To You, Who Will Die Alone in Paradise Chapter 33

“I don’t want to.”

He thought he would be ignored again, but unexpectedly, Kellewen glared at Dandeleon and replied.

“Why do you keep telling me to hurt you?”

Dandeleon looked up at Kellewen in surprise. He hadn’t noticed before because he hadn’t looked at him properly, but Kellewen’s expression was now colored more by sadness than anger. As Kellewen clenched his hand, the bedsheet crumpled beneath it.

“It’s fine if you go back on your word. It’s also fine if you don’t ask my opinion, and it’s fine for you to act as you please.”

Kellewen said in a trembling voice.

“But just the words to hurt you…”

A tear dropped onto Dandeleon’s naked body.

Like someone bewitched, Dandeleon rubbed the tear that had fallen on his chest. The tear that fell on his cool body was as hot as a flame. Even after rubbing it away, it felt as if the pain remained and was throbbing.

“Please, just not that, Leon. I can’t do it.”

Kellewen lowered his head and sobbed.

For a moment, only the sound of sobbing filled the dim room.

Dandeleon rustled as he sat up. Then he cupped Kellewen’s cheek with his hand.

Kellewen raised his tear-stained face toward Dandeleon. At the hour when the sun was setting, the flickering light faintly illuminated Kellewen’s face. His wet eyelashes and trembling lips, unable to overcome his emotions, were tinged by the sunset.

It felt as if all the beautiful things in the world would be meaningless before this sight.

Dandeleon’s eyes ached. He grimaced at the stabbing pain, and his vision wavered.

Dandeleon kissed Kellewen. Kellewen hugged him tightly.

As their lips met, their saliva mixed. Their breaths and voices tangled with their emotions. Heat was born wherever their tongues intertwined and passed down the back of their throats.

After the kiss that seemed to last an eternity, Dandeleon gasped for breath and said.

“Can we continue?”

Kellewen hesitated for a moment, tracing Dandeleon’s lips with his finger. Dandeleon spoke as if clinging to him.

“I won’t tell you to hurt me this time…”

Kellewen’s eyes came to rest on Dandeleon’s reddened eyes. He kissed Dandeleon’s forehead without a word and then nodded.

Dandeleon lay down again. He spread open from below as a still-unfamiliar volume pushed in.

“Ah…”

Kellewen’s penis entered at a tantalizingly slow pace. Perhaps because he had been loosened up for a long time, there was no pain at all. In fact, it seemed even easier than the first time. Even so, Kellewen moved cautiously, showing no signs of rushing.

“Euh, haah, ah…”

The deeper he went, the slower the speed became. Dandeleon held back the urge to press him on.

He was happy that Kellewen didn’t want to hurt him, but that, in turn, drove Dandeleon even crazier. As the penis slowly parted his insides and advanced, pressure pushed in bit by bit. He felt like he was just skirting the edge of pleasure, and it was frustrating. Out of impatience, Dandeleon chewed on his innocent lips.

The moment Kellewen’s member was all the way in, Dandeleon exhaled the breath he had been holding all at once.

“Haah…!”

At the same time, Kellewen put his weight into it and pressed his member down firmly. As if to confirm that it had gone all the way in. The deepest part of his insides was pressed down, and the pleasure that had been pooling there exploded in an instant.

Dandeleon threw his head back and held back a scream. He thought Kellewen would think he was in pain if he made a sharp sound.

“Leon, are you in pain by any chance…”

“No! No!”

It was just as he had expected. Dandeleon shook his head and panted. His mind had gone white with pleasure, making it hard to even speak properly, but he had to express his intentions, which was no small ordeal.

“Hurry, heuk, move… quickly…”

Kellewen nodded and pulled out his penis. The pleasure that had been pressing on his insides slid out, and a feeling of exhaustion washed over him. Just as Dandeleon let out a sigh, trembling, Kellewen’s penis parted his insides once again.

“Ah… Ah!”

Kellewen continued to thrust slowly for a while. The large thing pushed its way inside, pressed down on a pleasurable spot, and then pulled out, repeating the motion. Dandeleon panted and received the pleasure. It was actually difficult because it would pull out just when it was about to feel good. This was almost like torture.

“Harder, faster, please…”

In the end, Dandeleon grabbed Kellewen’s hand and begged. Kellewen made a slightly angry face.

“Again with that…”

“Because it feels good, because I like it…”

Dandeleon shook his head. It was frustrating that Kellewen’s lower body had stopped while they were talking. Dandeleon wrapped his legs around Kellewen’s waist. And he lifted his hips and pleaded.

“Kellen, please…!”

Seeing this, Kellewen gritted his teeth.

“Huh?”

