Approximal Guide Vol. 6 Chapter 1 - Extra (1)

“The model is set with 88 brilliant-cut diamonds in white gold. The weight and number of carats, the number of stones, and the size of the product can vary slightly depending on the creation size you ordered. However, since the number symbolizes eternity, it would be better to keep the number of diamonds as is. After all, marriage is once in a lifetime.”

The employee, wearing white cotton gloves, showed the wedding band on a velvet tray. The man standing across from him nodded quietly. Despite the fact that the product was priced like a luxury car, he didn’t seem to hesitate about the price.

“Is there a more modest design? My partner is quite shy.”

How difficult it must be to be shy while dating someone with such a prominent brow and nose. If they walked around for just five minutes, everyone would be staring at them. The man wasn’t just normally handsome; he had an aura that drew attention, making people focus on him even in a quiet street.

The employee, trying to understand the exact needs of the customer, asked again, setting aside his regret.

“Shall I show you a design where the diamonds are just accent points?”

“Honestly, it’s hard to give up my desire for higher carat.”

The man smiled gently. The employee, who had accurately grasped the man’s desire to give his partner a diamond despite their preference for something less flashy, smiled a business smile and showed a wedding ring set with large diamonds.

“How about purchasing this together? It’s brilliant-cut and has a shape reminiscent of a pear. Wearing it on the ring finger might be a bit heavy for daily wear, but it will certainly catch everyone’s eye at a wedding or reception.”

The employee noticed the man’s growing interest. He subtly added that buying this together with the wedding band would show how much he cares for his partner.

The man appeared to be in deep thought. Resting his elbow on one arm while covering his mouth, he looked contemplative….Just how fortunate must his partner be to make such a handsome man hesitate because he can’t get a larger diamond ring? It was only natural to be curious about the man’s partner.

Then, as if he had made a decision, he asked in a serious tone.

“…I think the ring might be too small for a man. Can you adjust the size?”

Oh, my goodness! He’s gay! The employee, mustering all his social skills, barely managed to suppress his dropping jaw and smiled awkwardly.

“There’s no need to worry about the size. We can adjust it sufficiently.”

“Yes, I see.”

The man nodded seriously again. Both seemed to ignore that the design of the ring was overly ornate for a man.

“I’ll take this and this design. Here is the size.”

The man pulled a neatly folded memo from his inner jacket pocket, looked at the ring once more, and smiled broadly. It looked good. The employee, hiding his envy for the unknown partner, took the memo and wrote up the order form politely.

He said he’d pick up the ring on the specified date and left the shop. The valet parking staff of the boutique shop approached, pointing to the car with a polite gesture while handing over the key. He thanked them and headed towards it. Just then, a call came in. He glanced at the phone and saw a name that had become familiar on the screen. Moohyuk glanced back at the shop before swiping the screen.

“Are you up?”

— Yeah. Where did you go?

Judging by the low, sunken voice, it seemed the person had just woken up, looking for his whereabouts. It always felt incredible that he would search for him in this way. He used to think that being curious and seeking out his partner was his job, but now realizing that even Kang Hajung looked for him made his chest feel tight. The reason he came out to get a ring was to repay Hajung for the engraved watch he had given him long ago, but hearing him complain made him feel guilty. Although Hajung probably didn’t consider that watch an engagement gift, Moohyuk had cherished it for a long time, treating it as an engagement gift, keeping it safe from even touching the air.

— Why do you always disappear? It feels like it’s been a while since I’ve seen your face in the morning.

Feeling a bit hurt, Hajung searched for him. Moohyuk chuckled. The receipt for the reservation felt warm in his inner pocket. He lowered his voice to hide his smile from being discovered and asked instead of answering his partner’s words.

“Is there anything you want to eat? I’ll bring it.”

— Nah. Whenever you say that, I never end up eating what I actually want.

Hajung’s curt voice quickly came through. Moohyuk smiled again. Hajung’s health hadn’t been showing signs of recovery recently. It might be annoying for Hajung, considering how Moohyuk’s nagging had increased recently, but his curt remark drove away his irritation and sorrow, making Moohyuk unable to stand how much he missed him.

“Shall I make you stew? You like it.”

The relaxed tone was one of the changes in their relationship. Hajung, who had lived in the military for a long time and could be considered quite a stickler, used to dislike Moohyuk speaking informally to him. However, since their hearts connected, he didn’t seem to react much even when Moohyuk subtly shortened his sentences.

It’s annoying to be human, but Moohyuk couldn’t complain too much because he was able to connect with Hajung thanks to Hajung’s generosity. After all, he was the one standing next to Hajung now, so wasn’t that perfect? Among the espers who endured and persevered next to Kang Hajung, who was as oblivious as a flounder, the clear winner was Kim Moohyuk.

— Just come quickly. I want to go grocery shopping with you.

“Are you planning to sneak ramen into the cart?”

— Yeah, how did you know? I’m going to put in a whole box.

Moohyuk chuckled at Hajung’s nonchalant reply. He knew he had been laughing a lot more recently, but he didn’t intend to change that. More importantly, Hajung liked this change.

After ending the call with a promise to come quickly, Moohyuk was about to head to the parking lot when he noticed his phone screen light up again.

