Kill Your X Chapter 59

It was to make the other person fall in love. The more Gyujin fell for me, the closer the liberation from this tiresome life became.

But for some reason, despite having several opportunities, Seunghan couldn’t bring himself to kill Gyujin. At first, he made the excuse that the scent wasn’t strong enough yet, that he had to wait a little longer. As he continued to deny reality like that, at some point, the surrounding situation worsened beyond control. It was something he wouldn’t have had to experience if he hadn’t hesitated.

Then, right after the villa incident, while choking Gyujin in the car, Seunghan regained all of his past memories.

‘Is it you guys again?’

The tragic fate of having to kill each other to save each other was endlessly repeated over thousands of years. The Demon King looked at the two who had entered Hell side by side again, as if he were sick and tired of this destiny that seemed more like a curse. Forcibly separating the two within that place was, in a way, a natural decision for the Demon King.

‘Cough, urgh….’

‘I can’t do it.’

The image of Gyujin being dragged into the gates of Hell alone, desperately calling his name, overlapped in his vision. Hot tears flowed down his cheeks. Their names were different each time, but whenever they managed to get a new life, they found each other without any confusion. They fell in love, and because of that, they were ruined.

Until now, he had thought that having to die three times was the core of the curse. But the Demon King was far more cruel.

‘The punishment I received might have been something completely different.’

He let go of the hand that was choking him. There was no way he could kill Gyujin with his own hands. Whether it was a damn trick of fate or something else, in this life too, Seunghan had eventually fallen in love with Gyujin. He instinctively realized that the ending that would follow was impossible to resolve by human means.

Even so, he didn’t want to give up. He would save him, even if it meant being bound to Hell forever for the sin of refusing the punishment.

The option of abandoning his loved one had never existed for Seunghan in the first place.

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His explanation was short and clear. It just took me more time to accept the fact.

That Seo Seunghan was originally a gatekeeper of Hell, and that he had three lives.

One life for himself, another for me, and the rest in Si Yeonho, an abnormal situation.

“Why didn’t you tell me sooner?”

“If I had told you, would you have believed me, Sunbae?”

“No. I would have thought you were crazy. If I hadn’t seen you die and come back to life right in front of me, I would have kept thinking that.”

Then Seo Seunghan hugged me tightly. My startled heart calmed down to some extent with the warm body heat and the regular heartbeat.

“Were you very surprised?”

“Of course. Who would have thought your identity was something like that. If you had been a grim reaper, I wouldn’t have been this surprised. A gatekeeper of Hell, how on earth did you end up in the human world….”

My words became a little fast because I was excited. I didn’t mean to blame him, but it somehow ended up having that nuance.

“I was being punished, so I had something I had to do.”

“What kind of punishment?”

Seo Seunghan wrapped his hand around my neck, squeezed it slightly, and then let go. My body shuddered for a moment as the past experience overlapped.

“I don’t want to talk about this right now. I have a feeling that if I do, Sunbae won’t sleep next to me tonight.”

“What is it really? You’re making me more curious.”

“I said I had something to do, in the past tense. I’ve decided not to carry it out, so it doesn’t matter from now on anyway.”

Even though he talked about whether I would sleep next to him or not, in reality, I had no choice in the matter. The hand that held me firmly in his embrace was proof.

“Alright. Then I’ll ask something else. How on earth did you get so hurt? You’re a really good fighter. I saw you beat people to a pulp twice. Even when several people rushed at you at the villa, you were unfazed.”

“This time, it wasn’t just a few dozen people.”

My sleepiness completely vanished at the calm explanation that followed. I had steeled myself as much as I could, but the overwhelming reality he faced far surpassed my imagination.

“I tried to do well, but there were limits to a human body.”

“Not just a few dozen people, you say.”

“The Kumto gang is a much larger organization than what is known to the public. And all of its members have become my enemies.”

I could only sigh in despair. Is there really a breakthrough in this situation? While his own nose was in a sling, Seo Seunghan gently patted my back.

“Sunbae doesn’t need to worry. I’ll take care of everything.”

“What can you do in this state? Do you even have a plan in mind?”

“My wound recovery is faster than that of ordinary humans, so it’s not a problem. As for a plan… I think I’ll have to see after I confront them.”

