Kill Your X Chapter 83

“Okay, I get it, so turn that off first, and let’s talk after you turn it off, okay?”

“Why? It’s nice to look at.”

He said that, and then the sound from the speaker cut off. I thought he had turned off the video and looked back, but it was still playing, so I almost screamed. Seo Seunghan had only muted the video’s volume. I argued with all my might.

“There were circumstances. I’ll explain everything. Do you think I would have wanted to spread that to the world unless I was crazy?”

“Maybe because only one of our faces is blurred? It seems good for sparking the imagination. If someone else had really seen this, they would have put themselves in my place and gotten turned on by you, Sunbae. They probably would have cum multiple times right then and there.”

At a glance, it sounded like just a blunt voice, but I knew now. Seo Seunghan was genuinely angry with me.

On the screen, a scene of me on top of him, riding his hips, was playing. Had I really lost it that much? My toes curled at my intense reaction. Agitated, my words came out faster.

“Hey, what was I supposed to do? You were about to be framed for murder. We were both on the verge of going to prison, and I was even in danger of getting the death penalty, so there was no time to think it over.”

“Still, I can’t accept that method. If that dashcam video got out, you would be socially ostracized, Sunbae. Wasn’t the whole reason you made such a fuss until now because you wanted to hide the fact that you’re into sleeping with men?”

That was true. When I reunited with Seo Seunghan at Jerome after ten years, my biggest concern had been ‘not getting outed.’ The days I couldn’t sleep at night, worried he would reveal this fact to my colleagues or acquaintances, felt incredibly distant now.

“To me, what happened to you was scarier than my own social standing. You can’t understand that either?”

“……”

“And you think I don’t have other things to say to you? In the first place, if you had just given me a hint that you had another plan, I would have never gone to Yeojun with the dashcam footage. I understood your hidden circumstances, didn’t I?”

As if he had no comeback, Seo Seunghan kept his mouth tightly shut and stared straight ahead. His jaw was clenched, and it seemed like it would take some time for his anger to cool down.

He’s the type who is possessive, but only towards me. It’s not that I didn’t know at what point he felt displeased. But even if I went back in time, I would still make the choice that was more advantageous to him than to me. Seo Seunghan would be the same.

An uncomfortable silence flowed for a while. Seo Seunghan didn’t budge from his seat, as if he intended to watch the video to the very end. I didn’t have the courage to watch it with him, so I tried to distract him with another topic.

“Um… Seunghan?”

“……”

“Isn’t it about time we went grocery shopping? Let’s go to the supermarket together this time. I think it’ll be okay if we wear hats and masks.”

“……”

“I thought of a dish I want to eat. I think you’ll like it too, so I’ll cook for the first time in a while….”

“Ah.”

Seo Seunghan frowned slightly. His gaze was still fixed on the screen.

“What? Are you listening to me?”

“You just came, Sunbae. Your mouth is open and your head is thrown back. The expression is a masterpiece.”

“You crazy bastard….”

As I sighed, he, who was sitting on the sofa opposite the screen, looked at me. Unlike a moment ago, a subtle madness seeped into his face.

“You don’t look the type, but you hold a hell of a grudge. I already apologized, are you really going to be like this?”

“I thought you liked everything long, Sunbae. Ah, is thickness important too?”

There was no getting through to him. I repeatedly tried to snatch the remote from him, taking advantage of a moment when he was off guard.

“Give it here. Let’s delete the video so it doesn’t get leaked by accident later.”

I moved closer, but Seo Seunghan’s face as he looked at me was unusual. I instinctively withdrew my hand and put some distance between us.

“Sunbae.”

“Yeah?”

An alarm bell went off in my head. I hadn’t seen it wrong. In a brief moment, his eyes had gone completely crazy.

“I’m asking because I’m genuinely curious, so please answer honestly.”

I took another step back. Based on past experience, talking to him at times like this was pointless. The best course of action was to get away.

“Uh, um… what is it?”

The problem was that I had never once succeeded in shaking him off. It’s not like I could leave the villa and play tag with him on the mountain behind it. My mouth went dry at the impending disaster.

Perhaps an unavoidable fate isn’t such a big deal when you think about it.

“Did you make a face that lewd when you came while fucking other people too?”

“Seunghan. I just need to use the bathroom for a second, ugh!”

In an instant, he pulled me towards him. At the same time, he pressed the remote he had hidden behind his back to unmute the sound.