[Web Notification]

Product Name: SafeLove (5 boxes) Delivery Completed.12:09 PM

It was the news that the long-awaited item had been delivered. Since Hajung, who woke up late, wouldn’t find the package at the front door, Moohyuk thought he should hurry. He walked lightly, heading to the house full of waiting things.

“Oh, my aching body.”

Feeling easily fatigued made him feel like he had aged alone, which wasn’t a pleasant feeling. His body, still suffering from the aftereffects of a suicide attempt, hadn’t fully recovered. After embracing a rampaging esper, his lungs hadn’t fully recovered, as if protesting, “You treated me like this? Fine, I’ll die.”

Although he was much better than a few months ago, he still found it hard to move for long periods as he got out of breath quickly. Fortunately, the person he lived with was strong enough to lift him effortlessly and move him around without breaking a sweat.

“I’m always indebted to you. How should I repay you?”

As he draped his arm around Moohyuk’s neck and rested his head on his shoulder, Kim Moohyuk chuckled.

“Are you asking me to give you a bath?”

“Do you want to die? Espers and guides have a special relationship, but a bath?”

Although he enjoyed the faint vibrations he felt through his resting head whenever Moohyuk spoke, the suggestion of bathing together was too embarrassing, making his words come out gruffly. He glanced at Moohyuk, wondering if he had spoken too harshly. Kim Moohyuk’s expression, with a faint smile, hadn’t changed. He wasn’t sure if that was a good thing or not.

Yeah, I need to adapt to our changed relationship like him, but why is it so difficult? Maybe it’s because I’ve never had a deep relationship with anyone before. Because of my lack of experience, I realized my feelings for Moohyuk too late, causing him unnecessary hardship. Even now, my uncorrected habits occasionally ruin the mood.

The problem was that I couldn’t immediately grasp what a romantic mood was. Even before our hearts connected, Kim Moohyuk naturally showed affection, prioritizing my well-being. However, I couldn’t reciprocate, which made me feel sad. Although Kim Moohyuk didn’t seem to mind, I didn’t want to keep him waiting any longer.

‘What do couples usually do together? I’m about to get fired because I haven’t been able to leave work on time for months because of someone. Are you teasing me? What will you do if I get divorced without being able to explain myself?’

I had only asked Hanbyeong, the only one with a marked partner, but he had reacted so strongly that I couldn’t get a constructive answer. Instead, I received a strong glare and scolding, which only built up resentment. Even though he was my subordinate, he had glared at me like that. I wanted to retort, “Do you think I’m your peer?” but I kept my mouth shut, knowing it would only make things worse.

That didn’t mean I hadn’t tried other efforts besides asking someone who wasn’t much help. I tried holding hands differently for guiding, interlocking fingers, or leaning on his shoulder while guiding. I made quite an effort, but honestly, it didn’t seem very effective.

The important thing was that Kim Moohyuk didn’t show much reaction each time….Of course, I knew he had deep feelings for me, but there was a long time when we thought of each other as instructor and trainee. Bridging that gap was no easy task for me. Since we were each other’s first romantic partners, it would have been difficult even in a normal relationship, but it seemed even more challenging because it was him.

No, actually, this is all just an excuse from an incompetent older person. I knew I had to approach him first to make up for my stupidity in not realizing his pure-hearted feelings for years. Yet, I was struggling, making me feel more pathetic as time passed.

“Are you having a hard time?”

Kim Moohyuk asked kindly, seemingly unaware of my pathetic thoughts. No, I feel like I need to have some physical contact with you, but all I can manage is holding hands, making me want to return to middle school despite being almost forty. I couldn’t say that, so I just smiled awkwardly.

“I made stew.”

“…Where have you been?”

Lately, something suspicious has been going on. Kim Moohyuk has been going out every morning, leaving me, who can’t get up easily due to lack of energy, behind. The problem is that his whereabouts are unclear. No matter how much I ask where he’s going, he doesn’t answer, and even when I ask the Mars guys, they just say they don’t know, which is frustrating. It doesn’t seem like the Mars guys are lying to me either.

‘Well, if the Colonel doesn’t know, who would? We haven’t seen him in quite a while either. Unless there’s a report on the whereabouts of the Accent remnants, we haven’t even caught a glimpse of him.’

Lieutenant Bang’s words weren’t a joke. Moreover, her expression while saying that was like watching a cockroach couple who couldn’t hide their relationship, so I couldn’t ask further. Although he’s not the type to do suspicious things, the problem is that he’s the type to do dangerous things. I was worried he might be going to dangerous places without me.

“Are you really not going to tell me where you went this morning?”

“No. It’s a secret.”

Kim Moohyuk responded somewhat shamelessly, chuckling as he sat me down at the dining table. It was suspicious enough that he came back with a delivery box after going out, and when I asked what it was, he didn’t answer. Knowing that once he starts acting like this, it’s better to give up on getting an answer, I just enjoyed the stew Kim Moohyuk had made.

These days, my daily routine was quite similar. Unlike me, who wanted to proceed with the imprinting ceremony quickly, Kim Moohyuk was more cautious. Probably because after the ceremony, we would inevitably have to form an imprint, which would be too much of a burden on my body. While I understood, I was starting to feel a bit frustrated. We needed to proceed with the ceremony quickly so that Kim Moohyuk’s half-imprint would be completed, curing his imprint ischemia symptoms, and we could also get discounts on white goods for espers and guides. Even when I urged him about what to do with the house, his response was just to handle it himself, which was a bit frustrating.

