I think I understand now.”

I never thought my promiscuous past would be helpful in this way. Having had similar experiences a few times before, even in my dazed state, I tightened my throat to prevent the cum from spilling out. After thoroughly enjoying the desperate tightness, he withdrew his penis. Lightly touching the corners of my lips, which were on the verge of tearing, he said something unbelievable.

“Is cum that delicious?”

Having no energy left to make excuses, I just nodded repeatedly. My head spun from lack of oxygen.

“With your fondness for sleeping with men like this, Sunbae has no chance of going to heaven in your next life either.”

“Mine too, quickly, tou…ch…”

Unlike him, I hadn’t yet reached climax. Licking the remaining cum in my mouth, I pleaded with him. As I spread my legs wide, Seo Seunghan reached out his hand but quickly withdrew it. Instead, he took off his shirt and said,

“I won’t touch you there.”

“Why?”

Seeing my disappointed expression, he gave a faint smile.

“I know it won’t be enough anyway, so why bother?”

I felt momentarily despair at his words, but as his firm body pressed against mine, it was satisfying enough to feel like a climax. My mood swung wildly like a crazy person. As I wrapped my arms around Seo Seunghan’s neck, two fingers slipped down and immediately spread my opening. A strange electric current ran through my body at his unhesitating action.

“Ah, ugh!”

“We don’t need to take care of down there today, right? Looking at Sunbae’s face right now, it seems like you’ll complain if I don’t fuck you right away.”

“Yes, put it in quickly. Fuck me, Seunghan.”

A blunt, fleshy mass touched my hole and then started pushing its way in. The sensation of my inner flesh being tightly stretched made my head snap back. Even though my body was completely heated up with excitement, Seo Seunghan’s size was too much to take in all at once.

“Aah… Wait, heu…”

Finally, he fully entered me. His sweaty, glistening skin was visible right in front of my face. I bit into the nape of his neck and greedily inhaled his scent. Just like he had done to me once.