[Heut… Ah, no. I just came, eut, heuaang!]

The sound of me reaching climax over and over again loudly struck my ears. Thrust, thwack! The immoderate pounding went on for a very long time. The memories of that night came flooding back vividly, and my face grew hot. Seo Seunghan wrapped his arms firmly around my waist and bit down lightly on my chin.

“I’m hard. So you take care of it, Sunbae.”

I knew even before he said it. How could I not? The area pressing against my ass was that swollen.

When I delayed my answer, he started gnawing on my neck like a nipping dog. When he licked the slightly grazed skin with his tongue, a moan escaped my lips on its own. At the hand subtly trying to slip into my pants, I finally raised the white flag.

“If I help you, will you delete that video?”

“Depends on how you do, Sunbae.”

The hand that had been caressing the valley of my ass moved up and took off my shirt.

“Hoo. Our Seunghan, when did you become so cheeky?”

“So you don’t like it?”

I skipped the answer because he bit my nipple painfully. I bit my lower lip and endured his sensual tongue-work. It was true that my desire had built up from not being able to do it, but I didn’t want to show it so obviously. I had never done that even during my promiscuous days, but strangely, I found myself being prideful in front of Seo Seunghan.

[Hah, aheung… goo, good, hik! Aheuk!]

…No. Maybe I just lost my mood because the me in the video was too loud. It’s unsightly for the same person to be moaning and groaning here and there, after all.

“You still haven’t answered my question.”

“What? Aht!”

A long finger grazed the surface of my nipple. With just that, the moan I had been holding back burst out. It felt futile, yet good. Even if I pretended otherwise, the truth was, I was anticipating the coming act more than anyone.

“How many people have seen your face when you come?”

“Why would you ask something like that. You approached me knowing full well what kind of guy I am.”

“Ah, so too many to count?”

One corner of his lips twisted up. My heart beat faster at his voice, which was strangely lower than usual. I lifted my hips slightly to help him pull down my pants.

“Well, broadly speaking, yes, but there weren’t many cases where I came while getting fucked, ah, wait a minute. Seunghan.”

I grabbed his wrist, horrified. It was because he had tried to shove several fingers into my hole without any proper foreplay. I almost forgot because his expression was so unchanging, but Seo Seunghan was not in his right mind right now.

“Si Yeonho?”

“Yeah. Before I met you, he was the only one. But he’s not someone we need to worry about anymore, is he? More importantly, are you really just going to stick it in?”

Seo Seunghan laid me on the floor as if nothing had happened. What he said while casually positioning himself between my legs was ridiculous.

“I got confused for a moment. You looked so wet in the video, Sunbae.”

With that, he took out some lube from the drawer next to him. Why on earth was there an unopened package of lube in the home theater? The thought belatedly occurred to me that he might have intended for this situation to happen. Not that the result would have been different even if I had known beforehand.

“Ah, um…”

After pouring a ton of lube on my privates, Seo Seunghan used his fingers to widen me up inside. I wasn’t in a position to point out his somewhat hasty attitude. That was because my own body was heating up faster than usual as well.

It was partly due to the considerable pent-up desire, but the video had a greater influence. I could just close my eyes, but I couldn’t do that with my ears. My breathless moans and Seo Seunghan’s hot breaths, which he let out from time to time, unable to contain his excitement, were transmitted vividly through the speakers. It felt like, what should I say, it created the illusion of a group of people doing it in one space.

“Stop. I think you can stop with your hands now.”

“Are you sure?”

Seo Seunghan replied while looking at the me in the video, not the me pinned beneath him. It felt even stranger because he kept doing it. The person in the video was clearly me, yet it felt as if my affection was being stolen by someone else.

“Yeah. Fuck me with yours now.”

A stubborn streak flared up, and I grabbed his jaw and kissed him. When I put my tongue in first, he naturally sucked on the piece of flesh. The gaze that finally returned to me was satisfying.

After making me spread my legs wide to the sides, Seo Seunghan lined himself up with my hole. A moan naturally leaked out when the blunt head touched my secret place. It had been a long time since we’d had sex, so I consciously tried to relax my body. Even so, insertion wasn’t easy. My breathing became ragged at the tight sensation that reminded me of my first time.

While whimpering, I looked up. Unbelievably, Seo Seunghan was pushing his cock in while watching the video. When I squeezed down below, his face contorted. Only then did he look at me. At the present me, not the past me preserved in the video.