‘I’m not a kid for you to worry about every little thing.’

Kim Moohyuk had said with an exasperated look. The absurdity was on my side. He seemed to think I still treated him as a trainee, but I didn’t know how to explain that I had already run all the simulations. Although my body was young, my mental age was twelve years older than his, and asking a kid if he wanted to sleep with me felt too trashy…

I felt like sitting down with those who only dated younger people and asking, “How can you shamelessly ask a kid to sleep with you without any sense of adult dignity or moral responsibility?” I was worried that Kim Moohyuk might be thinking, “I need to protect our Colonel,” using my poor health as an excuse.

Although I lacked experience, I knew enough to find it increasingly difficult to sleep next to someone I liked. Moreover, Kim Moohyuk was quite affectionate, often reaching out unconsciously in his sleep. I often woke up in his arms, and the problem was that my soul was that of an old man, so I usually slept in just underwear or at most a tank top. As a result, the sensation of his skin or hands on my bare skin was becoming more vivid.

Once, something like this happened.

That day, I felt exhausted and fell asleep right after dinner and a shower. In the middle of the night, I woke up feeling something strange and ticklish, only to find his thick hand resting on my chest. Normally, I would have just gone back to sleep, but the fact that the owner of that hand was someone I had been thinking about deepening our relationship with recently woke me up completely.

To make matters worse, his hand was moving as if kneading dough, gripping my chest. Before, he might have grabbed muscle, but my pectoral muscles had shrunk due to the aftereffects, leaving nothing but skin to knead. His touch was subtle and persistent.

The funny thing was that I couldn’t shake off the strange feeling and twisted my body. Trying to escape his touch, I ended up letting out a small moan. The sensation of being pressed down every time he moved his hand was incredibly strange and irresistible.

The experience of blood rushing to my nipples, making them hard, was something I had only experienced during harsh winter training as a cadet. I had never thought it could happen from being kneaded by someone else, so it was incredibly embarrassing. However, he continued to knead my chest without regard for my embarrassment. The constant attention to one side made the other side feel even more ticklish.

The funny thing was that I kept tensing my lower abdomen. The sensation of blood rushing to the area between my legs was absurd. Recently, I hadn’t even had morning erections due to my poor health, so the sensation felt even stranger. Even as Kang Hajung, I had low libido, thinking it was just a physical trait, and Sergeant Kang’s body was the same. Morning erections were rare, so the feeling of blood rushing to my genitals after a long time was confusing.

Moreover, the fact that the cause of this reaction was none other than the sleeping Kim Moohyuk made me even more conflicted. Turning my head, I saw him sleeping with such a peaceful expression, making my conscience feel even heavier. Of course, the part of my body far from my conscience seemed to have a different opinion.

‘Kim, Kim Moohyuk…’

I called him softly, but his hand continued to knead my chest, and he showed no sign of waking up. Eventually, the part of me between my legs, thinking this was a rare opportunity, stood up. The miserable feeling I had when I carefully slipped out of his arms and went to the bathroom alone…

The more ridiculous thing is that similar incidents continued to happen. He would knead my buttocks while asleep and even try to slip his hand inside my underwear. Each time, I would wake up in shock, but I couldn’t bring myself to wake him up. Even if I did, what would I say? Stop groping me? Stop kneading me? The moment I said that, something inside me, the useless machismo that had grown over more than 20 years of military service, might explode.

I tried to endure it by biting my lips, but his touch became more blatant, forcing me to retreat to the bathroom. Kim Moohyuk, who used to be extremely sensitive and wake up at the slightest noise, seemed to sleep deeply as if he had been waiting for this moment ever since we started sharing a bed. He seemed unaware that I was fleeing to the bathroom every night.

Now that he had found stability and was sleeping soundly, waking him up to tell him to watch his hands was out of the question. I had to come up with another solution.

“Are you planning to sleep in that again tonight? Isn’t it hot?”

Kim Moohyuk asked, looking puzzled, but I pulled down the oversized T-shirt and responded as if there was no problem.

“It’s comfortable. I always slept in clothes like this.”

“You usually don’t wear clothes because you find them uncomfortable.”

His tone suggested that he knew me better than anyone, leaving me with no rebuttal. I cleared my throat awkwardly and tried to lie down, but he asked if my lungs were hurting because I was coughing.

…Now that I think about it, does he see me as someone to take care of rather than a lover? The idea of being treated like an elderly person in need of care was absurd, and my eyes narrowed. Yet, Kim Moohyuk, acting as if my strange behavior was nothing new, brought a towel and placed it on my head.

“If you don’t dry your hair, you’ll cough all night again.”

“I don’t cough at night.”

“What did I hear then?”

Kim Moohyuk responded indifferently to my rebuttal. What did you hear? Your sneaky hand groping my chest, making me cough unconsciously. I’m fine. It’s you who keeps waking me up, making me unable to monitor where you go every morning, leaving me dozing off like a sick chicken!

But I knew that saying this honestly would only make things awkward between us, so I kept my mouth shut. In fact, he might shamelessly respond, making only my side of the air stuffy. I wanted to prevent that.

Then, a thought occurred to me. Why did I seem to be the only one feeling anxious? Kim Moohyuk was the one who needed the imprint, and he was the one who had loved me for a long time. Yet, I was the one pushing for the imprint and the only one waking up anxious every night. It was unbelievable.

