Cold City Romance Chapter 6.5

Having perfectly regained his senses, Cha Dokyung was that kind of person. The type of person who trapped himself in the old fashioned ideas and systems of thought he had created, thereby suppressing and oppressing himself.

Unlike his promiscuous and free spirited sexual instincts that pursued pleasure, in his real life, which was entangled with the interests of many and close interpersonal relationships, he was an excessively realistic person who was extremely cautious.

Therefore, Cha Dokyung thoroughly separated those two things, his sex life and his real life.

After the impulsive disturbance captivated by desire and pleasure had passed and he had regained his senses with a calm mind, Cha Dokyung found this current situation to be exceedingly awkward.

The very act of facing Hyun Jaehwi, who had just finished showering in the same space, was bewildering and embarrassing.

Hyun Jaehwi gazed at Cha Dokyung, who was awkwardly frozen with an uncomfortable expression, with a silent and placid gaze. His head tilted languidly. The man’s body, precariously draped in a gown, walked towards him.

Without realizing it, he swallowed dryly. It would have been great if he could act cool and composed like the mature adult he usually pretended to be, but Cha Dokyung could not bring himself to make any kind of expression in front of him. He did not even know what kind of face he was making right now. In the end, he silently lowered his gaze to the tips of his toes.

The gap between Cha Dokyung’s instincts and his reason was like the difference between heaven and earth. Perhaps that was why the instinct pursued by his pheromones and the reason that suppressed it were thus separated, unable to mix, and constantly antagonized and disturbed each other. The duality of the person named Cha Dokyung was a perfect prey that the disturbance loved most.

“…Do you live here?”

Cha Dokyung was the first to quickly change the subject to hide the awkward atmosphere.

“I didn’t see any of your belongings in the house.”

Hyun Jaehwi, who had approached him, replied while nonchalantly toweling his wet hair.

“Compared to where hyung lives, it’s very small and shabby, isn’t it?”

Cha Dokyung, who had long been a top star, lives in an ultra luxury village town with perfect security. So, even in Cha Dokyung’s eyes, this small square footage home felt quite modest. However, it was definitely not shabby as he had said. The mansion was a stylish space that was more than enough for anyone to live in.

“No, it looks nice.”

“……”

“It’s just that, when I think of Kangwoo or Serin, I thought it was unexpected. Since they lived independently in large, luxurious places since they were your age, I vaguely thought you’d be like those two as well.”

Hyun Jaehwi seemed lost in thought for a moment, then hesitated before answering in a serious voice.

“The reason I don’t have any belongings is because I might have to return to the organization within two years……. And the reason I got this house myself is because I didn’t want to receive help from my father.”

“……”

“I don’t want to be financially dependent.”

At the mature answer, Cha Dokyung found himself smiling as if he were proud, almost as if he were his actual older brother.

“You’ve really grown up……. Sorry, I think I asked something unnecessary.”

However, Cha Dokyung’s mind was actually filled with suspicion about what it meant that he might return to the organization within two years.

Inferring from what he had heard from Professor Yoo Jinseo in the past, it seemed that the ‘organization’ referred to an international center or a national agency to which Dominant trait holders like Hyun Jaehwi belonged. But he thought it would be rude to probe him any further about matters related to his Dominant trait. He had gotten the impression that he was reluctant to answer him, and because of that, everything he said felt like a secret that had to be hidden.

Before he knew it, Hyun Jaehwi had approached him, coming close without a sound. Cha Dokyung was startled and, unconsciously aware of him, flinched and froze on the spot.

From the ends of his wet hair, having just showered, water droplets dripped, 뚝, 뚝, down his firm chest muscles.

Hyun Jaehwi, who had come closer, asked him in a soft voice.

“Do you like places like that?”

“What do you mean?”

“If you say you like the kind of place my big brother or sister live in, I’ll move to a place like that.”

The corners of Cha Dokyung’s eyes twitched minutely. His remark was bewildering. Not knowing what to say, he carefully chose his words.

“Jaehwi, you’re the one who lives in this house……. I don’t understand what it has to do with whether I like it or not. It’s not like I’ll be visiting this house in the future. And we don’t have a special enough relationship for you to move because of me.”

The jet black pupils wavered silently. A deep gaze, its depth hard to fathom, stared intently at him.

“I thought you would come to me when the disturbance comes again. After having your pheromones controlled by me, you would fall asleep as if you’d fainted, just like earlier, unaware even if someone carried you away. You would need a place to sleep, too……”

As if to prove that he had regained his senses and returned to reality, Cha Dokyung asked him back with a completely different, calm face than during the disturbance earlier.

“Are you saying I should come to you when the disturbance comes again?”

He, who had been staring with an intense and aggressive gaze, retorted sarcastically.

