Resurrection Chapter 37 - Call me your boyfriend

“Do you think something like gender would be an obstacle for Seo Heesoo?”

“Heesoo hyung’s sexual orientation might be different from mine, but it makes no sense that out of all people, it would be me!”

“Why does it not make sense? You two have the perfect mutual salvation narrative. You saved Seo Heesoo, who was corrupted, abandoned by the goddess, and thrown into a den of demons. You gave him a new meaning in life, and you will even make him reach max level. Who would he love if not you? Even I would love you in his shoes.”

“Stop with the love talk. It is disgusting. Let us say you are right and Heesoo hyung… likes me. He would destroy the world because of that? Isn’t that too implausible?”

Min Gongchan sighed as if he were frustrated.

“This is why I say you do not know Seo Heesoo. You only believe in that bastard, you do not know him.”

“No matter what you prattle on about, the person who knows Heesoo hyung best is me. The Heesoo hyung I know is not some psycho who would destroy the world just because he got his heart broken.”

“He might not be now. But there is no guarantee he will stay sane in the future.”

“What?”

Min Gongchan said to me, who was frowning.

“It is so obvious what will happen to Seo Heesoo. You do not think the ‘gwang’ in ‘gwangjeonsa’ means light, do you?”
(T/N: Gwangjeonsa means Berserker. Gwang can mean ‘mad/crazy’ (狂) or ‘light’ (光).)

At the ominous premonition, I dropped the fork I was holding with a clatter.

“What does that mean? Don’t tell me……”

Min Gongchan nodded his head.

“That’s right. Seo Heesoo will go crazier as he levels up. He is going to become a psycho who is completely crazy about you, of all things. That is the direct reason for the world’s destruction.”

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Now, I could not even laugh.

To me, the fact that Heesoo hyung might go mad was more shocking than the fact that Min Gongchan was a regressor or that Heesoo hyung would cause the world’s destruction.

This was because, while the other claims lacked credibility, that one fact alone had it.

It was a well-known fact that awakened beings are influenced by the gods they serve. In order to receive more abilities, they have to please the gods, so they have no choice but to follow the disposition of the god they serve.

It was said that the fanatic who set fire to an apartment building and offered a human sacrifice was not such a madman from the beginning. They said he went crazy after he started serving the so-called flaming madwoman, Inferno, so it was not entirely untrue that you could go mad if you met the wrong god.

My heart sank at the thought that Heesoo hyung might end up in such a state. It was even more so because I had started to think that I might have messed things up with my own greed.

Maybe it was a mistake from the start to have pushed Heesoo hyung in without even knowing what kind of god the new god was, just because I was greedy for the first-class apostle position.

My face flushed with a sense of failure. Perhaps worried about me, a message came from the Golden Emperor.

—The Golden Emperor advises you not to be swayed by the other’s words. He points out that there is no need for you to blame yourself unnecessarily. He says that he knows better than anyone that you have been making the best choices.

After hearing the message, I took a deep breath.

There is no point in blaming myself for what has already happened. Even if I were to go back in time, there was a high possibility that I would make the same choice.

The existing gods already had many apostles, so no matter how outstanding Heesoo hyung was, he could not become a first-class apostle from the beginning. If he started as a second or third-class apostle, there would be a limit to his growth speed, no matter how high his level was. He might end up just grinding away, dying and coming back to life day and night, so the moment a new god appeared, I had no choice but to seize the opportunity.

I bit my lip and then said.

“Just because the god Heesoo hyung serves is a Berserker does not necessarily mean Heesoo hyung will go mad. Look at the apostles of the famous Inferno. There is a crazy guy who wants to offer human sacrifices, but the rest of the apostles serve the country as a sign of repentance.”

Min Gongchan retorted.

“That is right. Just because Seo Heesoo is Ulfheðinn’s first-class apostle does not necessarily mean he will go mad. The point is that Seo Heesoo goes mad because he loves you. You have a way of driving people crazy, you know.”

“What did I do? I do not have a single shred of that kind of selfish feeling for Heesoo hyung! Even if Heesoo hyung has feelings for me as you say, I have no intention of accepting them! What is with guys being together…!”

My face turned red as I got heated, and then I suddenly felt a suspicion.

“Wait a minute, are you trying to persuade me to accept Heesoo hyung?”

If Heesoo hyung goes crazy because of his feelings for me, maybe he was trying to tell me to accept his feelings, soothe and comfort him so that he would not go mad.