After trying to suppress my dissatisfaction with this unreasonable situation several times, I finally couldn’t hold back. As Moohyuk gently dried my hair with a towel, I sharply asked,

“Why don’t you want to imprint with me?”

I felt his hand pause. Even though I knew it was a ridiculous question, I couldn’t stop myself once I started. After all, I had been in a feverish state for days due to his touch, unable to sleep properly. This made it impossible for me to wake up in the morning and find out where he was going, adding to my frustration.

So, even though I knew the question was neither mature nor fitting for his pair guide, I couldn’t help but blurt it out. Of course, I regretted it immediately. Especially when his hand, which had been gently drying my hair, stopped. But as Kang Hajung, I didn’t want to retreat after advancing. I resolved to stand firm and hear his answer.

“Is it because of the surgery scars?”

But the next question that popped out was even more childish. I couldn’t understand why the surgery scars, something I had never thought about, suddenly bothered me. Especially since I knew Kim Moohyuk wasn’t the type to care about such things.

“I misspoke—”

I opened my mouth to retract my words, but he was faster in removing the towel. I wanted to stop his next action, but my weakened body didn’t allow it. He lifted me by the waist and placed me on his lap.

“Hey, let go! How can you lift an adult like that?”

“Do you want to imprint with me, or do you want to sleep with me?”

Before I could even question him, his low voice whispered in my ear, sending shivers down my spine as if his voice had a physical touch.

“…Let go.”

“Do you want to sleep with me, Hajung?”

His last question left me speechless. It wasn’t just the informal tone; the content itself was shocking. I couldn’t say no, fearing he might take it to heart, but saying yes made me feel like a complete scumbag. I had lured a young man to stay by my side, drained him for five years, and then suggested living together, making him take care of me for life.

But as I tried to respond, I met his black eyes that had been watching me all along.

“…”

“…”

His eyes glistened, deep and murky, as if something had sunk into them over a long period. It was a gaze I occasionally encountered even when I hadn’t revealed that I was inside Sergeant Kang’s body. Strangely, it had become even deeper and darker, which was peculiar.

While I was concerned about what had happened to him, I also wanted to ask what had occurred, but for some reason, my lips wouldn’t move. Kim Moohyuk’s eyes were filled with a thick, tar-like substance that seemed to stick to my entire body, making me feel sticky. It was as if I was being licked while standing.

“Just tell me.”

“…”

I knew what he was asking me to say, but it was hard to put into words. I kept moving my lips, and Kim Moohyuk, who seemed to have exhausted all his patience after waiting for years, urged me again without waiting any longer.

“Instructor.”

Specifically, he stimulated me by using the title I was most sensitive to. The feeling of Kim Moohyuk’s thigh pressing against my buttocks was firm. There was a time when I was kidnapped by Kang Jinseong and taken to an underground club, and I sat on Moohyuk’s lap like this. At that moment, I clearly felt that Kim Moohyuk was a stranger to me. He was no longer just a cadet I had been educating since childhood but a different being.

And that realization became even clearer now. He was my paired esper and the one to share the imprint with me. I bit my lip and glanced down at Moohyuk.

“…If you’re going to speak informally, why call me Instructor?”

I tried to say it sullenly, but my voice trembled miserably. I was feeling the same trembling I used to feel only when he was asleep at dawn. The sensations of heaviness between my legs or a throbbing below my navel. As I stuck out my tongue and licked my lower lip, I could vividly feel his gaze sticking to my tongue. I couldn’t even ask why he was looking at me like that, as if he was appreciating what he had, with a leisurely gaze.

“…Do you know how to do it?”

“W-what?”

Again, my reaction was embarrassingly pathetic. I don’t know why I stuttered after speaking so well. As I was blaming myself internally, Kim Moohyuk, who seemed to have no intention of mocking my pitiful state, just pulled me close by the waist. Eventually, as Moohyuk’s chest and my stomach touched, Moohyuk looked up at me.

His black eyes looked innocent and fragile, which was absurd. I knew better than anyone how dangerous he was, so why did he have the eyes of a gentle lamb? Who was he trying to deceive? However, he didn’t seem to care much even though he knew I wasn’t fooled.

“The method of making an imprint. I was curious if you knew.”

Although the question seemed caring, I knew Kim Moohyuk well enough not to be fooled. I was curious about what he would say next. What would he do if I said I didn’t know? What would he do if I said I knew? I wondered what the right answer would be. I wanted to make him more flustered. I asked him while stroking his forehead.

“What if I say I know?”

“…Well. You’ve never had a partner before.”

“That’s just your thought.”

When I tried to provoke him, he immediately furrowed his brow. The reaction was so quick that I almost smiled. It was the first time I felt like I had the upper hand in the emotional tug-of-war with him.

“I know everything. It would be better not to try to test me. That’s not testing me; it’s openly mocking an esper who has only looked up to you.”

“Are you trying to guilt-trip me?”

Astonished, I asked, and he nodded calmly with a smile. His eyes crinkled beautifully, and I almost smiled along with him, but I held it back. His thigh was still firm, and the sensation of his broad chest pressing against my stomach was strange.

“I wanted to teach you.”

At that moment, Moohyuk, who noticed the subtle change in the air between us before I did, spoke as if seeking praise, like when he received a high score in the esper evaluation during his cadet days. I bit my lip. My throat felt incredibly parched.