“If you don’t come to me? Then, were you planning on picking a dominant alpha at Messiah and having pheromone sex like before?”

“……”

Cha Dokyung looked up at Hyun Jaehwi silently with an indifferent face.

“Until now, wasn’t it because of the pheromone disturbance that you were forced to frequent Messiah?”

“……”

“Or were you satisfied with your promiscuous sex life until now. Did I get in the way of your private life?”

At Hyun Jaehwi’s blunt questioning, Cha Dokyung confessed honestly.

“Going to Messiah……. Yes, you’re right. It was because of the disturbance rather than my own will.”

Hyun Jaehwi seemed relieved by that answer. As if he had desperately wanted Cha Dokyung to say those words.

“What I mean is……, I’m not sure if it’s okay for me to come to you every time I have a disturbance. If it’s okay for us to continue such a strange relationship.”

“A strange relationship?”

“Yes, to suppress the disturbance, I have to have physical contact with you and our mucous membranes—no, our lips have to touch. So, what should that be called? Treatment… is what I should call it, perhaps.”

His composed eyes gradually narrowed.

“We’re not in a relationship, and it’s something we have to hide from the people close to us……. Would it be okay with you if I used you that way only during my disturbances?”

“……”

“I’d be grateful, of course, but I feel like you would be offended.”

Every time the closely approaching Hyun Jaehwi breathed, the gown he wore was so precarious that the knot seemed on the verge of coming undone, revealing his thick chest muscles.

For a moment, the angry bush of his groin was revealed through the loosened shower gown. As the object of heavy volume swayed, he caught Cha Dokyyung’s gaze, which was violently shaking in bewilderment, by the chin and fixed it directly on his own eyes. So that he could not look down.

Hyun Jaehwi touched Cha Dokyung’s cheek and stated firmly.

“You’d be better off coming to me than sleeping with some other guy at Messiah.”

“……”

“Rather than going there and having pheromone sex and messing around messily with any alpha, isn’t it much better to just touch lips a few times and have physical contact with me to suppress the disturbance?”

Cha Dokyung doubted his own ears.

“……Are you really saying it’s okay for me to use you like that?”

“……”

“With nothing changing between us as hyung and dongsaeng publicly, is it okay for me to secretly come to you like this only during my disturbances, without anyone knowing?”

“If you want to use me……. Being used to just that extent is no big deal. Using my ability isn’t that difficult.”

“……”

“Be honest and just say it outright. Why are you beating around the bush and making it so difficult to say you’d like to use my trait without anyone around knowing, since we have to keep it a secret from both Hyun Kangwoo and Hyun Serin and both our families, and we’re not even going to be in a relationship? As if you’re being considerate of me.”

What Hyun Jaehwi said was precisely correct. It was shameless and cunning, but that was exactly what he wanted.

For no one to find out about this relationship.

“You know very well what kind of relationship our father and your father have. It’s a special bond that has continued since our grandfathers’ time. We must absolutely never cause a situation where our parents have to get upset with each other because of us.”

“……”

“So, no matter what happens, I hope that no one in either of our families finds out. If our family and your family are to continue our close relationship like family, without any changes, that is the wise thing to do.”

Hyun Jaehwi agreed to Cha Dokyung’s demand very easily and clearly.

“Alright, then. Use my trait, my ability, without anyone ever finding out.”

“……”

“Instead, do not ever mess around with another bastard at Messiah.”

He agreed so easily and simply to a matter that Cha Dokyung had hesitated to propose because it was so shameless and brazen, that it was almost absurd.

Hyun Jaehwi tied the loosened knot of his gown and turned around just like that. He gestured towards the bathroom and said in a soft voice.

“If you want to wash up, go ahead. I’ve filled the tub with warm water.”

The soft and gentle tone and attitude, as if it would melt, was so different from the cold demeanor that had ignored and turned away from him at the party that Cha Dokyung was still puzzled by it.

“Jaehwi, can I ask you just one thing?”

He could not forget the auditory hallucination of the disturbance he kept hearing.

『It’s because the real one smelled the fake one…….』

I still did not quite understand what that meant. The question of why Hyun Jaehwi, who was being so gentlemanly and considerate towards me, and more affectionate than anyone else, had treated me with such disregard and coldness earlier at the party, as if I were less than a stranger, remained unanswered.

“At the party earlier……. Why did you ignore me like that and act like you were angry?”

“……”

“You cursed at me and scoffed at me, calling me a hypocrite.”

Hyun Jaehwi, on the contrary, let out a hollow laugh as if he himself found it absurd. His jet black gaze stared intently at Cha Dokyung as if to pierce through him. He turned on his heel and slowly approached him again.

The corners of his eyes shone with a cold light.

