Kill Your X Chapter 88

Seunghan, who didn’t know what I had called him when I introduced myself to Hyun Jin in the past, listened to the conversation with a question mark floating above his head. Even though he didn’t ask with words, it was obvious that he was curious.

“I guess if you’re as handsome as you, hyung-nim, you can even seduce someone while doing multi-level marketing. Is this what they mean by ‘a winner is gonna win no matter what’? I’m so jealous.”

“It wasn’t multi-level marketing, it just kind of happened that way. It’s true we’ve known each other since high school.”

“All this time I thought Gyujin Sunbae was the man of devilish charms, but now I see the real one was somewhere else. I failed to recognize you.”

Hyun Jin joked around, sneaking glances at Seunghan. For Seunghan, not getting stern was a good enough reception.

“Can’t you share some of your secrets? Oh, wait, don’t misunderstand. I’m not saying I’d dare to make a move on Gyujin Sunbae when he has such a cool and handsome boyfriend, I’m just purely curious. I tried my best to hit on him all this time, but couldn’t even make a dent. But how on earth did you do it, hyung-nim?”

“Mr. Hong Hyun Jin. Sunbae likes men with big dicks and lots of money. Someone who can pay off a 2 billion won debt right away.”

“Wh-what?”

“Hey!”

I reached out my arm to cover his mouth, but he was faster. Seo Seunghan leisurely stopped me and continued speaking.

“So from now on, don’t even try to make a move, not even as a joke.”

He said it as kindly as he could. The problem was that Hyun Jin felt terrified by it.

“Ah… yes. Yes! Hyung-nim. Dick, dick and money… I will carve it into my heart.”

“Carve what. Hyun Jin. Please, learn to tell the difference between a joke and the truth.”

“So are you saying you were joking when you said you liked men with big dicks, Sunbae? For real?”

Hyun Jin’s interest got stuck on a strange point. His gaze, which was subtly trying to shift towards Seo Seunghan’s central region, was blocked by the angle of the table. Seo Seunghan, without any sign of displeasure, just watched Hyun Jin with a leisurely air.

It was true that I intended to be honest with Hyun Jin today, but at least not like this. I don’t know where his mood got twisted, but Seo Seunghan kept provoking me and trying to show off in a childish way.

“Dick… I’m not sure about that. But yes, Hyun Jin. It’s not that he’s the man of devilish charms, but actually, I’ve always liked men. I realized my sexual orientation back when I was a teenager, but I was afraid of it being revealed to those around me, so I lived my whole life hiding it.”

At this story he was hearing for the first time, Hyun Jin’s eyes widened. He had come out early on, but he would know well that there are more people who haven’t.

“Is it okay for you to tell me now?”

“Maybe because I went through something even more monumental. The thing I was so afraid of now feels relatively trivial. I’m really sorry for not being able to tell you sooner. I wanted to apologize before it was too late for only giving you superficial comfort while knowing you were struggling with that issue.”

Hyun Jin, who had been stiff for a moment, suddenly burst into hearty laughter. Only then did I let out the breath I had been holding.

“You’re laughing? Do you have any idea how much I agonized over saying this?”

“I know, I know. I swear, at times like this, I can’t tell if you’re timid or daring, Sunbae. Anyway, thank you for telling me honestly. Now I have one more good person I can confide in when I have worries.”

The feeling of not being scorned after honestly confessing a secret was truly precious. I knew there was a high chance he wouldn’t, but I had even lost sleep last night worrying that Hyun Jin might get angry, asking if I had been deceiving him all this time.

“You’re right. This is nice.”

The emotions that had been suppressed inside me were washed away in an instant. It was truly a relief. A feeling I would have never known my whole life if I hadn’t met these two.

“But you two, you’re leaving for overseas soon?”

Hyun Jin asked as he resumed eating. I thought we would have too much food left over, but seeing the amount decrease, I realized I had worried for nothing.

“Yeah. We’re not leaving for good, just thinking of wandering around here and there for a while. It’s for me, but Seunghan has also lived a really boring life until now.”

“That’s a good idea. It’ll just be chaotic if you stay in the country for the time being anyway.”

“If there are any souvenirs you want, contact me anytime. I’ll make a special trip to buy yours for you.”

“Wow, really? You can’t take that promise back, Sunbae.”

Hyun Jin excitedly filled his glass. I hadn’t planned on drinking much, but I got caught up in the atmosphere and ended up drinking a bit too much. By the end, we were spouting nonsense without even knowing what each other was saying, and it was just so nice. I belatedly realized that I had unknowingly missed the daily routine of laughing while sharing silly stories.

Before I knew it, the surroundings were cloaked in deep darkness. The heavily drunk Hyun Jin wanted to sleep at the villa, but Seo Seunghan stubbornly slung him over his shoulder and went out into the city.