“…”

“You taught me everything, Instructor. I can do the same.”

Moohyuk’s voice was very low, but every time he spoke, the vibrations transmitted through our touching bodies. It was strangely ticklish, but I couldn’t pinpoint where it itched. I bit my lip again with my front teeth. It was hard to resist the urge, but I couldn’t act recklessly because I didn’t know what the urge was.

Kim Moohyuk seemed to understand my confusion very well.

“Do you think you can learn well?”

“…You’re being cheeky.”

I couldn’t hold back and issued a warning. I thought I had carefully considered my attack, but it seemed ineffective against Kim Moohyuk, who just smiled. I was about to tell him to stop joking around and let me down, but he suddenly lifted me up and laid me down on the bed. I thought he was going to let me sleep peacefully, but he hooked his index finger into the waistband of my homewear pants and pulled them down, exposing my lower body to the cool air.

“W-what are you doing?”

“Today’s lesson involves taking off your clothes.”

He said it as if it were obvious. Before I could even process what he meant, my face turned bright red, and I instinctively struggled. Kim Moohyuk caught my ankle as it flew towards his face and chuckled.

“If I take off your underwear, you’ll try to kill me.”

“Are you trying to mess with your master?”

Without even responding, he removed the last piece of my underwear and threw it under the bed. Even though we had spent so much time together, this was the first time I was completely exposed in front of him. I quickly pulled down my t-shirt to cover myself. I felt more than embarrassed; I felt like I wanted to die. The more I felt his gaze on my bare legs, the more I wanted to disappear. I used to be the kind of guy who would casually take off his pants and underwear at the same time in a public bathhouse, but now I was in this situation. A faint sense of self-loathing made my face turn red.

“W-what are you doing?”

“I didn’t force you; you begged me to teach you. You know I can’t resist your requests.”

“Are you crazy? When did I ask for this?”

I shouted in anger, but my entire body was flushed. I was so heated that my neck was burning. Kim Moohyuk laughed and tapped the back of my hand as I pulled down my t-shirt. It was like a gangster’s teasing gesture.

“There’s no point in covering up.”

“N-no, it’s okay. Today doesn’t seem like the right day.”

“Today doesn’t seem like the right day?”

Kim Moohyuk repeated my words, as if mocking a child. I was so angry I wanted to kick him, but I couldn’t move because I didn’t want to expose myself further. I was stuck, unable to move or cover myself properly.

“For the student who is struggling to keep up, today we will only focus on sensation.”

Sitting on my legs, he crossed his arms and took off his top, as if announcing the day’s lesson plan. I asked in shock,

“W-why are you suddenly taking off your clothes?”

“I’m just going to hold you. You’re too scared to do anything else.”

Damn it, who said I was scared? But I couldn’t say that because I really was scared. I felt like something strange would happen the moment Kim Moohyuk took off his top.

He stayed on top of me, as if he knew I would run away if he started something.

“Come here. Just take this off.”

“What do you mean just take this off? Are you crazy? If I take this off, I’ll be completely naked!”

Kim Moohyuk laughed and tapped my wrist with his index finger as I pulled down my t-shirt. I shook my head.

“N-no.”

“It’s okay. We won’t do anything more; we’ll just hold each other.”

Kim Moohyuk spoke gently, but I was already in a state of panic and couldn’t hear him. Just the thought of both of us being naked and holding each other was too provocative. I shook my head vigorously, but Kim Moohyuk stopped me, saying my neck muscles would be shocked.

My resistance must have seemed strong because he laughed and started to unbuckle his pants. That in itself was surprising. It was like watching a lingerie model’s photoshoot, a sensual scene that took my breath away. His long fingers unbuttoned his pants and pulled down the zipper.

“W-why are you suddenly taking off your pants?”

“I thought I’d rub against you.”

Damn it, I’m not a mixed noodle dish! I was completely pale. Isn’t this too much too soon? I thought we would just kiss and maybe touch each other’s arms or something. If we’re going to progress, we should do it slowly! I’m an old man; I can’t handle this! Various objections rose in my mind, but I couldn’t utter a single word. Before I could properly protest, Kim Moohyuk easily took off his pants. Sitting on top of me, he pushed his thumb into the waistband of his underwear and looked down at me.

“D-don’t take it off.”

“Who knows? It might feel good.”

He chuckled, and honestly, it made me even angrier because he looked so handsome. I desperately tried to look away but ended up seeing it. The prominent bulge in his gray drawers, the tip that was slightly wet and darker than the rest. I had never seen his so explicitly before.

Although we had lived together for a long time, there were times when I accidentally walked in on Moohyuk while he was showering. Even then, I would just see his firm buttocks and joke, “Oh, you’re showering?” like an old man before leaving. The innocent Kim Moohyuk who would blush at such moments was nowhere to be found. His was already hard, the thick tip of his poking out from his thighs. I couldn’t help but close my eyes tightly. It felt like I was committing a sin. Me, looking at Kim Moohyuk’s like that. And it was erect.

I couldn’t understand why it was so big. Although Esper and Guide locker rooms and showers are separate, so I couldn’t see what theirs looked like, I thought that even for an Esper, it was unusually large. We are the same species, so how could there be such a size difference? The gap between common sense and reality was confusing.

“W-why are you like that…”

“Why? Does it look weird? The medics circumcised me.”

