Actually, It’s a Messy Melodrama Chapter 124

“No, oh no……. That’s not it…….”

A man was pacing in circles around a pitch-black room where not even a single light was turned on.

“That’s not it, fuck. No. I didn’t do it.”

The man, who was biting his fingernails painfully enough to make a clicking sound and mumbling like a crazy person, was Mr. Jin Youngmin, who had woken up from his sleep just a moment ago.

“I didn’t do that, huh? This, this is all because of that bastard. That bastard killed him.”

No, did he wake up from his sleep? Did he see a hallucination? Or else, had he been deluding himself alone? Was it something that actually happened? Was it the past? Is it the future to come?

His thoughts inside his head bounced back and forth like the data of a broken machine. It was hard to distinguish what was a dream and what was reality. However, the only thing for certain was the rage that boiled over his chest.

“I’m right. Cha Haeshin was originally mine. He was mine…… but that son of a bitch did everything wrong. I didn’t kill him. No, oh no.”

At last, his fingernail tore and blood began to come out from the tip of his finger. Even so, Jin Youngmin did not stop the act of tearing his fingernails and pacing around the same spot in circles.

His head hurt too much. Because it hurt so much, it was difficult to properly perceive even time and space. At the same time, an immense sense of loss felt like it was ripping his soul apart, strand by strand.

The appearance of Haeshin lying collapsed on the floor while bleeding rose clearly as if he had actually seen it. The appearance of Han Taejun as well, who held him in his embrace and cried out desperately to open his eyes.

Youngmin suddenly came to a dead halt on the spot, lowered his head, and stared blankly at his palms. They were clearly clean hands, but in Youngmin’s eyes, the dark red blood that soaked his hands was visible.

At the same time, a strange sound echoed in Youngmin’s ears, thud. It was the sound of a knife cutting through flesh and entering.

“Heh, heh-heh…….”

The sensation of plunging the knife several times into Han Taejun’s flank and stomach came alive. It felt as if his suffocated chest was being blown wide open.

Is this really a dream? Can a dream be vivid to this extent?

“No. It’s not a dream. It’s not a dream.”

Youngmin wrapped his head with both hands, sank down on the spot, and curled his body up. Even while knowing that it made no sense, the thought kept coming that it wouldn’t be a dream.

Maybe really, maybe God really gave him a second chance. Because he was so desperate, because his heart that wanted to possess Cha Haeshin was so incredibly heartbreaking, it was certain that someone, whether it was God or the heavens, took pity on that heart.

Or else, the heavens might have delivered a very important warning to him. That it cannot go on like this. That at this rate, you might really lose Cha Haeshin. That Han Taejun could ultimately drive Cha Haeshin to death.

“Yeah. This time will be different. This time. I won’t lose Cha Haeshin like that.”

Youngmin mumbled while rocking back and forth with his body curled up. Whether the scene that filled his head was a dream or a memory of a past life, that is not the important thing.

The important thing is the fact that the current him still has a chance, and Jin Youngmin had no intention of letting that chance slip away in vain.

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“Mmmnn……”

Haeshin lifted his heavy eyelids at the sensation of someone continuously kissing here and there on his face. Then, as if it had been waiting, warm lips began to plant quick kisses around his eyes.

Haeshin burst out into a laugh while not even being able to fully open his eyes yet. There was no need to check who the other person was. Because the only person who could make Haeshin this happy with just his presence alone was Han Taejun.

“I…… ahem.”

Haeshin, who was about to say something, cleared his throat, flustered by his voice that wouldn’t come out properly. The inner side of his throat was rough as if ground by sandpaper, so the sound wouldn’t come out well as he intended.

“Sorry.”

“Ah…….”

Before he could even grasp what had happened, Taejun offered an apology. Only then did the memories of last night rise clearly inside Haeshin’s head.

The lovemaking that started at dawn did not end until the sun rose bright in the early morning. To be honest, Haeshin couldn’t even remember when he fell asleep.

At the fierce pleasure Taejun gave, he forgot his embarrassment and cried while releasing sweet cries. Even while finding it overwhelming and difficult, he disliked Taejun moving away from him, so he even clung to him, asking to be held deeper and harder.

The sensation of love, which he finally greeted in its complete form, completely broke down Haeshin’s sanity, but Haeshin liked that. He didn’t want to rebuild it forever.

He simply wanted to be submerged in the pleasure Taejun gives him for a long time and be held by him forever like a beast. Since he spent such a night, it was natural that his voice wouldn’t come out properly.

“Why are you apologizing.”