At my question, Min Gongchan lowered his eyes and shook his head.

“It would be nice if that were possible, but it will not work.”

“What?”

“It is no use even if you give in to Seo Heesoo a hundred times. In fact, if you accept him, his condition will get worse.”

“How does it get worse?”

Min Gongchan did not answer my question. He changed the subject as if that were not the important thing.

“Strictly speaking, it is not your problem, but Seo Heesoo’s problem. The madness inside that crazy bastard is the problem.”

“Then what am I supposed to do?”

“I already told you. Give up on Seo Heesoo.”

I opened my mouth wide as if to say something, then closed it again. I thought about what it would mean to give up on Heesoo hyung.

Giving up on Heesoo hyung meant not casting Resurrection on him, which in turn meant giving up on making him max level. That, of course, also meant giving up on my dream of defeating the Black King and restoring the Earth to its original state.

I asked back.

“What if I cannot give up?”

Min Gongchan said with a blank face.

“There is no choice but to kill Seo Heesoo.”

“Bullshit, who would let Heesoo hyung be killed?”

“Then should we let Seo Heesoo destroy the world?”

Realizing that there was no point in talking further, I shut my mouth. Instead, I asked the Golden Emperor.

‘What does Your Majesty think of what Min Gongchan is saying?’

The Golden Emperor immediately answered with a message.

—The Golden Emperor says that the truth or falsehood of what Min Gongchan says is not important. He asks back whether you will follow if what that person says is false, and follow if it is true.

What if Min Gongchan is really a regressor, and Heesoo hyung ends up destroying the world because of me?

Will I abandon all my plans and give up on Heesoo hyung?

Of course not.

Even if Min Gongchan’s words were true, that future had not come. I had no intention of giving up on Heesoo hyung, and I had even less intention of doing so based on the words of a self-proclaimed regressor.

I slurped up the pasta as if it were soup rice. Seeing that, Min Gongchan commented.

“I am not going to take it away from you, so eat slowly.”

“Do you think I am eating in a hurry because I am afraid someone will take it away?”

“It is no use trying to avoid the topic. I am serious. As long as you do not change your mind, that is the only way.”

“The self-proclaimed regressor-ssi might be able to say that, but not me. Heesoo hyung has not gone mad yet. I cannot give up on something that has not even happened.”

Min Gongchan suddenly let out a small laugh.

“Not yet……”

I wiped my olive oil-stained lips with a napkin and glared at him, and Min Gongchan propped his chin on his clasped hands and said.

“Shall we check if that is really the case or not?”

“What kind of check, and how?”

“It is simple. Let us do it this way.”

I gulped down some water, gulp gulp, and gestured with my chin as if to say, ‘go on, tell me.’ Min Gongchan straightened his posture, looked at me intently, and continued.

“Say I am your boyfriend.”

“What?”

My face contorted immediately. What kind of crazy talk is that?

As I was about to get angry out of bewilderment and annoyance, Min Gongchan said.

“Let’s just say I am your boyfriend and see his reaction. That crazy bastard Seo Heesoo would probably want to kill any guy who is your boyfriend just by looking at his face. Let us go on a hunt together once. I will bet my entire fortune that Seo Heesoo will try to kill me behind your back in a place swarming with monsters.”

“I do not need your fortune. I am rich, you know? There is no need to check, we are just partners, nothing more……”

I was continuing my words when I paused at the object Min Gongchan placed on the table.

At first glance, it looked like a small pouch. It was a pouch-like object used to put coins or small miscellaneous items in, but it was not an object from Earth.

It did not just come from a dungeon either.

It was an item from the otherworld market.

The otherworld market, where one could trade all sorts of items from other worlds with mana stones, appeared randomly in dungeons very rarely. Encountering it was as difficult as winning the lottery, but once you went, it was no different from winning the lottery. You could buy items that were impossible to produce with Earth’s technology, so if you managed to get even one thing, it was a huge jackpot.

I pointed at the pouch, which must have come from the otherworld market, and was astonished.

“D-don’t tell me this is…!”

Min Gongchan nodded easily.

“That is right, it is a Dimension Pocket.”

Among the items from the otherworld market, this is the one people want the most. The Dimension Pocket, known to be able to hold any object infinitely, solved the problem that all hunters inevitably faced when entering and exiting dungeons.

That is, the transportation of dungeon resources.