Kim Moohyuk glanced down at himself and said. I had never heard of a circumcision gone wrong making it grow that big. I was speechless and couldn’t respond. Kim Moohyuk, interpreting my reaction in his own way, hooked his index finger into my t-shirt and lifted it up, looking inside.

“W-what are you doing!”

“I want to see what the Colonel’s looks like.”

“Y-you crazy bastard!”

“I didn’t get to see it before.”

By “before,” he seemed to mean my original body. I was taken aback. I didn’t know Kim Moohyuk was so good at this kind of teasing, so I couldn’t hide my surprise.

“It’s pink.”

Somehow, Kim Moohyuk had seen it, and his murmur hit me directly. My face turned bright red, and even my toes felt flushed.

“Take it off. I want to hold you.”

But in the end, I gave in to those words. I wanted to do what Kim Moohyuk wanted to do….And according to his claims, it would feel good…Naturally, wanting to feel good with Kim Moohyuk was only right. Sighing, I released the tension in my fingers, which had turned white from gripping so hard. The bastard chuckled and started rolling up my t-shirt. Even though I had been wearing it all this time, the fabric brushing against my skin was incredibly ticklish.

“Ugh…”

I couldn’t help but let out a moan and looked at Kim Moohyuk in surprise. The bastard, who had been chuckling, was now staring at me intently, his anxiety palpable. I was just as nervous as he was.

“I-it’s ticklish…”

“…Where is it the most ticklish?”

Kim Moohyuk asked, still slowly lifting my t-shirt. The fabric brushing against my chest made me feel even stranger. I felt like when Kim Moohyuk had touched my chest all night, the blood rushing to the tips. I bit my lip, hoping the moan wouldn’t escape.

“Ugh, what…”

But contrary to my resolve, my breath hitched. Something wet had suddenly touched my thigh. Looking down to see what it was, Kim Moohyuk suddenly cursed and straightened his back. Kim Moohyuk’s ears were unusually red.

“What’s wrong?”

“…”

He didn’t answer my question, just looked down at himself. Naturally, my gaze also fell on his thigh. I was so shocked that I could only move my lips, unable to form any thoughts.

“Your, that…”

“Damn…”

Kim Moohyuk’s cock, which had been sticking out of his drawers, was now glistening with something that looked like syrup on the tip. Shocked speechless, I didn’t ask what the wet thing was. I knew very well what that liquid was because I am also a man.

It didn’t seem like semen on the tip. It must be pre-cum. Realizing that the clear liquid dripping onto my thigh had come from his cock, I heard a thud. I didn’t know when it had grown so big, but mine was also hard and throbbing. It was embarrassing how it was sticking to my lower abdomen, making a thudding sound.

“Ah, really…”

A moan escaped my lips. Fortunately, Kim Moohyuk also seemed preoccupied with his own situation. Even though he acted like he knew everything, I knew very well that Kim Moohyuk had no experience in this area. According to his claims, I was Kim Moohyuk’s first love, so it was natural that he had no experience either. It was laughable that he had been talking about teaching and showing me things.

In the end, a chuckle escaped my lips. Kim Moohyuk, whose neck was also flushed, chuckled as well when he saw me laughing in such a situation. It was so like him not to get angry at me for laughing at him.

“…Do you not like how it looks?”

I didn’t understand what he meant at first. I didn’t know what he was talking about, so a wrinkle formed between my eyebrows. Kim Moohyuk hummed and continued speaking.

“This. I’m asking if you don’t like how it looks.”

Then he took my hand and placed it on his lower abdomen. He wasn’t asking if I didn’t like his firm abs. As I touched his lower abdomen, my hand brushed against his erection. Clear pre-cum smeared on the back of my hand. I instantly turned even redder and didn’t know what to do.

“W-what is there to like?”

“I like yours, Instructor.”

Even though I responded sullenly, he just chuckled and poked around my thigh. Even though he didn’t touch it directly, my cock throbbed, which was embarrassing and absurd. How did I end up naked in front of Kim Moohyuk like this? Right, he said it was practice for the imprint. But could this really be called practice? The embarrassment and awkwardness wouldn’t go away. My skin felt so ticklish it was almost painful.

“I’m glad I became an esper who can see and touch the Instructor’s places like this.”

Kim Moohyuk said honestly. After five years, so many things had happened that I couldn’t even remember what he was like when he was nineteen. He had become so stiff and grown-up. But when he said that to me, I felt like I was going back in time.

It wasn’t that I was remembering the obedient nineteen-year-old him, but it felt like I was going back to the time when he came to the Guide dorm and said he didn’t want to do anything that would make me struggle. The feeling that there was no gap between us made me nod unconsciously. I didn’t notice the strange atmosphere surrounding his words at all.

“S-since we’re really going to make the imprint now, only I can see you like this, and that’s how it should be.”

I said it to agree with Kim Moohyuk in some way, but it felt a little off, and I tilted my head. He buried his face in my collarbone and giggled.

“Can only I see it?”

“Hey, you know I have no dating experience.”

Startled by the sudden questioning from my young lover, I hurriedly responded, and he fell silent. I wondered if it would be strange to emphasize that it was true again, so I kept my mouth shut. Then I felt something wet and soft touch my collarbone. I realized it was his lips after a moment. I kept my gaze up to avoid looking at his thing. It took great courage to face it as it throbbed.