“A highly trained top class Dominant can vividly perceive pheromones just by physical contact with another person.”

“……”

“They recognize pheromones with a special perceptive ability that ordinary people don’t have. They can see everything from the color to the amplitude spectrum with their own eyes, and they can minutely analyze even the slightest smells or impurities by mobilizing all their sensory organs, including their sense of smell. Even what kind of bastard’s pheromones are on that person’s unique pheromones……”

“……”

The precarious muscular body revealed between the gown pressed against him without hesitation. He whispered in a low voice with cool eyes.

“It hasn’t been long since you slept with another bastard, has it?”

At the nonchalant face that came closer, pushing his sharp nose forward as if to kiss, Cha Dokyung bit his lip hard and held his breath.

“You reeked of another guy.”

“……”

“When I held your hand, it reeked of the vulgar, low grade alpha you had mated with.”

Cha Dokyung stared blankly at the cold blooded eyes right in front of him.

“I was thinking that now, whether they’re dominant or recessive, even shabby guys, you’ll mess around with any low grade alpha like a slut, as long as it’s not me……”

The sharp bridge of his high nose touched the tip of Cha Dokyung’s slender nose, who was holding his breath.

“I was just in a foul mood because I smelled a low grade, vulgar scent on your pheromones.”

The auditory hallucination from the disturbance, that the real one had smelled the fake one, was not wrong at all.

He was dumbfounded by the words that his pheromones were stained with the pheromones of a vulgar, low grade alpha. That was why, the moment he had grabbed his hand, he had worn such a disgusted and unpleasant expression.

Cha Dokyung knew very well which alpha he was talking about. But he could never say that it was the guy whose smiling face resembled his.

Their noses touched as if they were kissing with their noses, and Cha Dokyung was the first to quickly turn his head away to avoid Hyun Jaehwi.

The fact that he could see, smell, and feel pheromones with his entire body just through simple contact made Cha Dokyung feel dirty. It felt as if all his dirty and ugly aspects, from the mental to the physical, had been laid bare to him, down to the very bottom.

Hyun Jaehwi must have been able to see his promiscuous pheromones from the very beginning, and perhaps that was why he had criticized his promiscuity so much at Messiah that day, and even pitifully begged him to just sleep with him instead.

His words, that he had filled the tub with warm water and to wash up if he wanted to, were welcome.

“……I want to wash up.”

He hated the fact that he had carried him all the way here, holding this sticky and smelly self, even while saying he could minutely detect pheromones through physical contact.

“Right now, I’m so dirty……”

He was drenched in a cold sweat, and his lower body was sticky. He had gone into heat and had dribbled slimy fluid from both his genitals and his hole. He remembered the fact that his body was messily wet with an omega’s bodily fluids. When he held him, did he see such things in detail and feel them with his sensitive senses?

Cha Dokyung unbuttoned his shirt and headed for the bathroom.

He had laughed off the humiliation of being called promiscuous and a slut, but where did this feeling come from, that he was so madly ashamed and disgraced that that kid thought he was dirty? He could not figure out the true nature of these contradictory and complex emotions at all.

Cha Dokyyung entered the bathroom, avoiding the suffocating gaze that followed him as he unbuttoned his shirt.

As he completely stripped off his top and bottom, the well proportioned lines of his elegant frame were revealed. The slim and firm muscles, sculpted through maintenance on his pale white skin, further accentuated the smooth appearance of his straight, elegant body lines and the slender form of his long limbs.

The bathroom was much larger than he had expected. As he submerged his body in the large bathtub, he felt his fatigue melt away.

However, regret immediately followed.

Just a moment ago, he had been planning to ask his manager to bring his car and go back to his own house. He could have just gone straight home in the clothes he was wearing, but he did not know why he had said he would wash up and entered the bathroom out of a moment’s embarrassment. He had done something unnecessary.

He had not intended to sleep over at this house.

When the time came to wash his body and leave the bathroom, it was only then that he started to worry about how he should get out. He could not put those sticky clothes back on. But he did not think he could confidently walk out naked with just a towel wrapped around himself either.

If he had been just a comfortable younger brother with no feelings involved, Cha Dokyung thought he would not be having such a ridiculous worry, and he ended up laughing helplessly.

What was the big deal about walking out naked between two men.

However, he could not forget Hyun Jaehwi’s body, revealed through the loosened shower gown a little while ago.

Perhaps it was because of the lethally sexy arrangement of his muscles and the captivating frame of his body, but Cha Dokyung, leaning against the bathtub, felt a throbbing sensation below his waist without realizing it.

A moment ago, when the knot of his gown had come undone, Cha Dokyung had been momentarily flustered and lowered his head. Hyun Jaehwi had grabbed his face as a quick fix to prevent him from seeing the weapon like thing revealed between the loosened gown. However, there was no way he could have missed seeing that massive penis swaying with its heavy weight. The weight and volume were beyond common sense.