“Because I got too…… excited……”

Taejun let his eyebrows droop heavily, exactly like a large dog that caused an accident. Guessing by it, Haeshin seemed to have fallen asleep as if passing out while being pounded by Taejun.

Judging by Taejun’s attitude, even after Haeshin passed out, Taejun seemed to have been unable to stop the act easily. Although he didn’t see it directly, somehow he felt like he knew.

As he imagined Han Taejun, who would have held his body which had lost consciousness, wildly moving his waist and reaching ejaculation, heat began to rise in his body. Rather than feeling that appearance was savage, it felt boundlessly erotic, so he found himself absurd.

He thought that if his physical strength had backed him up, the person who would have clung and whined while pressing his body close, leaving behind Taejun who fell asleep as if passing out, might have been himself.

Fearing that his faintly excited self would be discovered, Haeshin pulled the blanket right up to under his chin.

“I liked it too, so you don’t have to apologize.”

“Still……”

“Ahem, but…… are you going to work?”

Haeshin couldn’t bring himself to honestly confess, ‘I’m excited even right now so don’t worry,’ and changed the subject.

Unlike Haeshin, who was still in bed, Taejun was in a state of being neatly dressed in a suit. Taejun, with a still-gloomy expression, planted a quick kiss on Haeshin’s cheek again and nodded his head.

“Yeah. Because there’s an important meeting in the morning…… I’ll come right back after finishing just this, so stay and rest.”

“Are you going to skip out again?”

“What do you mean skip out. Since there’s an important matter at home, I’m just leaving work early after finishing what I have to do.”

At the shameless answer, Haeshin burst out into a laugh. To think that Han Taejun’s important matter was ‘Cha Haeshin.’ It was a ridiculous yet romantic phrase.

Taejun lightly leaned his cheek against Taejun’s hand, which was softly brushing his hair back, then pulled away and said:

“You don’t have to do that. My condition is better than you think, and I’m in a good mood too. Just come back after finishing your work properly. I’ll wait quietly at home.”

“Still……”

“It’s not like you’re going to be with me for just a day or two in the future, so are you going to be like this every time?”

At Haeshin’s words, Taejun’s movements stopped. Haeshin’s words were right. Han Taejun and Cha Haeshin were no longer in a relationship to spend just a day or two together.

At that newfound realization, Taejun’s cheek twitched. His heart swelled at the thought that he and himself would become each other’s daily routine for a very long time in the future.

“You’re right.”

“Right?”

“Hmm, then shall we have lunch together later?”

“Lunch?”

“Yeah. Have a simple breakfast and get plenty of rest, then come to the company in Ingyu’s car. Let’s go eat something delicious.”

Haeshin mulled over Taejun’s proposal for a moment without an answer. The series of actions of going to the company where Taejun works in time for lunch and going to eat a meal with him all seemed like the typical appearance of lovers, making his heart thump.

Even before this, they had already shared their daily routines together no differently than lovers, but today is the first day Haeshin finally confessed his heart honestly. His feelings couldn’t help but be extraordinary.

“Yeah. I’d love to.”

Haeshin replied while shrinking his shoulders shyly. In Taejun’s eyes as he looked at that kind of Haeshin, honey was literally dripping.

Every single word and action of Haeshin was so lovely that he couldn’t bear it. Practically, in Taejun’s eyes, even if he just breathes, he could be called the cutest living creature in the world.

Taejun slowly lowered his head to kiss Haeshin. It was an act of God. As he pushed his tongue inside the mouth that opened without hesitation, the tender flesh, which was warm and even softer since it hadn’t been long since he woke up from sleep, welcomed Taejun’s tongue.

He sucked Haeshin’s slowly moving tongue and soon rubbed the roof of his mouth strongly with his tongue. Haeshin released groaning sounds and tightly gripped the blanket with both hands.

Taejun, who barely suppressed the urge to spread Haeshin’s legs and take his place between them just like this, pulled his lips away after a long while. Carefully stroking the cheeks of the panting Haeshin, Taejun opened his mouth.

“Haeshin-ah.”

At the voice entirely filled with gentleness, Haeshin held his breath before he knew it. His inside of the stomach tickled, causing his toes to curl automatically. It wasn’t a disliked sensation.

“……I love you.”

At the calmly poured-out confession, Haeshin blinked his eyes rapidly. If he didn’t, it felt like he would burst out crying suddenly like a fool.

It wasn’t the first time, nor was it something he didn’t know, but his heart raced as if he heard the first confession. It must be because Haeshin’s heart receiving his confession had changed.