But despite the subtle fear, I was also curious. It would be strange not to be curious about what the esper I would share the imprint with looked like. I swallowed some excuse I didn’t know who it was for and glanced at his thing. Kim Moohyuk’s cock was dark, but only the glans were red as if all the blood had rushed there. The urethra was gaping open, and the rim of the glans was thick, very different from mine. Even now that I was in the soft and white body of Sergeant Kang, compared to my original body as Kang Hajung, his was definitely different.

…Did the military doctors really mess up the circumcision? In the 80s, it was common to give the military doctors a couple of cartons of cigarettes and have them put a dam in the penis. Kim Moohyuk’s penis was so thick and slightly hideous that I wondered if he had something like that done. It was hard to look away from the veins bulging on the shaft.

“Why do you keep avoiding it? You should admire it.”

He chuckled as if he already knew all about my gaze. Just a moment ago, he was flustered and panicked, but now he seemed to have adapted and was teasing me. It was annoying that my dignity as an elder was being undermined. Maybe it was because life was so tough, but I couldn’t just let Kim Moohyuk be. I took a deep breath and reached out my hand.

“Ugh…”

“…Does it hurt?”

When I grabbed his throbbing cock, he let out a small moan, which bothered me, so I asked. Kim Moohyuk was staring at me intently, licking his lower lip. I didn’t know when he started looking at me like that, but his gaze was hot.

“Move it. Like when you do it alone, Instructor.”

A-alone? I was very flustered inside, but I had just decided to show my dignity as an elder, so I couldn’t back down so quickly. I gulped and started moving my hand as Moohyuk requested. I gripped it tightly and shook it, then swirled my hand around the tip, and his breathing became ragged.

“…Is this how you do it when you’re alone, Instructor?”

“W-why do you keep asking about how I do it alone?”

Maybe because I didn’t enjoy masturbating, my hand movements were clumsy, and I felt like I was being criticized several times. Embarrassed, my hand movements slowed down. He couldn’t stand the short break and started moving his hips himself. My gaze was stolen by his smoothly moving hip muscles and his abs contracting and relaxing. In that short moment, Kim Moohyuk was moving as if he was inserting himself into my hand.

“H-hey…”

“Ah, ugh…”

For some reason, my face felt hot and flushed, which was strange. Now, Kim Moohyuk was moving his hips back and forth as if penetrating me, and just holding his cock in my hand was incredibly burdensome. My lung function hadn’t fully recovered, so maybe that’s why just gripping it was tiring, or maybe it was because Kim Moohyuk’s heat was transferring to me every time he moved.

“Ah, Instructor…”

“…”

Kim Moohyuk kept moving his hips, his hands planted next to my hips. The feeling of his cock in my palm was hard and slippery. It was strange that something so hideous could have a soft part. I blankly stared at his Adam’s apple, his broad shoulders with collarbones like iron pipes, his firm chest muscles, and his abs that twitched non-stop.

“D-do you like it?”

I blurted out that question, feeling exhilarated. I bit my lip to hide my embarrassment. Just then, Kim Moohyuk opened his eyes and pressed his lips to mine. His lips were warm and soft, but slightly wet, just like the cock twitching in my hand.

“Ah, Moohyuk…”

“Huh…ugh―!”

His cock, which I was holding with both hands because one wasn’t enough, kept throbbing. Kim Moohyuk gritted his teeth as if enduring something, and his neck muscles bulged as he hugged me. I fell backward due to his weight, and he lay on top of me, pressing down as I struggled to breathe.

“Ah, huh, Instructor, Instructor…”

“…”

Each of his breaths felt unbearably erotic. He buried his face in my neck, trembling and enduring. Usually, he was so fragile that I felt like he would fly away if I touched him, or disappear if I blew on him. He was precious, like a well-crafted piece of porcelain, but now he was gripping my thin hips so hard it hurt.

“Ha…”

Still, I couldn’t push him away as he pressed his lips to my earlobe, breathing heavily enough to make his chest heave. My wet hand was still stuck between Kim Moohyuk’s hard cock and my flat stomach. Every time he took a deep breath, his cock lifted slightly, poking my hand that was trapped underneath.

I wrapped my other arm, which I had barely managed to free before he collapsed on top of me, around Moohyuk’s back.

“Are you struggling?”

“Enduring is a bit tough.”

I liked the vibrations that came with every word Moohyuk said. I mindlessly stroked his back, not even realizing I was treating him like a child. Before I knew it, my hand had slipped too low, grabbing his firm ass.

“Interested?”

“H-huh? W-what do you mean interested?”

Startled by Kim Moohyuk’s sudden question, I hurriedly responded, and he chuckled in my ear. At first, he was pressing down on me heavily, but now he had propped himself up on his elbows, making it easy to see his face.

In other words, I couldn’t avoid his gaze. I didn’t like this situation, exposed beneath Kim Moohyuk with my red face and neck. But if I asked him to move, he wouldn’t, and we wouldn’t have progressed this far in our relationship. Our bond had developed only because he didn’t consider my situation and pushed forward like a bulldozer.

Even the way he left at the end, as if he was going to let go of everything, now seemed like Kim Moohyuk’s high-level strategy to keep me in check.

“Ugh, what are you touching?!”

As if to punish me for being distracted, Kim Moohyuk suddenly slipped his hand down and groped my ass. Startled, I tried to jump away, but all I did was press my crotch against his lower abdomen. While I was shocked, he responded calmly, as if nothing had happened.