As he simultaneously recalled the boyish, refreshing smile and his ferocious, naked body from a moment ago, an absurdly immediate physical reaction occurred in the bathtub. He could not believe it. He was nothing but a filthy piece of trash, a madman.

“Haah, crazy……”

The disturbance had passed and his pheromones had stabilized, but his physiological desires as a man had not been resolved. He was not a teenage boy or going through his presentation period, yet he was not in his right mind.

Just then, a gentle voice came from outside the door.

“In front of the bathroom door. I’ve left some clothes for you to change into.”

At the heavy, low voice coming from near the door, Cha Dokyung was terrified. Startled, he deliberately held his breath. His heart felt like it would explode. He sank deeper into the bathtub to hide his erect body.

When there was no response, he added nonchalantly.

“……There’s a new toothbrush in the drawer.”

The shame of being in this state, like a crazy person in someone else’s bathtub, was beyond imagination.

Cha Dokyung answered belatedly after a long while.

“Yeah……, thanks.”

It was so unnatural and awkward he could go crazy.

It was not like that kid would rudely open the bathroom door and come in, but simply hearing that resonant and gentle voice echo inside the bathroom amplified his shame. He hated himself for being so on edge about every little thing, so conscious of that kid.

Whether it was because of the disturbance or his own will, he thought he was thoroughly worn out. He had never even dreamed that at over thirty years old, it was not because of pheromones, but simply from imagining another person’s naked body, that he would become like this.

It was not because of a heat cycle or pheromones. The fact that he had become like this just by thinking of his naked body while in a purely sober state with his reason intact was even more shocking. The thought that he would remain in this embarrassing state unless he somehow came and relieved himself made Cha Dokyung want to get out of his house as quickly as possible.

He started to worry about such trivial things again, like how he should open the bathroom door and get the clothes that were placed in front of it. When he was at home with his manager Seongtae, he had never been embarrassed or bothered by coming straight out of the bathroom naked. The life of a celebrity was a profession where one had to undress and dress anywhere, and even change clothes quickly in a vehicle to prepare for a shoot.

Being so on edge about every single thing, from one to ten, and being bothered and conscious of every trivial detail like a first love or a first relationship, was too exhausting for someone his age, over thirty.

With his wet, naked body, he changed into the neatly placed T-shirt and comfortable slacks that were in front of the bathroom. The clothes smelled of him. It was a strange feeling.

The clothes were tailored to his large height of over one hundred ninety centimeters and his chest size, so they were a bit loose on him. The neckline of the loose V-neck flowed down, and he thought the pant legs were a bit too big and baggy for him. But it was not to the point where he could not wear them.

When he came out of the bathroom, drying his wet hair with a towel, there was a glass of cool water on the living room table. It seemed to have been put out for him to quench his thirst after his bath.

Hyun Jaehwi’s voice came from the direction of the kitchen.

“Are you hungry, by any chance?”

The time was already past midnight. He usually did not eat at late hours due to his weight management.

“No, I’m fine.”

Hyun Jaehwi, standing in the kitchen, was dressed in ordinary clothes similar to his own, but his body was by no means ordinary. The silhouette of his broad shoulders, firm chest, the shape of his sexy musculoskeletal frame, and the dynamic muscles of his taut buttocks and thighs were all clearly visible through the form fitting cotton T-shirt.

He tried not to be conscious of it, but after what had happened in the bathroom, it was impossible not to be conscious of him.

Even to another man’s eyes, it was dizzying. It was to the point where he wondered how such a ferociously savage and sexy body could be attached to such a restrained face.

Cha Dokyung, who had been lost in a daze, was not craving something like food, but desperately wanted a cigarette.

When desire struck, it was better to smoke a cigarette instead. Especially when he was extremely anxious because he did not know what kind of secret desire it was.

*

Ironically, the sound of the rain outside the terrace was growing louder. Hyun Jaehwi quietly approached Cha Dokyung, who was standing on the terrace, gazing at the scenery of the rainy forest in the pitch black night.

The clothes Cha Dokyung was wearing now were Hyun Jaehwi’s, and although they looked like a similar type of outfit to what he was wearing, Cha Dokyung strangely had a different fit and silhouette from Hyun Jaehwi.

The neckline of the loose V-neck T-shirt, which was large in size, was cut deeper than expected. Without him noticing, the collar slipped down, revealing one shoulder and his collarbone. He quickly adjusted the collar that had slipped down to his shoulder without realizing it.

Hyun Jaehwi, standing next to Cha Dokyung, was staring intently as he adjusted his collar. He spoke in a low voice, meaninglessly, like a joke.