Pheromone Off Chapter 19

Chairman Kwon was strict and authoritative in front of everyone, but only when he was with him, he acted truly like a real grandfather. Affectionately, like the only family member who gave him a worry. For some reason, Hajin felt the rims of his eyes growing hot. The fact that his only ally, the only family member who was for him, had not much living days left was somehow personally felt, making his heart sore. If even Grandfather were to pass away, he really has nobody. There isn’t a single person who will speak to him like this.

Suppressing the tears that were rushing in, Hajin slipped his hand over and gripped the wrinkled hand tightly.

“…I just have to see my appearance of living well, right.”

If that was the only thing he wished for. If he wanted to see that so much… he wanted to do it for him without any regrets.

Whether Hajin’s affectionate emotion was transmitted, Chairman Kwon held Hajin’s hand back and drew a gentle smile.

“Even if I only see the appearance of you, Hajin, living well, eating well, and getting along well, I would have nothing more to wish for.”

“…”

“Stop getting hurt now.”

Hajin slowly nodded his head at Chairman Kwon’s affectionate wish. And then he gripped the hand more tightly.

“Only then can I look at Gyeonghui’s face in heaven comfortably, right.”

The deepened affection made Hajin’s heart bleed further and further. Remembering his mother and being for her was only Grandfather. He was his only family.

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Hajin’s mother, Yu Gyeonghui, was one of the students Chairman Kwon used to sponsor. It is said that because she acted especially diligently and amiably, Chairman Kwon couldn’t help but dote on her. Thanks to that, under the pretext of a strategist, he frequently called her into the house. It was said that because her voice was inherently so beautiful, when she read books, it was to the extent that his mind and body felt comfortable.

Perhaps because Chairman Kwon had only one son under his lineage, he was said to have cherished Yu Gyeonghui, whom he got along with especially closely, like a daughter. Perhaps because of that, even during that busy midst, he went as far as to set aside the time he spent with Yu Gyeonghui separately. At the appearance of doting on her like that despite blood not being mixed, there were also those who misunderstood Yu Gyeonghui as Chairman Kwon’s young second wife, but Yu Gyeonghui was a person who attended to even Chairman Kwon’s wife, who was on a sickbed, with ultimate devotion. She took charge of tasks that even the daughter-in-law wouldn’t do with her own hands, and at that ultimate devotion, Chairman Kwon’s mind couldn’t help but go toward her further and further.

Because Chairman Kwon’s mind toward his wife was especially ultimate, he couldn’t help but be affectionate toward Yu Gyeonghui, who attended to his wife with devotion. In the midst of that, at the time Yu Gyeonghui was frequently coming and going from Doseondang, she had fallen completely for the son of Chairman Seong, who was Chairman Kwon’s close friend at the time. In other words, the current Chairman Seong, Hajin’s father.

Of course, Chairman Kwon was not pleased at all. Because he was already in a state of having a wife, and even if he was his close friend’s son, he didn’t please Chairman Kwon’s mind at all. He persuaded her several times to fold her mind and that he would arrange a good marriage position, but one day, Yu Gyeonghui appeared while carrying his child. That rascal had already touched Yu Gyeonghui behind his back.

Chairman Kwon had also heard the rumors and knew well enough that he was a rascal who was already well-reputed in woman play and Omega play. However, he never even dreamed that he would touch even a Beta woman who wasn’t an Omega.

On top of that, Yu Gyeonghui had a strong innocent aspect compared to her age in her 20s, so she didn’t even know men well. There was also the reason that Chairman Kwon kept her close and pampered her, but she was an inherently simple child. When Chairman Kwon, who came to know everything, went to him and threatened that he wouldn’t leave him alone if he pretended not to know, the current Chairman Seong had no choice but to force Yu Gyeonghui into the position of a concubine.

That was the story of his mother that Hajin knew. The story of a foolish and idiot-like mother. A position where one hears the sound of being a concubine. No matter how much she had Chairman Kwon backing her up, they were strictly the Seong family. Carrying himself in her womb and staying in that house would never have been an easy matter. Perhaps because of that, she passed away as soon as she gave birth to him.

He didn’t know anything for certain, but when sudden labor pains came, Yu Gyeonghui was said to have spoken like this. If by any chance his life, the child’s life, either one of the two had to be saved, please save the child. Before entering the operating room during the early labor pains, she was said to have spoken like that anxiously toward Chairman Kwon.

Is that why. Hajin was affectionate toward the mother whose face he had never even seen once, and sometimes he missed her. Even more so when Grandfather missed his mother.

Hajin came out of Doseondang and came out to the flower garden to go to the detached house, his self-proclaimed honeymoon home. Perhaps because it was so large, it was difficult to find the way, but Hajin just moved his steps as his footsteps headed.

In fact, the mind that it didn’t matter where he went was large. The place decorated as his own space in its own way was also a place he had to leave someday anyway, and the fact that Grandfather, whom he thought was his only one, had not much lifespan left was felt through his skin. When this nonsensical contract with Kwon Sayoung ended, he couldn’t know where he had to go right away. Going back to the main house where Chairman Seong was was a nonsensical matter. Having barely come out of hell, entering again on his own feet was something that couldn’t be done.