“Your hip and butt muscles are weak, so it’ll be hard for you to take me. I think it would be better if I do it. Is the size too much for you?”

Of course, it is. Put yourself in my position. Wouldn’t your thing be a burden too? But I couldn’t say that out loud. This was all my fault for not giving him sex education when he was a trainee. If I had taught him the proper way for espers and guides to interact and about sex, he wouldn’t want to put his thing in his old instructor.

But it was too late to regret that now, and imagining him doing this to another guide made my chest tight and angry. Plus, I didn’t want to ruin the good mood by saying something stupid. I had been begging Kim Moohyuk to make the imprint for days, so I had to be careful. I had seduced him, using my health as an excuse, and had only managed to touch his crotch a few times. We hadn’t done anything that could be considered an imprint, so it was wise not to say anything that would upset Kim Moohyuk.

“W-well, it’s not a comfortable size….What if it doesn’t go in?”

But in the end, I couldn’t hold back my worry. His cock was bigger than any I had ever seen. Before my body changed, whenever I showered in the public shower room, I would occasionally see others, and among the guides, who were generally small, mine was the biggest. But now, my body had changed, and what I had now was average for a guide, but still much smaller compared to Kim Moohyuk’s cock. No, for the sake of my pride, let’s say it’s a quarter smaller.

So, if we’re aiming for ease and convenience of insertion, shouldn’t I be the one putting it in him? I thought so, but I found it difficult to say out loud. It wasn’t because Kim Moohyuk’s cock was dripping like it was drooling, expectantly throbbing, but because, as Moohyuk said, it would be challenging for me, with my lack of stamina, to lead this relationship by trying something.

“W-we’re not going all the way today, right? You said you’d just show me what it’s like…”

I knew I was stammering unlike myself, but I couldn’t control such minor details while my body was trembling with nervousness. Kim Moohyuk just chuckled at my question and pulled my pelvis towards him without a word. He clearly wasn’t asking for my opinion.

What was shocking was that even though I was smaller than him, he easily moved me around like I was a child. As a result, I couldn’t resist and had to let Kim Moohyuk’s pelvis settle between my legs.

“This position is embarrassing…”

Having my ankles lifted and both legs placed on his thighs was incredibly embarrassing. The skin-to-skin contact was also overwhelming. But he silently took off the t-shirt he had playfully left on. I couldn’t even scold him for ignoring my words and doing whatever he wanted.

But soon, even those thoughts vanished. I finally realized that I was naked in front of him. My exposed skin felt cold, and goosebumps rose as if complaining about the chill. But the room temperature, always kept constant by Kim Moohyuk, wouldn’t have dropped, so it wasn’t the cold; it was his gaze stripping me bare.

Only then did I understand what it meant to be naked under Moohyuk’s gaze. I blamed my stupid cognition for not recognizing how Moohyuk looked at me during the countless moments we shared.

“…”

“…”

I saw the desire and heat melting in his eyes as he looked down at me. If I had known, I wouldn’t have left Kim Moohyuk alone for so long.

“I’m sorry.”

“For what?”

“For everything.”

I said that, knowing it would ruin the mood. Even as I nagged him to call me Master, I never tried to listen to what Kim Moohyuk really wanted, what he wanted to become. He wanted to be Kang Hajung’s esper.

“Am I not your first? You said I was your first.”

But he says something completely different. When I apologized, he questioned if he was really my first. I was speechless.

“Hey, why do you keep asking that? How could I still be a first at my age? Are you the type to be obsessed with that?”

Then Kim Moohyuk chuckled and lowered his pelvis, pressing our lower bodies together. Our erections brushed against each other, creating a strange sensation. I gasped, but the stimulation didn’t lessen.

“It’s not that, but I wanted to do it well. This kind of thing can be a lifelong complex for a young husband.”

“Hus, husband?”

But the sensation of our cocks rubbing against each other made the pleasure he mentioned feel distant. I was flustered and asked him to repeat what he said, but he didn’t answer. Instead, Kim Moohyuk fully lowered his hips, pressed our lower bodies tightly together, and began to move his hips slowly, as if shaking them off.

“Ah, uh, huh…”

“Ha…”

It was a strange feeling. I had never felt someone else’s skin against my cock before, so I didn’t expect this sensation. It felt like something was flashing before my eyes.

“Hey, wait, this feels weird…”

“…Tell me how it feels weird.”

His low voice brushed against my ear. He wanted me to explain? I tried to say something but closed my mouth again, groaning. Explaining this feeling was too embarrassing and humiliating. Moreover, the sensation of smooth, hard things rubbing and bouncing against each other was maddening. I tried to close my thighs, but he was between my legs, making it difficult. The soft inner part of my thigh only brushed against Kim Moohyuk’s firm waist and sides.

“Wait, I don’t think I can do this…uh, ah!”

“Ah, Instructor…”

Rough breaths, impossible to tell whose, filled the bedroom. Just being naked and skin-to-skin with him was ticklish and thrilling, but Kim Moohyuk’s thick body pressed down on me, stimulating my cock, making it even harder to endure.

Do all people do this? I used to dismiss the idea of making an imprint, but do other espers and guides share this kind of sensation? No, not just espers and guides, but do all people mix their bodies like this…I asked Moohyuk with dazed eyes.