When he returned alone about forty minutes later, I lightly scolded him.

“I know you don’t like Hyun Jin, but still. What kind of hospitality is this? There are plenty of spare rooms in the villa, did you really have to do that?”

“I prepaid for a week’s stay in the best room at the only five-star hotel in the city, including the price of two room-service meals a day. I also put several million won worth of tour gift certificates in his hand, and he was clapping and happy about it even while drunk.”

He asked back if that was really not enough. I knew that was him being as considerate as he could be, so I couldn’t say anything more.

“Seunghan. Did you hate the idea of Hyun Jin sleeping over here that much?”

“Yes.”

“Why?”

“You’re drunk right now, Sunbae. What if you wake up and go looking for him.”

A sigh escaped me at the childish reason.

“What are you worried about? Their dick sizes are different anyway, so I’d quickly realize it’s not you. And their bodies are definitely different too. Their height is similar, but Hyun Jin probably weighs 10kg more than you, right?”

Even thinking about it a second time, it was absurd. Big dick, lots of money. Why on earth did my past self spout such excuses so well? It seems I have a bad habit of spouting ridiculous conditions when I get flustered.

As I chuckled to myself, the air around me turned chilly. Thinking I hadn’t closed the terrace door because of the alcohol, I turned my head and found him glaring daggers at me. He was in a winter all by himself.

“Why are you looking at me like that?”

“Hong Hyun Jin’s dick… you’ve seen it, Sunbae?”

“Huh?”

“You said you were nothing in the past. So how do you know that his dick size and mine are different, Sunbae? Did you lie to me?”

He was scary, asking without even blinking. His door-sized body strode closer, closing the distance, and I sobered up completely.

“No, of course. Logically thinking, it wouldn’t be easy for another man’s dick to be bigger than yours. Haven’t you been to the army? Oh, you wouldn’t have, sorry. Anyway, in the army, and even without going that far, before I met you, I played around by myself and met various people.”

“Ah, I see.”

I tried my best to argue, but my reason hadn’t fully returned, so the more I spoke, the more it backfired. The soul was draining from Seo Seunghan’s eyes in real time.

“So what I mean is… sorry. I think I’m really drunk. I think I’m wasted. I’m going to go wash up and sleep.”

“Where are you running off to?”

I tried to slip away to the side, but Seo Seunghan lifted me up in a flash. My feet were momentarily dangling in the air, and I struggled.

“Aah, put me down.”

“The saying ‘a dog can’t change its ways,’ someone told me that before, and it was really impressive.”

Muttering words I didn’t understand, Seo Seunghan laid me down on the sofa. After getting on top of me, he said.

“There’s another thing I heard so much it was drilled into my ears while I was in the organization. A person’s true nature doesn’t change easily.”

“Hey, you’re heavy. Get off.”

“And you, Sunbae, are a person born with lewd instincts.”

His hands, undressing me, were unusually rough today.

“Why are you being scary. Don’t tell me you’re jealous?”

“Yes. I am jealous.”

Finally, his lips touched my bare chest. My nipples, which had been thoroughly tormented just two days ago, became overly aroused with just a light brush. As they were covered by his wet tongue, a heated moan escaped through my teeth.

“Hngh…”

“You love men’s dicks so much, Sunbae, what a shame.”

He reached out his hand to the side and found the light remote. When he turned off the living room lights, only the moonlight coming through the window illuminated us. For a moment, I was captivated by his mystical appearance, which shone even brighter in the darkness. His obsessive gaze, fixed only on me, sent a rush of heat down below in an instant.

“Because the only dick you’ll see until you die is mine.”

Seo Seunghan will probably never know until the day he dies that his charm is saying such things seriously with a face that looks like it came out of some myth.

“When have I ever done a good deed?”

As if I couldn’t resist, I wrapped my arms around his shoulders. When I further wrapped my legs around him to press our bodies close, Seo Seunghan, as if he had been waiting, trapped me in his embrace. The shade he provided for me was utterly comfortable.

“To think I’d receive such a reward in my life.”

I reached my hand down and grabbed his thing. I’m surprised anew every time I touch it. To think something this huge can fit all the way inside me. To think this will be mine alone from now on.

“You don’t seem very talented at punishing people. This is a reward, you idiot. Isn’t it?”

At that, Seo Seunghan grinned and kissed me beside my lips. When I tilted my head, our soft lips met. He pushed his tongue in first, and I savored the thick flesh as if I had been waiting. Next, as I traced the bumpy roof of his mouth with the tip of my tongue, he let out a low groan. Even as we coveted each other’s saliva, the dick in my hand grew fearsomely in volume.