Kellewen suddenly grabbed Dandeleon’s upper body with both hands and sat him up. Dandeleon was so surprised by the unexpected movement that he relaxed his legs. Kellewen, still shallowly inside him, lifted Dandeleon’s body and then slammed him down.

“Aaaaargh!”

This time, he couldn’t hold back the scream. Kellewen’s penis hit an absurdly deep spot. As the tantalizingly sustained stimulation suddenly reached its critical point, he felt like he was going to lose consciousness. Semen spurted from Dandeleon’s penis.

“Agh, aagh, heuk, agh!”

Kellewen thrust up into Dandeleon roughly. It was a completely different movement from before. Dandeleon clung to Kellewen, almost crying. As the position changed, the points of contact also changed. A deeper spot was stimulated, and he felt an even stranger sensation. His entire body, from head to toe, tingled as if electrocuted.

“Euk, I, Iiih… now…!”

Dandeleon, not even realizing he had already cum, clung to Kellewen and sobbed. Kellewen silently increased the pace. He, too, was almost at his limit. From the moment Dandeleon had called his name and begged, it wouldn’t have been strange for him to cum at any moment.

“Euk, heugeuk, ah, aah!”

Kellewen pulled Dandeleon into a tight embrace and thrust his penis in one last time, hard. Dandeleon’s whole body arched back.

“Hwaaaah!”

That voice was unspeakably sweet. Kellewen came while listening to Dandeleon’s voice, which had lost all reason. The pleasure that had been held back for a long time exploded, soaking his insides. Dandeleon’s buttocks trembled violently. Soon, semen began to leak out from below the hole.

“Heuk… euk…”

Dandeleon clung to Kellewen, trembling violently. Kellewen held him and kissed him. Dandeleon in his arms was so lovely, and he was satisfied that he had given him great pleasure.

And yet, a feeling of insufficiency crept into a corner of Kellewen’s heart.

He wanted to lay Dandeleon down as he was and thrust himself into him again. He wanted to pound and widen his insides, sticky with his own semen, and cum more than two, three times. He wanted to ravage him until Dandeleon, who had clung to him saying he wanted to do it right now, wailed for him to stop, until he was so exhausted he couldn’t even make a sound.

Kellewen let out a sigh. It was truly a fortunate thing that others could not peek into one’s heart.

After their lovemaking, Kellewen brought a towel soaked in hot water and wiped Dandeleon’s body. Dandeleon, who had meekly entrusted his body to Kellewen’s hands, lay in bed clean and fresh. However, he did not look at Kellewen. Dandeleon turned his back and mumbled.

“I’m not going to marry you.”

Kellewen, who was tidying up the towel, smiled silently. After wiping himself as well, he climbed into bed and hugged Dandeleon from behind.

“I know.”

“Don’t you dare think about taking responsibility for me.”

“I understand.”

“…But sex, I might do it again if I want to.”

“If you want to, I am more than fine with it.”

Dandeleon turned his head and glared at Kellewen. But since he was lying on his side, his field of vision was narrow. In the end, Dandeleon had no choice but to turn over to check Kellewen’s expression.

Dandeleon soon realized he wasn’t joking. Kellewen was serious. He wasn’t just giving a perfunctory answer to get out of the situation, nor did he look pained or sad.

It was unexpected. It was also somewhat hard to understand. Dandeleon furrowed his brows like someone facing a difficult problem. He was curious about what Kellewen was thinking.

Kellewen stroked Dandeleon’s hair with his hand and said softly.

“Did something upsetting happen, Leon?”

Dandeleon held his breath for a moment. The events from just before came to mind. His father crying in front of him, his mother who said she didn’t regret loving that father, and himself, who had clung to him to erase that memory.

He was ashamed, feeling like he had been caught using Kellewen to forget his upsetting matters. Dandeleon avoided his gaze and replied sharply for no reason.

“You talk as if you know everything. Is that magic too?”

“Haha, of course not. If one could read minds with magic, it would be a very serious matter…”

The end of Kellewen’s sentence carried a strange nuance. Dandeleon didn’t reply, but he agreed with the sentiment. If Kellewen could read all of his inner thoughts, their relationship would be very different from what it was now. He doubted they could have even become close, let alone had sex.

But perhaps that would have been better. If that had been the case, there would have been less joy, but also less pain.

“…You said the Tuella Deum is coming?”

His heart in turmoil, Dandeleon changed the subject. Kellewen’s eyes widened.

“Yes… Did His Majesty tell you?”

“He did. Though he didn’t say exactly when they would arrive.”

“They are scheduled to arrive around noon in three days.”

Three days. Dandeleon’s heart ached as if it were being sliced. It was nothing to be surprised about since he had said they would come soon, but he couldn’t help the feeling that a corner of his heart had dropped.