When the detached house didn’t appear no matter how much he walked, Hajin indifferently squatted down in front of a nearby pond. Whether the artificial pond was well-managed, it didn’t even give off a single smell and the water was also clear. Inside it, carps were swimming among themselves and enjoying their respective times. Hajin quietly watched that appearance and spent time. Thinking of Grandfather, his mind was gloomy.

“This is my favorite place though.”

At that moment, a soft voice came from behind his back. Hajin was startled and jumped up.

“Ah…. I am sorry.”

Hajin bowed his waist politely toward that counterpart. The presence that appeared suddenly was Kwon Sahui, who had changed into comfortable clothes before anyone knew. Kwon Sahui, who wore a thin V-neck knit and comfortable-looking beige-colored cotton pants, was giving off an atmosphere quite different from when she wore a suit.

“It’s good, right? Here.”

At the counterpart’s words handed over suddenly, only then did Hajin look around the surroundings grandly. It was full of a glass greenhouse he hadn’t seen earlier and flowers and plants that wouldn’t come out in this kind of weather.

“It’s a quiet place, and a good place to think alone.”

At Hajin’s appearance of not being able to say any words and only looking around blankly, Kwon Sahui carried on words fully.

“…It is so.”

“It’s a place my deceased grandmother used to cherish. She cherished all of Doseondang’s flower gardens, but this place especially.”

“Ah…”

Whether Hajin also knew to some extent, he nodded his head.

“It seems you also have many thoughts?”

“Yes?”

“Even when I came close, you didn’t know at all.”

At the remark where his inside seemed to be found out, Hajin smiled awkwardly again. He couldn’t bring himself to say no, and yet he couldn’t answer that it was so without a thought either.

“I hear you are twenty now.”

“…Yes.”

“You are still too young. Is it okay? This marriage.”

Kwon Sahui quietly shook the cup she was holding and passed a sip of the liquid contained in the cup while keeping her gaze on another place. Because it was somehow a gentlemanly voice and an ordinary conversation, Hajin’s mind was calmer than when dealing with other people. Ill will was not felt from the counterpart either, and a sign of looking at him unsupportively was not felt either.

It is not okay. Just as Kwon Sahui said, he was still young, and even if there was nothing he wanted to do, he knows that it is an age where he has to try doing something. They say suffering at this age is bought, but Hajin had the intention of trying any kind of work to become independent once he became an adult. Although he had tried simple part-time jobs, he also wanted to earn money with his own hands and become independent properly with his own capability.

However, he must not reveal his inner thoughts carelessly. Since he had already made a promise that wasn’t a promise to pull off the role of a good-looking fiancé with Kwon Sayoung.

“…It is fine.”

“From what I hear, it was said that you held Sayoung in your mind. It seems to be true.”

At his appearance of accepting it composedly, Kwon Sahui let out a laugh and brought up words. It seemed there was no one who didn’t know by now. Hajin did not deny it as no anymore. Even if he said no, everyone already knew it that way, and since even Kwon Sayoung, who was the party involved, knew it that way, it was a late point in time to deny it too.

“My word, he has many sins. My younger brother.”

“…Because he is that much of a good person.”

“I don’t know, I wouldn’t be able to say he’s a good fellow though.”

At Kwon Sahui’s answer that carried on playfully, Hajin let out a glimpse of a laugh.

“Well, for a person who said he wanted it, he does look to have many thoughts though.”

“…Perhaps because the place I stay changed, my mood seems to be unsettled.”

“Even so, are you intending to spend the first night here? It gets cold when it becomes night. Hurry and go back.”

“Ah… yes.”

Kwon Sahui made a gesture with her hand to go, in a tone of worrying carelessly.

“I will be going.”

Hajin bowed his waist politely, gave a greeting, and turned around. Then he paused his steps for a moment, then subtly turned his head again.

“That…”

Kwon Sahui emptied the rest of her cup and looked intently at the hesitating counterpart.

“…Can I come here sometimes?”

As Hajin asked very carefully, Kwon Sahui let out a faint laugh and nodded her head readily.

“Sure. In commemoration of becoming new family.”

Kwon Sahui raised the corner of her mouth obliquely and drew a charming smile. Hajin smiled shyly, saying thank you. The counterpart’s ready goodwill somehow made his complicated mood a layer better. It was a refreshing personality that made him think if this is what it means to be mature. It was another appearance different from when she was businesslike.

Hajin turned his body again and moved his steps. However, he paused again after going not many steps. He realized how he happened to arrive here. Realizing anew the fact that he was lost, he wore an embarrassed expression. Hajin hesitated with a troubled face, then turned his head toward Kwon Sahui again.

At that hesitating appearance, Kwon Sahui made a quick nod of her head toward the opposite side, as if she knew it would be so.

“Follow me. Since I’ll take you there.”