It wasn’t that I didn’t trust Seo Seunghan, but no matter how I thought about it, it didn’t seem like a hopeful future would come for us. CEO Kang advised me to pull out, but I couldn’t do that when I owed Seo Seunghan my life.

Whatever the process, Seo Seunghan saved me. I decided to think only of that.

“I’ll wrap it up as quickly as possible. Sunbae is a sex addict, and you’d be sad if you couldn’t do it with a peaceful mind, right?”

My mind cleared at the ridiculous reason he gave. He wasn’t the type to make jokes naturally, so Seo Seunghan really thought that way.

“Geez. Why do you think I’ll only do it with you?”

As soon as I finished speaking, the hand that was patting my back stopped. I buried my face in his chest so that he wouldn’t see my weakness.

“If you don’t want to see me cheating on you, you’d better keep that promise. You know I have no concept of fidelity.”

“That’s quite motivating.”

“I’m being serious. Finish this situation quickly and let me fuck you.”

Because our bodies were touching, I could feel him smiling through my skin. We could smile at each other for a moment inside the house, but as soon as we went outside, it was a touch-and-go situation where we didn’t know what kind of knife fight would break out again.

Even so, it was good. In the eye of the storm, we breathed, relying on each other’s warmth.

“Seunghan. Can I ask you a few more favors?”

“Yes.”

He agreed unconditionally, not knowing what kind of conditions I would attach. I carefully brought out the words that had been rolling around in my mouth. What CEO Kang had said was bothering me.

“You can’t go to prison. And you definitely can’t be executed there. I don’t know for sure, but if you die one more time, I’ll die too, right? I don’t want to die yet.”

“I’ll do that.”

“And when this is all over, let’s go on a trip far away.”

It seemed realistically impossible for the situation to end without anyone getting hurt.

“Is there a country you want to go to?”

There was no guarantee that things would get better just because I got involved, but I had to prepare a last resort just in case. For him, who had chosen to save me, going against his given fate.

“This time, you decide. You’re not a child, how long do I have to decide everything for you?”

When I gently pinched the bridge of his nose, he made a foolish expression. The smile that spread in an instant made my heart full of happiness, even if just for a moment.

“Your eyes, when I first saw them, they were so black that I was a little scared.”

I earnestly hoped that night that he would feel this kind of satiety more often in the future.

“But up close, they’re so pretty. Like jewels.”

Then Seo Seunghan buried his face in my hand. He mumbled with his lips against my palm.

“Sunbae… you’ve been pretty since the first time I saw you. It’s true that I fell in love at first sight.”

My toes curled at the cheesy compliment. Reassured by the regular, warm breath, I fell into a deep sleep.

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The police investigation targeting the Kumto gang seemed to be sailing smoothly. Meanwhile, the whistleblower, Detective Nam, was on the defensive. This was because his former police colleagues, who had originally promised to help with his testimony, had all changed their positions.

The missing colleague still couldn’t be found, not even a piece of clothing, and Detective Nam, who had to rely solely on the witness’s words, was going crazy.

A whistleblower with only words versus a father who would bring clear evidence to prove his innocence. Just looking at this, the outcome of the controversy seemed to have already been decided. Detective Nam was furious, claiming that Candidate Song must have used dirty tricks again, but public opinion had already turned its back on him.

At this rate, Seo Seunghan would have no choice but to take the fall for all the crimes committed by the Kumto gang, and the whistleblower, Mr. Nam, would also be countersued and have his life ruined.

As soon as his wounds healed and he had no difficulty moving, Seo Seunghan disappeared somewhere. Fortunately, my threat to kill him if he didn’t answer the phone worked.

―Sunbae, what did you do today?

When I called him in the evening, he answered the phone after a few rings.

“I didn’t really do anything. I didn’t know I was a working man’s type. I had nothing to do since I wasn’t going to work.”

―Read a book. You like reading books, Sunbae.

“Don’t you think I’d be a psychopath if I could read when everything is a mess right now? What are you doing now?”

―I just finished eating. I ate three bowls.

“Yeah?”

Suddenly, there was silence over the speaker. Thinking the signal had been cut off, I briefly took the device away from my ear to check it.

“Seunghan?”

―Is that all your reaction is?

His tone was strangely sullen.

“What?”

―I said I ate three bowls of rice. It’s not the bread crumbs that Sunbae hates.

“Are you asking for a compliment right now?”